What kind of an idiot would suggest you eat lower calorie foods so you can feel full longer? Why would someone with an eating disorder want to feel fuller? I realize eating disorders are difficult to understand but talk about ignorance! Your approach to recovery is inspiring. I agree with the jump in concept. Little steps never yield lasting results for me. Thank you for documenting your journey.
Sarah Mockingbird you have to keep in mind that the person who wrote that is probably still struggling from an eating disorder! When I was anorexic I loved the feeling of emptiness and I loved hearing my stomach growl. That person is probably sick still and is probably eating the lowest calories food in order to eat a large quantity to feel full.
Yes, I think that question (including the suggestion of switching to a more restrictive diet), while probably innocently meant, was coming straight from an ED, rather than the individual themselves.
Yeah but for eating disordered people that aren't recovered yet are certainly kind of ignorant when it comes to that kind of things 😂 I can't tell you the amount of people that I've seen go vegan to 'recover' so essentially they aren't ready to actually recover.
That vegan question really bothered me. I feel like for someone else (aka me) if they said “the food your eating isnt healthy” - that would trigger me and throw my recovery off. I’m sorry that you kept getting bugged by these vegans questions. ANYWAYS, I love your videos. They’re so awesome and motivational and you’re so beautiful! I’m so proud of how far you’ve gotten . I use to restrict and count calories and starve and compesate. My recovery didn’t go well because I immediately turn to binging. But I’m doing okay. I still have sort of a bad relationship with food but your videos are hopeful. Thank you for being so open and making these videos.
zayu yeyo ikr?? Like I'm trying to make a lifestyle change where I'm less conscious about my food, I don't need to be "half" on a "diet" by forcing myself to make another change and cut out entire food groups
Candy Sugars exactly. Like she said in the end. Your perspective on healthy is different than someone else. Thinking about what you “shouldnt” eat and “should” is a trigger. Yeah, wonderful for people to go vegan but its not easy for others.
Im vegan myself and I also think this question was triggering and unnecessary. Not everyone can be vegan and especially for people in ed recovery it can be more unhealthy than healthy to go vegan.
Jessikitten xxx I totally agree. That’s question was triggering! I’m vegan in my recovery and I’m eating well over 3,500+ calories. People always bash me for choosing to be vegan and I don’t understand why. I’m not starving myself and honestly I feel WAYYY better. I’m not eating the healthiest all the time but being vegan makes me feel good and not disgusting from eating animal products. It’s mostly for the animals and the environment too but I’m not gonna lie it’s for my health as well.
The person asking if you ever considered being vegan/vegetarian to "help" your ED made me so angry. The whole point of recovery is to forget about what foods are"unhealthy/healthy", and just eat because you are hungry, without limitations. There is a lot more to a healthy diet than calories and nutritional values.
Elisabeth Andersen i think that going vegan is what a lot of people do when 'recovering' from restrictive ed's....though I don't really understand how to consider yourself recovered if you restrict yourself from a whole category of food but ok
Also clearly the person who asked it doesn’t know what a vegan lifestyle really looks like. There is a lot of vegan junk food and calorie loaded vegan foods. The people I know who are actually vegan and healthy don’t restrict themselves at all, they just eat the non animal version of food including cheeses and meat and then eat a wide variety of food from Oreos to veggies. There shouldn’t be restriction just because you don’t eat animal products
But if you are recovering from an eating disorder any Limitation and of rules of Foods that you are not "allowed" to eat is a restriction. It will be an additional thought even if just for a second that is spend on Food and thinki´ng about what to eat. Recovery is about freeing yourself from those thought. So totally agree that the Person has not really thought her question through. Also agree that vegetarianism or veganism implies health!
Today I challenged myself and went over my 500cal limit. Even topped it off with a brownie. I dont feel great about it and struggling to keep it down but your videos are really helping me make that push.
