Weekly Vlog | Heart to Heart 

I absolutely love your little speech about the falsehoods and trying times of Christmas. The rates of attempted and completed suicides rise dramatically during the holiday season, and it’s partly because of the reasons that you’ve given. If someone is lonely, and doesn’t have friends and family around them, seeing happy people wax on about how amazing Christmas is is incredibly isolating, and can make people feel like they’re failing. It seems impossible to me that these RU-vidrs have 25+ perfect amazing days full of nothing but Christmas joy. That’s not to say that their content isn’t good, but it’s just unrealistic.

I'm a bereavement counsellor and your words really resonate with me and I like your message of self care and self protection very much. You're a smart woman Lizzie (outside and in) I wish you peace and comfort xxx

Totally agree with you, sickly sweet and quite childish. Grown women acting like Santa might pop down the chimney ffs. And yes, if there is a loss it’s terribly hard. Great vlog , thank you.

Hallelujah,...thanks Lizzie for your intelligent empathetic video. Definitely one of your very best. I find Christmas is just a reminder of all that I have lost. Worse still are all those well intentioned people who enquire after the event if you had a “good one.” So no Christmas paraphernalia in my flat but me hiding in the cupboard waiting for it all to be over. You are a joy to watch and a treat on Sunday’s mornings with my porridge. Keep up your excellent content in 2018. 💕💕👌

Thanks for this Lizzie. I appreciated it when you discussed this last year and do so all the more this year as sadly I have lost two very close and dear family members recently. It’s tough and no, I have absolutely no inclination to be forcefully happy or celebratory at all this year and probably for several years to come. Sometimes we forget that grief touches ALL of us eventually and though you will laugh and be happy again, nothing will ever replace that person you lost and the fact that your life has changed forever. I’m sorry you have already learned these hard life lessons at such a young age, but the upside of loss is understanding and compassion which you clearly have in spades. Sending you lots of love ❤️

Thank you for this, Lizzy. I find Christmas time to be a lonely time: you see people with close friends and family, having traditions and looking forward to them all year long. It can feel lonely when you don't have that. It's not the same as bereavement, but there's a sort of sorrow in realizing that one doesn't have what seemingly everyone else has. So thank you for addressing this topic xx

Thankyou for talking about this Lizzy! Its refreshing on a youtube that is so full of expensive advent calendars and festive hauls, when in reality I and many others are not finding it the season of joy for various reasons. Really, really refreshing x

The holidays have been difficult for me since losing my dad. I very much appreciate your views about this. Thank you so much for talking about it and advocating for self-care. Merry Christmas to you and your mom and loved ones.

I work in retail, for me part of Christmas means overtime working, working while I'm sick, dealing with unreasonable customers, having to clean up at the store till midnight, and also getting up for early opening hour in the winter😂

I find it irritating that Ingrid Nilsen is credited with creating Vlogmas despite having lost her dad in her teens and being quite a reflective, thoughtful RU-vid personality, yet it's been hijacked by overgrown children watching 5 Christmas films a day in penguin pyjamas and opening £500 of advent calendars. I've lost 5 relatives since 2012 and this time of year is when I miss them the most.

Can so see how much you are growing Lizzy - personally and your work and maturity, Growth is tough and you have very high highs and low lows. Best wishes for this time of year - your not alone in having a tough time so thank you for sharing. X

Thank you. The comments make me simultaneously sad and comforted that we're all in this together. Even though I don't have a family of my own or a partner to share the holidays with, I still have my parents and sister with her kids to spend Christmas with. I get through that fine and it is lovely. What really seems to get me is New Year's Eve. That moment where they count down the seconds, release the fireworks and I see people cheering for a happy new year, I can't help but feel incredibly sad and alone and like I am not making most of the time given to me. My heart sinks every time, even surrounded by friends and family. It's the same feeling that overcomes me at night, staring at the ceiling unable to sleep.

