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Damn I'm dying.

Just not yet.

But like in slo-mo. So it’s super weird.

Everyone has a cancer diagnosis story. You remember the date. The day of the week. The time of the day. The exact words exchanged. The slow melting of your brain.

Then someone hits fast forward and we find ourselves standing over a grave or listening to someone waxing poetically about their beloved person that has expired. Expired? Moved on? Moved on to where? The thing is none of that matters - it’s no longer your story anyways because you are dead. Remember the diagnosis part?

So what happens in the middle?

What about the fact that I’m dying over and over again every day all day long? But I’m not dead. Not yet. I’m just dying of stage four colon cancer … a little bit more every day.

This is not a vlog about cancer.

It’s the journey of a woman living with cancer and dying of cancer.

It’s my unfiltered story of how everyday I choose to continue shitting rainbows.

#Stage4ColonCancer #ShittingRainbows
#221 - made it home/home oxygen first time
4:57
2 месяца назад
#211 - drowning in love from chosen family
9:50
4 месяца назад
#208 - hills and valleys of pain w laughter
11:08
5 месяцев назад
#207 - enjoying in the moment
1:02
5 месяцев назад
#203 - birthdays, broken ribs and goodbyes
15:33
6 месяцев назад
Комментарии
@ckmntaz
@ckmntaz 3 часа назад
RIP SWEET NICOLE
@myheartisinjapan3184
@myheartisinjapan3184 17 часов назад
Sundays have not been the same. You are missed. Hoping you are enjoying your colorful world…in the rainbows.💗
@MelissaL
@MelissaL День назад
Thank you for sharing this sad news, Gaby. What an amazing woman. May she rest peacefully with the unicorns and rainbows, hiking and biking to her heart's content. My thoughts are with you, Gaby, as well as sweet Tilly and her family and friends. ❤
@wendymichiko
@wendymichiko День назад
Thinking of you Nicole, my Sundays won’t be the same.
@SteveAdams-yv2ss
@SteveAdams-yv2ss День назад
May the angels acompany you every day and give you the strength to accept your departure and guide you to your final destination where there is only peace and inimaginable love. May your partner have the strength to let you go. ❤️ your soul.
@fififirestone3787
@fififirestone3787 17 часов назад
She passed on 8.22.24
@SteveAdams-yv2ss
@SteveAdams-yv2ss 14 часов назад
@@fififirestone3787 may your days carry you with the beautiful memories you built together throughout your time together. Please take care of yourself. So very sorry.
@SuperNorini
@SuperNorini День назад
I miss her cheery 'hey there, thanks for joining me' ! It's hard to believe she's gone.... Hopefully somewhere nice! ❤
@shellabaccus2462
@shellabaccus2462 День назад
This is Sunday, September 15...I miss you, Nicole. The only consolation is that you are free from pain. But...your glitter warriors miss you so much.❤
@florencecurtis5680
@florencecurtis5680 День назад
Miss you ❤
@RichardKoning
@RichardKoning День назад
I miss you, Nicole 😢
@Legittoquit1
@Legittoquit1 3 дня назад
I miss you . I hope your poor wife is ok . ❤❤❤
@sherrithomas4350
@sherrithomas4350 4 дня назад
I miss you, friend
@Glitterhead
@Glitterhead 5 дней назад
PLEASE ACCEPT JESUS AS YOUR SAVIOR. NOTHING MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR ETERNAL SOUL SWEETHEART
@Catlady52000
@Catlady52000 5 дней назад
I think of her so often! Such a strong soul! I hope she is at peace she deserves it more than anyone! 💜🌈💜🌈💜🌈
@mmmmlllljohn
@mmmmlllljohn 5 дней назад
So sorry for your loss. ❤️🇨🇦🙏
@carriegordon5830
@carriegordon5830 6 дней назад
I’m so sorry for your loss! We will of course miss this amazing and beautiful soul! I wish you all the best that Nichole would want for you. Take care of yourself! ❤
@alexandrapopova9760
@alexandrapopova9760 7 дней назад
I miss Nicole... I just fucking really miss her 😞
@kristimartinez7528
@kristimartinez7528 7 дней назад
Same 😞
@DR3itmatters
@DR3itmatters 5 дней назад
Same💯😒
@suecuredale9864
@suecuredale9864 8 дней назад
I miss Monday mornings when I would go to my computer for Nicoles Sunday update. Is it ok to ask if we will see her "service" im sure that it will be a beautiful send off?
@jodeming5088
@jodeming5088 8 дней назад
Gabby, sending you my love and heartfelt condolences. I am so sorry Nicole has passed. I can’t tell you how much she meant to me. She was smart, witty, loving, kind, adventurous and always concerned that others were ok. I went looking for a Sunday video and found your post. I am heartbroken for you and your loved ones and friends. Nicole’s memory is a beautiful blessing to us all.
