Dan Mace uploaded a truly inspiring video today that made me feel something deeply for the first time in a very long time. A call to action to overcome mental illness and to talk about and share our struggles and tribulations. A call to action to heal, to understand, to move forward individually and as a community.
I've been fighting with depression and anxiety for over 12 years. I've been dealing with it so long I've all but forgotten what it feels like just to feel normal again.
This video shows how I got to where I am today. I think talking about and helping mental illness heal is educating others how we actually feel. Depression and anxiety feel different and has different causes to each individual. I'm not overly sad or "depressed" all the time I just feel too full, unable to feel the joys and the sadness in day to day life.
I still feel big events and feel deep emotions incredibly harshly, but finding inspiration in day to day life.. finding a desire to do anything, to get out of bed or to make a video.. is all but impossible.
I purposely isolate myself from others aside from interacting on screens to a bare minimum because what i lack in feeling for myself I make up for ten fold in feeling what other's feel. My empathy is off the chart. Not only do I understand other's struggles because of where I've been in my life.. but i feel it.
Being around others is so exhausting that at the end of the day I feel so full of emotional overload, so heavy, so stuffed to the seems I want nothing more than to cease existing because it's too strong. It's too much. It's too much.
I think my numbness is a byproduct of hypersensitivity to others. Being able to feel such extreme highs and lows has made my perspective of feelings so large that small things, day to day things dont hardly register...
Dan's video moved me to action and for that I will be forever grateful.
If you haven't seen it go check it out here: • Falling off a 10 Story...
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30 май 2018
