Jesus Christ died for your sins on the cross. Repent and believe in him or you will be separated from God The Father for all eternity and face hell forever.
@Puraido evuansu means that when you cry in front of a mirror- the reflection will cry like you do, it won't laugh. It won't make fun of you like some people may.
"Butterflies can't see their own wings, which is sad because they can't see how beautiful they are. I think you're a butterfly because You're beautiful but you just can't see it" I don't know who made this quote but it just makes me feel better about myself whenever I read or hear it
The people who listen to this genre are the people can bring a light out of nowhere. The people who know what the soul sounds like, the world changers. They just have to keep the music in themselves.
I wrote a poem to this music: The lake became a mirror Reflecting upon death And the trees no longer swayed When the breeze took its last breath Solemn silence took the reigns And the planet stood stock-still All activity was absent As if time had fallen ill She stood there at the water’s edge Before twice the world she knew A creation and its copy A kaleidoscopic view Lines blurred into obscurity Reality now obsolete Dimensional barriers shattered An image she could not complete The soundlessness grew louder Her sanity wore thin She grieved for the forgotten While the world grieved for the wind And so a stone was lifted Leaving ripples in the skies As the world turned upside down Right before her very eyes The lake became a mirror Reflecting upon birth And the trees began to sway When the breeze came back to Earth
I just got interested when I saw the thumbnail and the title. I never expected that the comment section will blew me away. I stayed for an hour and almost finished the whole music just to scroll down and read every word that was breathed out by beautiful souls. I'm definitely coming back to read more.
@@vegetablack8114 Fr, reminder to keep coming back and to read more 😁I've never seen such a wholesome and caring comment section in my entire life, it's like everyone here understands one another without having to psychically speak or say something, you just read their comments, and it's like you can feel what they are feeling. Something that humans can't explain.
Although that might won't get read by anyone, I still gonna write it.. I hope for happiness to come for me and everyone else as well someday, because we all deserve it
Same to you, sad music fan. Sad music is happiness for the deep soul. Whether it be tragedy, lifelong torture or intellect that's brought you here, may you be the difference in your own life, that creates the drive, the work, the effort to bring happiness into your world and those around you. Just remember, the struggle will never stop, but you won't either.
Sometimes, music is like our only friend. We always find a song to relate to, and it’s like our therapist, in a way. Just remember you’re not the only one. Hope you doing good :)
i think it might come from our primal instincts to survive, if you're cornered, you fight back and hope for the best, no matter how unlikely it is for you to win because there are no other options.
To my dearest Pauline. It has been 13 years now since I lost you to cancer. There has not been a day that you have not been on my mind and in my heart. You were my soul mate in everyway. Thank you for blessing me with so much happiness and love. Love that I will carry safe in my heart till I see you again on the far side of heaven.
For those listening right now, we are the people that try even when the last hope runs out, we are the people that try and shine light in the darkest tunnels, we are people that put others lives and happiness before our own, we are the people that go beyond what most would do for their friends. And for that know, despite the pain you face, you are the people with the strongest wings and most beautiful souls. Those who can take the biggest beatings and keep being kind. For those who are struggling right now, things will get better, there is light at the end of the tunnel. It may rain, it may pour, but like every storm it passes, and when it does the sky is blue and the air is clear
When you are suffering depressed sad but you have to hide it but when someone comes ask do you feel alright you say yeah I'm fine....but when they say it's ok tell me what's wrong....you cry ....you don't cry bcz of your suffering and sadness...you cry bcz finally there is someone is willing to listen to you and be by your side and most importantly understand you ...
@@SomniSerotonin ik you're just an internet troll, ive seen all the comments you've left on literally everything here, but you truly are such an awful waste of life.
