Wilbur Soot - Mammalian Sighing Reflex (BEST AUDIO) 

Hello, gangsters and gangsterettes, I am uploading this because most music platforms, due to my own lack of music production knowledge, have a bastardised, quiet and distorted version of this album. As much as it would be apt of me to just ignore it and move on, I would love that MSR fans have the raw files somewhere, youtube felt like the best place (I am very conscious that youtube will still compress the fuck out of this but shhhh, let me live in blissful ignorance) I've been gone for a lil while, I know, but I thought I would let you know I am doing well and will eventually return! You tend to always hear of artists and performers stepping away from the “world at large” and even today some of my favourite artists and bands have an almost viscerally restricted private life. I sympathise with them but was always very thankful that, thanks to my online background, that would not be the case for me and I could easily step on and off the stage in a state of zen like so many other performers I admire. Unfortunately, upon finishing my second run of shows in 2023, I realised that was not the case and that the effects of performing would be something I must learn how to reckon with each time. I am an introvert pretending to be an extrovert, which is something that is a lot easier when your stage is a computer screen. Less so when it's a room of over 10k people. This ended up doing quite a big number on my mental health. It's a weird one, because I am so aware of the privilege and honour to get to travel the world singing silly songs for crowds as magnificent and dedicated as Lovejoy fans, and yet also aware of how little I know myself and how little I know about actually DOING the whole stage thing without my brain evaporating. Thanks to advice (from lots of people far smarter than me) I have decided to take a little break. I will come back with a big ol bunch of streams in the future I’m sure but, until then, I have rented a lil place in new york solo and have been wearing knit-caps, shopping at Whole Foods and saying things are sooooo last season while taking photos of coffee cups. Many of you know I’ve always wanted to live in America for a brief stint and I am so excited to be living my dream. I have many friends lined up to come visit me and I’m sure they’ll roll their eyes as I recount the anachronistic history of every US monument we see. I'm so lucky to be able to take leave like this and, I also should do it without the whole sob story, but I really want to thank you guys for sticking around with me and being earnestly fascinated (I hope) by my art and what I do. I cannot thank you enough, but I can certainly try! THANK YOU (even if you get my lyrics painfully wrong😚) Until then, there are so many things coming very soon I am excited to show you. I am currently knee deep in writing the Lovejoy debut album and I am thrilled to work on a big, cohesive story in music form (something I haven’t been able to do with EPs) with some of my best, most talented friends. There's a single on the near horizon and a bunch of different #content for you to eat like little internet silkworms! At the end of this year I will be donating every penny this video earns x10 to a selection of mental health charities. I will update this comment with how much it was and which charities by 2025. I hope you're all doing well, and if you're not, I know it gets better. You just gotta trust me. Stay comfy, don't let the bed-bugs bite and remember that mauve is soooo mid-century. Love, Will :) ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-7lECIsRif10.html&

The amount of absolutely shattered people in this comment section is just heart breaking.

Your City Gave Me Asthma and Mammalian Sighing Reflex are so comforting. i remember listening to the former 24/7 during covid when everything in my life was so bleak. MSR feels like a hug from an old friend i haven't seen in a while. edit: well fuck me :/

This whole album makes so much more sense now we have the context. I am so disapointed, always thought this was just a character or exadurated version/ manifestation of his deeper emotions, not what he really was like. I am heartbroken and angry.

Love this new era of Wilbur’s solo music, the beeps and radio filters are crazy good and create a mellow tone

These comments are actually so well thought. Unlike on the other platforms or social medias, where they don’t think and effortlessly send hate nor death threats. I hope both Wilbur and Shelby gets the needed support and help without receiving such horrible feedbacks and comments. The world is cruel already, there’s no need to make it more cruel :).

I really hate what im feeling right now. YCGMA, saline solution and jubilee line honestly saved me and everything after just gave me more life, it got me into guitar and music. Saline solution was 1 of the first songs i played on the guitar But knowing now that there may have been diffrent meanings to your songs some horrible conotations. And knowing what i know now. It kills me man. It hurts so bad i hate it. I have no idea what to do with it. No idea on anything anymore.

There’s really nothing quite like mourning someone who isn’t even dead. A good part of me is still in denial. What were you thinking? Of all things you said in that apology of yours, I hope you were telling the truth about seeking help. That’s all I want from you now. I want you to get help. These poor people.. I pity even myself for putting so much faith and love into someone who doesn’t even know all of the faces of those he left feeling betrayed. If I ever hear from you again, (and frankly, I hope you don’t decide to end all of this on such a despicable note) I really hope it’s something good. Please, for the love of god, if you’re going to surprise us again, be it for something good.

now i can cry again

A WILBUR MUSIC POST???

