"What happend to us? We used to be best friends." {a playlist} 

^-^Timestamps^-^ 00:00-02:39 ~ Sunflower- Michele Leigh 02:39-05:44 ~ Jubilee Line- Wilbur Soot 05:44-09:59 ~ Little Bit (remix) {slowed}- Lykkie Li 09:59-14:31 ~ Tuesday {slowed}- Burak Yeter 14:31-19:45 ~ Feel Better- Penelope Scott 19:45-24:13 ~ Devil Town (v3)- Cavetown 24:13-27:00 ~ I Bet On Losing Dogs- Mitski 27:00-30:43 ~ Treehouse {slowed}- Alex G 30:43-34:12 ~ Freaks {slowed}- Surf Curse have an amazing day/night/morning/evening/afternoon, remember that you are loved, cared for, and you matter

pov: your the person whos in a big friend group but stays in the back when the pavement gets too small, you have little to no friends in the whole group and they eventually leave. but one day, you finally find someone who goes through the same thing as you and you start to get along great. whenever the group would "forget" to invite both of you, you would have your own little party. however, good things dont last so they leave too. pov: its not a pov :'(

pov; you introduced two of your closest friends to eachother and made three smps, two as jokes and one seriously. as they grew closer you were left out and they would bully you then laugh at you when you’d cry. you were only included in a few of you many many FaceTime calls, but when you were it was the most fun you’d ever had. one day those two friends get into a huge argument, that causes your little group to fall through. just as you were begging to be included. they both stop contacting eachother and you. you had everything then nothing in the span of an hour. it’s not a POV. **feel better starts blasting**

My mom just walked in in me crying to this bc I realized my friends had all replaced me😀👍

i’m so glad people add wilbur to these sort of playlists. a lot of theme fit the vibe

I don't care if I get left on read or opened but last week I had a really bad panic attack so yes I texted my friends. They all left me on read. They looked at my messages BEGGING FOR HELP AND IGNORED ME.

Pov: you become best friends with a girl in 5th grade and when 6th grade rolled around she starts manipulating you into being her slave and you finally stand up to her and now you can't even stand to be in the same room as her

I hate how my recommendations give me stuff that fits a bit too well when shit is going on in my life

Listening to this makes me feel guilty, it's like I'm pretending to be the victim when I was the one who ruined our friendship in the first place.

For everyone out there, I know it gets hard, Losing best friends is fucking heart-wrenching, It makes me cry even listening to this playlist due to my own experiences. I just wanted to say even if your at the lowest low where your friend group kicked you out or a best friend simply left, maybe even parental issues where your mom or dad was your best friend and they left you or became horrible people! Someone out there cares for you, Maybe you haven't met them yet but they exist. There's always going to be horrendous loops of agony and pain that we can't stop. The best we can do is look onward for that patch of sunny green that'll give us a dose of dopamine for us to carry on. If you need a shoulder to cry on I'll be here, I may be some weirdo stranger giving stupid advice that doesn't even make sense but I'm free to be a friend for you and for others. Please stay strong, Your mental health is just as important as everyone else's. You are worth the world to me and possibly many others, So many things can be recovered but a human life cannot. So many humans have had horrible things they don't deserve happen to them... You get one shot at this horrible world, Let's have fun while it lasts. I love you all - stay safe you beautiful human beings

is it just me or anything wilbur writes/sings is so good

No one's probably going to see this, but I am so stunned. This playlist has surprised me so much, I feel reborn after listening to it. Lately nothing has surprised me, I've been lacking emotions but this made me feel something, the combination of songs makes me feel uneasy but calm at the same time. It makes my heart beat. I've never felt this way about music but this makes me realize that even though I'm losing motivation, I shouldn't give up, so thank you to whoever put together these songs.

"Hey, let's be best friends forever, alright?" "Yea!" -Two big liars who were just kids at the time

I honestly love how you put Wilbur Soot in this playlist, he's really underrated!

pov your me: a big large group had a beef but now their back, one of them used to be my close friend the only girl I could only trust in the whole school. The line "what happened to us, we use to be bff?" Literally got me. she became more selfish saying how she had the worst breakup, its the fact she was saying how she hated a person in the gc but she sed she loved me (in a friend way ). a few days after she started to not like me, gave me dry asf replies just was being mean and upsetting, on our class gc she sent a chat that sed ohh if your not etc yu can go kys. It broke my heart that I won't think she will be my friend, we made sm memories . If your THAT person get away from me

POV: You never had many friends, you had maybe one or two close ones. Until you met "Them", you both had so much in common, common interests, common music taste, etc. You've both been through so much together, and maybe got a little mad at each other at sometimes, rarely even, until you both grew up. It turned from platonic feelings, to lovey feelings, and you both dated. Then broke up, but you both continued being good friends even after that, until you both had a huge argument, it turned to where, you both hated each other. Or that's what it looked like, you still had feelings for them, they hated you. you kept hoping they would message you or make contact with you, but that never happened. Now you question your life and wonder "Was I the toxic one? Was I the reason why we stopped being friends?" Now you sit and listen to this playlist and cry while thinking about them Plot twist- This isn't a POV it's what actually happened to me-

i was their loyal guard dog and I thought that if I protected them, then they would be my friends nope they all left me

I had two best friends, two girls. They were both older than me and changed schools last year. I was quite lonely but one of them stayed. She was the one of the two that I had known for the least time, and she still stod by me. I had known the girl that left for years and now it was months since we talkt and I don't have heart to tell my parents that I only have one of them left. Thank you Filippa for not leaving.

To my ex--bestfriend / ex-girlfriend who slowly turned on all of us even if we helped her get out of toxic friends, even if we helped her feel better in low times, who helped me survive and who also made me realised how toxic she was when she broke up with me. Know that I don't miss you at all, and that I'm better off without you. I still wonder what happened though. Maybe we weren't good enough for you. Love the playlist by the way ! Surf Curse, Mitski, Cavetown, Penelope Scott, Wilbur Soot are all artists I love, and there are amazing songs as well :D

Pov: You used to cheer before you came out as trans. you met a wonderful girl. A grade ahead of you but your best friend. You always spent time with her. You were like sisters. You came to their house, pulled all nighters, Always play with their cat with them, stay up playing Minecraft, stay on calls forever, it was like a sister you wish you had. But one day your cousin did somthing to their little brother, they cut off all contact with your family. You would cry all night for them. you tried your hardest to find them on social media, you tried finding their mom, their dad. but you couldn't. The one time you found them on Walmart you were too anxiety fled and terrified to say somthing. you broke right infront of everyone once they left, you fell to the ground in tears. You hear stories of their new friends, boyfriend, new family, all these great things, and you are stuck in a never ending pit of depression and worry that's too hard to climb out of. It's been 5 years and you still break apart once a day at the thought of meeting them again.

pov: Covid just hit. Everything has just shut down and you're left texting your 2 best friends. You guys made the perfect trio. Same interests and same broken humor. --------- Time Skip --------- Suddenly school starts after being shut inside for almost a year. You text your friends to tell them that you're doing online. They say they are doing in person and that they will talk to you later. you think maybe that they're just doing stuff for school and that they'll be available later. --------- a month passes ------- You have been left on read by your friends for the past month. You start to feel bad about yourself. You try telling them that they could at the very least respond to your texts, and that you feel terrible. they leave you on read again. not taking action. eventually you give up on trying to keep contact. one day one of them responds after 2 months and say hi. you snap at them, yelling how they never chose to respond and they only did now. they stop responding again after that, and you breakdown. -------------- present time ----------------- Neither of your friends have talked to you since the incident. Anytime you think about them, you get really sad. You realize that you only have one other friend who actually talks to you. you hold them dearly. this is a true story... Charlotte and Mara can go fuck themselves.