@@SomniSerotonin He does and will always be there for you, He will catch you as soon as you fall, He the most forgiving will always love you, 10x more than your own mother does, He will hear you if no one else does, He is the one that sees and hears it all, He will answer you if no one else will, He will never take anything away from you, He will never hurt you, He is your stress reliever. He is Allah. The most high, the most great. ❤
The more Im told this one the more I kinda hate it. Why can’t I do both? What’s wrong with being sad AND happy? I need that. I’m not gonna be able to process a lot of stuff if I’m not both.
what hurts more is keeping them inside while you are with the closest people to you. Believe me that hurts more and it hurts more when you suddenly realize that you suppress your feelings from yourself. It hurts when the closest people to you don't accept that you can't be happy all the time. In their eyes you have everything and you're too young to feel sad. They say they are more hurt than you there are people that having it worse than you and they never acknowledge your true feelings. you have to be happy. you have to feel satisfied and be grateful for them and understandable for what they're going throw. when it comes to you it doesn't matter all . what you have to do is be successful and excellent at school . later when you have that perfect job your life is gonna be perfect your gonna be endless happy they tell you. you pretend to be happy you laugh you smile no matter what . you start wearing the mask in your own home. all the time and everywhere. till at some point you don't know what your true feelings are till that one time you realize that you feel what is expected from you to feel. you realize that your feeling became covered from your own self. you feel lost and down but you don't have time for that because you have to be successful you have to be perfect all the time. and they always criticise you on every little thing you do you are never good enough. when you do something Good they're never grateful your efforts are and will be always normal the lowst thing they except . you have nobody even yourself because you have lost it you ignore it for too long and now you are here. want to say bye to this life and at the same time want to change it make it better but then you remember that your future only depends on them they are controlling you and why should you try then if they can destroy it at anytime. I'm sorry for my bad englisch it's not my first language . I want to thank you for writing this comment I finally got out what I should have long ago ans I will try to try and not give up.
I think all of us listening to this now... We find out that our hearts are broken in some way and souls are often cold. Even if most of the time we feel okay.... this feeling is somewhere there deep inside waiting to crack us and bring down... We often can't cope with something. We think too much and sometimes realize that our life is not so great as we want it to be... When I listen to this, my soul is getting warm like something is hugging it. My heart get's hope. Hope that everything is going to be okay and we will find ourselves in this strange and mad world of coldiness. If you accept your dark side and accept sadness... You can be better version of yourself. Happy life for you all...
That's beautiful, really but not for me anymore. I stopped to hope, because every time i hope things will be better, they don't. They even are worst. And it's much more suffering when you have hope. I just had hope for too long. Every time i think things to be better, they become worst. Everytime i say a girl how much i love her, she tells me she doesn't because she has bad experiences or just because she doesn't love me more than a friend. My heart have been broken too much time by life, and this time i don't think it will be repaired one day. I feel like i'm empty inside and i doubt that something will fill that void one day. But even if i'm sad, hopeless or anything like that, i will do my best to help other to be happy again. To everyone who reads this one day, never forget that you deserve love and a happy life.
"Sometimes I wonder, what's the point of living....it's not like anyone cares about you 'till you're gone. Maybe I'll see some old friends then too" - Soldier who lost his battle against PTSD and depression.
You are loved, You are needed, there is another task waiting for you and it wont get done with out you. Thank you for your service Soldier but its time... Its time to find some meaning in your suffering, its time to use your pain to help serve others and in turn you may help yourself. Your next mission starts now. Lets GO! happy hunting!
Hey you, nobody said it's going to be easy - for you it's been beyond what most can imagine. There is kindness and good things in this world that balance out the things you have have seen, and done. You now deserve some of that!
@@markwoodborne oh, I'm sorry im not and never claimed to be a vet. These were the last 2 sentences on my cousin's suicide letter. He went through some shit in Afghanistan and he couldn't take it anymore. We lost him back in 2019
@@Ghxst750 No worries, please don't apologize. I'm so sorry for you and yours. Your cousin is a hero no matter the situation. I know depression and can only imagine that with PTSD.
"The wisest people have suffered the most " "The people with the brightest smile i cried the most" When you hurt someone its like crumpling a peice of paper when uou open it again no matter how hard you try it will never be the same again
They say: It's never about standing tall all the time. It's about getting up when you are down. Again and again. Day after day. But finally in the end, we all have to go. So where's the point in all of this? When we could avoid so much suffering and pain...