hi there - new subscriber here! tbh i totally think you should do some photos with crutches! i bet viewers with disabilities or chronic injuries/pain would feel like it was something they could connect with. and i bet you'd look great regardless. happy holidays and love from toronto xo

I loved this vlog- I appreciate how honest and real it is! You are so relatable and that's why your channel and blog is my favourite! Perfect mix of real life and inspiring content and fashion! Sending lots of love your way and hope you and your mum have a lovely Christmas

As always, thank you so much for being honest. I would never be one to knock how people cope some people enjoy the candy and bubblegum super cheerful holiday vlogs cause it's an escape for them and that's totally fine but not everyone has to feel super happy during the holiday season. It's a bittersweet time of year for me like many other people and it is comforting to see happy families and people just being safe and having fun but it's even more comforting to know that I'm not alone in my more somber moods. I give the people who display the height of holiday cheeryness the benefit of the doubt we may never know what's actually going on in their lives and if that's how they get through it then that's fine. I agree with doing what you have to to make this time of year bearable no one can fault you for that. The vlog was great just like all of them are great cause it was real.

I am so happy that more people have started to talk about not feeling happy and positive all the time around Christmas and having down days. I always used to get excited for christmas but in recent years the pressure to have an amazing day and the build up has always lead to disappointment for me. I went through a tough break up this year and not having someone special to share the Christmas period with also makes this time of year much harder and more lonely. Thank you for always being so honest and open with your audience, its so nice to know that there are others struggling with this time of year too and its completely normal. xx

I find there is a lot of pressure to spend a lot of money to have the perfect day and give amazing presents. The videos that are the hardest for me are gift guides (stopped watching them now) but when I have only have about a tenner to spare at the end of each month, suggestions of presents for £300+ just irritates me. Many people may be able to afford that but I feel there isn't any consideration to those who can't

Your vlogs are a breath of fresh air. One of your best. Thank you X

my mum died 24 years ago on the18th of December, her funeral was one day before Christmas...which has never been the same for me since then, i still love Christmas, but i can´t feel the same about it, as before! Merry Christmas, Lizzy 🎄and thanks for your inspirations

Love your honesty regarding Christmas Lizzy. it’s going to be my first one with out my husband David as he died of myelofibrosis (form of blood cancer) in June.I have watched your vlogs since losing David and you have really helped my journey.Sending my love to all the people in a similar situation.x

This really resonated with me. I have switched off my subscription alerts for December. I lost my dad last year and trying to be festive feels so weird and wrong but it also feels wrong to pretend it isn't happening.

As someone who struggled with infertility, I wholeheartedly agree with your message. Christmas is indeed a reflective time, which comes with both positive and negative life events. Thank you for the reminder that this 'joyful' season may indeed by harder for others.

Hi Litzy. I just wanted to thank you for this vlog. I found it very healing, comforting, and relatable. You apologize for your vlogs but I just love the authenticity. Love seeing snippets of your life too. Have a wonderful visit with your mom!

Hi Lizzy, Your words about how hard Christmas can be were so welcome to me last year after I had lost my dad a few months before. I’m so glad you’re addressing this again and know there will be others out there now that will appreciate it. xxx

Loved the talk about christmas! I enjoy your vlogs no matter what mood you are in because as you said it is just a reflection and shows that not everything is sunshine and paradise :)

I would write so mich, if my english wouldn't be so Bad, so i just say THANK YOU for your words about Christmas. For me it is very hard because I had a terrible childhood and can't speak to my family. You reminded me that there are others who feel the same. x mira

I"m so glad you've talked about this, I love Christmas and have really felt disappointed in myself for not feeling really happy and looking forward to it this year. Everyone around me seems happy and like you mentioned, I felt the pressure to become all happy and go lucky on RU-vid when in reality I was far from it, was totally unsure of how to approach content at this time of year. Sending you all the love and thanks for making me feel not so alone in how I feel xx

Lizzy please don't apologise! You are not failing, you are doing really well to turn out content during a time of year that means you relive your grief on a daily basis. Your wellbeing is FAR more important than this website. Taking mental health days are necessary and should be encouraged in the work place. If you worked in an office, your manager would probably know this is a difficult time for you just as we know on your platform. If people aren't nice about it then they are small minded.

