Restless Evening | Dark Ambient Music horror 

Paranormal activity.

I know I'm just some person on the internet, and honestly reading your question I sort of began typing all of this without hesitation, for a reason that even I could not explain, What really sucks is just how much other people will never understand the hardships that are mentally taking a toll on you specifically, to other people they might hear you and show sympathy (or straight up call you a liar in my experience), except its not even sympathy I seek, I seek escapes and someone who can understand. Though I know no one can truly understand because everyone's situation is unique even as similar as they can be in my case I suffer from these racing like thoughts that are unexplainably fast and have no meaning, it sounds like straight gibberish and its my brain having constant conversations with itself, as if I was having a conversation with 2 other different versions of myself but they are all talking as I am thinking, I am a somewhat heavier smoker because of this as once I discovered it I found an escape that I never thought existed, I am now currently having withdrawal symptoms from weed as my tolerance grew and I began to run out, not having that makes it all the more worse now, it had shut off those other 2 nonexistent doppelgangers of myself that try to speak to me, one of my many recent thoughts is craving it as I seek for silence in my head, and craving something like that is really upsetting and disappointing even to myself, I get upset with myself for not being able to control what I am beginning to acknowledge is an addiction to aid me from whatever else is going on with my brain, as a kid I told myself I would never touch something like that ever, I know I have disappointed my younger self but I know he'd also understand, as its something that relieves me from my unexplainable thoughts, anxieties and sense of paranoia that get bad to the point I question if this is really the life id like to live, I have other mild conditions that hurt my mood such including mild scoliosis, lactose intolerance, allergies, and I am also insomniac... I never really stepped back in my life and set goals on what I want to be or find out what I like, and to this day I still have trouble finding anything I like, I am currently in college pursuing no degree in particular because of this... however in these hard times one of my other comforts is tracks like these, most notably silent hill 2 inspired tracks, it minimizes my thoughts slightly and it helped me get through my day at my work today. (I am a full-time student with a part time job)

@@compromisedintel2282sorry about the thoughts eating you man, it sucks but good luck! sometimes i have to play atound and get my old man cane and shoo em off! kinda like flies, it helps to look at the mess and crush them! you're the one who owns your lawn so don't forget your own cane to beat the shit out of ye damned thoughts! as much as those pervasive voices chatter and shriek, you still own that body and that mind and as loud as they scream, you got this brother. 🌲🌴🌳🌴🌲 Going outside and grounding yourself under something helps, trees are super chill to hangout with! any hobby you have can help distract from those thought, if it feels like two heads well drawing two heads and if one is annoying them then you can draw ye olde cinderblock above it to make it shut up!

​@@compromisedintel2282If you ever feel like talking, I am here to listen. I don't know how exactly I could help you, but I will try. We will fight this together, brother.