*"What happened to us? We used to be besfriends."* Tw : knifes , panic attack, SH Okay i have 2 bestfriends were a trio but my other "friend" were screenshotting private messages and sending them to her guy friends. And i felt really uncomfortable so we talked to her friends and then one of the guys were saying shit like "im so depressed i cut myself and the scars are itchy yada yada yada" he even had the audacity to send a picture of the knife he used and that triggered me and caused a panic attack and me and my bestfriend talked to our "friend" and she wont listen to us and kept defending her friends. she even offended us calling me and my bestfriend trying to fix our friendship "childish" i blocked her from every social media after that word i told her "if youre gonna call it childish then we shouldnt have been friends in the first place", i blocked her exept one i used that so i can torment her from time to time.

||Long rant about my personal experience, I am so sorry|| This is honestly perfect. I used to have a best friend who eventually became toxic, clingy, and manipulated me and others that I knew. She would make me feel guilty for a lot of things that I said or did. I wasn't mean to her or anything, but I still regret saying and doing things that she made me feel guilty about, because my mind just wants to figure out what was wrong. She was kind of flirty with me as well, and this was probably in 6th grade, after maybe a year of not seeing each other. So we were both between 11-13 years old. It made me very uncomfortable because I didn't see her as someone I'd date. I only wanted to be her friend. There were VERY few times where she'd talk about my body in an inappropriate way, or she'd tickle me (I despise being tickled). I'd ask her to stop or drop the conversations, but she wouldn't. I don't know...Maybe I misinterpreted her intentions on this one.. Anyways, around that age, there was a night where I stayed at her house, and she asked me to go with her to one of her friend's birthday party (I personally have Social anxiety and hate crowds and social events, and ofc she knew this). I said yes only because some of MY old friends would be there, and it had been awhile since I had seen said friends. But, I said that I didn't want to stay long. Her Mom dropped us to said friend's house, and she even told me that if I wanted to leave earlier than what she said, I could call her with my friend's phone. Most of the time, I sat on the couch playing on my friend's phone. I tried to be social when I saw my old friends again, or when the adults would try to get me to talk about myself, but other than that, I was sitting alone in the corner, eating Cheeto Puffs, and playing Clicker games. Eventually the parents of said friend pulled their pet bunnies out from where they kept them, and then that was my past time. The other kids and my ex-bestie tried to convince me to do an Ouija board with them, but I repeatedly refused and said I'd stay with the bunnies. Anyways, eventually the time came to for us to leave. My ex-bestie's Mom called and asked if we wanted to stay longer. I said that I wanted to just go, but then my ex-bestie muted the phone for a minute and begged me to ask if we could stay for another hour or two. I was pretty burnout from my anxiety and I really wanted to just hang out with her alone, but she just kept begging me to stay with her. She said that we wouldn't even do anything else at her house if we left, and just started to make me feel guilty once again. So, I just agreed that we'd stay for another hour. Not only was I bored out of my mind and skull, but I was also tired, and did not want to fall asleep at a strangers house. Then her Mom called later again, and asked if we wanted to stay longer before she left to come get us. Immediately I said that ex-besties Mom needed to come get us A.S.A.P. Once again, my ex-bestie begged me to stay longer, but this time I stood my ground and said I wanted to leave. She got angry with me and told me that I wasn't being a good friend. She didn't talk to me on the way back to her house, and barely talked to me the rest of the night. I remember that night that I had stayed up past 4am and almost cried myself to sleep because I felt so guilty, like I was the worst person on Earth because I wanted to leave the party. And then the next morning she pretended like everything was fine. Um... if you're still reading, thanks for listening to my rant. I honestly haven't talked about my ex-friend in a long time, and I've never talked this much about her since we stopped talking. But yeah. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.

Me and my friend are inseparable. Like really- we would tell each other everything and even do almost everything together. But im very worried that we will be parted one day because of lack of contact or something because we do live in different time zones. Even if we do get parted , i will always remember her ❤️.

You can't be sad because your friends left you when you didn't have friends in the first place 😎

Dear my two ‘friends’ I introduced to each other then replaced me with each other, Why wasn’t I good enough?