Lizzie I've had the same feeling this year. It never occurred to me that this is a time of year that reminds many of loss and painful memories, until I experienced it for myself. Thanks for bringing a voice to that so well xx

Lizzy your vlogs are some of the most genuine and entertaining ones on the internet and you need to stop apologising for the content you put up. I personally look forward to your vlogs every week and think they are great, especially when youre just at home, doing mundane things (partly because I think your apartment is absolutely gorgeous and love to see it in the background). please dont be sorry for being real and true. i hope you can allow yourself to stick to doing what YOU need to do and not get caught up in expectations. you are talented and beautiful and inspiring and we love your work.

im feeling so festive alreadyyyy 💜

I so, so agree and appreciate your point about the 'sickly-sweetness' of Christmas content, it's something I'd been thinking a lot about too. This time of year can be tough for many people, it's so refreshing to get a sense of awareness and empathy, seeing as that is what this time of year is about traditionally. Love your stuff and hope you have a lovely Christmas & New Year. x

Oh my gosh I laughed so hard at the snowball coffee sequence!!!

You look like Dakota Johnson 😍

Hahaha that part where you told your mum to skip because you're showing us her present is so cute! My mum was sitting behind me while I was watching the video so I shared that moment with her and we both found it so lovely and sweet!!

Really loving the length of your fringe lately! They look absolutely incredible with your hair in the ponytail, it's making me want to bring back my old fringe... As a TOTALLY unrelated comment, what kind of 35 mm film do you use with your camera? I've been considering switching up my ISO and love the finish of your photos. Any suggestions?

Sickly sweet is so accurate thanks for that ❤️

I've enjoyed it for exactly the reason that it isn't all about "sunshine and roses". Thank you for being honest; it's reassuring to know I'm not the only one not feeling very festive this year.

I really respect you Lizzy, I respect how honest you are, and how real and honest your content is. It Is so refreshing in a time where so many people use click bate.

I love this vlog in particular Lizzy, you shouldn't apologise or feel like it's not been a good one, it's been my favourite vlog of yours. I love your vlogs (and also Lindsey's too) in particular because I find them to be so honest. I know you maybe don't want to vlog when you're feeling low and sharing it on the internet, but I wanted to say don't ever feel like it's not a good one because you're having a tougher than average week. I really enjoy when you're very honest. My feelings when watching vlogs in general is that everything is so light and saccharinely sweet, like people's lives are filled only with great and light stuff. In comparison it actually makes me feel more alienated and awful about my own life that I have ups and downs and it's not like what I see on RU-vid at all. I start to feel like I haven't got it as together as others, or maybe that's what my life should also be like too. Showing your vulnerability and your less than happy moments as well as the good is very honest and refreshing. It makes me feel like I see a 'real' life like I see my own and there's a connection and kind of sharing there that feels very human. It also helps me to deal with moments of mine when I also feel less than good, I find you to be a positive figure and in turn I also learn from you new ways of coping with my emotions and how to be kind to myself when I'm not feeling well.

Yes babes-love this, love you, love everything Xx

As always, you are a breath of fresh air. Thank you for being candid, real, and supremely honest.

I love how you touch on the difficulties the holidays bring to people. It's very much hidden in society and that's wrong. It should be discussed. Thank you.