I think with the whole "why are you eating unhealthy" question, they dont understand that anorexia is so much more deadly than a frickin cheesrburger. Your eating disorder literally could have killed you, and whatever you have to eat right now to get sufficient energy to your body IS what is healthiest. If in a few years you feel like your body would feel healthier if you added more vegetables to your diet or whatever then great, but the most important thing here is that you're able to eat enough to keep your body alive.
You answered that vegetarian/vegan question in a perfect way! You inspire us all to perceive food as simply that food; not bad or good, but food. Thank you, darling!
"You aren't being healthy, eat vegan" I don't think they understand that recovering from anorexia the healthy thing to eat....is anything you wish. Like seriously your metabolism is in overdrive and whatever you have to eat gets burned off quickly as it is so you have no worries with any type of food that you wish to have. The only time I would say you should actually be more careful about foods is when you get into your mid 40s or something when your metabolism will slow down a bit but even then it doesn't slow down a ton for everyone just some individuals. My question for you is, how is your muscle tone now compared to what it was before your disorder and during your disorder?
I don't think they necessarily meant calories but rather the nutritional density of the food :) It doesn't even need to be vegan, but obviously eating more vitamins, minerals etc is really good for your body, especially if you're recovering from not eating enough!
I don't think an individual who is recovering or has recovered from an eating disorder would serve their long term well-being by ever "being careful" about the foods they choose to eat, regardless of age. This could easily become a slippery slope, even later in life, for many people with an eating disorder history. The reality is, eating disorder recovery requires an individual to completely ditch a diet mentality for the rest of their life. Be willing to eat any and all foods in a variety of settings and scenarios. Eat what they truly enjoy. Eat to full satiety, respecting hunger and fullness cues. This requires a lot of effort in the short term (if you could call 4, 5, 6 years or more "short term)...and requires not allowing thoughts like, "well I'm older so my metabolism is slower" dictate your recovery in the future.
Your editing is life. It is often subtle but damn I love how much it adds to the video. And I appreciate how calmly and attentively you answered all the questions and how clear you articulate your thoughts. Thank you 💕
My idea of healthy is to eat variety of foods, to really listen to your cravings and your mental hunger too! Being healthy is NOT just about healthy food and exercise, it is also about taking care of your mentality, of your spirit; to also relax and taking a rest and also put all of the foods on a ''GOOD'' list. It is just food at the end of the day, which helps us to really enjoy our life the way we are supposed to! Thank you for being so positive and bringing such a positive vibes into our lifes, love ya girl! 💗
Im vegetarian myself and I was so mad about the vegan/vegetarian question because I would find myself either becoming orthorexic or just eating large amounts of like cucumbers or so to trick myself if I went vegan even for "recovery" reasons that would just be my ed tricking me.. but as I said Im vegetarian and that works for me but I also didnt become vegetarian for ed or recovery reasons I was just born into a family of vegetarians.. anyways soso happy that you foumd sth that works for you
I‘d love to „get to know you“ better, so questions like: do you have siblings? why do you speak english perfectly if you grew up in hong kong? do you speak chinese? do you have a job or what do you want to do with your life? ... etc. I‘m sure there would be a tag for it
I can answer your second question. Hong Kong was once colonized by the British I think their currency also once was pound ( I think about 1970 correct me if I'm wrong) the people that were born in the time British Hong Kong existed also got a British passport that's why most Hong Kong Chinese people can speak perfect English with no accent or to be more specific with a British accent. ( Most countries learn British English but because Hong Kong was once British they don't just learn it as an second language you once learn in school they learn it like you would speak it everyday as if they were toddler's that live in England and are now learning speaking. (J-) hope that helped you ;)
I don't think going vegan/vegetarian would be a good idea, at this stage, personally, I've seen soooo many stories from youtubers whom were in recovery from eating disorders flat out admit that they chose those diets not because they fully embraced the lifestyle at the time but more because it provided extra rules for them to follow and in that way enable their already restrictive dietary habits. Diets that have specific rules like that -- lo carb, keto, blahblahblah, should really only be considered by people whom already have a healthy relationship with food. AND EVEN THEN *deap breath*.... D: Not that it's a terrible suggestion! Because it's not necessarily, buuuuuut I'd take those suggestions with a grain of sodium.