To the person who lost themselves, I know that there will always be somebody who will leave and lose their battle against everybody and everything, and it's very upsetting knowing that the person must have been going through so much that they put an end to all those suffering they thought they would fight against. I guess, everything in the end begins to seem as though it will burn away anyway at any given time, that is when you lose hope and end it yourself. It's been continuing for years now, and the time has just brought you torment, only wasted time. For what reason should your time come out of nowhere in which you would finally feel like you have a place on this earth? And you think, you ask, you beg and you let everything happen, feeling too frail to fight against everything by yourself, feeling sick realizing that you will feel awful for the remainder of your life, and you ask yourself once more, why you? And I wish I could answer myself, know why it's happening to you, and I wish to reveal to you it's another lesson life has offered you to learn, but once more, why you? You feel the hole hauling inside your heart, it's getting bigger everyday, walking with an opening in your heart that eats you alive, is this how it feels to burn? Your surroundings appear to be too far away to reach, you don't have anything to hold, to grab when you fall, and you ask once more, do you deserve this? And I wish to tell you that all those awful things that happened to you weren't because you merited them, it’s because life seems to drag you down until each and every evil presence gets to you, because isn't that how life functions? You fall, you grab, you stand up, get a couple of scars, and the circle continues to rehash itself. But it seems you already can't hear me. Between the two of us was only distance, I was unable to reach you, I could just watch you slowly losing yourself, and I could see you asking as to whether you are sick, trying to sort out what’s wrong with you . I wanted to answer, tell you there was nothing wrong with you, that you aren’t sick, yet you were unable to hear. I wanted to see you, however the person that looked directly back at me didn't seem to be the same any longer, and I can't help thinking about what they put you through that you didn't appear to see color. I tried to describe to you, I tried to make you smile, I tried to draw you so you could taste the person you used to be, and I tried to show you how to feel love again but you pushed me away, what happened to you? I saw your eyes, they look nothing like mine, aren’t eyes supposed to be the mirror of your soul? There’s nothing, so empty, so heartbreaking to see. And I have seen your dark circles under your eyes, I touched my face, I didn't have any. You must be awake all night, worrying, regretting, thinking, losing? And, your lips, you bite on them until they taste like blood, are you okay? Your skin seems to be made of glass, it broke a lot, is that why you have those scars? I want to touch them, they seem to have pages of suffering behind, do they hurt? I tried to grab for your hand yet you wouldn't let me, you were unable to see any longer, you appeared to convey layers of darkness with you that you couldn't see light. I know this is anything but a game but don't we all have a second chance? For what reason wouldn't you be able to play once more? Yet, you shook your head, later, yet what happened to your 'later'? For what reason does your later sound like never? Also, for what reason do you just seem to sleep all day now, do you sleep so you could dream of getting away from your own world? That doesn't seem like me, I like to dream when I am awake, I like to live my dream. Yet, you, you are on your bed, and you struggle to awaken, you skip showering, brushing your hair and brushing your teeth and I can't help thinking about what it is?Why won't you tell me? Did I betray your trust ? You shook your head once more, doesn't matter. What does 'doesn't matter' mean? You feel sick, I need to help you, how did your feelings start to lose their value? For what reason do you say it doesn't matter when it does. I need you to be OK. And all I got from you was, don’t bother, let me be, doesn't matter, later, and I considered what was so amiss with me that you were unable to tell me? Until one day I saw you on the restroom floor crying, and I stowed away in the corner and watched you slowly, and you said you didn't feel like belonging, so I inquired as to whether it was me who didn't make you feel like belonging. So I want to show you how to love once more, how to be you once more, how to smile again and how to be alive. So would you let me? And for the first time, you investigated my eyes, you seen me, you wanted to touch me but there's a wall between us that wouldn't permit us to touch, you gave me a weak smile that meant everything to me, I know you smile a ton when loved ones are near, yet this time, it seemed like a genuine one, even if it only stayed for a few seconds, it was enough. At whatever point you weren't looking, I was fighting for you, at whatever point you weren't hearing, I was trying to give you solace by walking close to you, at whatever point you weren't smiling, I tried to touch you, at whatever point you didn't feel like belonging, I gave you the sun, at whatever point you wanted to leave, I wanted you to remember me. Somedays, you didn't see me and other days you have seen me while there were other days when you attempted to look for me. I felt like a phantom and I was scared that I was dead in your eyes. Here and there you got mad at me, you wanted to burn me, you wanted to hurt me, you wanted me dead. But, I forgive you, because toward the end I had been you from the start, toward the end regardless of whether you weren't believing yourself I had faith in you, toward the end all I needed for you was to be alright, that at whatever point you were sleeping, my dreams for you would become reality. I wanted you to remain because you also wanted to once, I may have been dead in your eyes or lost, however I will consistently be younger, present, and old you, I will always be you, I will always fight for you until your world isn’t grey anymore. And all I wish for you is to remember me whenever you want to leave. I wish for you to remember me and not forget about me. Forgive yourself, forgive past, future and present you. - A letter for yourself. For past you, present you and future you, since life will consistently give you chaos. Perhaps you will have hope sometime and a day or two ago everything seems lost. But all that matters is that you are here, not close to me, not in front of me, but rather behind this screen, and it makes me happy and proud to know that you are still here. We as a whole need somebody to remain, and that is you. PS; I may haven't been in your shoes, and perhaps maybe you feel like I don’t understand you, but from what I can tell you that there is a home for you. That maybe life is a whole chaos by itself, but those little moments, when you see a butterfly fly or when you pat an animal are the ones you should hold deeply in your heart, that maybe it was never the bigger picture but rather the little ones. That you will feel like shit for days but will be able to laugh in the next few years. I can’t tell you why all those people are suffering for no reason, I don’t know how life works either, but from one stranger to another, maybe this moment makes life worth living. You are reading something I am typing for you, that is something to hold deeply in my heart, because you care as much as I care about you. Life can be shitty sometimes, I agree. But at this moment, you are reading and I am writing, I hope you will be okay, I hope you are okay now. I hope you will keep continuing because even though we are strangers, you are still important to me, because I am not afraid to love you, I am not afraid to love and care about a stranger. So I will say it, I love you, and I will tell you that I care about you, and I will apologize that I can’t be by your side, and I will cry with you because I don’t want to let you down, I will look at the sky and think of you, I will tell you the truth even though you maybe won’t believe it yourself. That you are loved, that you are enough, that you are doing enough, that you are worthy of love and happiness, that you aren’t weak but strong, that you hold so much strength, and that you matter, always. So stay, today, tomorrow, and many more days. Until tomorrow my friend- becho

This should have more views! :D It's a really great playllist.

As someone who only have 2 best friends and there your only friend [One being your sister], I love this playlist

pov: you have a couple friends through out middle school but as soon as you leave the school you lose all of them so you resort to online friends but they don't last long cause you end up getting ghosted but even though they were only like a week long you still think about them a year later cause you get attached to quickly, you tend to keep everything inside and haven't cried in months even when you feel your worst cause the last time you did your mother saw it and didn't even care, you aren't close to your father and hardly talk to him but you're kind of close to your mother but all she ever does is vent so you don't even know if she really cares about you, your parents always fight so you wonder if their gonna get divorced, but you try to not think about that. You hate the way you look but never do anything about it so its just a constant thought, You stay in your room all day playing video games or watching yt and you know its unhealthy so you hate yourself for it. pov: its not a pov.

bruh i’m literally crying over a situation that never even happened to me… So basically i was listening to this beautiful playlist, and like i always do when i listen to a playlist i zone out or daydream (whatever you wanna call it). And basically i like imagined myself hanging out with ig my guy best friend (btw i don’t actually have one but like the person i imagined my guy best friend to be was like a random dude that i have no clue who he is or if he even exists in the real world, i have no idea if i saw him irl or sumthing idk) and i was zoned out for a while so like i imagined like different memories of me and him hanging out together ig and like throughout these memories i like slowly fall in love with him and like i realize that but instead of getting nervous about what i should do, i started to breakdown and cry because i won’t be able to do anything about it. BECAUSE HE IS GAY. (btw i’m a girl) so like obviously it would be awkward and like ruin our friendship if i confess so i have to push down these feelings for him. but his gaze is so idk like a trance ig. And i started crying irl and realize i was just daydreaming and none of that actually happened. um so yah. btw that whole situation did not happen to me it was just a situation i imagined myself in. but besides that GREAT PLAYLIST I LOVE IT kinda had to listen to it again since i was zoning out for most of the songs but that didn’t bother me :)

POV: you and a girl had been best friends for about two years but had a massive fight over nothing. you lost sleep due to this fight and the worst part is it was your fault. the girl blamed everything on you and made things up to get your friends against you luckily they all saw what happened and knew she was a drama queen. eventually, you became friends again, well you tried to, she said sorry and you said sorry too. but little did you know, she had no interest in being friends. she told you after you had both said sorry that she couldn't be friends with you. she never told you why. one day the next year at school she comes up to you and asks if you could be friends again, being the fool you are, you take the opportunity only to discover she never changed. she still doesn't care about you or her friends. she still causes drama and once grabbed onto your wrist and refused to let go, your friends had to pull her off. then you moved away for 5 months only to move back and go to the same school. she approaches you and gives you a hug and has you feeling that she actually missed you and has changed. when you left you didn't have glasses, now you do. she thinks it's funny to steal them and run away with them then not give them back. you were diagnosed with mild short-sightedness and don't need the glasses to see but it helps you a lot. several of your friends have had to chase after her after she stole your glasses. you aren't convinced she has changed. she ditched her best friend because "she was annoying" she told you. It isn't a pov :[

Who never actually felt the feeling of friends because you have been only in an a toxic relationship and she/him would hit you and have no reason to and say judgmental about everything because I do and now lonely without anyone and yet I ask myself why do I still want to be friends back again when I am at fault of our relationship broke to pieces...

This playlist is gonna help me a lot, i can tell.

In elementry I had a best friend. She was nice to me when almost no one else was, and then when I needed her the most she left me. Over some stupid disagreement she left me. Thanks for the years of friendship. Goodbye.