Your face drinking that coffee was just EVERYTHING. Love you Lizzie, you are a gem, and I agree 100% with Christmas, I really struggle at this time of year, but force myself into it for my son, then cry at night when he is sleeping! :( Just catching up with your vlogs, and as always you are a pleasure

Important question for you, Lizzy. Have you tried mince pies from Walkers? They are the only ones available in the US that I can find, and I'm wondering how my first and only mice pie chalky up to your faves! It was delish, by the way. 💖

I don’t really celebrate Christmas. I’m from the Netherlands, so my family certainly does, but I don’t care for it myself, so I just skip the whole thing. I’m a grown woman, I can do as I please. Nice and quiet. For some reason, I don’t even really notice all the Christmas things. I mean, I do of course, but to me it’s more like the Olympics or the World Cup, not really something I’m involved in.

Hi Lizzy, I appreciate your honesty on this subject as well. I lost my oldest son (17) at the time to an automobile accident 13 yrs ago and my holidays, birthdays, have never been the same. I call it "bittersweet". You are in a fight with your heart and mind to be happy, yet your screaming inside because of a loved one or two that is not there celebrating with you!!!! Pain of loss is never overcome, we just learn to deal with it the best way we can. Much love during a very difficult time. ❤

Thanks for talking about Christmas. I have no family and no one and it’s really hard. Love your vlogs

So true Lizzy. Great to see a post like this. I know people who have lost loved ones close to Christmas and really struggle to be cheery for those around them. It's a good time to be around family and loved ones, but as you are and know that you have supportive people around you. I loved Instagram and watching RU-vid and it wouldn't be hard to think that everyone is having the best December and Christmas ever and comfortably spending thousands on presents. Haha.

Thank you so much for this vlog Lizzy. You’re always so real and honest, no matter what is going on in your life. Christmas can be very hard for lots of people, myself included, and it’s nice to know that we can all take some small comfort in knowing we’re not alone. Don’t ever apologise for being you and being real, that’s what we love the most about you! You make the best content on RU-vid as a result 💕💕

I know this is now random but what size puffer jacket from Topshop were you wearing in your blog before this one? Thanks Lizzy.

Thank you for addressing this issue Lizzy, as much as we all want the magical christmas experience, it can also be an unbearably sad reminder of change and loss. I’m new to your channel this year, but I love your mature and honest point of view. Thanks again.

thank you for speaking about this. The last couple years I've been struggling with depression and it makes the holidays tough. This year it was a little better but it was still difficult. It's a time when everyone seems so joyful, and it's further isolating really.

I 100% agree with you Christmas is inescapable & the sickly sweet attitude it brings with it is not welcomed by all. Christmas is one of my least favorite holidays. I can appreciate families adopting that attitude with small children but the forced cheerfulness & comments from people when you don't exhibit the same behavior are a bit much. I can't be bothered to decorate for the same reason you don't, it's just me. I find you commenting on this reality is thoughtful & responsible. Brining awareness to this topic helps those experiencing the lows of the holiday season know it's not as big an oddity as it may seem if you take the forced cheerfulness at face value.

Agree with you on the other side of Christmas. I recently lost my grandmother last December 12 and let me tell you organizing her wake and funeral while everyone’s gearing up for the holidays was tough as hell. Not to mention the nightmare it was for family members to travel to attend the wake while airports were going crazy with the travel rush. Needless to say, we can’t celebrate Christmas now without associating it with the loss of our beloved grandmother. 🙁🙁🙁 But thanks so much in shedding light on another side of the holiday season that often gets swept under the rug. More power to your channel!

Would love to know what size you’re wearing in the Stories purple sweater. It’s beautiful on you!

I loved your statement. Very well put and oh so relevant. Thank you for caring. Loved the vlog as a whole. Lots of love.

It is so fresh listening To you saying that xmas as amazing as it might be its also the hardest part of the year. Love your honesty. Keep up.

So true and so eloquently put. You’re definitely a breath of fresh air. X

L, where is your ribbed mock neck top from? Thx

Super important topic! Christmas is hard for so many!