I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels betrayed. I hate him for getting me so attached to his online persona, to the point of almost wanting to forgive him, where I'm worrying about how he's doing. He is the main reason I decided I wanted to go on testosterone after years of debating, just because of the shear amount of gender envy he gave me. Why did you have to make me like you so much? I know so many are going through so much more, and while my pain is but a fraction, it still hurts... So much. Never have a person be your special interest, especially if that special interest was the one thing that kept you from suicide

You've been my idol since 2018. Since I was a kid. I'd fall asleep to YCGMA, crying because I related. Your music helped me so much. I did the same with this album, I cried when it came out. I fell asleep crying that night because this album meant so much to me. I played it all day at school for the next week. I taught myself all your songs. You were the reason I bought a guitar at 11. You've inspired me so, so much. You've not only hurt Shelby and your friends; you've hurt us. Your fans. The teens that really looked up to you. You failed us so hard. I know this isn't over; we all mess up. You just messed up worse. I believe that you can get better and redeem yourself, even if not everyone can forgive you-rightfully so. Please try to get better and really show that you're trying. You've been so important to me and it really hurts that you've turned out this way. Or that you've been this way. Please prove that you're not a completely bad person. Just a person who us flawed.

so real of wilbur to not openly talk about his new solo music released but yet still makes sure it can't be listened to with the best possible audio

My method of coping has started out as wild bursts of intense emotions, depressive states that left my head heavy, anxiety so bad my chest burned, anger so hot my body shook. While for some here that may seem like way too much of a reaction, for me it was expected. The man was someone who made me laugh out loud instead of just a squeeze of my eyes and an exhale. He made me feel human as someone who struggles showing emotions outwardly. I'd go from "it's over" to "how Dare he?" to "but did he?" to "He did it. It hurts. And that's okay." to "it's not okay, he's a monster" to "but maybe he's getting better now". Then the statement was released and without thinking harder on it, trying to form an actual opinion outside of what I was seeing other people say, I raged. I ranted to myself how I wanted horrible things to happen to him, which was out of character for me and what I normally stand for. But then I stopped looking at the sites and thought of MY opinion. How I felt. Looked over the wording myself. Processed things at my own pace rather than the pace I was forcing upon myself. Talked with friends who aren't part of the community but could empathize with what I was feeling. And I made my conclusion. The statement was released way too early for anyone to take it any other way, most likely pushed by PR. Was that a shitty decision? Yes. And while I will support the possibility of growth and getting better in the future, and will probably not cut all content with him out because of that, I cannot and will NEVER support his actions. What he did is abhorrent and will never be what I support. I can choose to neither forgive, or forget, but I can move forward. What he did and how his initial statement sounded was shitty. But change can take months, even years. Learning to truly recognize behavior as bad can take time on it's own. Even if things keep coming out that make my stance hard to keep, I'm nothing if not needlessly stubborn and in the end, this is more about me sticking to what my beliefs are no matter how difficult it gets. I am allowed to hope he gets help and eventually return improved just as much as others are allowed to leave the era of their lives he was a part of behind. I am allowed to support the possibility of healing for everyone without condoning his actions. I am allowed to hope that everyone, I mean EVERYONE, involved in the situation to come out okay. Maybe not good, but at least okay. And just because I'm remaining open to a second chance does not mean you have to. If you want to watch things from the good times to cope, then don't feel bad for needing to approach the situation differently. If you are not sure yet and want to pretend things are fine until it all calms down, then that is just as valid as cutting everything related to him off immediately. You want to burn your merch in some symbolic bonfire as you play 80's rock music, all the power to you. Humans are complicated and there is never a Correct emotional response to something like this. The only response that is never okay is hurting yourself or threatening hurt upon others. My endless support to Shelby because she is literally so brave and I don't think I'll ever have anywhere close to the strength she has shown by coming forward. There are things that messed me up from over a decade ago that I still haven't opened up about and the people they involve are just everyday people. For her to have come forward, especially after he had been touring and exposed to millions of people is so powerful, she's like a superhero to me. Send her all your support and love. She fucking deserves it and more. She should not be blamed by ANYONE for what happened and is happening. Let her heal, let her keep being strong and amazing in everything she does, both in terms of healing and her content. Just because I'm focusing on my feelings about things does not mean that she doesn't mean so much more here. And to you, Wilbur, if you even bother looking at the comments here, especially now, know this: Just because I'm supporting the possibility of growth and improvement does not mean I don't think the you right now is pathetic. You hurt so many people who you called friend just to feel more control of your own life. You may never get those people back, and need to understand that you'll probably never have what you had again. You were so afraid of trying to get better that you doubled down and made yourself and others worse off for it. Donate every single penny from this album to charities that help and support abuse survivors, take a few years away from the internet. If you have any close friends left after this in private, good. If you don't, find a public support group. And while I said second chance, I never will give you anything further. You knew it was abuse because you were scared of being accused of it. And again, my rage towards your actions is immense and your prior lack of self betterment to be pathetic. However, I'm still going to hold firm in my belief that improvement is always possible, and you needed this push, unfortunately. My takeaway is always going to be to support the victims first. But focus on yourself as well. Just because you are not directly involved does not mean your hurt and shock is not as valid. Just because it's not 'big and life-altering' does not mean it's not sort of traumatic for some people. Have a good cry, drink some water. If you have a pet, give them so much love and kisses until your brain melts from the oxytocin. Go to a friend's house and watch movies with them while eating shitty junk food as you make fun of the cheesiest of special effects. Go outside. Not in a 'you need to touch grass' way, but in a 'sit on the steps of where you live and feel the sun on your face', or maybe 'look at the stars in the sky', or 'listen to the sound of rain from the porch'. This hurts. But that's okay. It's okay. You're okay

as an autistic wilbur fan here since smplive. i do not know what to do. i dont want to believe anything but, its innevitable! everything must come to an end, including my insanely heartfelt special interests. i honestly hope wilbur gets all the help he needs (shelby aswell too of course, but i have never once induldged in shelbys content im speaking off my own connection) and deserves in my eyes. which, i hope is the right vision to see, obviously all you can see is whats portrayed online. i can't let go of this music, no matter how hard i try in complete honesty. i saw whenever i would see lovejoy live as a finale, as 10/10 completion and a large event in my life of some sort but i guess thatll never happen. i dont know. stand with the victims always.