It shows yourself how strong you are and when you reach the top, you will be so proud of yourself that you never gave up on yourself even with all this pain. You will say I suffered but in the end i got what i wanted. Without that suffering you maybe couldn't have done it.
Pain. People think it is feeling hurt, but it is so much more. It is that longing deep inside. That thought that you could of been so much more. That urge to go back and change it all. Pain makes companions of us all. It is a part of us. But that’s ok. Because pain is what will make you stronger. We try to avoid it, but by doing so, we are not complete. Suffering is just fearing the moment you are in. Don’t suffer from pain. Not when it’s emotional pain. It is so much stronger they the physical kind.
I wish we had a group where we could share our stories, encouraging one another and even finding solutions to other problems. We all go through many things in life, but we have to be strong. I know how things are, it's like screaming loud and no one hears you. Just keep on fighting your battle, you won't be alone anymore 🙂. Keep in mind depression is a war on itself, it's either you win or die trying. So my people I urge you to keep on encouraging those who feel like it's an end. I love you all.
I got goosebumps at almost every piece... sometimes i just froze and fell into a transe... This... this is music. Something that conveys a strong emotional reaction.
Villain: "You have lost everything. There is nothing for you to fight for anymore." Hero: "Then I will fight for nothing, and it in turn will become everything." Villain: "You would still fight if there is no hope?" Hero: "What can I say. It's in my nature." Villain: "You Spartans are truly crazy." -Me
If you are still fighting, so you don't lose everything yet, you are just fighting for yourself and for what do you believe, and, or feel. But if you lose yourself you will lose everything.
Hero: I am the hope. The light that shines when there is only darkness. You may say there is nothing but if there is the slightest amount of hope, it’s not nothing. These seeds of hope, salvation, joy will eventually grow. It may take time but they will grow. That is what I fight for
Best believe we live to die and die to live Hart keeps getting s going the will to save another is are joy no matter the pain we go trough we will not stop win or loose we fight
If ur reading 📖 this ur probably scrolling down through the comments listening to this beautiful music I know you have lost someone or there not in your life any more your the one in the back of your friend group your the one who cheers Evryone up but know one there’s for however,everyone is here for u now there’s bright at the end of the tunnel ur dreams will come true if u believe so go on try try and try harder for the best result go on solider good luck on ur jurney 😊
When the Last Hope runs out... That is when we find it within ourselves, The will to live, the will to breathe the flame that burns eternal When the Last Hope runs out And all the world crumbles at our sides, That is when we build a new world, together Because the Truth is When the Last Hope runs out A New Hope begins Always Within and Forever Beyond
A hero doesn't know they're the hero A true villain knows they're the villain The innocent thinks they are guilty The guilty know they are guilty The truth teller's fear liars Liars fear the truth teller's Fear fears respect Respect fears nothing Rudeness is free Kindness is earned The world my be evil But hope remains And if hope remains Then life goes on But once the spark goes out... It's out forever so don't whatever you do Don't let the spark die Or we will all go with it Because when pandora opened the box Hope stayed It is up to the good to keep it from those who seek to destroy it And the good are spread thin.... While the bad are all around us The world may be dying But We don't have to go out silently We can go Down with a Bang
Man all these people commenting amazing quotes, stories, and poems. And I'm just like, hehe just used this song to help me write an angsty scene in my fic
I’d be lying if I didn’t say... that this music has helped me through a lot. The only kind of music i can understand.... even though there are no words it’s like I can still here a gentle whisper having a conversation with me. I will sit outside for hours by day looking up at the clouds by night looking at the stars. Amazing job! 🙂
This isn't when the last hope runs out, this when you realize what you've been doing hasn't solved the issue, and you come to terms with the waste that created...and start looking for the real solution.
The fact that most people can break you down can make you loose hope... "the broken are the wisest" "the loneliest can make others happy because they don't want anything happen to them" "the saddest brings happiness to others" :(
"The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest." -Unknown I saw you comment and was reminded of this. I saw it years ago but I have never forgotten it and how it's impacted my life. I hope it does the same for you. 💕😊
I as well do. I have generalize anxiety disorder, I was diagnosed with that, severe depression, and was told I went through trauma and some other things.