Does anyone know who the blonde girl at 7:45 is? I love her style!

thank you! I relate. holidays are tough for me.

aw you were so upset about your “snowflake” coffee! 😂 💕

100k!!!!!!!! congratulations!!!!

I loved this vlog and i love honesty ❤️ Lots of love!

Oh Lizzy, I loved the honesty in this vlog. I'm currently having a really tough time - my mental health is awful, and since Christmas is such a 'happy' time of year it's almost like I feel like I'm not allowed to be sad or down. Look after yourself lovely lady - you do whatever you need to do! xxx

So true. Christmas is a time of year I dread and this year is no different. False jollity and unreasonable expectations drive me to drink - literally!

This is actually one of my favourite vlogs of yours. I can't tell you how refreshing it is that you're not shoving a merry little Christmas down your viewers throats. Keep being you and doing your thing Lizzie, it is very welcomed. xo

I wish we had more language to talk about loss and grief collectively, as it has been pushed to the background. Thank you so much for being open here, and definitely get in all the self care and rest that you can!

So sorry to hear about your knee! It sounds like the same thing which happens to me as I have loose ligaments so I know how painful it is 😫 sending my love and wishing you a speedy recovery ☺️

Thank you for this video. I haven’t lost anyone as you described in last years vlog, but it’s comforting nevertheless to know how thoughtful, authentic and meaningful your words are. I watch all these “famous” RU-vidrs demonstrating their perfect lives with materialistic drive and buying constant luxury items or acting/looking a perfect 10 all the time! How does that relate to a normal person? Is that really what Christmas is about now? THANK YOU!!! #BreathOfFreshAir #Individuality #MyRant 💁🏾💕😊💁🏾💕😊

Re your knee, I feel your pain. My job doesn't allow me to take extended leave without looking bad (suppose that's everyone really, to some degree) but the I've always had problems with mine and finally decided to bite the bullet when I was less than happy at work to take a break and go get it checked out and have a quick surgery done on it. I can now do plenty of squats and things without worrying about my knee dislocating or its tendon getting pulled. It probably sounds daunting to give up work for so long but perhaps have a check? If the time feels right then I'm sure you also know health is always more important anyways, so what is 8 weeks off RU-vid/vlogging for what should be less hassle for most of your adult life! :)

Honestly I've grown so much into liking your vlogs just the way they are. No Christmasy expectactions, you do you, people watch you for your personality and creativity! You're wonderful xxx

Oh my god when you started to make the snowball coffee I was honestly shouting Nooooooooooooo!! at the screen. Eurggh, my Nan used to drink them at Christmas. Think it’s advocaat and lemonade. Which is egg alcohol basically. Bleurgggggh. Hope you’ve recovered from the trauma!

I'm so sorry about your knee, Lizzy. I hope you feel better soon, sending lots of love your way. Appreciated the candid and honest chat about Christmas being a difficult time, as well. Thank you!

Hope you're ok Lizzy!! I am in a very similar situation to you and am finding Christmas extremely hard this year. I am usually in such high-spirits from November 1st but there is something about Christmas nostalgia that is bringing me downnnnnnn. Just get pissed with your friends and family and look forward to a fresh start in January! Merry Christmas xxxxx

Hey Lizzie, I’m only into a couple of vloggers on RU-vid (you included!). I don’t really comment but just wanted to say I really respect your honesty and you don’t need to apologise, you come across very real :) which is incredibly refreshing and a lovely person, all the best xx

Loved this vlog! Wow you are so right.. My boyfriend ended our 8years relationship. I’ve been doing fine the last couple days. But with Christmas ahead, I feel so heavy and lost. It’s the first time without him and I don’t feel the joy at all.

Videos like this is why I've subscribed. YT is my main source of "entertainment" however this Christmas with $600 candles and advent calendar will make you feel like your quite not up to snuff. So true that Christmas with family friends and presents is not everyone's reality. And complete opposite of the actual reason for Christmas celebrations.

