🔴 Dr. K Deep Dives into Dissociation 

That feeling when somoeone can articulate your confusion for years in a way that really hit the spot.

Oh wow, I was waiting for this. I've been living on autopilot for about 4 years. Waking up, dressing up, getting into bus, riding to work, working, getting back home, gettin into bed and in the end... realising I don't remember almost ANYTHING that happened throughout the day. I didn't know how I got up, how I appeared at work, how I got back home. I was stuck in my own world inside my head where I was going through same events from my life, same fuck ups, imagining what could have been if I chose differently etc. I was in such a bad state my family forced me to go to a psychiatrist. Anxiety-depressive states with dissociative symptoms. I got my meds and got better after a year of treatment.

If you weren't taught how to identify and express emotions as a child, that isn't set in stone. That means it is a learned skill, and as long as you can learn, you can recover.

*Intro, YT Membership & Trauma Guide:* 6:06 *Dissociation Lecture:* 17:30 - Introduction & Why This Topic Matters: 17:30 - Dissociation & the internet: 24:55 - The "Psychic Pit Model": 26:59 - Defining Dissociation & Depersonalization: 30:42 - Components of self that are affected: 31:49 - Fracturing & Intrusions: 33:44 - Neuroscience of Dissociation: 34:59 - How dissociation works: 35:04 - Dissociation as a protective mechanism: 44:15 - The role of memory & flashbacks: 40:54 - Dissociation as a Protective Mechanism: 44:15 - PFC Suppressing Amygdala: 55:11 - Insula & Interoceptive Awareness: 56:16 - The PCC & Self-Recognition: 1:04:47 - DMN & Depression: 1:09:25 - Ketamine as Treatment : 1:11:01 - Overmodulation & undermodulation of emotions: 1:14:05 - Impact on Identity & Motivation: 1:26:33 - Dissociation, Gaming & The Internet: 1:30:28 - Virtual identities & problematic internet use: 1:34:19 - Finding safety & salience in the virtual world: 1:37:16 - What To Do: 1:40:26 - Trauma-related treatment (EMDR, psychotherapy): 1:40:26 - Learning to feel & reducing alexithymia: 1:41:57 - Re-engaging with Relationships: 1:50:47 - Living Life & Avoiding Retreat: 1:56:19 - Yoga for Dissociation: 2:00:09 *Dev Talk - Trauma Guide Feature Demo (with Trinian):* 2:10:18 *Q&A:* 2:32:39 - Gender Dysphoria & Dissociation: 2:33:20 - Future Lecture on DID/OSDD?: 2:36:06 - Neuroplasticity & Brain Changes: 2:38:12 - Yoga Nidra & Salience: 2:41:14 - Meditation & Dissociation: 2:43:57 - Dissociation & Romantic Relationships: 2:52:19 - PNES & The Trauma Guide: 2:58:02 - Gaming & Artificial Dissociation: 2:58:50 - BPD & Disorganized Attachment: 3:00:06 - Finding Balance Between Feeling & Action: 3:00:28 *Closing Remarks:* 3:07:28

the irony in that I keep having to rewind a few minutes because i realise i have dissociated while thinking about something said and stopped paying attention to what is being said afterwards

I have dissociation for so long that I have even forgot how is it to be like a normal human

This is an incredibly useful video and my personal favorite you've ever done. Big thanks to you and your team

"A-ha! You thought I was Dr. K, but I am now Aloki, Monk of Mischief!"

I'm actively at work, I opened RU-vid because I had an overwhelming wave of guilt and depression. I just about laughed out loud because Dr. K streamed about dissociation the one day I wasn't dissociating the last bit of his lecture had me trying not to cry at my station

I have few deep memories from my childhood, but I can vividly remember around the age of 10 asking my brother if he felt like he "wasn't in control of his life, like you're watching someone else live life for you?" I'd been quickly dismissed by him and the rest of my family, no matter how often I brought up this strange feeling over time. 20 something years later I'm halfway through this lecture relating to more than I anticipated. Not diagnosing myself, but I can say this is the motivation and specific angle I needed to begin seeking more individualized help. Thanks Dr K. Been a big fan for a while, but this is without a doubt the most personally impacting video to date.

