I make mixes because sometimes I don't feel like doing anything else🖤
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your mixes are so underrated. theyre actually original and new and you can tell you put time into curating them instead of slapping songs together with whatever is popular. and i LOVE the pixel art images!! im so sick of seeing so many stale recycled playlists with ai images 😭😭i really resonate with the mixes you make, and can tell you have great taste!! thanks for making these. :)
------------------ Who did you used to be? Who are you now? Who are you becoming? I moved around a lot as a kid, made me take on a passive role in life. I didn’t mind not making a lot of friends because what was the point? ( I was gonna move anyway). I didn’t care abt much. I honestly don’t remember a whole lot about growing up… Now I’m someone who tries to be present, take shit with me ya know? I show up, I pay attention to the littlest of moments. I think that’s how life is meant to be lived. Idk much about the person I’m becoming, I hope they’re cool, maybe they help guide others or become an example of what to do and what not to do.. 🖤 ugh goodnight ------------------
Being a BoC fan for more than 20 years I never came across "5D"..!?! Brilliant track and overall brilliant track selection. I am so glad that I stumbled upon your channel! <3
------------------ I feel… no, I Know that I’m growing distant from a lot of people in my life. Some for no reason in particular, some due to unpleasant situations, It sucks, it might be temporary, but a new chapter is always A little exciting, scary, but I’ll try to be open to what my life brings next I guess. ------------------
Work is really starting to blend together and it sucks... I’ve been walking a lot more, believe or not it helps. Gives you so much time to THINK and sit with things. Even the stuff you don’t wanna think about. Sometimes I even get a lil lost out there.. funny how that makes it even more worthwhile sometimes
Hi friend. I’ve been listening to your mixes. Thank you for not only making them, but sharing how you feel. I too have lost myself in my job and mental health. It hurts…. hurts into the bellowing depths of my soul. You’re seen, you’re heard, I feel in the same ways you do. May we unite in peace through these playlists as they provide temporarily bliss and most importantly, relief ❤ Best of wishes. Better days ahead.
@@nicholasrambaran6307yes I agree with a lot of what he has to say it’s so helpful . Sometimes we forget how helpful it is to come back to simple things. 🖤thank you
@@FreyaReturnanything to let yall know I’m here with in with you ✨🖤. We’ll figure it out at some point and my comments are always open to speak from the deep corners of your mind. I’m sorry it’s been so murky and challenging for you. This one is rather special to me and means a lot you reached on this particular one. Hang in there
This is channel is slowly turning into a diary. Glad ya’ll still listening. I’ve been trying to make sense of a lot. Very little feels rights But the things that do…. I’m holding onto and taking them with me as I continue slowly moving forward Get some sleep pls or just lay there.. either way enjoy 🖤
I don’t know if I want things to change. Time kills but it’s also the best healer. I’m not ready to be an adult. I’m so scared everyday of loosing someone important to me. I shouldn’t have to worry about that. I’m just so scared of change yet there’s so much that I want, need, to change
going off of most social media except for youtube and a videogame or two, smelling some fresh air more often, startin to workout n yeah, enjoy a hobby :)
Love. Trying to understand it. A deep unease in the value of closeness even if it doesn't last. To tell someone that they are an extension of yourself but also there own unique collection of stories and mystery. Oh, to be unraveled at the fringes of everything you've ever believed. World shaken and reality blended. To be changed with a touch from your chosen one. Love is best experienced when It's not Needed. When the sense of who you are isn't so easily influenced by its introduction. And so the love I want does not hold, but lifts me. Be no stranger to love, be curious. Their fears, their innocence, the dark stuff, the quirks, the things that make them smile. You can't learn it all but in that commitment lies a natural order. Seeing the things that they can't see in themselves and still treating them gently..... This is the soul... Maybe. 🖤 So Love: the unfiltered, ever-changing, non-competitive exchange of power where we don't just accept who they are, But help each other bring out our most purest forms so that they may meet each other and dance. -For B💛🖤
I know I'm just some person on the internet, and honestly reading your question I sort of began typing all of this without hesitation, for a reason that even I could not explain, What really sucks is just how much other people will never understand the hardships that are mentally taking a toll on you specifically, to other people they might hear you and show sympathy (or straight up call you a liar in my experience), except its not even sympathy I seek, I seek escapes and someone who can understand. Though I know no one can truly understand because everyone's situation is unique even as similar as they can be in my case I suffer from these racing like thoughts that are unexplainably fast and have no meaning, it sounds like straight gibberish and its my brain having constant conversations with itself, as if I was having a conversation with 2 other different versions of myself but they are all talking as I am thinking, I am a somewhat heavier smoker because of this as once I discovered it I found an escape that I never thought existed, I am now currently having withdrawal symptoms from weed as my tolerance grew and I began to run out, not having that makes it all the more worse now, it had shut off those other 2 nonexistent doppelgangers of myself that try to speak to me, one of my many recent thoughts is craving it as I seek for silence in my head, and craving something like that is really upsetting and disappointing even to myself, I get upset with myself for not being able to control what I am beginning to acknowledge is an addiction to aid me from whatever else is going on with my brain, as a kid I told myself I would never touch something like that ever, I know I have disappointed my younger self but I know he'd also understand, as its something that relieves me from my unexplainable thoughts, anxieties and sense of paranoia that get bad to the point I question if this is really the life id like to live, I have other mild conditions that hurt my mood such including mild scoliosis, lactose intolerance, allergies, and I am also insomniac... I never really stepped back in my life and set goals on what I want to be or find out what I like, and to this day I still have trouble finding anything I like, I am currently in college pursuing no degree in particular because of this... however in these hard times one of my other comforts is tracks like these, most notably silent hill 2 inspired tracks, it minimizes my thoughts slightly and it helped me get through my day at my work today. (I am a full-time student with a part time job)
@@compromisedintel2282sorry about the thoughts eating you man, it sucks but good luck! sometimes i have to play atound and get my old man cane and shoo em off! kinda like flies, it helps to look at the mess and crush them! you're the one who owns your lawn so don't forget your own cane to beat the shit out of ye damned thoughts! as much as those pervasive voices chatter and shriek, you still own that body and that mind and as loud as they scream, you got this brother. 🌲🌴🌳🌴🌲 Going outside and grounding yourself under something helps, trees are super chill to hangout with! any hobby you have can help distract from those thought, if it feels like two heads well drawing two heads and if one is annoying them then you can draw ye olde cinderblock above it to make it shut up!
@@compromisedintel2282If you ever feel like talking, I am here to listen. I don't know how exactly I could help you, but I will try. We will fight this together, brother.