Hey Lizi, just stumbled on your videos (from a book review)! I wish you all the best in your future health journey. I have been and am on my own, so yeah, I have experienced a lot of the same and I hope you will find some relief
And you said ""I am just so done with struggling through life, I just wanna get to a place where I am able to take care of myself." I don't know either. In my head I sometimes think, if I was cut off I might have no other choice to make it or die.