I think dissociation/depersonalization has always been a larger issue than people realize, but technology helped us recognize and keep track of it better. Since other ways of dissociating were more subtle, and social pressure to conform could easily cover a lot of it up simply because no one’s paying attention to conforming-“it’s just taking part in normal common behavior”. Other ways to dissociate is through reading, music, media, being a workaholic, etc. The work place is a huge place for dissociation especially when it’s highly demanding and toxic, people end up “switching off” to get through it. I’m still at the beginning of the video so if you touch on this later or if I’m using the wrong words, I apologize in advance.

my chronic depersonalization/derealization began when i was 12 years old. i know the exact date. if you showed me a film of myself, i could pinpoint the exact moment it started. this was the beginning of a long journey where i thought i was utterly insane. most of the time, when you're experiencing a symptom of mental illness, you can google key words to find out what it is that you have. to find others who are experiencing the same thing. but with dp/dr, this took me multiple years. how do you look up a feeling? that the grass is too green. like i'm drunk or high, but without any of the fun. that the malls are too big and bright. that everything is foggy, yet vibrant. that my hands aren't my own. that i'm a little person sitting behind my own eyes. that the ground keeps comes closer when i walk. i asked doctors, i was referred to opthalmologists, i asked my family. sometimes descriptions of dpdr would accidentally slip out of my mouth to someone in my life, and they couldn't understand. i only found out what it was when i stumbled across a youtube video by a musician i listen to. and finally, i could breathe again. i finally felt seen. feelings of derealization and depersonalization are the 3rd most common symptoms of mental illness after feelings of anxiety and depression. and there was a huge spike during covid, when everyone was quarantined. the pandemic was a global trauma. it is going to affect us as a society, as people, long-term. i dont wish dpdr on anyone.

The true crushing weight of modern life is when you hear "Do yoga, do tai chi" and you look up where you can go IRL to 'live your life' and take a class and find out... they are all during weekdays at 11am and you work every weekday 9-5... Nothing quite like getting a ray of hope only to realize the cards are deeply stacked against you. Can you do SOMETHING in the face of this? yea prob. Do it on your own, etcetc. But that's why the MODERN life is SO bad. We all keep having to problem solve everything, it seems like, ourselves in a time when supposedly business solutions and products are CLAIMING to make our life easier than ever. Which might be true...except it's all with a fee and to pay that fee you have to busy yourself in such a hugely unbalanced way with what we call 'actually living' that LIVING is ALWAYS going to be the thing that gets thrown out, in sublimation to MAKING MONEY instead, unless you have the herculean strength to walk upstream in waist deep water for the rest of your life OR you are pre-resourced (AKA family money, trust fund, etc) enough to start sculpting the environment and the river to suit your own needs. Very few people, in totality, can afford that kind of commanding power, but we sure as hell all LISTEN to their BS about how "just" waking up at 5am solves all of THEIR problems. And it'll solve YOURS too (If you also have $1000 to spend every day to sustain it, is the part they don't say out loud.) Then you look for people to help you and find them FINALLY after a lot of failed tries...except they're kinda hoping that YOU can help THEM walk through the water instead. And you think "well we'll link hands and walk together" and you take 3 steps and then find a split in the river and your guys' paths diverge in a way you can't rectify because you went to school for 4 years for path A and they have 8 years of EXP working on Path B and both of these industries only exist in 2-3 cities that are split across the entire country. -__- Then remote work started to seem like a solution and now it's all "GO BACK TO THE OFFICE! REMOTE WORK SUCKS" again now that no one's being FORCED to allow it. -__- (plus remote work might even make work TWICE as isolating!) It feels to me like we're reaching a human specialization cap on how we can expect our society to function without very high level control and clear rules to sort people, which is what everyone is scared of with both communism and fascism alike... So wtf do we do about THAT???? There's only so many times a person can try this cycle over and over and over and find something that seems great but doesn't work out in the medium run, or even the short run, before they lose all will to keep trying. It's how slot machines get you. They don't have a 1% hit rate, they have like a 15% hit rate b/c people are smart at realizing when their efforts never pay off!!! That part of the problem, imo, won't go away until life shifts DRAMATICALLY in some kind of way, but ofc no one knows how to solve it b/c it's as complex as real life is and requires highly resourced individuals (not unlike Dr K!) to start the arm linking and try to help others figure out how they can manage to get into the same river in their life. THAT is how we heal the world. Harmonization, moving towards the same goals, and reverberation energy. NOT individualism and personal achievement. That's the recipe that got us into this mess to begin with.

the part about it being considered rare but way more ppl have it than we thought: I must say this, as a citizen of one of the many countries affected by war right now, actively concerned about effective PTSD treatments for the many many many veterans that we will encounter. However still I had NO IDEA this was SO common. I've just entered the practice of counseling/psychology working in a school, only for half a year so far. Nothing too difficult for beginners. I'm shocked to say I've already worked with a client (grade 9) with DP/DR and some concerning amnesia symptoms. If that's how common this is and not a total coincidence, then dissociation and especially DID are going to appear SO MUCH MORE in the next decade. It's so crucial they MUST be explained more to society, starting, like, right now. So, thank you so much for covering this!