To everyone listening, ive read the comments and i agree, we are the people who bring out the good in people, we are the ones who would sacrifice evryhting we have for someone, we are the people who have music in our souls making it hard for us to be normal. we are the ones that live and die for music. we are the ones who give up evryhing for their frineds family, lovers evryone. we may have it hard now but we will find our light and get through the pain and sufferning. we may even find true happiness. right now im suffering from alot of past trauma but im doing well and getting my life together somehow. and im trying to find my light my happiness my love my everythinig i need and want. and i bet your all trying to. so keep going trying doing evrything on your power to find what your looking for. ( i bet alot of yall are libras) lol
Do you ever just sit and cry about life, about yourself, about the good and the bad. Do you ever just wanna sit in the dark watching the rain and cry along with the sky. Because sometimes I find myself sitting at the bottom of my room holding myself as I stare into the sky grasping for air as tears feel like there being pulled out of me by someone else. I can find myself having great days of smile and laughter yet sit was sadness washed over me, listening to thunder clash against the earth like my fists do to my desk. Hearing it shake the earth like the screams that shake you from holding them inside. To only find that once you can scream nothing comes out only thin air of tight breaths with hot tears pooling your eyes. Sometimes over nothing, sometimes over everything and no matter how hard you try, all you can do is sit and watch yourself break apart and rebuild right in front of you
@@danielrae_ this post is actually a few years old but the OG vid got taken down and I had rewritten it here! While the days are hard they’re always getting better!
I like this because I get creative with it and its like those scenes in movies where they think its the end but something better is coming... Might be your case too! God loves u and you'll never be alone
"Absolute hope that can break through any despair. Hope can't lose in a place like this!"- Nagito Komeada To thosse who are struggling, you must move forward you may have heard the "don't give up" or "you have so much to live for" before, but I feel you should keep dreaming and persevering. Keep climbing that steep hill of sadness that I too, once climbed. I say this because once you've struggled and made it past the thorns of torment and the rocks of restraint, you'll find yourself higher than you've ever be or felt in your life and that's when you'll break free from thosse chains of despair and sadness and find the freedom and life you've longed for.
Its so hard to convey to others that your struggle compares to theirs, so that they see someone made it and they can too. I feel your wording is spot on in doing so. If i could show everyone that's facing hardship, your words, i would. But i cannot, but you showed me and i will cherish it.
I cant find a reason why ,yet i keep pushing ,one step forward only to be kicked two steps back ,the load is heavy , so many times the others leave me behind when it could have been me.I wish i could understand why!!
Thinking about my dark and tragic sad dreams right now, listening to this music makes me believe in something, I don't know what but I hope I keep wondering in my thought, so that I may never wake up. This helps a lot.❤️ Thank you.
When suddenly you feel like you’re alone in this world and the whole universe is closing in and there’s no one to talk to despite the punch of people around but no one really cares or understand the huge hole in your heart there’s something missing ever since I’m a kid the father figure the mother care I’ve been left alone in this world for so long now I don’t want to believe the fact that I was so unwelcomed to this world but the truth is always ugly, I’ve been misled, misjudged, taking for granted, I’ve never had anyone who truly believes that I was in the right place no matter how hard I was trying to fit in growing up knowing that I was just another mistake is something really hard to get along with.
@@mafer3127I feel the same. Surrounded by people. But people broke me over and over never apologizing just walking out and leaving me left and shattered to pick up the pieces alone.
@@cslsecure4163 I'm sorry for you. I hope you had a better day, life because I'm sure you are a great person. People are not nice with good people for many reasons. Feeling lonely is the most cruel feel I have too. But, I have wonderful friends et families. I get you hope and love from France. Courage mon ami 🤍
No matter how many times people try to get rid of hope it always comes back stronger even if no one believes that there is any hope left and that is why hope is one of the things that carries us on in life.