Oh dear, this playlist bring me back some old memories of this group of ''friends'' that I used to be part of, there was so many different types of toxicity and we all pretended that it was ok till that day that someone ''''''disappeared'''''. Just another one of the weird things I got into. I was such a hardcore kid.

Had this happen to me twice. First was an irl who put me thru 7 years of manipulation and emotional abuse. The second was an online friend of a year who promised me they would be different and then cut me off over something that could have been fixed given the chance. Both of them dropped me withing the span of 3 months from eachother and it was life shattering. I havent been able to make a friend since.

pov: you made a new instagram account to separate from the real world. you end up having a loving and so you thought loyal friend group. you would stay up till 5am talking to them, laughing and talking all night. you would think of them all day and smile thinking about all of them. you get comfortable with them, but they don’t get comfortable with you, and shut you out. overtime you would realize they take you as a joke. all the times you weren’t laughing with you, they were laughing in their own groupchat. they zoned you out without telling you. you get mad at them for excluding you which makes them end you out of the friend group entirely. heartbroken, distressed, and angry, you watch the people that made you go throw hell, happy. you learn to live without them, and love yourself without there judgment. you finally feel peace until they invite you back again. as much as you hated them, you would always go back to them, no matter what happened, you loved being with them, even if they destroyed you. you cared so much about them, til you didn’t. after understanding what they were doing, you remove yourself from them. as much as you hated leaving them, it was the right move. you eventually crawl back to them, and they just destory you even more. after separating from them, you vow with yourself to never go back to them. and now, idk how much time it’s been, i calmly and happily made ammends with some of those friends. i haven’t fully committed myself back to them, but i won’t, not this time. we talk every once and then, and i still show my support to them, and them to me.

that line in the title really gets me because me and my 10 year long best friend drifted apart about 6 months ago after he got home schooled and i found out that he blocked me on everything and now we haven't spoken since. i really fucking miss him man. what happened to us?

I honestly don't remember where it all went wrong. One day my best friend who I had known since kindergarten walked up to me with a note and left. I read the note and it said something along the lines of 'I dont want to be your friend' blah blah blah. I was heartbroken but got over it because one of my other friends (let's call her Z) helped me through it. Now Z was my best friend for about 3 years until she found another friend. She left me for this friend and I couldnt deal with it. It ruined our friendship and Z would call me rude to not accept her friend. I gave up trying. I let Z be friends with her and replace me completely. She can be friends with whomever she wants but that's not the problem. Now she constantly talks to me like she hasn't replaced me. She talks to me like we're best buddies when in reality she won't accept me in her little friend group yet wont let me leave. Its exhausting especially because I have a fear of isolation and can't deal with being friendless. Now I'm just a 'therapist' to them who they vent out all their problems to, forget me for a week, and talk to me again like nothing happened. I know nobody who's a good friend in my grade and don't know what to do. I still doubt whether or not I'm just a really shitty friend or not. I feel like I'm horrible for feeling this way. I'm so lost I have no idea what to do. Thank you for reading this!

these RU-vid pov playlists are the best 😭👌👌

I loved you I still do come back please like I can't live without you please I'm sorry I'm so so sorry please just please so I can be happy again please:/

one time my ex-best friend got mad at me for having a bad day i had been giving more down replies and when she asked why i said "i'm just kinda tired and don't wanna explain why everything is so shitty for me" and she replied with "i understand that you might not share what is upsetting you, but, no offense, i don't want to talk to you when i feel youre down cuz it makes a negative atmosphere that i don't want to deal with. so you could share what is hurting you or *wallow in your own misery"* god did that comment hurt

Me quietly sitting in my room hearing that all my friends have paired off at cottages and camping and I’m just alone by myself

I remember my old friend group, it was just the four of us, we were all perfect friends until toxicity started to leak in when a girl wanted to join our friend group to be closer to me. But as always, jealousy got it's way around and they started to spread rumors about the girl. The girl was the sweetest girl I ever met, I was too shy to speak my mind back then so I didn't say anything and went on with it. After me and the girl stopped being friends, everything went back to normal for only a few weeks until the group started to separate. I went with my ex best friend and the other two went together. We had a small war in school between each other which lasted the rest of the year. I later start to like the friend I went with but that didn't turn out too good for me because she is indeed straight so I didn't have a chance in the beginning. We soon went our separate ways but I was the one who officially broke the friendship because I knew it would be best if we stopped being friends since everything got toxic and effected our mental health terribly. Now, they moved on and I haven't that much, I miss the friendship but it was best for us to all part ways. They of course have their new friend groups while I don't have any friends because I prefer to stay alone now. I was the one who decided to separate the group because I knew it would get more toxic than it already did. It started from jealousy and now we walk past the halls like we don't know each other.

pov: your friends “love you so much” and tell you your faking depression and that your doing everything wrong you lose 3 friends and then lose another 2 you break 3 people’s hearts and still have no hope they make jokes about you that actually hurt and everyone thinks your ok :)

pov: you have the most supportive and nicest friends, but you are extremely introverted and push people away when your mental health isnt okay, and you feel terrible bc they are perfect, but you feel so exhausted from trying to talk everyday that you just want to block everyone. i really don’t know what to do bc i do love them and they are everything to me but i’m so burnt out. They are both extroverts and love to hang out often, and i want to hang out too, but i don’t know why i feel so exhausted when i am around people. i’m am also the therapist friend, so i feel like i can’t talk ab my problems bc they are dealing with enough on their own. I would beat myself up knowing that i broke up the friend group bc they did nothing wrong, but i just can’t deal with the constant acting like i’m okay while i’m falling apart in the inside.

what happened? it was all so sudden. one moment you were loving me and another moment you were abusing me. then i broke up with you and you say it was for no reason? damn bro, now you've ghosted me and acted like we were never friends. it hurts, but new year new me ig.

I used to play with this friend all the time but I started to distance myself and I feel so bad about that but I don’t know how to talk to them again

POV: You've had many friends in your life but only 1 you could call your best friend, throughout 3 short years they help you through self-harm and depression, they look after your siblings like they are family and wingman you into your first relationship. After a few more years the 2 of you fall apart, they send a final "i hate you, but I'm glad i knew you" and break it off. It's not a pov. even worse it happened this week

pov: you meet a friend group over the summer and you get so comfortable to where you all would vc every night and vent to each other. one day, you and one person in the group argue to something that matters to you and you yell, all the while not meaning it. you try to apologize, but they just wont accept it and shut you out, leaving you with no one with yourself. even after a year, they still talk to you like a stranger even after trying to repair your relationship with them. people in the group shove their relationship down your throat and constantly talk shit about you, even if they know you know. even though you have new friends now, you somehow cant keep them for more than a few months. its not a pov.