@Barbara-ch3qf
@Barbara-ch3qf 9 дней назад
Nicoles old videos from before I started following her are showing up in my feed. Nice to see her as she loved to be-outside, active and with her pup! Love the trolls. How fun that must have been for the kids.
@Shelly9401
@Shelly9401 10 дней назад
I’m so sorry. Sending many Blessings.
@AAA-wb5xz
@AAA-wb5xz 10 дней назад
Thought of you today Nicole. With your whimsical glasses & your spunkey personality. Smiling for what you gave us all 😊 & hope you are enjoying all the colors in your beautiful 🌈 rainbow.✌️☀️ Thank U.
@kelleyanne2368
@kelleyanne2368 10 дней назад
May she rest in heavenly peace
@kelleyanne2368
@kelleyanne2368 10 дней назад
Prayers
@Marie-eh6je
@Marie-eh6je 10 дней назад
I had a feeling. Was scared to look for the update. I’m sorry for your loss. She was so incredibly strong. I’ve never seen so much positivity and strength. She will be missed by many.
@shp12
@shp12 11 дней назад
she was a beacon of light flying high. sending you so much love and courage in your grief.
@user-zs3gh2xl3q
@user-zs3gh2xl3q 12 дней назад
I'm just seeing this video my condolences
@lisamccullough5150
@lisamccullough5150 12 дней назад
I’m so sorry she passed, I’m so glad that even though she got this horrible disease she had years, I did have a question, did she have regular colonoscopies?
@DR3itmatters
@DR3itmatters 11 дней назад
Yes she did. She stayed on top of her health. They were quite aware bcuz father-in-law had cancer just prior and many of her friends as well. Miss her!!
@lisamccullough5150
@lisamccullough5150 12 дней назад
Did you get regular colonoscopies?
@constanzefrei4289
@constanzefrei4289 12 дней назад
You are the best. LOVE your stories! Love your life, your energy, love that you are still a kid in your soul.
@SamM-jd3fm
@SamM-jd3fm 13 дней назад
I will always remember her. Rest in peace sweet lady.
@mandamacers9983
@mandamacers9983 13 дней назад
Finally found some time to write something. On the darkest nights shine the brightest stars. Nicole was the brightest of stars and I can confidently say that she has impacted my life. Gaby, thank you so much for the upate and I'll be thinking of you on your future journey. Nicole, I will miss you. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜
@MiztressPlunderBunny
@MiztressPlunderBunny 14 дней назад
❤❤❤🌈🌈🌈
@Gigithehippie
@Gigithehippie 14 дней назад
💔
@carolinemccolelong4886
@carolinemccolelong4886 14 дней назад
So so sorry to hear this sad news,rest in peace Nicole 😭
@TwistedAnomalyArts
@TwistedAnomalyArts 14 дней назад
I'm sorry. I followed her because my husband had been diagnosed. He chose to fight the truth. It made it difficult. She was so brave to embrace it. I hope I have as much Grace as she did when it's my time. Bless you all. It's so hard when the end arrives, no matter how prepared you believe you are.
@sarahhardy4627
@sarahhardy4627 14 дней назад
She was a beautiful person inside and out. Xxx
@bonniehess816
@bonniehess816 14 дней назад
😭😭😭😭 RIP Nicole
@iSheree
@iSheree 15 дней назад
My Monday mornings here in Australia are never going to be the same without Nicole. I miss her beautiful face. I hope she is happy and comfortable wherever she is. 🌈✨
@elizebethleon8706
@elizebethleon8706 15 дней назад
So sorry 😢. Nicole seemed like she wanted to live so bad.😢 Bless her heart ❤I hope she's gone somewhere better. RIP to a beautiful lady... And sending loads of love and strength 💪 to you and all the family. Xxxx
@jamielynncox297
@jamielynncox297 16 дней назад
Sundays just wont be the same without Nicole❤❤❤
@sylviarogier1
@sylviarogier1 16 дней назад
😢
@raymarriss2440
@raymarriss2440 17 дней назад
Bye!😢💫
@faisalahmad3309
@faisalahmad3309 17 дней назад
Prayers 🤲🙏
@faisalahmad3309
@faisalahmad3309 17 дней назад
Prayers 🙏
@shillanereid6034
@shillanereid6034 17 дней назад
You need JESUS. Repent of your sins and ask HIM to come into your heart and life.
@cerarod4248
@cerarod4248 17 дней назад
"Butterfly" by Jon B. You will be missed ❤
@jamiepowell3036
@jamiepowell3036 17 дней назад
She loved you so much ❤
@kristimartinez7528
@kristimartinez7528 18 дней назад
❤ 🌈 🦄
@realdealastrology9
@realdealastrology9 18 дней назад
Dead
@mellodiamond
@mellodiamond 18 дней назад
Thank you for the update. Sending hugs and prayers 💜