'Your going to make it. It'll be hard but your going to make it.' -Anonymous My life has not been the best. My heart has been broken and I live through anxiety and depression. This life will not be easy, but we have to keep trying till we get to the top! Keep pushing forward till you can't take it anymore. Be kind to those in need, and remember that you will never be alone! (:
i love to listen this music every time because it reminds me about the strongest me, the optimistic one that never lose faith on the bright future coming after this hardest and dark moment of my life.
This has become a daily listen for me. Ive been in love with someone for quite some time now, and they barely acknowledge my existence. Can't force them to feel anything for me, wouldn't want to force them. It would be great if it came naturally, but it hasn't and won't. At least this music reflects how Im feeling about the whole situation.
I had all the reasons to go dark, but I chose to move forward with my life and accept what God has given me, even though I felt like it wasn't good for me, God still knows better. -Tobey (15/11/2021)
@ Meh, from a gameplay perspective yeah. That last of us 2 wasn't anything great. From a story perspective it was really good. People who don't understand why it's story was great are emotionally immature.
@@Mfolsom245 Nah dude. It's opposite for me. Liked the gameplay and all, but the story suck giant dicks. The inconsistencies in the story, bad characters and poor writing reeally bring it all down. Shame since the game could have been so much better.
Hearing these tunes, I can see myself in my imagination, looking back through the years at my younger self that willingly and eagerly stepped up to defend this country at its worst hour. That was twenty years ago (has it BEEN that long?!). I remember the pain I felt as I pushed through all the hardships (it WAS for a good cause so that other wouldn't have to experience likewise). I remember my own injuries. I remember my own blood staining the ground. I remember potential futures given up and relationships lost. I remember was Could-Have-Been and what Should-Have-Been. Still, I fought on. Because I had to. Fast forward to now. The last couple of years have been harsh to say the least and we all know why. But still I did what I had to for others. That youthful idealism still sustained me. Then I saw what the chaos was turning people into: monsters that had been hiding in the shadows finally came out into the open. People began acting in ways they NEVER would have done just a few years prior. The fear and uncertainty brought out something nasty in them, and instead of protecting _them_ from other people I had to start protecting other people from _THEM_ . "What are you doing?!" "What are you saying?!" "How can you act like this?!" "Stop!" "Think!" I tried to warn them, over and over, but when once they used to listen to me and respect my insight instead they demonized me for NOT attacking the people THEY were attacking. People who'd once cheered and thanked me for my service suddenly and openly hated me for being what I was...yet I was the same protector they'd benefited under for nearly twenty years. Then I got injured. The concussion did some damage. The burns on my arm only partially healed; I can still feel the pain, but I'm so used to it now that I barely notice it. The losses hurt more. Friends turned their backs on me because I was suddenly the Enemy. Other friends turned their backs on me because I dared to question their motives. Fear had consumed all of them, and festered into anger, then hatred, and then they wanted to make other people suffer. That line sounds familiar. Now, hearing this music, I look back through the years and wonder what it was all for? To protect ungrateful bastards who take everything for granted? For people who now look for any opportunity they can to look down upon me? For ideologies that make no sense? Because I volunteered to DEFEND them all when they came to people like me twenty years ago saying "Help us! Save us! Protect us!"? I feel betrayed by the very people who expected me to protect them. Worse, my younger self was betrayed; everything he once believed in no longer exists. Everything he hoped for in the future has been a lie. Everything he'd looked forward to accomplishing five years...ten years...down the line never happened. Everything has become a twisted, corrupted Wyrd mutation of what it all was supposed to be...and the people I once stood in front of as a guardian laugh and mock me. "We don't need you." "We don't want you." "You're a disgrace." "You're a waste." Why did I even bother? What was it all for? Why did I even try? Before much longer I'll be able to stand down. Once I do, I'll leave this place and disappear somewhere (exile). And I'll NEVER protect these people ever again. Not after they destroyed the memory of the younger me that took so much pride in doing his part to protect everyone.
@@mr.busticador2691 Simple - everything I was told and I gave it my all without hesitation. If that meant holding the line, then I held the line and made not one step back. If that meant going places other people were terrified of going, then I went. If that meant advancing towards whatever it was that other people were fleeing from, then I went forward. If that meant facing threats that other people would have balked at because they carried with them the risk of injury or death, then I faced injury and death. So that people like YOU wouldn't have to.