Hi, Lizzie, although I haven't lost anyone close and enjoy Christmas a lot, it's still too much for me! Most people still have jobs, kids to take care of and other stuff going on besides buying presents and thinking what they gonna wear on NY eve. Thank you for being true:*

This is why I love you Lizzy, I love that you don’t hold back on your opinions when they’re important to you. I lost my mum this November and, as I already work in retail so it’s been ‘Christmas’ since September, I’m steering completely clear of all Vlogmas. Thank you for speaking on this, as usual this vlog was amazing. 😌

I never usually comment but just wanted to say I'm so happy I found your channel this year! I was about to give up on watching RU-vid but now I always check in for your vlogs. You speak really well and seem so relatable and genuine. I agree completely with what you said about Christmas. Grief makes it so difficult. Also a lot of vlogs can sometimes make you feel down that you aren't doing as many exciting festive activities. Which of course is understandable as for a lot of full time RU-vidrs it's their jobs to do that, and there's no way everyone can live that kind of lifestyle. It has also gotten quite unrelatable on RU-vid -- everything seems too materialistic. Seeing videos of overly excessive hauls, people with advent calendars that cost hundreds of pounds (what happened to a chocolate one?!!), and just full of 'look what I got' has just become a bit too unwatchable for me. I feel that although we can see how lucky you are with your job and items that you share with us, and your lovely lovely flat, it isn't in a bragging, in your face kind of way which makes it more enjoyable to watch. It's also refreshing to see how hard you work for what you have. Looking forward to more of your channel in the new year! :)

Hi Lizzy! First of all, I absolutely love your content! I had to laugh so much at your reaction about the nespresso flavour :D i think snowball falvour is coconut and vanilla, i enjoyed it as an espresso quite a bit - because i like to sweeten my espresso anyway :) i also have to mention that i really appreciated your speech about christmas. I love christmas, but for me (and my family as well) it's a quite stressful time (mainly at work) and sometimes this forced "happiness" and making presents everywhere really bothers me. I wish you a lovely Christmas anyway and many greetings from Germany!

Christmas is a weird time, my dad died when I was 21, and I'm now estranged from my family. It is a bittersweet time of year and I do get down. But I have a lovely husband, a wonderful son and good friends so I also do get excited ( esp for my son) and do enjoy plenty about this time of year. But as a working mum of a school age son it is so MUCH WORK and so much juggling, I'm overwhelmed and exhausted and having minor panic attacks. But it will be worth it because I want to make good memories for my son. All a very long winded way of saying, yes I get where you are coming from. Happy Christmas to you and your mum! X

Thanks for this vlog Lizzy, Im "one of those people" this year! This was an unexpected comfort this morning!

I have lost a sister and brother around Christmas holiday, but I don’t focus on death and lost. I celebrate the birth of CHRIST, that’s what Christmas is about. The birth of Christ and his goodness outweighs any tragedy or upset that a human can go through. 2017 has been a very trying year but I didn’t go through it alone I know I have Christ with me, and I’m still making it through. so Christmas is a happy time for me. I Focus on what I have and I’m so grateful for my life I don’t have time to focus on what’s not right. My joy comes from knowing that he loves me and it’s real and he’s real.

Thank you Lizzy for always being so real and honest in every video! Very few youtubers are open about self care, mental health or having hard/off days and your chat today about self care and self protection around the holidays really resonates with me. I've notice over the last few years, this time of year can be very mentally draining, and I'm always convinced I'm the only one having hard days during this very "festive and happy" time of year. Thank you for opening up and talking about not feeling happy and positive all the time around Christmas and having down days. You are so relatable and that's why your channel and blog is my favourite! Wishing you and your mum a wonderful Christmas ☺️💖🎄

Hi Lizzy, I hope you are feeling happier this week and enjoy Christmas at your mums. The season can be whatever you want or need it to be. Also, I wonder if the snowball nespresso pod is something to do with the alcoholic snowball drink? Just a thought! Lots of love xxx

I really appreciate your speech about Christmas, I feel like you do!