I literally love these videos so much, I don't suffer from an ED but my best friend did and i love her so much. A video on how to support a friend suffering would be so amazing without being triggering or pushing them to restrict further x
I'd love a video on intuitive eating vs calorie counting! It's definitely a thing I'm struggling with right now, I think, with the ways I've trained my brain to think over the past year, but I'm hoping that changes. As always, absolutely loved the video and your ability to speak openly and enthusiastically about food and everything else-can't wait for your next upload!
I loved your answers. No restrictions and no fear or bad foods is recovering. Eat what you want when you want..health is more than what we eat its mentality as well xxx
I am also struggling with anorexia and i have watched many recovery videos. The thing is that i don’t see anyone talking about hair loss. Did you lose your hair and If you did, when did it grew back? You’re amazing!!! I am so fascinated of your everyday challenges and your positive way of talking about eating disorders❤️❤️❤️
I love you so much, you encourage me to fight against my ED, with your previous video I eat a desert with not shame at all, thank you so much for every video and all the effort you put on this
I love your videos!!! I could watch you every day! I agree with you about eating “healthy food “ that healthy eating mindset can lead to orthorexia and ED mindset. I agree with you 100% Can you do a video on exercise?
I just found your channel and I am LOVING IT! I'm currently on the road to recovery. I still go through huge ups and downs, but I do believe it's getting better overall. It's so easy to feel like no one else gets it, so finding your channel was SO nice, hearing lots of things that I've also experienced. Keep it up please!!! :)
I would love for you to make a video about calorie counting vs intuitive eating! I always under eat when I try to eat intuitively, so have to use calorie counting to make sure I eat enough... Would really love for you to talk about this!!
I love u girl..... Ur an inspiration. And ur right, none at all cuz its either all or nothing. Changing everything is the only way to do it, cuz there is no comparison or compensating because the ED it addiction is only in it for all not partial and elf eventually get u back right where u were and being accountable is HUGE. IT IS MOST DEFIANTLY A MUST!
Yes to Calorie counting to Intuitive Eating video!!! I love your channel! We have a similar mindset with our recoveries. So hard to find on RU-vid. So many “recovered” channels that are about restriction.
I hope you know that you’re doing a great job with your channel, you can see how much effort you put into your videos and editing and also how much you’re enjoying yourself. I think you’re gonna do great things on this platform. Lots of love 💛
yess i would love a video on intuitive eating !! am rly trying to eat intuitively but i find it hard to know if i'm having enough bc my hunger cues are rubbish
Thank you so much for your video's - ive come across several recovery channels but honestly, for me personally yours is truly inspiring me in my yourney. I didnt like the tone of the vegan/veggie question. I'm a vegan / vegetarian (depending on situations), because of environmental/animal welfare reasons. It helps my recovery to the extend that I'm fully standing behind the meals I'm eating. And I believe we all should find our own values regarding food/environment et cetera. I don't believe being vegan equals eating healthier. The nutrition one needs varies from person to person, moreover, who says a meat-eater wouldn't opt for plant-based food when they want to or need to? It's all not that black and white..
Do you see yourself exercising and eating “healthy” in the future to live the stereo typical “ideal” lifestyle or do you think that it might be too triggering for you eating disorder? For example taking the recommended amount of steps or exercise time prescribed by doctors and having a “normal” bmi? Love your videos ! Your positivity is so contagious 💓💓
Eating lunch while watching! I’ve decided to have Oreos (emphasis on the plural :o) for dessert as my challenge on “healthy foods” 👍🏻 SO excited for two videos a week 😮💓
Love this video!! You’re doing such a great job 🧡 i am so proud of you and so happy that you talk about your ed so openly 💘 My question: what’s your all time favorite food?