Hey, how are you now? I believe that one day i'll feel this, partially im am now. I am following the path where my life will be the deciding factor of someone's future or my short end. When those whom I protect turn their backs, still, I cannot forget that what i do is good, contained good. Maybe the suffering i put in doesn't give me back tenfold. However, that will be my next mission, to ensure that the goodness that nurtured me into doing good doesn't end. Sure, other people will disagree, but I will stand my ground. Because that is what it means to be human, to have different opinions. I will not be subject to their simple human emotions of being comfortable in their narcissistic bubbles, if i know it is wrong, if my life was directed toward correcting those wrongs, SO BE IT! I WILL NOT FALL, I WILL LIVE A MEANINGFUL LIFE! THERE ARE OTHERS WHO NEED MY HELP! WHO WILL APPRECIATE IT MORE THAN MY CURRENT PEERS! I WILL DIE A MEANINGFUL DEATH! Not everyone will agree with me but, if my knowledge has helped and nourished those who need it and they bloom because of it, that is something that I will do till the end. Those who have taken it but turned their back, they will unfortunately burn under their own mental utopia. I shall start a better way of thinking.
Living is all there is to look for- Stick though the bad times, even when you're torn apart with no hope of being put together. Stay. Stay because people love you. People you don't know love you. Because you are you. Remember that. No matter what people tell you, I love you. - A kind person on the internet
I write a poem hope you like it: Hope! And if you ask me, “so, what happens, when hope runs out!” I’d say, “When hope runs out, life still runs on hope!”* Hope. It grows out of the desserts. and the arid land. where nothing else can grow. It’s the last thing that dies. when everything else is gone. It’s the last thing that dies. when everything else is gone
“Hold back the tears you want to shred, life has its ups and downs, but if you fall, you are left broken on the floor. -I will finish later and btw I wrote this.
Irk, din, dil, ten rengi hiç birisi önemli değil hepimiz aynıyız hissediyoruz, yaşıyoruz, acı çekiyoruz, seviniyoruz ve sonunda ölüyoruz... Bu şarkıyı dinleyenlere ve bu yorumu okuyanlara bir mesajım var "Asla umutlarını kaybetme..!".
"After all I've done, when will they do it for me? Why won't they fight for me too?" The great wise man pondered, his eyes trailing over the wonderful world surrounding them. "Sometimes, people won't love you as much as you love them. That is okay. But when you look at the person in the mirror, know that they will. When you smile, they will smile back. When you embrace, they will always do it too. And in the end, that is all you may have. Because the one on the glass knows your thoughts. We will all be lonely. We will be born alone and die alone." Grabbing the hero in his arms he whispered: "Fight for yourself in the way that nobody did for you. That is the only way to achieve happiness." The warms arms of the hero fell on his lap, "I see, thank you." The man in the mirror said to the man looking upon it.
This is by FAR the BEST comment section I have ever seen 😢👏🥺 Thank you all for your inspiring words 👏🙌😔😭 I really needed this. I also want to repeat a poem someone else said. This one is my favorite. Though all of them are amazing. 🤗 Never give up, Never give in Fight till you lose or Fight till you win. Never let up, never let down. Never let the frightened see you frown. Wield your weapons, conquer your fears. Work until your sweat replaces their tears. Learn from your losses, savor your wins. Prepare for your next one and the battle again.
Anyone here ! Anyone that can understand the feel of pain when u are so tired from everything from growing from loving from trying to put ur life together anyone who is screaming so so loud but inside when no one can here ? No matter how many times tell your self its okay i can move on and i will move on and u start changing start being a different you ..but in a moment of weakness a moment that u didn’t have any idea when its gonna hit , that moment when all the pain all the broken dreams and the sad wishes that will never be true hit you so damn hard ..so so hard and u can’t do anything about and the worst part is u can’t tell anyone about it you are all alone in this box full of pain 💔
Though we do not know what lies beyond the event horizon of a black hole, we do know that it is not ‘nothing’, but rather it is compact mass of such density under such force that even atoms cannot escape its gravity. Within its centre, matter itself may be rearranged in ways inconceivable to us and beyond the laws of physics as we understand them. This is awesome in the truest sense: terrifying and wondrous to behold.