[vent, sorry for all of this] TW: s/h A year or two ago I met a friend who I called cabbage, he quickly became my best friend, we shared the same tastes in games, music, etc. We spent almost always listening to music together in discord and recommending our favorite songs, we talked until almost dawn and when one felt bad we tried to help each other as we could. One day we introduced ourselves to other friends we had, he had a good time with my friends and I tried to do the same, he said that if his friends were mean to me I had to tell him, although I never really wanted to make any problems between them. The day we were talking with my friends I noticed that he spoke a lot with one of them, after a time when he stopped talking with me often, he confessed that he had fallen in love with her. They had planned to go on a date and he was going to confess, I supported him and that day they started dating. (I never realized that he had feelings for me at one point until he told me. Sorry, I really hope you can forgive me) Since they started dating he talked to me less and less, sometimes I saw him on his friend's server, on one of those occasions I had a fight with one of his friends, they said that the best thing I could do was ''go to the kitchen and cut my little trees'' thanks to that I started to feel very bad and started to panic, after an hour (I think) I opened discord again and I didn't remember well what had happened, then I saw everything, I said many stupid things and when I messaged him again I realized that I had ruined everything, he began to say how disgusting and shitty he was, all that was completely my fault, I did a lot of damage and it was all my fault, I never wanted it to end like this I constantly felt guilty about it but I couldn't do anything to him, he acted like it didn't hurt but most of the time I realized it did. After a while he broke up with his girlfriend and I felt that it was also my fault, I felt sick. I tried to get away from him so as not to hurt him more but I constantly remember everything either because of the songs we listened to or watching him online anywhere He had a hard life and I just arrived and i just came to hurt him more. One day we spoke again, he wanted to meet again as if nothing had happened, so I accepted, now we have not spoken again and I do not know what to do, several people have told me that we should end this relationship but I do not know how to do it, I know that He's pretty self-destructive and I don't want him to hurt himself or feel like it was his fault. for some reason all of this doesn't feel real, like it never happened but it did, when I try to remember this it feels blurry, its weird.

no because i had a friend named alan, and he told me a few days ago that hes ending the friendship between us, our song was feel better by penelope scott so the title and the thumbnail hit hard to home to look at

i dont vent on yt (at least on this acc) super often bc im scared of my friends (actually they're more just people i know, at this point) seeing it buttt here i go. so i really only have one irl friend, and the rest are online friends. ever online friend ive ever had always leaves, which is probably to be expected but they're really all i have other than my irl friend. but i clicked on this playlist because it reminds me of my two online bsfs (who dont really know eachother btw). one of them, we used to be super close. like chat everyday and were practically the same person (had all of eachothers interests n stuff), she kind of just got super dry and seemed kind of mad at me tbh. i asked her about it and she was like "no im not mad" and when i asked why she seemed so dry she simply brushes it off as "sorry i have to get in the mood to write" and my other friend i think that its slowly happening to them. like, we used to be super close but our texts just dont seem the same anymore. seem dryer like the last friend, but even worse somehow. me and other friend didnt have a bunch in common, but we did both like mcyts a lot, and i wonder if part of it is because im not a huge fan of dsmp+ anymore. anyway i asked the irl friend about the first friend (they know eachother and were kinda close too) and they said they agree that they've been super dry recently. anyway 2x ik this was super long n stuff so sorry abtthat mlfaoo, also it probably makes like zero sense but ty for reading to the end, irl friend if ur readin this ilysm, like, with all my heart

"We were just friends because we saw each other 5 days a week," or at least that's what they tell themselves

The first lyrics hit me hard bc I lost one of my closest friends not too long ago.. gosh dang it RU-vid recommendations :,)

I’ve had a lot of friends, most of them I never really opened up to. Knowing that I would move, or they would move, or even worse one of us would change to much for the other. One specific friend though, we met in kindergarten. We have contact with each other, but we don’t talk much. Recently I learned to trust one of my current friends, it’s nice to talk to someone who understands and doesn’t shove opinions they know I disagree with down my throat like everyone else.

pov: every time you have a really close best friend they leave, or act too toxically for you to be comfortable staying even though you try talking to them and they don't listen and they gaslight you and you think you're problem and then they tell everyone you're awful and all your friends hate you and you're all alone again, and everything sucks and every time it happens you hate yourself a little more and the hate lingers a little longer and you're so done with everything but you just keeping dragging yourself through life. it's not a pov and everything sucks.

My friend always messes up, they always say hurtful comments to me. It always makes me angry. Every time we have a fight, I always try to vow myself to never talk to that friend again. But for some reason, I never stick to that vow. I always loved spending time with them. But after a few days after I forgive them again, they always say something mean or awful about me like how I’m so “sensitive” or how I lack socializing. Every time they pointed something about me out, I would do everything I could to change it. Then I would do something wrong, then they point it out and make me feel guilty. Not this time, I’m not going back to them this time.

pov : you had a trio that includes you, your friend that you always talk to in school and was your best friend and your online friend. You thought the trio friendship would last until one day the trio started having beef and you felt uncomfortable and sad. Your only friend you talk to in school that you had for 4 years suddenly became toxic and manipulative. You and your online friend left the trio and became a duo. But your school friend starts sending de*ath threats to you guys and starts making you even more uncomfortable. Which made you realized why did your school friend did this to you? why did our friendship ended with her being manipulative and toxic? as the trio ended for a few months you and your online friend started to get closer which lead to a crush and you guys confessed together and started being platonic s/o. plot twist - it happened to me lol, but at least it ended with a happy ending (?)

POV: you’ve been best-friends for 7+years, there has been rocky moments however you’d always go back to being bffs but, then they blowup at you for being “too happy/energetic” when they were trying to introduce you to a person they’d only known for a week. then once they apologize it hits you, none of their apologizes were ever good apologizes, you think back and realize they’ve always trauma dumped on you but the second you try to vent the smallest bit they say “i don’t wanna listen to this” and they were constantly saying they had nothing to live for, it felt like they were making you bare the burden of their life and their problems. you officially broke it off but now you have nobody to talk to, it feels better but it hurts so bad at the same time. Thank you for making this playlist, that pov was my pov if im being honest. I’m not sure if i was in the wrong or right since they had depression but, i tried my hardest to help them without coming off as too harsh, could i have done better? were those years worth it? will i ever have a friend again?

pov: you had your own little friend group and you all were so happy together, but after awhile it started to get toxic and more arguments happened. more 'friends' were added to the group and then after some time more left, you were left with just you and friend1 that have been together through it all. but then they got a boyfriend and started to leave you out and made fun of you and make insensitive jokes, you cried. then you met somebody(friend2) who made you really happy, but you didn't know they were toxic after so long after. friend1 broke up with their boyfriend soon after and got jealous of you and friend2, you got in a big argument with them. soon after you two made up and you started to drift apart from friend2. you soon after started to date friend1 and started to notice all of the red flags. then a triangle started to come up with you, friend2, and friend1. you started to lose all contact with friend2. you broke up with friend1 with all of the stress that was going on, they just put more pressure on you and blamed you for everything. then friend1 and friend2 started to become close friends. friend2 trying to make you jealous pushed it in your face. you started to lose touch with the world and your friend. you started to realize friend1 an friend2 ruined everything. now you and friend2 are strangers, now asking for eachother's stuff back. and now you have nobody. pov: its reality

I feel like I’m losing my best friend to depression. I’ve been ignoring the fact everyday I hear her words less and less as the days go by. I am not the best friend she deserves, I don’t know how to handle heavy depression while she try’s to cut me out of her life due to her over whelming emotions I love her but it’s hard. I love you skye I wish I could’ve been better for you

DANM! this is such a good playlist! love it

I had a group of friends and only now do I see how bad they were . I thought we were in the right no matter what . We did everything together and had so much fun that we couldn’t possibly be hurting people. Right?