thank you for releasing this on youtube too king, we're all so proud of you, this is such a beautiful album 🫶

“I hope you’re doing well and if you’re not, I know it gets better. You just gotta trust me.” AND NOW I’M SOBBING.

man, whatever you did was bad, it was fucking bad, but that doesnt mean you cannot prevent it from happening again. Get the help that you need and we trust you to see you emerge as a new man. Stay strong and aware

"What am I doing this for? It should have been you." Fuck. May be just a coincidence but that's a hell of a coincidence.

please live and don't leave us, Will. People on the Internet are cruel, don't listen to anyone. Just please don't kill yourself

Wilbur, I hope you find therapy and better yourself before you do something drastic and irreversible. But no amount of therapy will fix what you’ve done to shubble and countless others. You messed up. You have messed up for the past five years. You may have been hurting and you had every right to hurt, but you did not have a right to hurt others. We do not need an apology. Shubble does. And until your honest words form an apology, you do not have a right to those words. Prove that you can be better. And prove that you can change. You’re life is not over. You can still change for the better. Don’t ever give up. Get the therapy you need and you and everyone around you will be happier. Suicide will only make people hurt more, and you’ve already hurt people enough.

just spent the past 35 minutes sitting outside and listening to this whole thing again with good headphones and holy shit. there’s so many little things you don’t totally get on spotify, so many layers and little details that just go to show how much care and love was put into this. time to go back to the real world.

i made a reddit post about this but ill copy and paste it here guys i really think it's true and it's genuinely heartbreaking i bought this guys merch, i love his music to fucking death, every single one of them, you're city gave me asthma, are you alright, pebble brain, your new boyfriend, soft boy, internet ruined me, im in love with a e-girl, wake & its over, and mammalian sighing reflex, i cried to this mans music for months, i waited, excited for new music, a pinterest board with 173 pins, both, had aya wallpapers and ycgma, I have a comment that will made on the video of ycgma as a widget on my phone, i laughed at this dude and found comfort, he was such a big fucking inspiration to me, i started playing fucking guitar because i was so inspired by ycgma, the first song i ever learned was Jubilee Line, i know almost every Lovejoy song on guitar now and make my own stuff(trying at least) covering his stuff, i waited for his streams and then rewatch the vods, ive been getting so excited for the new fucking lovejoy single, this mans face is a fucking widget on my phone im genuinely crying over this because i genuinely love his work i find so much inspiration and comfort in it, i found comfort in him but genuinely its so heartbreaking if its true, like the fucking line "he had a ant infestation" "he said insects are normal in British homes" THATS SO SPECIFIC LIKE I CANT im just kinda ranting im so fucking heartbroken, im listen to mammalian sighing reflex for what might be the last time if its true. so fucking sad like i remember when will comment on my reddit post i was so fucking happy sorry if this is coming off as parasocial because honestly it is, im just so hurt because this dude is literally my fucking idol (was my idol) support shubble edit: it's confirmed not surprised but damn

The first time I remember crying to music was the first time I heard your song "For Memories" on Maybe I Was Boring. In that moment I imagined you were my older brother sitting by a fire strumming away at your guitar and that image made me break down crying. I've spent so much time listening to your music, watching your videos and streams, and buying your merch. We said "hey" to each other as you passed by to get to the venue when I went to watch you and your band perform last year. What you did doesn't truly surprise me (your music has always been about how you are bad at relationships) but the worst part is you made an album all about how sad hurting someone made you. I'm not saying you can't become a better person and find forgiveness but very few people do. To know that if I told you that story about crying to For Memories you probably would've laughed in my face hurts my soul more than you could possibly imagine. The only solace I find in this situation is the fact it seems you burned every bridge with basically every creator imaginable and a good portion of your fans will never let you move on from this and will mention it at every turn.

the lyrics "never thought that i'd get married, never been the kind to give a shared life a second glance" make so much sense now that i've listened to shubble's story. wilbur what you did was so fucked up, you've not only hurt shubble but you've hurt your fans. i've turned to you, your streams, and your music since 2021. you've been the rock thru all my hardships in life, but now i can't listen to you the same anymore.