I've just found you on RU-vid randomly, and I'm glad I did. I think you're still fairly new to this, but can I just say that you're already killing it?! You're intelligent, articulate, mature, and it shows. It's just that there's a lot of stigma around ED, and that's why you get questions that aren't as informed as they should be - but I hope they don't get to you. You got yourself another sub, and would love to know more about you personally beyond your ED in your next few videos!
You have such a contagious positive actitud! Love your personality. My questions are: where did you get a British accent if you are from Hong Kong and only been to the States? 😅 And, what have been the struggles and positives of making public your ED here in YT? Take care, Rebeca.
I’m recovering in a similar way by eating “unhealthy” foods (cue the eye roll). if you have them, how do you deal with the thoughts/comments that you’re recovering “wrong”? if that makes sense at all lol
So many people who are “””recovered””” are vegan and I don’t buy it. It’s very common that they are not entirely recovered, and they are using veganism as a reason to cut out certain food groups. It’s just as disordered as restricting
Please do the Video about calorie counting vs. intuitive eating ❤ P.S.: You're so beautiful - especially because you always have a Smile in your face 👑
Okay so I know you mainly talk about your eating disorder on here but I just wanted to say I love how you love and embrace your birthmark! I have on one my nose that I've always been insecure about but I'm trying to learn to love it as it is a part of me, part of my body, and crucial to loving myself and you have helped me. So thank you
You are so inspiring! I am recovering from anorexia and orthorexia, and you have helped so much! Question: how do keep up eating whatever and not being restrictive even after you recover? I’m scared I will get over this, and then start restricting again.
what is the lipstick yu usually wear? I looove it!!! Also love your vids!!! You're doing great :))) Could you do a video about your fav places in hong kong or showing us a little bit around? I'm so curious about the city!
I looove your channel and I know this has nothing to do with eds but could you make some videos about Hong Kong and where you live or something? It was so much fun seeing you around the beach and stuff, idk
I absolutely love your response to veganism. I was a vegetarian for over 13 years, before my ED struck, and I went vegan to try and recover in a healthier way... WORST decision of my life. I developed hypoglycemia, even though I was eating carb after carb source, constantly, and felt absolutely awful. I knew I wouldn’t truly be recovered until I listened to my own body and gave it the balance it was absolutely screaming for. The thousands of calories of vegetables and “WFPB” approach did nothing to help me recover. Listening to myself and eating the fish, the eggs, the oats, the broccoli, and even the simplest of things like adding creamer to my coffee is what made all the difference. I feel very bad for those who are masking their recovery with the mindset they have that veganism is a cure-all, when that is very much so not the case at all - and never will be. 💕
Heyyy I'm 22 too!! You're such a breath of fresh air and so articulate in both how you convey your thoughts and how your editing skills reflect this too. I've recovered from anorexia though I don't feel like I'm fully there, you're actually better than me with doing recovery properly because I was never this good with eating 'junk food so you're very inspiring'. I always just found that I would eat something 'unhealthy' then restrict or make myself sick and I found the repercussions of eating it made it not worth it. Now i tend to just eat foods I know won't lead to self loathing and body dysmorphia that stemmed from eating say a cookie as it made me feel 'fat' and skewed how I saw myself. Today I went up to London with a friend and I felt fine until I had a cupcake then I started viewing my body as large and it ruined my day, I don't feel like I've fully accepted my new weight and the eating healthy is a way for me to secretly lose weight again. Though when I got home i watched some of your videos to remind myself that food is good not bad and my thoughts are irrational so thank you you are a true life angel. Also another part (sorry for this being so long, I've also never commented on a RU-vid video before but you've inspired me so I had to) I don't know quite where your anorexia stems from but do you have similar self loathing thoughts about 'feeling fat'? And if so how you