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Mama T knows how hard this has been on you the past couple months. You have always told us you could never tour in a band but when Herman approached you it was like a chance of a life time and you put all your feelings aside. When reality set in, the uncertainty took over and fear set in. Honesty is the best medicine Steve and I am proud that your manned up and told the truth. You could of lied and just said you had too much to do and couldn't take the time off to join the tour but you are not a coward. Your audience will appreciate your honesty and respect you for it. Herman Li is so compassionate and non judgemental. Dragonforce you guys rule.
Love you Mama T! Thanks for being there for me during the hardest times. I look back and wonder why I even agreed to do the tour, knowing my struggles. I guess my judgement was just clouded by this huge opportunity. But I still feel bad after quitting on them. Their compassion is just another reason to love DragonForce!!
Vermin like you will pick literally any opportunity as a means to promote your shit, it seems. Your kind makes me wish there was a hel. Thriving on another's misery...
Steve T : amazing guitarist with incredible appealing perona - can't handle the stage. Me : horribly incapable guitarist with a shitshow personality - easily can make fool of myself on stage. Life is just unfair. I'd love to switch the last part with you.
Not really as he obviously has to admit it. He cannot just suddenly dissapear off dragon force after turning down an offer and never speak about it again. Obviously he's going to have to admit it it has nothing to do with having balls or breing brave.
Life is hard and complicated sometimes and I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself. Major props to Dragonforce for being understanding. Thanks for sharing with everyone.. that takes a lot of strength to do.
Stevie, I didn't leave my house for two years cause of agoraphobia. Now I'm in a band and playing in front of people you can overcome it man I have faith in you ♥️♥️
Coming from someone that has dealt with this first hand, it takes a big person to recognize their issues and do what needs to be done to help themselves. Good on ya man.
@Mike Cranston Kind of. Sadly the only way to win with anxiety is to face your particular fear. I know it's easier said than done, but it could have been therapeutic. If the fear was too great to face, he needs to consult psychologist. The sooner the better.
@Mike Cranston that is clearly coming from someone that has NEVER had to deal with anxiety or depression. When he says crippling anxiety, that's not just an expression, it really is. It's like something takes over your body and you have NO control over it.
@@PuerRidcully how do you know he hasn't seen someone about this? And sometimes it's just not possible to face your fears at that moment. You need to take steps. Small steps first, then work your way up. And the time it takes varies on the person. It could be years for some people to fully get back to where they were before.
@@darrenchesterton6410 Yes, I agree, but the steps need to be constant - you can't stop. Maybe Dragonforce tour was too big of a step, but the effects, if he succeeded would be that much stronger. The dude is 34, if he worked on his anxieties since his early 20s he could have been ready by now to face the tour. I'm afraid he's surrounded by people enabling his anxiety, which makes it that much harder to come out of them.
Darren Chesterton don’t speculate about someone as a defence for your arguments. What he said is true . Anxiety makes u feel a way that can hold you back but it’s you that makes the choices to do something or not and it’s those choices that affect your anxiety in the long term. Whenever someone’s avoids being uncomfortable or avoids a scary idea they’re choosing comfort and that’s not gonna help it’ll just make the anxiety worse . But more u push yourself to actually do what’s makes I anxious the less anxious you’ll feel over time till it barely if at all bothers you . This is fact .
Agreed, but there is a difference between normal anxiety, and having something like an anxiety disorder, which usually includes panic attacks, and generally ruins any hope of having any "quality of life". Not sure if that's where Stevie is at, but I know I have been there many times, put myself through hell to perform only to feel worse than having never done it at all. Given the right scenario and preparation, I think most any fear can be transcended, however going from RU-vid to Dragonforce might not have been the jump Stevie could make at this time in his life, no worries, he is still inspiring and "out there" in the world with his RU-vid channel. Glad he was honest, takes a lot to admit he has some difficulties with anxiety; actually makes him more relatable to a lot of us that possess similar skills but find it difficult to get out there.