When my card declines at therapy so they start playing msr

i physically cant listen to this without feeling nauseous. "teeth before tongue" in mine/yours makes me want to rip my hair out. shelby unfollowed him shortly after this came out and i honestly believe that song, or maybe even several songs on this album, are about her.

this album is so incredible. i always thought nothing could beat ycgma but this is just so so good. the lyrics as well as songs themselves are just absolute masterpieces. this music is the type you want to just engrave in your soul. i can’t put into words how well wil did creating this, absolutely amazing

i just want to say, wilbur, i don't like what you did, but i truly hope you become a better person. you helped me through my darkest moments, and i always come back to your music when im at my lowest. ik you are able to change, and i believe in you. i hope both you and shelby are doing well.

im actually so proud of everyone that came here to comment and talk about how much they grow up since they have been listening to you, wilbur, and to be honest it’s the same for me! I’ve been listening to every single song from lovejoy to your solo songs because i love them and they mean a lot to me because it reminded me of my past self to someone I want to be in the future.. like a reminder to not be like my old self (? Its kind hard for me to explain but i hope you can understand) But i guess what i wanted to say is that Thank you Wilbur and Thank you guys for being here! Because of you I grew up understanding a little better who i am :)

How can you write something so heartfelt like the pinned message on this video but when it actually counts you give an apology that skirts around the heart of the issue and ignores half of the things you're being accused of? I'm disappointed in myself for having supported you for so long knowing what I do now. Your streams and your music have brought me so much comfort over the years, but listening now, I just feel sick to my stomach. I hope that you can get the help that you very clearly need. I wish the best for you but I can no longer call myself a fan of yours.

WHAT A BLESSING TODAY. THIS WILL BE MY MOST PLAYED VIDEO ON RU-vid. THANK YOU. (regretting very deeply.)

i hate to be that person that's like "you saved my life" when i've literally never met you, but genuinely thank you. i've always struggled with putting my feelings into words and they just become a big mushy mess inside my head but your music has genuinely made me feel less alone in what i'm feeling. i always found ycgma very comforting in a way that i can't describe, and i feel the same way about this album. your talent with writing is something so special and i'm incredibly grateful to be able to have an album like this. thank you for giving me the distraction and comfort i needed to survive life's bullshit :)

YCGMA was an album that saved my life and helped to guide me through a horribly dark time. Its creator was similar, bringing comfort and genuine hope to me in the advice he would give and preach. MSR was similar, too. It felt like a victory after a storm and although it wasn't my own, it felt so deeply personal. I'm a strong believer that genuine art cannot be faked. I find it hard to believe any of this is fake- but I'm also finding it very hard to comprehend the devastation so many people have now been put through. The news of it made me cry myself sick; something I've never done before. I hope I never do it again, because this is not a feeling anyone should have to deal with- and that only makes me wonder how disgustingly horrid a direct victim of these actions would have felt. As a lifelong atheist, my immediate reaction was genuinely to pray for them. I feel so ashamed of myself and so much guilt, now knowing what I loved and supported for so many years. So beyond disappointed. I don't think there's a word other than distraught that I can even begin to use- and I don't know if it'll matter. I don't know if you'll care. If this album was something real, then I believe you could maybe care a little bit, but I don't know how caring about it now will fix the problem. However, if you do care, then you must still have some shred of the person that we were taught to believe existed- and in that case, as furious as this all makes me, I hope you find some help and that this never happens again. It shouldn't have happened even once. I want to believe you at least know that now. Closure is such a privilege in these situations and I hope the person and people who need it most may find it. To anyone else, please take care of yourself. You're not wrong for being fooled. It's not your fault and I know you will be okay. Otherwise, take people's serious claims at face value and take time to process your emotions. Failing to do so can result in a lot of damage that cannot be undone. Much love to those who need it, and even if you don't think it's deserved. Especially those who think they're undeserving. I'm sorry to everyone who lost something integral to themselves because of this. Music is personal as anything and I hope you find something to fill that space.

I forget wilburs stuff has always meant so much to me i got such a crazy fuzzy feeling seeing this album first come out cos it came out of nowhere and I can't lie I maniacally chuckled as I rolled around in my bed and fell asleep with it on loop

i’ve been through the ringer these past two months. mine/yours is the biggest punch in the gut and biggest comfort in the world to me. MSR is a masterpiece. it has helped me through more than you’ll ever know. thank you, Will.

(Big edit.) Im disappointed. So FUCKING DISAPPOINTED IN THIS. I WROTE THIS MESSAGE BEFORE THE ALLEGATIONS. I honestly cant listen to this anymore. Wilbur, you'll probably never see this. I just want to say thanks for making this album. It's really helped me to have some comfort. Thankyou. Again. (Edit. I can't bear to hear this anymore.)

there's proof shelby hit him, i will listen to what i wan.

The disappointment transcends description. Five years I've followed along on the journey. Heart crushing. There's always that unknown, the risk that comes with putting any trust in an internet figure without knowing their character, I can say for certain you've disappointed and betrayed our trust. Where I once turned to your music and humor to aid me in getting through my days I now feel stretched thin for the way your stuff helped me get through things I won't voice, but now feels contaminated. Sorry to myself that I'm now saying goodbye to what * was * one of the best things that happened to me.

