⭐ Timestaps! ⭐ 0:00 - 2:40 i threw a rock off a overpass and killed a guy - sign crushes mototrist ⭐ 2:41 - 4:50 Death music? - Nikita Kryukov ⭐ 4:53 - 6:32 void__19###-c - No love in the house of gold ⭐ 6:34 - 8:03 The descent - Infinity frequencies ⭐ 8:05 - 9:30 Implanted memories - Infinity Frequencies ⭐ 9:32 - 12:52 Space 2 - Unworn ⭐ 12:54 - 14:32 Old Memory - Potato-g ⭐ 14:36 - 17:23 Missed Call - Wiktor Stribog ⭐ 17:24 - 19:50 VOCALOID UTOPIA - dennokop ⭐ 19:51 - 20:44 Daisy - Strange U, Doctor Zygote, King Kashmere ⭐ 20:45 - 23:26 Run Rabbit Run - Flanagan & Allen ⭐ 23:30 - 27: 29 Fighter- Jack Stauber´s Micropop ⭐ 27:30 - 30:35 There´s Something Happening - Jack Stauber´s Micropop ⭐ 30:36 - 32:10 People eater - Sodikken ⭐ 32:12 - 33:15 Misery Meat - Sodikken ⭐ 33:16 - 35:56 you not the same (Slowed down version) - Tilekid ⭐ 35:57 - 38:47 I Think Ill Loose My Mind In Hysteria - Shokaii ⭐ 38:48 - 41:44 Homage - Mild High Club ⭐ 41:45 - 45:13 Cooking on flowers - Fox Academy ⭐ 45:14 - 48:30 Blondie - Current Joys ⭐ 48:31 - 51:38 Back to the old house - 2011 remastered - The Smiths ⭐ 51:39 - 55:12 Heart To Heart - Mac DeMarco ⭐ 55:13 - 58:46 Heaven Knows Im Miserable Now - 2011 remastered - The Smiths ⭐ 58:48 - 1:00:22 - Me and the Birds - Duster ⭐ 1:00:23 - 1:03:22 - well meet again - Vera Lynn ⭐ 1:03:23 - 1:06:45 Still life - Sircom ⭐ 1:06:46 - 1:08:18 Estrager - Jack Staubers Micropop ⭐ 1:08:19 - 1:10:00 Think Of Me Once In A While, Take Care -Take Care ⭐ 1:10:01 - 1:11:40 i was only temporary - my head is empty ⭐ 1:11:42 - 1:12:28 Mg1 - Machine Girl ⭐ 1:12:29 - 1:17:26 Baby hotline - Jack Staubers Micropop ⭐ These are timestamps for anyone who needs them!!!! ❤:)
Finally an actual playlist that isn't just hyperpop mixed with classic songs in every playlist. this one really makes me feel like I'm walking through faded memories in between time.
I was incredibly sick as a toddler, and if have no memory of any of it. Not a single doctors trip. Not a single day of that year and a half, but every other aspect of my life after that, and a little bit before, is so bright. I faced one of my first wounds since this Friday, and am only realizing now how truly traumatized I am by doctors. I’m afraid to let them touch me at all, I am in so much pain that I’d rather melt into the pain than feel another sting.
A 6 year old girl, walking home with her older brother after school witnessed something tragic, a drunk man beating his own child, around the same age as the little girl. The two never knew what to do, they had no power and were scared... They never bothered or tried to intervene that whole situation and continued walking home. No-one's said a word or peep about it. What if I say, that the little girl in the story, was me. The girl who witnessed her first trauma of fathers, afraid he might hit her the same way. Not a word said, or to be heard...
know who you are, a very special person who deserves everything good in life, and who is loved much more than you think. No matter what you do you will always be a precious being with endless value ❤
My trauma is deep but I feel driven to be the gentleness that I never had for others and myself. It never made me kind. I just choose to be kind because I can’t let all the innocent in this world suffer anymore than they already have.
I was coming back from school in 4th or 5th grade and i saw my teachers body outside the school and it her face was gone she was bloody and you couldn't even make out her outfit, that's how bloody she was, it was reported that a dog attacked her(full story:the dog's chain broke and he managed to get out the yard and my teacher was there and got killed by the dog)the dog was a pitbull (that's the only Trauma i have, but it's a gory one)
i never do this but i’m so tired i’ll try it. my parents divorced when i was 7. my stepfather was already in the scene cause he was a college friend of my mom. well, it happened. for three years, and she who was once abused as well became the enabler she knows about it she made a choice, it was not me maybe it was not him as well, but it was not me. when i was 14 i started dating a 24 man and when i was 17 a 28 one. she blamed me latter when them both relationships ended with me in pieces. i was raped more than once and she blame me. man i’m still fucking 19 years old . i’m almost graduating college now and trying to break the cycle. life is what it is right? i’m still trying to figure out what to do, i learned in a early age that sometimes absolutely no one will give a single fuck about you so you will have to push it through, endure, survive. so i’m doing it till this day and i hope everyone here or you who took your time to read my history make it :) we deserve to be happy, we do recover.
What I'm gonna vent about is kind of small and trivial I guess. It was my birthday yesterday (October 14th) and the only thing I wanted to happen didn't. I really wanted to call or at least text my best friend for a bit but we didn't get to. It kind of felt like he was ignoring me. He was home all day and he left me on read for a while. It just sucked. My last birthday was kinda horrible too so I don't really know what I expected.
My cousin did a bad thing to me when he locked himself in the bathroom with me. In my opinion, it's been 9 or 10 years. I do not know if it affected my current condition, but it was bad
