This is a raw VLOG of how I'm feeling right now in this lockdown. So not the usual bubbly VLOG I'm afraid. But this is a real diary of what's happening so it needs to be honest. Sorry lovelies!
Be kind to yourself and remember that sensitive people always suffer the most but they are the most important members of society. Usually kind, considerate, loving, caring and very giving. Don’t crush your sensitivity but keep working with it. The mind is a powerful tool and you know what it’s up to. Having support from your hubby is crucial, keep talking it out. I enjoy your blogs and your honesty. Take care 🤗
Thank you. I really appreciate you taking the time to chat and share such a nice comment. I really dont think I could crush my sensitivity. I would be crushed before that happened. I'm just not tough enough in my mind. But I've found ways to get through and that's been amazing for my life. Take care xx
You never ever have to apologize for being you. Some of us do not know you except by your channel but that doesn’t mean we don’t care. If you need to let your feelings out on your vlog then do it. I have had anxiety most of my life but show a much different person to most. Over the years because of it I have become very outspoken I don’t know if that’s good or not but it’s a coping thing I have because of so many things in my life. I think it’s some form of PTSD but I now have it even more since our near fatal car accident five years ago. It’s unbelievable how things from childhood can affect us for life. I’m sending you a huge hug. Take care and be safe.
Thank you. I hate that others are going through this but its reassuring to know that I'm not alone in the way my brain can sometimes feel like my enemy. I work hard at not letting it define me. But sometimes it overwhelms me. Thank you. Stay safe my friend xx
Thanks Pippa. First part was excellent information. I have effectively been abandoned by the NHS during this lockdown, they all got redeployed. Thankfully the new Meds from the Psychiatrist are working superbly well. Take care and stay safe.
I'm glad you have something that is working. It's amazing how debilitating it can become to be locked in a battle with your own brain. I had to go private for my treatment. Cost a small fortune but made a huge difference to the quality of my life! Hugs my friend xx
Aww Pippa I am so sorry to see you sad.Your boys are so precious.Walking with you and running you baths with extra bubbles is sometimes what we need to cheer us up until we can see our counselor.Hope you are feeling better soon.
You are Terrific Pippa! 🤣🤣 You have been making my days go well lately. I appreciate you and what you share online. You are so amazing, you really just dont see what i see in you. Cant wait till you GROW into the real truth about yourself. Your on your way!!!
I hear you with the anxiety Pippa, you are doing great and keeping yourself productive and busy and you are a great Mum and Wife to your boys and man ❤
Hello Pippa.... Feel for you in so many ways my friend. It takes courage to reveal the raw side of life especially right now. Thank you for sharing this really private part of your experience. I know for myself I often wear a mask of my real emotions and it is not always easy to do so. Sending spiritual light to you my Pippa. Love DeeDee x
Thank you Dee Dee. I'll just bask in that light for a while if that's ok. I hoped it wasnt too raw for a VLOG. But I dont want this to be fake. I've always been honest in my filming. Xx
This is a MH crisis. We get good days and bad days. It is hard that our walks are short which are normally good for wellbeing and we don't have much of a support network which makes things worse.. Many of us are just surviving each day. I have seen other vloggers have a bit of a cry too, finding it all too much. I have had counselling on a number of occasions and it helps talking to someone who is independant from the familly. I would say maybe it is worth upping your meds but then many doctors have CV19 I generally up mine for short periods during a difficult time. I really think it is great that you are talking about MH, many of us find this helpful too, I also have PTSD andI have been waking up in the middle of the night during lockdown. I do get some great days but we won't be human if we don't have the odd cry which does help. It will get a bit harder so you may like to prepare for it, and maybe have some self care days with smellies, facemasks, a massage and aromatherpy to trick calm the mind a bit.
Thank you lovely. I'm sure I'm not the only one out there having a down time. And if it helps others a bit too then I am happy to have shared how I feel. You stay safe my friend. Xx
Aw Pip I hate to see you cry , it made me teary too. I’ve been so so unwell since the 10th March and it’s only the last two days that I have been able to actually do some things round the house without having to lie down . I have listened to your vlogs every evening but couldn’t watch them as looking on my phone made me feel terribly sick :o( Every time I listened they helped me relax . You have no idea how grateful I am to you for keeping me going through what I can say is the worst illness I have ever had . I really thought I was never going to be able to do anything for myself totally relying on Trev. Sorry to go on but I wanted to let you know how much you have helped me . I too have had extreme anxiety as I too deal with things by keeping busy . You are a fantastic person . Take care .