I though you were one of the best lyricist, song writer, writer, producer and musician. You inspired me to play the guitar with music you made, I supported your band and even became my favorite band. I had a dream of going to one of your concerts and even dreamed of making music like you. I slept listening to your music because It gave me comfort. Now every time I listen to the music that used to give me comfort I just keep thinking about all the horrible things you did to her. How could you? Some part of me wanted to believe that you’re not the person she described but after your statement I can't be more disappointed and I can't help but hate you so much for hurting such an incredible and nice person, she didn’t deserve all the things you made her go through, I’m so proud of her for speaking out about what happened to her and I think that makes her so strong. I’m very disappointed in you and also disappointed at myself for admiring your work. I don’t know what happened to you in the past that made you this way but I wish in another life you would’ve been different and a better person.

I used to cry to songs like these because it was a weird mix of comfort and light of emotions but now I cry to them realizing and overanalyzing everything because of recent events. Victims need support and help, but the “problem” people need different help. I wish recent events were not true (for both parties sake) and for everyone who feels, maybe it’s anger, sadness, regret, disappointment whatever it may be just know every feeling is fine and sharing options is as well as long as your respectful (duh). As I sit here reading comments I feel really sad because we can all look at old comments by others or even ourselves and we remember that admiration we had and maybe some feel silly but again a story is a story, you have your opinion based on what chapters you read. To everyone… I hope you are well, I hope you will be well if you aren’t, and I really hope to see everyone here again once we migrate to some other community or whatever may happen. See yall eventually. 🪿👍🏻

He was about to do American content and collabs with creators in NY. He had an album coming. It’s almost as if this was timed to ruin his career. Interesting…

Cmon, will. You can change everything. Several years is what you need, you surely reconciled your misstakes enough at this point that you are not repeating them. I believe in you

I'm still gonna listen to this album, at least til the end of this year. If you are gonna keep your word about the charity. Its comforting to me, I hope you can get better.

I hope you're alright.

YCGMA was an album/ep that got me through the darkest parts of my life; it's pretty much guaranteed that Will is an abuser. I've been watching since the late Soothouse/JackSAL editor series era. I really hope that one percent chance of this all being misconstrued is the truth, but it isn’t. This guy has been an idol and an inspiration to me. It sucks.

His voice always caused butterflies around my heart, like caressing my soul and helped me to not feel alone but now those feelings turned into physical pain, it's so beautiful and it hurts so much

Sharing my thoughts here, kinda rambling, I just need to get this out somewhere and this looks like the most safe place to do so. I do wanna say that I, in no way, support abuse. It's just that this mans content and music really helps me getting through rough times and that since years. I know that that isn't a excuse for anything really but I'm really bad with change and actually had to avoid social media for a week because I was feeling so horrible for not being able to distance myself from his content in the way people wanted it. People saying to just move on and find a different artist are not wrong and all but trust me, I've tried. And everytime it just feels like something is missing. I'm still waiting for Wilbur to hopefully say more about all this but if he doesn't that's also okay (with me. I'm not asking for other oppinions here.). I know I'll still be here no matter what. But I think what we all want and deeply hope is that you, Wilbur, come back with a sincere apology. Not to us but to Shubble. Personally I belive that as long as you're trying your best and try to be better after doing something wrong you will get better. It may take time but it will. I think it's hella unfair to say that a person can't change because that's just not true. I, from personal experience, can say that people can change for the better even if it isn't that easy and sometimes takes a long time. The fact that he said that he already goes to therapy only shows to me that he truly wants to be a better person. After re-reading what he posted on twt I also noticed him saying "I have taken my time sharing this statement [...]". STATEMENT. It isn't an apology and it was never meant to be one. I don't know if I'm misunderstanding things but it feels like no one really payed attention to that. People saying that he admitted it actually start to piss me off because he didn't admit to anything if my english isn't letting me down. The only thing he admitted to was consensual biting and that he became slobbish, disrespectful and selfish to the end. ≠ admitting to abuse. Also remind me in what context she said that depression is an excuse if I'm talking shit here but ??? I have seen multiple friends of mine change almost completely because of deperssion but they did it subconsciously in a way of non-verbally asking for help. Their entire lifestyle was changed during that, the way they behaved. It's not something that you do on purpose and is most definitly not an excuse. In the times that I've seen those things (even with myself) you're either not aware of doing something wrong, or you simply don't have the needed energy or knowledge to do better. It's not something you can control that easily. Idk that's all for now and again, I just needed to get my thoughts out somewhere. I hope things get better for all of us, content creator or not. For now though I hope that you're doing okay. Take your time. We'll be waiting. There are still people that support you and the thing we care about most is that you're okay. We're very much aware of all the stuff comming your way from different partys inside the different communities and please, take care. You might have messed up big time but we, as your community, still care for your well-being. (I know for a fact that I've completely butchered some parts of this please forgive me english is not my first language...)

life hasn’t been the best for me. i’ve been terribly anxious every day and it’s been eating away at my motivation. i get very overwhelmed, then frustrated, then anxious, and it’s just a really terrible cycle. i can probably attribute that to school. i feel so left behind and so lost compared to the rest of the people around me. whenever i feel anxious though, i blast this album in my ears and lie down. it’s been a huge stress reliever and helped to calm my nerves down. i’ve been working harder to take more care of myself, and listening to this album has been a leading step in that process, so thank you wilbur :) and everyone else going through stuff right now, i hope you all find the peace that you deserve. you’re loved and worth so much more than you think :))

Never thought the guy who saved my life would be like this

✨Now I can cry with better audio quality✨

i hope he has reached out to shelby privately to apologize. No one deserves to be abused like shelby was and wilbur needs to seek treatment if he isnt already. I hope both of them heal and grow from this experience. #shelbysupportsquad #wilbursupportsquad

Thank you Wilbur.