50:30 Paralysis of initiation 1:22:00 Salience (the notion of importance in an emotional level) 1:30:00 Why this is on the rise 1:40:00 What do we do: Therapy, EMDR, The importance of Connection to others (humans and animals) (we all feel more than we can handle) 1:56:00 Learn how to live life

Dude… This channel has done more for my mental health than any doctor, practitioner, standard self help by MILES. Thank you and all behind the HealthyGamer team. Been dealing with this for about 7 years, and as a soon 25 year old. It’s so frustrating, but I’ve seen progress. Most that deal with this, feel alone, unseen and unheard. I wish everyone the best, and you can overcome this 🤙

For those who maybe still don't fully get it: Dissociation can be a symptom of disorders such as -anxiety -ptsd -bpd When the dissociation integrates itself more intensly into an individuals life (it is long lasting and causes distress) it potentially can become its own condition rather than just a symptom of a different disorder. There are 4 main dissociative disorders: -DPDR (depersonalisation/derealisation disorder) - a disconnection between experiences of the minds and the self and reality -DID (dissoctiave identity disorder) - a disconnection between different internal identities or selves -Dissociative amnesia - disconnection between self and memory or elements of identity -Dissociative fugue - a form of dissociative amnesia Depersonalisation and derealisation are forms of dissociation that describe a disconnection from self and reality, respectively. It isn't abnormal to experience either of these occasionally as fleeting sensations, and they can be symptoms of disorders first mentioned but once they establish themselves as both lingering and distressing (and resistant to conventional treatment) the experiencing of these forms of dissociation could be linked to dissociative disorders like DPDR, in particular. I also think the reason more people supposedly are dissociated is, in part, because people have a greater understanding of self and access to vocabulary - the ability to describe what's wrong, even if it's hard to treat. Dissociation cannot be medicated away. It is essentialy the result of severe anxiety, and the anxiety can be medicated, which can alleviate the dissociation. But to this day, there's no clear protocol or set means of treatment for dissociation alone because it is so complicated and misunderstood. Anyway Dissociation is super interesting and overwhelmingly misunderstood online. This lecture was really interesting, but I feel like it probably isn't super comprehensible to people who don't already have a solid base level understanding of dissociation. Still, any information given by people who actually know what they're talking about can only do any good in the end. I'm glad Dr K discussed this issue, and think he did a pretty decent job.

Moment of vulnerability for me. I see comments that say “I cried at this video…” a lot for Dr.Ks videos. I always thought it was corny. I did cry at this video. I have suffered from derealization and depersonalization for years now. Heavy gaming time, porn use and internet use. No feeling of a continuous, whole sense of self. It hurts. My primary focus in my life right now is healing. So glad this is getting talked about. I know I am not the only one.

I am only in the first hour watching this back but it’s the most helpful video in terms of understanding myself how my brain functions. I am no longer young. I am 43. I want to mention it so that this community gets to know there aren’t only young people who follow this channel. We are broken as well. We’ve been “living” our lives not knowing what the fuck is wrong with us. I no longer believe it can be better but at least knowing it’s not my fault and I didn’t have a choice but to happen like that to just survive. I am so grateful Dr. K exists.

As I continue my healing journey and working through my childhood trauma, videos like these are vital to my understanding of things and I just thank you so much for taking the time to do these! Cheers to you and your team! 😊

This was one of your best talks Dr.K. I can recall exactly when I wished to be able disassociate from a turbulent childhood and unfortunately I got my wish.

I've said this before; I saw this gamer therapist pop up on my feed and thought it was hilariously dumb. Watched one video and now I'm hooked. This lecture was made for me. Thank you.

This was wonderfully informative, love the map of choose your own adventure in mental & spiritual wellness- amazing work, thanks to you and your team ❤

I feel so f*****g lonely, i live with my family parents and 2 little sisters, but I've never felf loved neither understood or welcomed in this family, my childhood was like hell, nothing good about it but manipulation and humiliation and shame. I'm so tired.

This is perhaps one of the most important videos I've ever seen on this channel. And that's saying something. Thanks Healthy Gamer.

Dr. K I hope you see this, you did an amazing job researching this, I know because I've ben stuck in this state for over a decade and everything you described was spot on. Also amazing is that the research is far more advanced than I thought because it was able to help you deeply understand the disorder and then you were able to put the pieces together. Thank you

Really happy and grateful that this is being adressed. I've struggle with Dissociation for all my life and developed DID. Finally think I can make big steps in healing now with the information given to me in this Video. Might be one of the most important ones I've ever seen.

I'm a psychiatry resident (who also myself struggle with dissociation), and this is the first time I've really been able to make any sense at all of what always seemed like nebulous concepts like the "self" and "fragmentation" that would come up from time to time in any lectures, readings, etc I tried to use in attempt to better understand this topic. Actually dealing with dissociative tendencies is hell from both the patient and the clinician side because most clinicians barely understand the concept, yet alone know how to address it. I've seen a few therapists, and they basically all just taught be basic grounding techniques (eg 5,4,3,2,1), which may be helpful for fairly straightforward/textbook cases of dissociation but never helped me much.