Thank you Sue. That means so much. Have you had Covid? Sounds awful. I knew you said you had been Ill but I hadn't realised how ill. I'm glad I could bring you some joy in that time. sorry today has not been so cheerful. The brain can be a horrid thing at times. And I've been good in my mind for so long. I worried this was too raw but also wanted my diary of this situation to be honest and that means the horrid as well as the good. Love to you both xxxxx
Worms Eye View thank you Pip. Please don’t apologise , you are just showing us the truth and I definitely had a very teary day two days ago. I think I’ve had covid , but as I didn’t have the lower chest infection all the Health professionals said it wasn’t . But I went from having one day sick in a year and no coughs / colds all winter to being laying down for 7 weeks . :0( It’s great you have your appointment with your councillor , I was relieved every week when I got a phone call from my Gp . I know how you feel . Xxx
It sounds like you did have a strain of it. Not everyone is effected the same way and being in a hospital you are high risk. I'm glad you are on he mend now though. Thank you for understanding. 😘
Worms Eye View yes , thank you Pip , it’s a shame I was swabbed , but as I developed the symptoms they then stopped swabbing . :0( Thank you for your replies , and you have a lovely relaxing rest of your evening . 😘xxx
A Belgian bun in the bath sounds like a perfect way to spend a while. Tell that Brendan to give his mum a piggy back next time. We said in the video that we filmed today that a walk is the perfect antidote to lockdown blues. Love n hugs from us two and lots of licks from the four pack x
There's nothing worse than receiving information and having nowhere to house it. I've suffered extreme anxiety and in many respects it was because of a psychic ability. I would sense things in my higher self and fill up as if I had put my finger in the pug socket. I still do go through this but I can slow the spinning wheel down if you know what I mean. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Take care out there. Mark
I used to feel things. People around me. Later in life I could describe them. I felt that at any moment they would appear. Its exhausting. And i feed of other peoples energy. Emotional vampires drain me in moments. I can find myself mirroring the energy as well. Does that make sense to you?
@@WormsEyeView It makes perfect sense to me. I can be sat in a coffee shop and suddenly get blown away exhausted and I'll look around and know exactly where it's coming from. I won't stay. I pack my things and go. It's real electromagnetic connection - A lot of times I trust my feelings.
We are actually a house made up of of thoughts. We are the product of all of our experiences in life. Weather we have chosen to engage in theses experiences by ourselves or of things that we have not ask for, but others have chosen to do on their own accord. Theses experiences and images remain with us throughout our life, and, become strongholds that basically run our life through thought patterns. Thought patterns also triggered our emotions in how they would like us to respond quickly before thinking it through first.
No need to apologize. We all love you because you do share your life with us, and days like this one was, are part of everyone’s life. There’s been huge (and small) changes that affect almost every aspect of our lives. Some good ones and some not so good ones. So Pippa, just because you’re a Princess, doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to have feelings 😉 I’m sure this video wasn’t easy to make, but I’m glad you did. It might be helpful for some. There you go again..helping others😉 Shannon’s Dr didn’t call. I’ll be calling his office tomorrow to find out why. 😊
Yes I feel you. I have anxiety and am ready to do something about it as my skin is a mess,cold sores,psoriasis is flared up in a bad way and nerves are just shot. lol
Oh bless you. It's so hard. Why do so many of us suffer so badly. I wonder if it's because we have this primitive system in us but many dangers are removed from day to day life. So this system is now triggered by smaller things?
It’s hard to know what to say that hasn’t already been said in the other lovely and supportive comments, I guess the only thing I can say is what I do when I feel that surge of panic and adrenaline. I use that energy as my super power so to speak! I clean like a maniac, organise something to within an inch of its life, or drag my poor Yorkshire terrier on a power walk!! It stops that excess energy becoming toxic in my body, giving me acid reflux, heart palpitations and headaches, it’s just being burnt off instead. So maybe consider this your super power, like how a mum will lift a car off her child or run into a burning building to rescue a loved one. It’s a primal instinct in times of stress so harness that energy and make it positive. I hope this makes sense, I’m not very articulate at expressing this but it’s just how Ive been dealing with anxiety and stress for many many years. Much much love and positive thoughts for you and everyone during these strange times xxx💕💕🕊
Thank you. I never thought about it like that. I think that's why the walk helped so much yesterday. Once its released in to my body I feel sick, my skin burns, and my bowels start to become effected.