I love how u put ycgma it's so underrated

I guess this is a little rant:)- I’m in a large friendship group and there’s seperate groups inside of it, and you hang out with whoever whenever because we are all friends, but I just feel like no one wants me to be there. Like even my closest and bestest friends before this in lockdown I grew closer to two of my friends and we were happy like that.we FaceTimed a lot and messaged on our group chat. I realised quickly that they talked about boys a lot (one is in a ‘complicated’ relationship while the other gets crushes easily) and because I don’t have much romantic interests in people I felt more left out. Obviously I didn’t mind too much. Then le day my phone broke badly, like I couldn’t use it but luckily I had a iPad. I told them that it broke and we made group chats over different platforms but they never messaged me on them. At school I found out that they had been messaging each other privately and hanging out constantly. My birthday came around and I asked them both to come and they both couldn’t. One said it’s becuse they were either getting a new dog from far away or because of her sister, and the other one literally said “I’m waiting for (girls) dog to come”. So they left me on my birthday to hang out with each other. I got a new phone and they knew, whenever I messaged on our chat they would leave me on read or give short dry answers. And they would post all their facetimes and sleepovers without me. All over different platforms (mostly TikTok) they always post that ‘oh this person is my everything’ and stuff about each other. Before all of this we made a bucket list of things to do and they have checked multiple off that I didn’t participate in. Now at school they will only come to me if the other isn’t there. And they talk bad about each other to me. I have these other friends that don’t leave me out much but they are in a relationship so I feel like I’m in the way u know, but I don’t get left out and that made me realise how left out I am. The girls recently fell out for a while and in that time one of them invited me over more than they have in a while but then I found out why -argument. They are friends again and they invited me in holiday. I desided to join along but I’m scared I’m going to be left out the whole time. If u did read this than hi, you are amazing and deserve everything good. If your having troubles with your friends I hope it gets better or you find people that appreciate you for who you are.

sorry for randomly venting in the comments as far back as I can remember I've always was the kid that the teachers would worry about and that didn't play with any of the kids until around the middle of junior high when I finally got "adopted" by a group of friends that I knew of since grade school. all was nice but I didn't feel very close. then volleyball days in gym rolled up and I decided to partner with one of my fellow quieter kids and got along well. we eventually ended up being best friends and was my first friend I ever actually made myself. it felt amazing. we actually learned about each other, talked to each other, we even got each other out of our shells a bit more. they meant the world to me and even helped me get closer to the friend group I mentioned before. I finally felt like a normal kid who had friends. then, I had to miss school for almost a whole year because of a surgery, and then they moved away, but we still talked frequently. the rest of the group didn't really talk to me after that. after a week of me getting back to school covid hit and as the months went on we just,,,, stopped talking to each other for some reason. I still don't know why. but during the time I've realized how horrible I was in middle school and I feel so shitty about it. it been so long I don't want to just dump a while essay on why I'm sorry for everything out of nowhere but I also want to talk to them really bad. I'm just afraid because we tried to talk after we drifted apart once and it went stale really fast. it just feels crazy that in a matter of months I've went back to square one of not having any friends but it hurts worse this time because now I know what it's like to have them. now I have to start highschool as a sophomore completely alone with no one. it feels terrifying and I don't know what to do.

Pov; you think you've found a best friend but he suddenly stops responding, then blocks you without warning. When you text him from another account after MONTHS telling him you miss him and that you want to get in touch again he just responds with "blocked for a reason" And because of that you always think you've done or said something wrong and think it's your fault

POV: You moved and had no friends but you eventually met this person who you eventaully became fast friends with. You would share stories and even personal ones but when you entered high school you left them for a few months and they left you. You reached out and it went back to what it use to be and they got a partner and spent all their time on them while also making new friends that were closer to them than you were and they practically worshipped them. Now you feel so lonely but still hanging onto that friendship even if its gonna break soon and you'll be the one alone. POV: Its not a POV

we were best friends. you loved me, but left so suddenly with no reason whatsoever. And I loved you. And still do.

I love the song I had many friends in elementary turn out...they were just scared of me so they hang out with me I thought we can last forever but I didn't see it coming they back stab me in the end. I just realize this while listening to this music. I'm really this stupid to still trust ppl like them.

pov: you make awesome friends and connect to awesome people, but then you have to leave way too soon. pov: its not a pov :)

I was the problem, back then as a middle schooler I made the wrong decisions. And now as a high schooler I look back at those moments and wonder why I ever let myself be that manipulative. It’s like I was watching myself screaming for myself to stop but I just kept on doing it. I never met someone who did what I did which feels horrible, I never wanna be that person I was before. Ive ditched everyone, scared. to hurt them again. But I’ve changed who I am as a person, I’ve changed myself. Ever single detail of myself; where you can hardly recognize me. Don’t worry I apologized to them all, but no body can understand how sorry I am. If ditching everyone and forever referring to myself as a loner, doesn’t prove I’m trying to get better, and become better. For not only me but to prove I’m sorry. My parents were assholes but that doesn’t mean I had to follow their footsteps, I’m no better then them.

I used to have a best friend but I stopped talking to her since she wouldn't really hang out with me :[ I miss her but maybe it was for the better. I think she's going to the school I'm going to tho :(

I'm always excited for these, not gonna lie

It's not the world goodbye that hurts, it's the fact that your saying goodbye to that person and you'll never see them again, and when memories hit and flood your mind it feels like a living hell of unimaginable pain. And i know people grow apart and have their own things in their life and even though I had an idea of what it would be like to lose something dear to you. I never had a clue on how the pain would feel. Honestly, I know it's toxic to think this way, but I hope they come back to me, so I can hug them so tight just like we use to. I'll make sure to answer their every call even if I'm busy. But at the end of the day, I can't sit here and think about the past, what i could've, what i should've done all because it's degrading. I'll have to move on and hustle, live out my dreams, I'll hate myself if i don't. I don't want to have regret again, so I'll move on. Can't let my hate for change and time, stop me from achieving what i want. Who's ever reading this, I hope you well and hope you move forward as well. And it well hurt like hell, but in the end of the day it's good for you and deep down you know you can't live in life in regret.

POV: your slowly losing your friends because you to emotionally numb and to traumatized

Beautiful!