Stay strong Steve. I’ve battled with certain anxietys and depression. At one point in my life I resorted to self abuse. That was an all time low. A week after I was taken to therapy, I found your videos. after I started watching yours and other people’s videos, they brought me out of depression and I was pulled from therapy because I was “cured” as my therapist stated. I still have certain anxieties but they are not as severe. With your help (and trivium and hatebreed) I’m on my way to becoming a happier person.
TBH: You did the right thing Steve. You should now start small, with making friends: outside of RU-vid, outside of the music world just to learn what your value really is. It should be about you from now on. You are a hero to us already.
I know this was made a while back, but it never hurts to tell someone this: we love you Steve and support you. You’re videos bring me so much joy when it feels like the world is coming down on me, and I know other fans feel the same way. It sucks dealing with anxieties sometimes, but just cause you didn’t do the tour doesn’t make us think any less of you and doesn’t make you a bad person. You’re still so awesome Steve, and thanks for so much laughter and joy! 🤘
This is hard for me brother. This is a dream of almost EVERY child who gets into playing an instrument. But I understand I know how bad this must have been for you. But that fact you were even offered the spot speaks volumes. Keep treading forward man.
Steve I gotta say that I got choked up on this one. Every time I watch you it makes me bust a gut laughing. It's like your the Robin Williams of guitar. Your at the top of your game, yet you are down to earth like most of us. Robin also suffered with crippling depression...[ I know ] DUH ! I'm 54 and was an addict since 11. After my 1st wife and 2 sons were born...[ well she was actually born before them ] haha I had to do 13 yrs in prison. I was released in 09' and got married again and got the best job I'd ever had. It all crashed down about 4 yrs ago . Now I'm living in a camper on my estranged son & daughter in laws property. I've not spoken with my wife for those 4 yrs. I've been clean for close to 20 yrs but I live the life of a recluse. I've got great gear but rarely play like I used to. I stay in a state of depression and lonely. I realize this is all self inflicted. Anyways you'd be amazed at how important your work is to people like myself. To anyone reading this I apologize if this brings you down.
You're so brave Stevie. Saying "I can't" can actually be very hard. Standing up in front of the whole world and saying "I couldn't, and this is why", takes tons of guts.
Anxiety is a bitch. I couldn't even imagine the weight of something like that. It's easy to see why drugs can be so appealing with with musicians, to take the edge off.
"Hopefully someday I can overcome this". I hope that means you're currently getting professional treatment for this crippling anxiety because it sucks that it's prevented you from taking up such a great opportunity. I've been there (albeit not being asked to play with Dragonforce) and it sucks. All the best.
Hey, I actually feel like this before regional sport events. I used to get invited by friends to participate in soccer regional events and it would really occupy my mind 1 to 2 weeks before it happens. Even them asking me for such stuff would cause me to panic a little bit, and my natural reaction is to say that "I would love to, but I can't because "insert casual excuse here, but thanks"" or, more lately "I don't want, but thanks for the invitation". I always thought this was normal and something I should fight against, which I tried to but I couldn't cope with the overwhelming feeling of anxiety and stress. I couldn't live normally anymore. Is this something I should ask for help, and some kind of medical condition? Let me know what you think, cause nobody that knows me told me I should seek for help, so I thought this wasn't nothing to care about. (And yeah, I also have big fear of stages and crowds looking at me. I had an experience of participating in a little theatre for school, which went pretty well, but never tried again because the moments before that were excruciating.)
@@johnbeard7252 In my personal, non-professional opinion, if feelings of anxiety/panic are stopping you from doing things you want to do it can't hurt to see a doctor and bounce a few things off them. They will be able to provide the best advice. But yeah, you'd be amazed at what a bit of therapy can do.