Well I'm just astounded you manage to post so many happy vlogs so it's good to see the other side of a person. Interesting that you say how the things you saw when you were younger affected you. When I was in my early teens I read in a newspaper an article about cancer. It said if your parent died of cancer you had a very high chance of dying by the same age they did. My father had died (when I was 9) at the age of 42. So I lived for many years feeling I would die by the time I was 42. I remember how badly that affected me. Once I reach the age of 42 I felt I was on borrowed time. I'm now 61 but had counciling last year after two heart attacks and a lot of this stuff came out. Sometimes you just don't realise how much baggage you are carrying around with you. And with all the talk of death on the TV it's hardly surprising that we all have times of anxiety. Last week I stopped watching the news for a number of days because of it. Thank goodness for you and others on RU-vid. We need to have our minds taken off all the doom and gloom but it's very easy to get too wrapped up in ourselves and our anxietys so it's good to see that others are struggling with this as well and your video reminds me of that. I'm sure you'll be more positive in time.
Thank you. Its interesting to hear others who have been effected in similar ways. Stops you feeling quite so alone and strange. I totally understand how that news article would have effected you. I'm glad you got some help for this. Stay safe my friend xx
That was interesting about your anxiety Pippa. I can relate to a lot of it. I still have intrusive thoughts 🙈🙉. Also, when my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer, it was like it just didn't register as being that serious. I've since put that down to being shut off from my emotions (as I'm extremely sensitive too). And again, the current situation is not really touching me emotionally. I'm struggling to even believe it's happening (well that there's actually a virus that's killing folk) which might be a self protective mechanism. Dunno really 🤔 I've always thought I was a bit loopy 🤪. Thanks for sharing and hope you resolve your current concerns 😊👍🌼
Interesting that you get the same feelings on both accounts. I think it's a coping strategy with the disconnection from real issues but i hate that it blows pointless stuff up in to a huge panic. Stay safe my friend xx
7p.m.... I'm back. We picked up our tax forms.... yayyyy.... both hubby and I get refunds. Nothing like putting a little extra into the bank. The chickens were more excited over the apples we brought and left the lettuce behind. Guess that will be on the plate for later. Fine dining in the chicken run... ha We brought home a lovely size bag of rhubarb. Tomorrow I'll stew some of it up to have with Birds Custard... YUMMMY ! I'll also make a strawberry/rhubarb crisp. Those are always fav's in our home. Okay.. back to watching the video now.. ha LOL @ Brendan and the umbrella.. I can't see that being comfy for long. I think it's neat that you can walk to the next village. Does every village have it's own church and graveyard? Such a gorgeous walk.. I know I say that all the time but I can't get over the green space and all those lovely heritage buildings. To me that is what a vacation would be for me.. visiting little villages, walking the lanes, speaking to the locals, and buying from the little shops. Awwww.. glad to see a smile on your face, and that the walk was able to clear your head a bit. I have never in my life ate, drank or read a book while in the bath.. hahaha.. Never even laid and had a soak. For me it' in.. wash, and out. I'm a shower girl, but the few times I"ve had a bath.. it's over and done in minutes. My hubby laughs that it takes longer to fill the bath than the time I spend in it.. lol Hope you have a great sleep, and feel refreshed in the morning. My show Survivor starts at 8.. so I'm going to make myself a coffee, and a little dish of spicy cheddar chips with ranch dressing. Just had a tearful message from a local friend.. her mom along with her mom's work mate both tested positive today for C-19. A local poultry plant has been hit !. And yet people don't take this serious.. thinking it's only in the big city (Vancouver)... not here in this country town. We are all living in a petri dish.... this virus is everywhere. All we can do is be proactive in keeping ourselves safe and healthy. Goodnight my friend.. hope you are sleeping and this doesn't wake you with a "ding" when I send.. ((HUgs)) 💝🥰
Oh your poor friend. My friends nan has just been diagnosed and given a few days at most and another friends dad died at the weekend. Its getting too real. Bath time is "MY" time! Relaxing! Not every village has a church but many did and so you will find a house that looks like a church because it was at some point. Most villages I guess do actually but hamlets (tiny villages) often share a church with their closest neighbouring village or town.
Hello Pippa. Normal is what you make it. Sorry to hear about the PTSD you have. Stay strong Pippa and just watch some of my videos when you feel down and out. I love ya like always and I'm thinking of you and the family. Great movie y'all watched. Have a wonderful night my friend Pippa.
I had a right agitated night the other night when the college funding fell through. I had a massive guilt attack about rebelling off the curriculum that kept me awake all night. By the morning I was completely fine - it just got all blown out of proportion. Similar kind of thing, I think. Angel said don’t be so irrational but devil put the terror and shame into me.
I was thinking about how you must be feeling when I saw it was all falling through. I immediately felt panicked for you. But you have done an amazing job with izzy. She is a delight and a credit to you!!!