it's always "do you remember we used to be best friends when we were younger" or "remember we were great friends" and never "sorry I treated you like sh*t, I'm sorry I left you to get bullied by my other best friend, sorry I betrayed you, Sorry I left you with people that secretly hated you" VENT!!!! She was with me since I was 2 then left me and became friends with the girl that bullied us for a year. I mean I was also friends with the girl that bullied us but I mean I was completely wrong. I stopped being her friend a couple months later and moved on because I knew if I said the slightest thing wrong they were gonna start the hate again. In year 5 (Grade 4) I then became friends with 3 other people. They didn't accept me for who I was. They always played "mother and daughter" also always left me out of things. They only included me In things if I asked. They stopped being my friend near the end of year 6 (grade 5) but we had to act like we were still friends because of our parents. At the end of Year 6, I became friends with the girl that everyone used to hate, and to be honest I wish I was friends with her instead of going through all that sh*t. The whole reason the girls started to bully me was because I was hanging out with my so-called "best friend" and I didn't let them colour in my colouring book. I was the "trouble maker" of the class but since I was a girl I wasn't allowed to be classed as that (yes my school was pretty sexist) I was always the one to get told of I was always the one starting fights apparently. I was the one threatening people. I was the "bad guy". The so-called "trouble maker" was the guys that always spoke in class. I was the one with anxiety. I was the one no one wanted to speak to. I was always the one no one wanted to hang out with. My school didn't do anything to help me. They said falling out with others was normal and that we were all really good friends. when in reality we all hated each other. Some of us wished some of the other class was dead. They say it's only bad if one of them get hurt. They always put the blame on me and this other girl. It was ALWAYS us! The girls that bullied me.... nothing happened to them. they just got told to stop and that's it. Then when I stuck up for myself I was always the one to get told off. There were 3 teachers that actually believed me. 3 TEACHERS!! Guess what.... they all left. One was my year 1 teacher she helped me with my mental health. The other one was a helper. She stuck up for me against the girls that bullied me. She suddenly vanished one day. the other was my Reception teacher (age was 4-5 in that year)she stuck up for me for 4 years....She left after that to help people with learning disabilities..... My year 6 teacher was kind to everyone but the blame was still always on me. it has been since I was 4 years old. Every time I stick up for myself..... do you also know what happened.... When I was struggling to eat when I was younger because of the texture of the food they would give me more food to eat. Some of the dinner ladies used to comment on my weight as well. I WAS 4-7 WHEN THAT WAS HAPPENING. But No I had nothing wrong with me right? haha now at 13 I have to be tested for Autism maybe even ADHD. also, I have Anxiety and depression. there's also something else but I don't know what it's called. My eating got a lot worse I mean ALOT! I wouldn't eat in front of others unless it was my parents. My school was absolutely useless with people with autism and ADHD. also things like that. They wouldn't help you at all. If it was that bad that it was really affecting their work they would probably give them like 5 mins in a test.... That's it. They would also DRAG the kids along if they were having a mental breakdown and blame it on bad behaviour. They never looked at the real issue. I even think one of my teachers had to get arrested because of how they treated one of the kids. I'm not quite sure. I know I'm not talking about my best friend in this but to be honest, School didn't help anything at all. Also if you were LGBTQ they wouldn't stop any of the bullyings. They would help you if there were noticeable bruises but otherwise no. They would also proceed to say that they support LGBTQ but then say "pride month doesn't exist and we don't talk about gay people here" I was in year 5 (grade 4) when I found out I was Bisexual. I came out to one person and they immediately said it was a phase and walked off.... they were the girls that played "mother and daughter" I was so scared to tell anyone that I just hid myself from anyone. When I got into secondary school it got worse but Let's not talk about that. In year 1 we had a pretty strict teacher who would always watch you with everything you did. She was nice ye but if you looked like you were doing something wrong even if you weren't you would be taken out of class. One day of school I knew it was stamp day (it was a day we had each week to put stamps on this piece of paper) I counted my stamps the morning before I set off to school. when it was time I put 7 stamps on since that's how many I had to put on and they dragged me and shouted at me and the other kids that did the same and dragged us to the floor. They said we had to sit there for assembly and explain what happened. I and the other kids just started talking for a while since the teacher was gone. When she came back she said she could hear us from the assembly hall (which was a lie) She was full-on shouting at us and if we put our hands over our ears she would shout even louder. Somehow I didn't cry but I told my mum when I got home and she saw on my face that i was terrified. If we put a report about the teacher she would get the student and shout at them more. She started picking on me in most classes because of what I did. or "what I did". There was another time something similar happened. Some people got taken out for reading and when they came back in the teacher was shouting at them and moved EVERYONES pegs down to red "which is really bad btw" literally everyone's down. Not just the readers. EVERYONES!. She would also baby on people. Luckily we had another teacher in year 1 as well and she could see that we were all happy to have her. She was the one that helped with my Mental health. Also at the school sleepovers, we used to have once every year.... Well, let's just say that was one memory that scares me. Me and my friends were gonna have a midnight snack but we realised we needed to go pee so we went to the toilets (the girls were in the classrooms and the guys were in the Assembly hall, you have to go through the hall to get to the other classrooms or even the toilets) So me and my friends went and one of spoke a bit too loud and my year 3 teacher came and full-on shouted at us. I wanted to cry. She said we had to go into the classroom and get our Stuff and put them in the hall... YES, the hall. the hall the guys are in... (i had left the quilt I sleep on in the classroom so I had a single quilt to keep me warm.) I put my 1 quilt down and told my best friend at the time i left my other in the classroom. She gave me some of her quilts so I wouldn't literally freeze. I started crying when most people were asleep. it was about 3am at the time then. I think I got about 2 hours of sleep then. Everyone else was awake and I think there was a guy lying next to me..... (He was awake and was definitely not there before) I got my stuff folded it and got breakfast. Luckily there was a nice teacher there and I just told her what happened and she just hugged me and said: "hey it's gonna be ok no ones gonna hurt you I've got you" (she whispered this btw). When I got home I went to sleep straight away and had thought about that night ever since. I was about 10 at the time. (no I wasn't raped I was just really scared if that was what happened if my best friend weren't there) I'm gonna stop with this vent before i get a heart ack and cry. ok, now that I've reread this I realise that my old school was absolutely horrible... Jesus. Yep definitely telling my sister not to send my Neice and Nephew there.

Why did I just only found out about your channel ?! 😩🥺 Love the 1st song off of this one

Pov: your best friend who you’ve known Sense birth left you for the one who gave you emotional trama and you can barely open up anymore and being easily controlled even so you are still holding on for a glimmer of hope that you know will never come (haha lol that’s what’s happening:/)

this popped up in my recommendations right after losing my best friend of 2 years thanks man,, i'll use this music to cope :]

pov; youre scrolling through the comments and relating to all the sad stories

feel better is my anthem man

The transition between Tuesday and feel better 😩🤌

I’m on a road trip Rn back to AZ and it’s perfect thank you

i knew this would be good when i heard jubilee line. also lil story! :) “what happened to us?! we were the best of friends! we were inseparable!” she quietly yelled to me, “exactly. we were. i’m just treating you the way you started to treat me after you met her.” i said in a monotonous reply. i could feel her emotion-filled stare piercing my body from behind as i stared at the city from the rooftop, leaning towards the cement fences. i stayed silent, my mind was thrown deep into the abyss of myself. my long, obsidian black hair blew in flew in front of me, “i could jump right here right now, but i know you’d feel guilt for that.” i bluntly said to break the silence. i could still feel her presence clawing on to me. “stop staring at me.” i said out loud, “i’m sorr-” she said being interrupted by me, “i don’t need a sorry, it’s already been done, there’s nothing you can do about it.” i said as i step afoot on top of the cement fences, i looked over my shoulder to her, “please, don’t do this.” she cried out. i stepped an inch closer towards the edge, “you’re not even trying to pull me back blair.” i pointed out with a small tremble in my voice. “i-”she shortly said trying to get a hold of me, “forget it.” i said as i walked over the edge, facing her, thoughts raced through my mind. the things she said, “no i don’t really like you anymore.” “get out, i’m talking to her” “why are you always talking to me?!” “no i’m hanging out with her tonight.” and the things i said to myself “don’t worry she’s just a little bit mad.” “she hates you, get away.” “you’re a bad friend.” “you’re so damn clingy.” *“kill yourself, make her feel guilty.”* salty clear tears came out my eyes as my vision slowly blurred from them, i saw _her_ watching me fall. _thump_ i woke up to a bright light, i saw my grandparents standing at the end of a tunnel, “come over dear!” my grandma called out. i started sprinting over as i cried tears of joy, i got to them, “you’re in peace now sweetie, come with us.” my grandpa said as we walked towards the light.