Man, I respect the heck out of Dragonforce for being so supportive of your decision to put your health first. And I respect the heck out of you for making this video and addressing the situation. It can't have been easy! I'm not the best at writing these types of comments, haha.. but as someone suffering with anxiety as well, I can't thank you enough for how much your videos have helped. Whenever I can't find the motivation to even pick up my bass, it's nice to know that your videos are just a few clicks away. They're my go-to for inspiration (or just a good laugh!), and a lot of other people would say the same :D Keep doing what you're doing, at your own pace. We your fans love you and will always have your back, Steve!
Thanks so much!! I got your back too! I can verify DragonForce is the coolest band out there. The nicest dudes ever. DragonForce fans deserve to know that!
A year later, I'm watching this again and it took me back to the days when I had crippling anxiety. 4 years later, here I am completely rid of it and living a normal life. Stay strong and everything will be fine 🙏
The thing is, no one is in the same boat, we're all in the same storm. Some people have a yacht, some people have a canoe, and some people have a pool noodle. But with you, in doesn't matter what boat you have, you're always trying to help someone else out to get through this storm
Completely understand man, I can't even go to the store without getting tunnel vision, I can't hear anything besides my heart beating in my ears, and my hands and face go completely numb. Sometimes I start sweating like I just ran 4 miles. Anxiety is more than just feeling stressed, it totally takes over your life. I could only imagine what you were feeling as time went by and the date of the tour slowly approached. To hear that someone I look up to and makes me laugh constantly shares similar problems honestly helps a lot. We most definitely are in this boat together and I appreciate everything you do here on RU-vid. We love you man!
You should have had hot sister play bass for them and then nobody would have known it was you 😀. In seriousness, it is great you were able to be honest with yourself before a breakdown happened and handled everything with honesty.
Man it sux to know others go through this too. I've been fortunate to be in 3 different full time touring bands which is the only love of my life but also at the same time the most miserable as well due to anxiety. I've always wondered how can something I love so much and am so passionate about also cause me so much stress and crippling anxiety to use your very accurate term. It's so strange...same scenario every day on tour....everything is fine all the way till the end of soundcheck. As soon as soundcheck is over the anxiety begins and progressively gets worse and worse....mine always went to my stomach and shoulders so then I wouldn't eat before showtime and as we got back to the venue for showtime the panic attacks would start and my entire body would begin to clench up to the point I'd realize I was not breathing normally at all and sort of holding my breath making the problem worse. Then the mental part would kick in and all I could think about was what I was going to do if it got so bad that I had to throw up while on stage performing. IT SUCKED! Fortunately though even though there were many times I almost had to stop the set early I only had to do this once over the years and that was a horrifying experience. Normally if I could just fight through it and make it through the first 5-6 songs, I could get the anxiety to pass and then actually feel good, have fun, and enjoy performing the rest of the show. SO weird. I have racked my brain trying to understand this. I do not attribute it to "stage fright" as I have played thousands of shows and love being on the stage performing. It's just all the pre-show anxiety that cripples me and I have come to realize that I think it's because I'm stressing myself and worrying about things that are completely out of my control. Things such as.."Are we gonna have a big crowd tonight?"....."Will the crowd like us?"..."Is my amp gonna go out during the show?"...."Am I gonna break a string during the show?" Just a bunch of "What if's" that I would let take over my mind and make me completely miserable and physically sick for about 4-6 hours a day between soundcheck and 4-5 songs into our first set. Anyway.....Stevie thank you for sharing your truth and from someone that completely understands...I get it and it sux and I don't wish this crap on anyone. Fight on bro!
I never thought Stevie T would break my heart, but here we are. Seriously, so much respect for how you have handled yourself, and please don't beat yourself up over this decision. You are amazing.
This was a genuine and transparent video. I couldn't even imagine the pressure of your very first tour being with a world famous band like that. It's great that you're all still on good terms.