challenge those would be great to know. I think my ED though complex stems mainly from a want to be liked by everyone and being skinny meant i felt more attractive and superior, I also gain weight easier in my face and wanted to have a more defined face. Also I'm 5'10 and when I lost lots of weight I started getting scouted to work in Brandy, AA and Jack Wills and was scouted to be a model and do hair modelling shoots and go to VIP clubs. This kind of made me believe I could only be pretty if I was skinny and made the anorexia worse. I still think i believe now that I'm not pretty anymore i've gained weight (though i'm still thin) but I guess I have to learn theres more to life than what you look like as I definitely base most of my self esteem on my appearance. Hope this made some sort of sense and I don't know if anyone else relates to my story but if anyone has I'd love to hear from you, lots of love xx
i agree so much with you with going vegan while you have an ed... to me going vegan/vegetarian would mean giving a moral connotation to food and, knowing myself, that would lead me to restricting.. i prefer eating whatever i want whenever i feel like it, it doesn’t matter it it is pizza or salad, i try really hard to separate food from moral connotations (good/healthy food vs bad/unhealthy ones) since i know that keeps me a little bit more away of falling into restriction or even binging again!! i love ur channel it really motivates me to keep going with my recovery 💗🥰
I don’t like Q&As as a general rule, even my favourite people on RU-vid! However for some reason I sat through yours, enjoyed myself and I’m looking forward to part two? I don’t know what it is, but keep doing it 😂❤️
You're doing it right girl! Don't let anyone tell you any different! You do YOU... no one knows what YOU need more than you. Could be chocolate, could be a salad but as long as you're listening to your body, it's perfectly healthy xxx
I always feel discouraged and somewhat triggered whenever I watch eating disorder recovery stories of people becoming vegan or practicing “raw” or completely “clean” eating following their eating disorder.....I really appreciate you for showing that true recovery means accepting ALL foods back into your life 🍓🥐🥕🍦🍔
I have just watched 2 videos of yours, and I'm in love with your energy, positivity, enthusiasm for everything, and accent! And you're really pretty. Stay blessed!
Hi, i don’t usually leave comments but now I just had the need to say something. I’m so glad I found your channel because you’re so refreshing to watch. In my opinion, you are the type of person youtube was meant to be. A quirky, fully honest person, fun to watch just being themself. Also with a love for filming and editing. 0% forced behavior on camera for money or any other reason. Not to mention documenting your battles and helping other while doing that. I’m so proud of you for beating your ed every day. Don’t let anyone put you down because you’re beautiful inside and out. I wish you best of everything in your life :)
You are a living proof that recovery is personal and sometimes it's just best to listen to what you feel is right for you 💜 I have a question maybe for the next video but do you exercise?
berry I think it’s best not to ask her about exercise as before that was something she would do as part of her ED. So I’m assuming she would be trying to avoid exercise now she is recovering. The question may be a trigger for her.
id love a video about calorie counting and intuitive eating bcs im stuck and i cannot stock calorie counting and i honestly dont know how much i should eat and even tho i deleted my fitness pal , i still count in my head.
Wow!!! I am blown away by how sincere your videos are and how high quality! I can relate to you so much and appreciate you so much and I so happy I found your channel. Please do the video on intuitive eating vs. calorie counting! I would LOVE to see it!
I was a brainwashed... I did not agree with your way of eating. I thought that for recovery we must to leave the calorie restriction but always eat healthy... For that I never felt recovered . Yes, I spent my time too in a fail recovery... I spent one year following healthy fit girls on instagram and copying their sadness lifestyle... This is not recovery, still you are restricting... I leave the anorexia to fall in orthorexia... But now I have real information in my hands. I feel sad because this information is not so widespread in Spanish. Only English or American youtubers have the courage to show true recovery. Helping, inspiring and giving support to those who need it ... Thanks for existing ... ❤️