In the second grade I made friends with the popular girl and she was nice to me so I called her my best friend and she did to, it was all good till forth grade when she started to get distant and she would be rude to me but I brushed it off because I was the naïve nice girl, and I made friends with all the other girls she hung out with so we were a pretty big group then she was mean to me and then I didn’t talk to her for a week then she made me feel bad for her so I became friends with her again. There was a dance that was called the “daddy daughter dance” so we brought my step sister and me, her and my younger sister had the best bond with each other so my step sister (Maggie) met my “best friend “ and we danced and when we got home Maggie told me she had a fake personality and being the naïve girl I was did not believe her and then a year later I had a glow up and then she started spreading fake romers about me and ever one believe her so every one Legit hated me so I had no friends the entire 5th grade year but when I went to middle school I met my best friend of 3 years and we both have trust issues and now I’m in 8th grade and I love her more than anything(platonically of course)

i had knew this friend since 1st grade and had made several memories with her, but when I began to attend the same school as her throughout middle school, she began to drift away. Her mom would talk about my friend's misbehavior and how much she's changed and such. One evening, I received a dm from that friend that was a reply to a story on my account where I talked about lgbtq positivity. Basically, she did the whole "there's only two genders" and invalidated same-sex relationships + other gender identities. Me being a lesbian myself and having an emotional attachment to her, this broke me in two. I replied and basically gave her a big "fuck you" and "why did i even become your friend. never talk to me again." It still hurts a little.

POV (your me): Everyone has said your kind, wonderful,and amazing. That’s probably why your basically kinda the glue to the ground. Everyone wants to talk to you, hang out with you, do stuff with you, sit with you. You then see everyone fall out of the group. A group of 5 turned into a 4, then a 3, now a 2. You still try to keep in touch with the others but it’s kinda hard because of school. You make more friends which makes you happy but your friend from your friend group kinda gets toxic. They have dated your ex without telling you, said stuff that disturbs you, has hurt you physically, sometimes made you feel unwanted. You try to leave them but you still stay because you will feel guilt if you leave them. Now a new year is starting. You hope you can leave them and make new friends with other people without them bringing you down, but you know it might never happen. This is what happens when your to nice. People want to be with you then leave or just take advantage of you…

You become friends with someone your best friend wasn't even interested in becoming friends and now that person took your place

a vent for myself ;-; idk why i ghosted you after 7 years of being best friends. i was mean to you when other people were around. i made you feel like shit. so i thought you were better without me. you kept trying to reach out to me a lot. but i don’t respond. i was to embarrassed that i was mean to you when the “cool girls”(which they weren’t they were just little shits.) were around. it’s been almost two years without talking. we chat once every two weeks. i’m scared to have you back. i don’t wanna break out into tears when we decide to hang out again. it’s lonely. i only have one friend now it feels like she’ll leave soon. i don’t know what to do with my life anymore i’m to scared to even look at you.if i could go back into the past i would’ve chosen staying friends with you.

I was texting my best friend today (she used to say that we were like sisters) we are really really close and she always responds to me but she didn't so I asked my other friend to text her if she is alright and she responded to them it really broke my heart to see her replying to people she's not even friends with and not me. So I asked my other friend to ask her why she isn't responding to me and like two seconds later my other friend said it was because she doesn't feel like it and then she added that she said she hates me and she has better friends to talk to. Although she said those things I never want to lose her because we have been friends since I was two and we know a lot about each other but apparently I don't know enough about her.

lol gone through enough so can't really cry just because it's not worth my tear anymore, tired of..this kind of thing.

“what happened to us…we used to be best friends” yeah what did happen? did u get tired of me? am I not interesting anymore? I loved you. I love you. you saved me but now you’re killing me. you were always a best friend to me. didn’t you say you were scared we would drift? but here I am and here you are not daring to text me first. i miss you. and i have no one without you.

pov you had a close friend, your only friend they had some problems and you slowly stopped being with them you found happiness while they dealt with their own problems you dont feel bad anymore.

When I realized it was my fault that we broke up I thought about how much I probably made her feel like shit but my brain was mainly thinking that she hates me which she did and I realize how shitty of a friend I was, I would rarely talk in group chats and they had to make another group chat without me and when they kicked out a girl in our friend group I went to her because I was still friends with her the only reason why they kicked her out was because she was annoying so I didn't have a reason to hate her but when I would hang out with her at break time and then hang out with them at lunch time I felt ignored so I ignored them all around and when they tried to fix it I ignored them, she asked for her jumper back and that made me feel so much worse. She ended up finding my secret tiktok account and it had to do with her in it (Nothing bad though I still love her platonicly) I sent her 6 paragraphs of saying sorry and we had a conversation we're mutuals again but it's not the same ofcourse we didn't talk for months and when I told my friend that they kicked outof the friend group she wasn't angry but then one day randomly she said "If you miss them so much just hang out with them instead" and she has been transphobic to me saying "you'll always be a girl get over it" and thinks that they''re only three genders but atleast my old bestfriend accepted me and I feel SO much worse I just want our friendship back we had before. (Sorry for the ranting)

Bro, relatable. So, I have- Or well. HAD. A friendgroup in my school. And I knew three of the people there for about 4+ years. And they added new members, but, issue was, two of those members always acted rude towards everyone on texting apps like discord. And, sadly, they all started to not listen to me, or telling me to shut up whenever I tried to talk to them. It wasn't helping me and my ASD, because I ended up having more emotional meldowns over the most random things for no odd reason. I've kinda left the group. But I don't know how to feel.

Dear anyone who needs to read this, hey. I know you are struggling right now and I know people always just tell you “it’s going to be ok” but listen. It actually is going to be ok. And I know. I know how it feels to feel like your world is literally ending and there is no hope. But there is hope. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and you will reach it soon. I know you have been through a lot but I’m here for you. Always. I’ve been there. I’ve been in a place where I feel like there is no hope. But you are going to be alright. You are strong, beautiful, and loved. I hope you know that. Imagine running through a field of dead grass, sobbing and praying that there will be something at the end, but then the field just goes on forever. The field will end. There will be a bunch of sunflowers and roses at the end. I know there is just dead grass right now but there will be sunflowers,roses,clover,sun, and it will feel like such a relief. It will feel like life just gave you a huge hug. It will feel like life finally realized how much you were struggling and picked you up out of the field of dead grass before you did something you would regret and put you in the happiness field. I know right now you are in the sadness field but the happiness field is very close my love. Very close. I promise. You can take on the world. Life has its ups and downs and that’s normal. Just please hold on. I need you here. And so many people care about you, including me. I know this is coming from a random stranger on the internet but i mean it. You are special and you were brought into this world for a reason. You are here to serve a purpose. And if you ever feel like giving up, just know you are not alone. I’ve been there. Heck, I’ve tried to give up before. But it didn’t get me anywhere. I believe in you. You can do this and I love you. If you ever need anyone I’m here for you, alright? Good! And if music is one of your coping skills (it’s definitely one of mine) then I just made a playlist for you guys in case you need a reminder of how amazing you are. I love you! -clay (they/it) open.spotify.com/playlist/2q1eQ004H4mVF1vxUSo0Bb?si=EoAeYB-IRV6UW0mf1RZU-g&dl_branch=1