This music perfectly captures my feelings when I had to go to the “Family Room” in the ER with my fiancé’s family to hear that my love , my life, was gone forever... I never want to walk that hallway again 😪 it’s amazing how you can literally feel your own soul die :/
Stay strong who ever you are what you asked God is all ready youres remain strong i know it hurts but you will be ok youre wildest dreams are bout to become true .i❤u
In your existence, you must hope and act. Hope without action is at times delusional. Action without hope is just an empty move. *Some things are worth fighting for and when hope runs out we must act to bring it back*
"Those who do not understand true pain can never understand true peace" -pain From naruto shippuden One of the best anime I've ever seen love hate sad hope and happiness
@@ashleyjones9756 I think it's makes sense in a way but ig it won't always apply to everyone or situation. But I definitely think tht quote has something most won't see and understand until it happens to them
@@JuanRodriguez-gj5zk Agreed, Kinda like understanding light after the darkness, analogy for mental suffering too. I just think everyone should understand.
After all the struggles I've had over the past few years, I've learned that I have no purpose. I've always been the person I hated and that kind of person should have no place in this world, maybe in the afterlife, she l'm not even 20 years old and I want to end it now. I can't think of a single day in my life where I'm not sad. I don't even have a valid reason to be upset. No one I know died or anything like that. I just feel this mental pain all the time. I just want a day when I'll be happy. I don't even know what it is to be happy. Tjust want the pain to pass. Just for a moment. I've tried therapy, antidepressants, and everything in between. Ijust want it to stop. I feel empty. It's like l'm at the bottom of a well and every time I go up a hill I fall and the well gets deeper and deeper, I've never tried to finish it but in my mind it probably looks like a cemetery. I can't deal with this sadness anymore. I've lost the motivation to do anything, I can't do anything right. My life is full of mistakes. I'm tired of always doing things I don't want to happen because of my stupidity. Maybe I'm too stupid for this life. I won't always "fix it"I'm tired of not being able to do anything. I don't even know how to fix this behavior of mine. I need a lot of help but just because of this behavior I lost most of the people around me. Just when I say everything. I just want this to end, no more sad songs, no more pain I need someone but I feel too broken for this world I don't want to die I want to disappear from this world I want to escape my body and run free with my soul I want to play games, drink, listen to hours of sad, depressing songs And obsessing over all the bullshit and sleeping until I can't take it anymore, maybe it's still hope, a part of me is still here waiting to heal it's hard to get up when it's lost in this shit, maybe if there was someone by my side I would feel stronger. maybe someone has read this far maybe understands what i'm saying. If this continues like this, I will commit suicide. no one takes me seriously. I would love for someone to kiss me and caress my hair, to be a happy person.Believe me, I always prayed to God, but it never made me feel good.
Please don't give up, always remember that when we fall the only failure we have is to never try to get up again, the only place to go when we feel we have hit rock bottom it up, there's always someone out there that will come along just hold fast to that hope.
I wish i could tell you it gets better. Everyday i live so my daughter will not be mourning her dead mother. I have to live, she has me, even though i am broken
I know exactly how you feel because i am the same way. I literally have felt this way since i was 14 and to this day it is still a struggle to wake up and see any light in the world around me. I do know though that there are moments where life is actually good, days where i can smile and laugh for real. I know it seems hard to believe what I am saying because everyone says the same thing "I know how you feel" or "I have been where you are" but I know you can hold on because you have real strength inside of you. Do what I was to afraid to do at the time reach out for someone and tell them because suffering alone and in silence hurts worse and worse but reaching out for someone can really help because then you don't need to be strong on your own anymore. You are so much stronger than you believe and someone will see just how incredible you are please hold on because you are special please never think any different. I know this may not be much comfort but i believe in you and I will always be in your corner rooting for you and give you the strength and comfort you need for anything life will put you through.