Thanks for your comments on Christmas Lizzy, I really don’t love Christmas, this year I’m going to be in the hospital with my mum who’s getting cancer treatment and it’s never been a great holiday for me anyway. People keep asking me what I’m doing for Christmas expecting me to be all excited and cheerful and they’re always so disappointed when I say I’m not doing much and I don’t love it and try to change the subject. I even got called the grinch recently! So thank you for voicing your opinion on it, as a content creator it could be considered an important time of year for you in terms of sales and purchases etc etc so I think it’s super cool and honest of you not to totally buy into it. But I love New Years! I always think it’s such a great time to reflect and get motivated for the coming year. I also think 2018 is going to be a great year! And good luck with your knees, I too have crappy knees and I totally feel your pain! Much love from Australia, really love your videos and who you are as a person, can tell you’re a great chick xxx

Great stuff Lizzie / just love your vlogs xx you are wise and mature beyond your years and I enjoy your authenticity xxx December is just enough month. Keep trucking ! Xxx lots of hugs xxx

I love your vlogs Lizzie bc they are realistic. And I appreciated your reflection, you are right. By the way, do you get your eyelashes tinted? They are always soo dark and thick even when you don't have makeup on!! Please share!!

I so appreciate your initial talk! All social media platforms give a false illusion of how the holidays should be for everyone and it's not a realistic standard to uphold. Although I'm not personally negatively affected by it, I have friends who are and your phase of "sickly sweet" is its best description. Thank you for always being honest and striving to put out real content Lizzy!

Loved this vlog. So true about the "Christmas spirit" obession everywhere. This is my second Christmas since my mum passed away last year, and like last year me and my dad are going away. I really hope you have a nice Christmas, and more important a good proper brake from work. I can really tell how hard you're working cus all your content are so damn inspiring! I been thinking more and more about how I would love to try a blog, but it's scary. Anyway, you're such an inspiration in so many ways! :)

really needed this. I'm not a fan of christmas.. at all. my grandparents have passed away and so did my best friend two years ago. I don't decorate. I only spend Christmas eve with my mom and aunt because they love christmas and I'm doing it for them. thanks for having that talk, lizzy xo

Thank you for your thoughts on Christmas Lizzy, I'm glad you are using your platform to discuss reality rather than fantasy.

Lizzy!!! I feel you so much about the knees, I have the same ongoing problem except just my left knee, it's really bad. It dislocates itself randomly, sometimes when I'm just walking, or if I slip on something, etc etc and then swells up for ages afterwards and gets worse when it's not "healed" and it dislocates again... I wore a knee brace for a full year last year. I also got a 'loose body' that caused some damage to my cartilage and I had to get an operation to remove that this summer; be aware of any changes in your knees and go to your doctor because there are so many things that can happen from the habitual dislocation. I'm thinking perhaps you have loose ligaments? Be careful! Just a tip, avoid going up or down the stairs even when it makes you look lazy, esp down the stairs; it can really strain the knee. Really take care, I wish you the best!

Hello Lizzie. Hearts are muscles, and the sad you are feeling right now will make it stronger. Even if it hurts to exercise it in this way. You goodness and your integrity shine through even when you are upset. Happy Christmas. It will get better. Take care.

Hi Lizzy, I'm not someone who usually comments but I just wanted to say thank you for your heart to heart about how hard it can be in the christmas time if you're grieving. I'm personally grieving myself, and your words really hit home. It was really nice to know that it was not just me, but that someone else acknowledges the feeling as well. I'm so glad that I found your youtube channel this year, you are definitely one of a kind and i love your authenticity and your genuineness. lots of love. p.s. I currently live in Denmark but I am also from/have lived in London. Your vlogs are especially great to watch when I'm missing my other home! x