Oh sweetheart, hadn't realised how bad it is for you, I'm writing as the video plays ! So..... All your symptoms are of running away, now you can't !the pain of the past needs to be expressed which is why old stuff is coming up, you didn't process it at the time, the sorrow and pain needs to be experienced, and acknowledged, it will be ok.. You are going through a natural healing which is painful but cleansing keep reaching out for help xxx
Thank you. The old stuff I spent a good 18 months going over 3 times a week. Then twice, then once..... then fortnightly... you see where this is going!!😁 I did great and for the most part I'm fine. But this is making things hard and so my brain finds something to fixate on that I know while hurt. And so back it goes. Thank you for reaching out and chatting. Your experience in these things is great to have. I appreciate your support 😘
Crying is part of a healing process. Thats right Pippa, just let it flow. Those toxic thoughts just come to torment us. Speak the truth back to those thoughts and tell um to get out in Jesus name. Say NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST YOU SHALL PROSPER. What does God tell you Pippa in his word? He says you are fearfully and wonderfully made in him. The Mind of Christ!
Good morning Pippa. I like to share this video with you for a prayer in what your dealing with. Have a lovely day. x ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-Fapez5lwQ1k.html
Sounds like you are Hypervigilant, I'm so sorry, I've looked after foster children with this, they have to be hyperactive and busy physically and mentally all the time, they just can't rest. This situation must be hell for you 🙁 having said this, you are able to change, especially being forced into this situation, should you need to talk, please get in touch xxx I'm experienced and happy to listen x
It still amuses me that you eat in the bath! You could probably base a whole new channel on that! Ha ha! You’d get all sorts of interesting subscribers.
Oh sweety.. I am up to the tearful mark.. I have to stop watching for now.. it's painful to see you hurting. I'm dealing with some raw devils .. and just need to take a breather. Hubby and I are going to our accountant. (my life long friend), to grab our taxes, and she's giving me some fresh rhubarb. Am taking lettuce scraps for the chicks.. Will come back to you later. Sending hugs and love... xoxox..
Aww hugs to you. I think this seems to be the turning point for many right now when it comes to feeling the effects of this lockdown. Rhubarb crumble!! Or do you have some other treat in mind. I bet the chicks will like the scraps xx
Hello Pippa! Im so sorry to hear your going through at this time, but be assured that your not alone. I do understand what your going through. Everyone experiences of what they have gone through or are experiencing in the now may be different, but id like you to know that you are on the right path to really discovering the truth about why we think the way we do. You also will discover the truth on how to rid toxic thoughts that hold us back from happiness and peace of mind in life. For me it was Jesus Christ that set me free. At each moment, we are fighting an internal battle, one that can either bring us one step closer to Christ or pull us farther from Him. We can feed our deceived, self-centered, and self-destructive thinking until we become enslaved by sinful thought processes, or we can focus on God’s truth, as revealed in His Word. In other words, we have the power to choose which thoughts we will entertain and which ones we will discard. God invites us to focus on truth. Bible also says that the weapon of our warfare in life is not carnal ( of this world) but mighty, through the pulling down of strongholds, imaginations and Taking every THOUGHT into captivity to the things of Christ. If i may and you don;t mind. I believe if you begin a starting point of learning about what thoughts are and where they come from it will lead you on a journey for the real truth. you will then begin towards transforming your mind and life. I have written two books which you can find on Amazon. I also enjoy a book written by Dr. Caroline Leaf called , Switch On Your Brain. Absolutely Great! There is so much information online you also can receive freely. Do take advantage of it. You're Amazing! Once you get the understanding and apply it you'll be totally set free.
Thank you. I'm really glad you found a path that brought you peace and help. It's important to have that. I looked in to religion a lot in my teens and too many things did not sit comfortably with me. And later in life the church going friends cut me off and didn't even seek my view of a situation when I made a bad choice. I'm sure this is not the case for many but sadly it has been my experience. I have found nature though and that has become my religion. More Pagan I guess. Following the seasons and seaking health and understanding in all mother nature shares with us. I just hope we can start to live more harmoniously with our world before we do irreparable harm. Thank you for the love you have shared tonight. It means so much to me xx
@@WormsEyeView Don't let those wishy washy so called Christians that didn't help you through stop you from believing God and his word. God will help you and show the real truth. He will bring you out. And anytime you would like to speak with me face to face online. I will be here for you.
Thank you. That's really kind of you. To clarify, I do have some AWESOME Christian friends!!😉 They never judge me and except me for the nature hippy I am 🤣🤣
@@WormsEyeView Yes. Let me tell you that is exactly how i use to be. Its quite natural to respond that way when one is not aware that its the thought that is causing it. Lots of people walk through life just through their daily routine and not even thinking about their thoughts. Many don't even know that they can change their life by changing the way they think. Its not easy process, but most definitely can be done.