This This entire album is put into a whole different perspective now The two lines of “the median” broke me. “Please dont ask what these words mean” He didnt want anyone to know what he had done

the fact that parts of this album may be about his abuse is sickening

hey, will idk if you'll ever see that message, but i hope that you do eventually. it may be not appropriate for me to say such things, it may be perceived as parasocial but given the situation you're in right now, i still want to speak up to help you with an advice if i can. i do not come with ill intentions or aggression. i will be bold but not hateful. i was in shelby's place. i was emotionally abused by a man with mental health issues, who didn't know better. it was a result of his poor, flawed characteristics of his personality that emerged from multiple traumas he went through. i was not the first who he'd hurt. my abuser was an abuser not because he was a psychopath or narcissist, he was an abuser because of his own traumas. it may be inacceptable for some, it does not excuse his actions as some may say, and it's perfectly understandable. if a man hurts you, you'd most likely run away not caring about why is he like that, you have to think about yourself not about his feelings. it's perfectly, absolutely normal. that's what shelby did. i did not. it may be a personality trait that once will come back to hit me like a train and i will regret that i am like this, but it did not yet. i am capable of understanding anyone's reasons and troubles. i'm capable of forgiving anyone if i know that they had their reasons to be like that. and that's why i understand you and my abuser, and cannot be rationally mad at you and my abuser. that's what i am like. and i am also not a good person, i am also a mentally ill person, i have wronged multiple people and i was dangerous and hurtful once. the thing i wanted to say to you is, well. you fucked up. you seriously fucked up, and it's about time to accept that. you ignored her safe word multiple times, you hurt her multiple times, you ignored her pleads to stop and traumatised her. YOU DID. no need to try and redeem yourself by claiming shit that is not sincere. however, it is not the end and it should not be the end even if some people say otherwise. if you want to keep your career and reputation, you have to go all-in. you have to be honest, to be genuine with your community, to reveal all the little details even if it means giving up on some of your privacy and personal stuff. you literally HAVE TO, because that is not a type of situation you can come out clean of. you'll need to do what dream did if not more, because he was proving the allegations wrong and you'll need to prove that you've changed. and, to be clear, to this day you've probably not. and it will take a long time, maybe months, maybe years. when you're forced to live without the support from your friends, without the support from your community, after losing everything you had. well, that's what you get for seriously fucking up. the thing is, you'll genuinely need to change. whatever you'll do will be on your conscience, you may theoretically just lie to everyone and it may work, but it probably won't. you need to get a few years off to work on yourself. if you want to have meaningful and healthy relationships, you'll HAVE to change, and only then it will be acceptable to return into the social media and content/music creating circles. go to therapy, think about what you've done, accept that you're wrong, take the responsibility. apologize to all the people who you've wronged in person, without revealing it to social media. tell your closest friends that you know you fucked up, but you're willing to change for them. and, let me say it clear.... do it for THEM, not for yourself. and after that YOU will get better, but the people should come first, and you should come next. not never, just next. everyone deserves redemption, but you will have to work hard for it. i wish you good luck.

This album meant so much to me. Knowing the context breaks my heart and I am no longer able to listen to any of these songs without discomfort.

its painful. I watched you for so many years and I just feel... betrayed. I truly adored you and your content. I'll miss the Wilbur I knew but I have to say goodbye.

I want, so badly, to trust you right now, but I can't help but feel betrayed. I cannot hate you. I can try all I want to hate you, but I cannot hate Wilbur Soot. It might be parasocial, but what you have given me in your online personality will never go away. I fucking love you, and I fucking hate you. I'm so betrayed and disappointed.