I wish more people would be as open and honest as this. I have crippling anxiety and depression too. I was diagnosed with GAD and SAD along with a couple other things over a decade ago. For some reason, those things went away while I was on stage. It took playing in front of large crowds for years and everyone encouraging me for me to finally come out of my shell, but then I was doing hair whips, head banging, jumping off PA speakers and more and I loved it. Try to push yourself, but don't feel bad if you don't feel up to it.
Ever since your “why I don’t play live” I figured it was about your anxiety, I even explained to people when they asked about you on Herman streams. Theres nothing to be shamed about, your health comes first man.
Definitely! I've battled fear and anxiety my whole life as well. Nothing to be ashamed of, if you are not ready, you're not ready. Stay positive and forget the trolls! 🙏👍
honestly so many people would have done the same thing...wanting to do it but can’t due to where they’re at personally. wow what an honor and opportunity, and it def sucks you had to pass it up due to dealing w anxiety. it was better that you said something beforehand instead of going until you either let them down too late, or woke up in a straight jacket. learning EFT tapping helped me w anxiety along w learning about which vitamins (Bvit complex) and minerals (calcium, magnesium, zinc) along w proBiotics and fermented foods like sauerkraut and yogurt all help restore balance in the gut biome. along w daily sunshine will help. it won’t be an end all answer to everything but could help you make a first step towards being able to better engage socially without the blowback of crippling anxiety before or after (regret/overthinking/dwelling) velarian essential oil from young living 2-5 drops orally/eaten helps, I prefer eating the oil bc it doesn’t smell good to me for being an essential food grade oil. lowering oxalate intake slowly will help as well...
What you have done in this video is incredibly brave and my respect for you has skyrocketed. I too struggle with severe anxiety and depression and I have focused my energies on composition rather than performing. This is the first year where I’m actually going to perform in front of an audience in over 20 years. Please know you are having a super positive effect on my life -and I’m sure in the lives of many more- and I cannot thank you enough. I hope one day you can conquer your demons and being honest about them, like you are in this video, is a step on the right direction. Sending you lots of good vibes and much love!
Dealing with anxiety and depression is a very difficult thing man. It's even harder talking about it, especially on a platform like youtube. Mad respect
Theres no need for that just explain it to him It's more difficult in many ways as it's more personal and many people feel that exposing that more vulnerable side of themselves could lead to it being exploited
Hey man, you have the cojones for being so honest and ethical. Assertiveness is something beautiful that many people lack, but you don't, sir. keep doing what you do best, entertaining us and helping people overcome anxiety 👍
I've played guitar for 20 years, give or take, and have played in bands for about 15 of those years. I understand and FEEL this video to my core. As someone who also struggles with bad GAD (Generalized Anxiety/Panic Disorder) and depression I know EXACTLY the feelings and thoughts you were experiencing Stevie. You talked about accepting the tour and then the closer it got you felt yourself having a mental breakdown... That one really hit home for me. I remember our first "tour", it was a 5 city run and I remember being SOOO stoked about it, being able to pay our music in front of people who wanted to see us live... And then the same feelings you were having hit... I remember we were about 2-3 days from the first gig and I couldn't eat anymore, couldn't sleep, all my thoughts were focused on the show. My body hurt,I had constant headaches, I would have panic attacks out of nowhere. So I went to a doctor and was told that I was having panic attacks and was suffering from anxiety associated with my life in music. He prescribed me some medications that eased the symptoms enough for me to get through the shows. Those medicines were there start of the most terrible chapter in my life, addiction. I was prescribed hydrocodone and Ativan for headaches and panic attacks. I literally lost everything because of it... But, everyday is a gift... and I refuse to just lay down and give up, I refuse to let addiction, anxiety, or depression dictate who I am...Anyhow, I just wanted you to know you're not alone Stevie. Thanks for sharing your story...
I had no idea he suffered so badly with anxiety. I do myself like many of us and even missed out on many opportunities because of it. Stevie rocks, good on him for sharing this.