(2/11/24) There's something so special about Wilbur's music that helps me so much whether or not that's YCGMA, MIWB, his old covers of other songs, or Lovejoy. Though it sounds weird, I'm really happy that he's still making music like this. Yeah, it's good to have nice, upbeat songs like One Day or Perfume to feel energized, but having songs to be able to connect to and take a step back to listen to is so refreshing. I remember having really shitty summer depression in 2021 and all that I did that summer was stay inside and have a fucked sleep schedule. I'd wake up at 7 AM and stay awake all throughout the day till 6 AM to sleep. Then I'd wake up at 7 AM again and the cycle repeated that entire summer. Bed was my prison for 3 months. And you wanna know what kept me going through those painful 3 months? Late, depressive nights talking to my friend over text while having Alexa play the entirety of YCGMA on repeat everyday. Ever since that summer, I've realized how bad it really can get for some people. I thought I knew bad before that, but that summer? It changed everything for me. Listening to Jubilee Line, I'm Sorry Boris, and La Jolla and so many other songs on the album made me feel the most empty yet relaxed I think I've ever been. Like I was stuck in a void between space and time. Like time wasn't really passing but I was still in the present. When I broke out of it and started getting up, I was never in a good mood but slowly the more I got out of the house, I actually began being myself again. I think that that summer was genuinely one of the worst of my life. Maybe that entire year, too. but if there was one thing that came from that year that I remember was the best, it was those late, shitty fucking nights just sitting in bed, wide awake, staring at the ceiling, listening to YCGMA on repeat. Night after night, day after day,. It was my purpose for continuing on for some reason and I still have no idea why but god am I thankful it helped me keep going. My point is, music is something that I think is such a important part of so many people's lives, including my own. It doesn't matter what you may or may not listen to. It matters how you see it and how you connect with it. For me, this new MSR album has gave me the most comfort any other songs have for a while. Without a bunch of messy rambles, I have severe case of what i believe might be contamination OCD. It's spiked so high ever since COVID hit and I have struggled for the past 3-4 years now with leaving my house. Enjoying meals is horrific too as I haven't gotten my taste back since 2021 when I had COVID. For whatever reason, this album perfectly shows my frustration and emotions about this stupid issue I've had and I can't help but tear up a little whenever "Around the Pomegranate" starts playing. I think it's mainly because of the lyrics "I just want to feel normal again. I just want to have meals with my friends. I just can't go through this again." It connects with me on the level of just being stuck in my house, dreading going outside my room because everything I touch feels so icky and gross and I hate it so, so, so much. My (possible, not diagnosed) contamination OCD has fucked me over so badly that I hate even the idea of going outside of being around objects that's been outside. It's awful. But somehow, this silly little album has helped me through it so much more than I ever thought it would've. So, once again, thank you Wilbur for saving my life and making me feel comfortable. I can't thank you enough for how much your music has helped me over the years and how much comfort it's brought me.

I remember first hearing ycgma a few years ago and fell in love, its crazy how well someone can capture such an emotion. Take care of yourself with everything going on man

Honestly, saying something is the best option here, dont ignore this.

There are people who still love you no matter what... we just hope that the truth comes out one day and we can step over this. Keep improving on yourself and please don't listen to these horrible people out there. We're here. We hear you. We support you. We love you.

Hey wilbur, i'd say i'm currently at the lowest point of my life, who i thought was the love of my life randomly dumped me, i hate the city i live in and i have no idea where to go in life, but your music helps me so so so much more than you could ever think, thanks

OMG BEST AUDIO?? WHAT IS THIS?? I LOVE THIS SM I LOVE U WILBUR your albums have helped me so much, this and ycgma. ❤

Uh-the only thing I can listen to right now... The only thing that stops me from my anxiety... throughout the entire time this album was released, I don't remember a single day that I didn't listen to some song from the album. I walk down the street with this music every day or sit at home with this music. Despite the language barrier, I still love listening to these songs and watching their translations into Russian...(Greetings from Russia! I write through a translator

Thank you will, the way you're (seemingly )calm is something I need in my life

i’m here to talk on my feelings, as many people here, i feel betrayed and ashamed to have been your fan. you grew a community that absolutely adored you, you got a community that saw you as an escape from their troubles and worries in life, you’ve saved many people from committing suicide and such, but you’ve taken it all for granted. you became a beacon of light in people’s lives, you showed yourself as an advocate for equality for women and such but that was a large lie. it hurts for me as much as it does because i’ve watched since soothouse, me and my brother would stay up late laughing and making jokes with each other to your videos so i always had such a personal connection due to growing up while watching and listening to his content, you had so much talent and yet in so little time you threw it away. you hurt people, you hurt people who took you in their arms and loved you, to add onto that you made it out as if it was something cool and talked about it to friends. i really hope for this you do feel shame, you feel the desire to grow and be a better person to one day do right by the people you’ve hurt. personally, when all this came out i was genuinely devastated, an idol who shaped my sense of humour and taste in music, my love for writing stories and making little characters, boosted my love for minecraft and got me into guitar which to this day is one of my greatest passions. so, do what’s right, deal with the consequences of your actions now, deal with the legal repercussions of what you’ve done and for the love of god, be better. you won’t be able to rest until you do, face your actions and learn from them. if people did read this, there’s probably something i wanted to say but didn’t think of, it’s very late when writing but i needed to say this or it’d be at the back of my mind forever. now that i’ve wrote my feelings down i’ll finally (hopefully) be able to move on, i won’t be watching your content, i won’t be listening to your music anymore.

We miss you. We're still here. Please come back, we're waiting, I promise.

thanks king i needed this album in top quality ‼️

Don't die Will

you saved my life will. ur streams in 2020 to now. thank you❤

I truely hate him but people wishing for him to kill himself is so terrible I just hope he's getting the help he needs..

Every single song is so good man, the amount of emotion is crazy, stay safe wilbur

every now and again i’m reminded of this channel. i remember looking up crywank covers and finding it ages ago, time goes by so quick but man seeing an upload takes me back. keep doing you, it sounds great. x

The songs you write yourself always make me tear up. Its a sharp stinging pain in my heart, i relate to many pieces you write and I'm sure many people do, too, and find comfort in your words. Thank you for creating these beautiful pieces. Enjoy your break, we'll be here when you return.