There's always next time. It's the combination of excitement and nerves that cause this anxiety. You could always collaborate on a new song with them. I still get nervous and hyped when our Band has a gig, but once I'm at the venue, the nerves are gone and I'm enjoying myself playing as well as listening to the other bands.
Anxiety can be soul crushing. Your own brain sabotaging your ability to cope with things. It has nothing to do with being a pussy. I was raised with the quit being a pussy attitude from people around me. I learned to suck it up but all I did was internalize my anxiety and it grew worse as I aged. Medication has helped but it can still overtake you.
As someone who doesn't have crippling anxiety, touring with a hyper technical band like dragonforce would be a real mind crusher. I can't blame you one bit. Keep doing what your doing your fans got your back. Cheers
I Appreciate your honesty. It’s a good thing we are more open about these things now. Everyone has their own issues, it’s OK. Forgive yourself, it’s the first thing you have to do.
I know I'm late to this, but don't feel bad. I too deal with anxiety especially when it comes to performing. So many times i've tried to perform on my own for school events and I've even had my band/choir teachers offer me a spot in contest but I always haveto decline. I could agree to it and just force myself to do it, but I know it would destroy me. I totally understand what you were feeling on a personal level. No need to apologize for having anxiety. I sympathize so hard Stevie. So just keep rocking, doing your thing, and I know maybe one day you'll get an opportunity again and you'll feel better about it. Love you Stevie! Keep on being amazing!❤
As someone who has suffered from heavy depression I can imagine how hard it can be sometimes Steve. Thank you for all the laughings you give us. You are a great guy.
well yeah it really seemed so and I have no problem with that. I had only some mixed feelings when he began to advertise something in the beginning. It bothered me just a little bit, but I guess I understand his situation. Still, I think it is weird to discuss a serious topic about anxiety before some ads in the video. I don't blame him though, yet it would seem a little humbler If he didn't do that just for this one video at least.
Stevie, I hope it makes you happy to know that your videos honestly make my life 100x better. Seriously, they are so funny and enjoyable!!! I also understand about the anxiety/depression, I have in the past (and still do on occasion ) deal with that. I hope you feel better now, just know that we are all so proud of you for getting this opportunity in the first place, you 100% deserved it. At the end of the day, you did what was best for you, and that's the most important thing. Also, Herman Li is a very understanding guy, and just remember that they completely understand. I know this was almost a year ago, but I hope you're okay💕😁
same... in fact, got the offer from my boss to attend a sweet ass photography workshop this coming monday ( I work with a photography studio) but turned it down bc I can't handle sitting in a room packed full of people for 4 hours.. I debated so hard if I should say yes or no, and initially said yes, but like Stevie described, then that's all that consumed my mind for the next few hours. Sitting in a chair, surrounded by a bunch of random people for those 4 hours with no way out.. I felt like a loser, but honestly, fuck it. I'd rather know my limits and what triggers my real bad anxiety and not go there.
I can't even begin to imagine how hard this stuff is for you! But your mental health is far more important than anything else right now. I hope you aren't beating yourself up too much over it, it's so brave to put yourself out there like this. You are still a favorite in this household and that won't change anytime soon!
Thank you so much! I was more bummed out cause I didn't want to let DragonForce down. But they were 100% cool with me!! Still one of my fave bands!! Haha
@@SteveTerreberry sounds like they where super decent about it all though! You have helped much more people than you've let down, guarantee you that! X
It is awesome to see celebrities talk about anxiety and mental problems that can keep them from achieving more goals. It is important to know we're all human and we all deserve respect just for that fact. Downplaying or mocking other people's anxiety or mental problems can only lead to suffering. Kudos to you Stevie T and Herman Li for being honest with yourselves and your audience about stress and anxiety which can be real and crippling to just about anyone. As much as I dream of playing bass guitar on stage, I hope I don't back out due to anxiety, it can happen and it has happened and I'm very happy to see I am not alone in that regard, thank you Stevie T!!!!