This album breaks and makes my heart at the same time it's so beautiful but gut-wrenching

i wish there were words to properly describe how changed everything is and how much i wish to find refuge in those warm, memorable times when i, and everyone, was blissfully ignorant to who and what you were

You have really helped me through some truly dark times. Thank you.

Amazon Standing Lamp is just one of those songs that I'll just play randomly on its own because I feel like it. It's truly a masterpiece (like all the music on this album but that one's my favourite) and I absolutely love it. This whole album is so amazingly put together. Take all the time you need, Will; we'll be here waiting and ready to support you! 😊

Listening to this actually felt so different from the Spotify version. There might not be that much of a difference and this might be my brain playing games on me, but I feel like I can appreciate this album a lot more again. Seriously love this album, it’s so beautiful and just comforting. Hope you’re doing well king, we’re all proud of you! :)

The thing that struck me the most was for the first time… I found a song beautiful. Gotta give props to Wilbur on “Oh, Distant You” First heard it (with full attention) while on a drive to a city. The fact that it was night time suited its vibe a lot.

every week i come back here just to read a new wave of heartbroken and betrayed comments. it feels like one of those drug rehabilitation centres, where everyone sits together to share their stories and struggle. its insane how much this one person has affected us all. i used to laugh at people obsessed with celebrities' lives, but i get it now. its crushing to see your idols fall. I'll try not to come back here next week, but i dunno if i could resist. i guess its just my cope. take care everyone, and try to get away from this.

currently sobbing. thank you very much will, i hope you know how many people you helped.

after i couldn't make it to the high school i wanted after preparing for 3 years, i rly went through depression. my parents weren't supportive abt it in the first place and i missed a lot of chances too, like having a normal teenage life because i stayed up from 7am to the morning and studied till 3am, barely having time to hang out with my friends. after i had nothing to do and i was having a burn out, watching ur old stream videos and listening to your music really cheered me up to try again. so tysm for being my favorite streamer also i love this style of midnight music

As someone who looked up to wilbur and lovejoy (no longer do) I can say that i'm beyond hurt and disappointed I know I'm a random stranger whom's feelings don't matter too much but I really thought that i could look up to you . turns out that everyone i look up to proves me to not. I support the victim always, I hope that you properly apologize to shelby. and those whom were hurt by you I don't know how to feel about this or deal with this but if anyone else is feeling the way i do, remember that you will be fine, We had no way of knowing.

Love this album! Thanks for posting it here! Take as much time off as you need :)

Wilbur's music feels like a warm blanket on a winter night and this comment section is so comfy, i just love everything about this

i love this album so much ❤

this album is everything to me!!!!

thank you so much for making this album will 💗

this has became one of my favorite albums ever! love that you posted it on youtube :)

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. Wilbur has helped me so much but I don’t agree with what he did nor do I want to support him but I just ended up here

everyone is leaving their thoughts and goodbyes here so i think i might do that too thank you for being my rock when the going got rough. your music was a safe space i could rely on to hide me from the outside world. you made me laugh, cry, feel things i've never felt before. you inspired me to start writing. you helped shaped my music taste into what it is today, and your cover of kmd was the first piece of music that made me feel seen. i'm sorry boris has given me so many warm hugs over the years that i've lost count. you brought my friends and i closer together. thank you for all of that. it hurts finding out that we've all been looking up to a facade. it also hurts knowing that you could've had everything if you were even half the person we thought you were. why couldn't you have been good? we didn't need you to be perfect, we just needed you to be honest. i hope you get help, wilbur. nothing will excuse what you've done but maybe you'll at least take that first step, or you already have. i hope all of your friends and victims heal from the pain and betrayal you've caused them. i hope we all heal, too, but this time many of us will heal without you because we'll never trust you again and i think that's the saddest part. thank you for the memories but i stand with shelby. anyways whoever reads this i hope you're doing okay! take care and subscribe to technoblade

Hi Wilbur! Thank you for uploading this, I really am such a fan of this album. I'm glad you're taking some very well-deserved time off! You've worked very hard with touring and releasing absolute bangers last year. I'm so happy to see that you're fulfilling one of your dreams of living in America for a bit- New York is a wonderful place to be, especially during the Spring. I look forward to your return whenever that is, but there is no rush or pressure. I am enjoying the music you've put out and the Sorry Boys videos very much. I hope your days are filled with whatever is bringing you the most joy at the moment!

thanks for blessing us with this amazing album

i hate it here but oh how i miss it

About a week before this album was released, I went through one of the hardest resets I've ever gone through in my life, and this album was there for me to cry with, so it will always have a special place in my heart

We’re so proud of you mate!!! Take all the time you need for a break❤❤❤

Thank you for releasing this on here. I’ve been struggling with money and job hunting for the past few months. It has been extremely frustrating when your own mental health takes a huge dive due to outside influences and to know that you have a good support system that has slowly but surely added on to the problems is heartbreaking. To feel trapped in a place that you once called home and to feel resentment for your family and friends for no reason is inexpressible. This express so much of that frustration and sadness and all of that so beautifully. Thank you for this. Hope you enjoy your break! ❤