It was very difficult to hear some of this but I appreciate massively the understanding you're giving away. I'm hoping I can retrain some of this knowledge and apply it. Might check out the guide too

i appreciate so much the use of nuero talk and showing published studies. it makes things so much more concrete as someone with a DD where denial is so strong.

I can’t even tell you how hyped I was when I saw the live! I’ve been journaling a lot and one problematic chunk of it is avoidance coupled and thru dissociation

I have CPTSD and was prescribed heavy doses of benzos- I became addicted and also abused them for “the escape.” I had a very rapid taper off of them in rehab and one of the worst things was horrible dp/dr for almost 6 months. It felt like my sense of self was “shifted” and I was looking at the world from 5 ft underwater. It was absolutely awful- I was terrified I’d feel like this forever. Eventually I had one window of 5 minutes where I felt like myself again. I held onto these “Windows” wirh all the hope I had- If I had one “ window” eventually I’d have another. Over the course of 6 months the windows became more frequent and lasted longer. Thank god the dp/dr went away mostly at 6 months. Almost two years out I’ll have some moments I of do/dr. I don’t know if it’s extended post acute withdrawals or just my original diagnosis of CPTSD. I have heard that dp/dr is extremely common on people coming off benzos.

I was waiting for this one since you announced it somewhere in winter. As someone with did who enjoys and learns from your videos a lot, thank you so much🙏🙏🙏 Edit: I do hope we'll get a deep dive into dissociation/did, was happy the person asked :) I'm very curious to see what your spiritual input on it would be as well.

im so happy a video was made on this, had it in a really hard time in life and still have it, ive learned more how to deal with it, but i hope other people feel better if they have it worse

Im halfway through, and i have a thought. Yall are talking about videogames, and social media, and internet use, and i wasnt relating... because im a millennial. I didnt get a phone till i was 15, i played in the dirt when i was traumatized, i developed a different safe space... in my mind. Youre right, dr k, i should find my diet important, but all i find myself prioritizing is my writing! I read a lot, i research and take notes on video essays about stories, and i write my own stories that are gonna save a generation from going through what i go through. That question, "whats important to you" really is the question to ask. So many things are clicking in this video, thank you! Now lets finish the second half jaja

Thanatosis (physiological feign death) is a rather extreme example of a freeze response, and probably not even applicable to humans or other apes. If you walk in the woods and see a bear (or a man if that sounds scarier), your first reaction would probably be to stop, stand still, forget whatever you were doing (all the salience gets directed towards the bear), hope the bear does not notice you, and look for possible escapes. That is a more common case of a freeze response, and it also happens on a low neurological level. If you are carrying a baby through those woods (or hiding in a cellar from some bad people), even the baby can read your nonverbal cues, and freeze as well.

This resonated with me. Thank you, i wasnt aware of this before but is exactly what ive been feeling ever since i lost my job

53:01 Really hit home for me- my mom was training for the olympics. she was a swimmer from middle school up until 20 when she got pregnant. she tried signing me up for swim classes and teams, tried to teach me how to swim. but she made it all about her, and all about me doing it wrong and not being a good enough natural. she always made me feel guilty for not wanting to follow in her path.

Thank you Dr K. Really appreciate someone putting words and order to such horrible life circumstances. I've tried to articulate these feelings but it's close to impossible.

Kinda sad I missed this one live, but I'm so glad it happened. I am so happy to learn about this cuz I've been feeling like this the past couple of weeks since I came back from vacation (I have diagnosed ADHD).

I hope one day you come out with a workshop for mental health clinicians. This is fantastic information thank you so much for putting the time to make this.

Thank you so much Dr. K and team!

I can only say you are helping the realization and healing of the self for all of us through your continued hard work. Thank you 🙏 Please more on this topic 🙏❤ Learning how to be present so we can stop being dissociated, and what to do if you have been dissociated since early childhood. I believe this would help many people. Thank you 🫂 Thank you Question: If someone is constantly running into the counter *metaphorically speaking* and you point it out and they get mad at you and take it personally, like you are just being mean?!! What on earth do you do, especially if it's kids or family or a spouse? Thank you.

Brother healthy gamer just wanted to chime in here and say you are doing gods work. Thank you for what you do, you’ve been a blessing to me and many others, seriously.

I’ve been waiting for this video for the longest, thank you Dr. K 🙏

Strumming my pain with his fingers 🎶

So on point! I have had dp/dr for 6 years. Thank you for the thoroufh research.

there it is again,dr k putting all my exact issues into words. seriously,dr k manages to make me feel the most transparent ive ever felt in my life with so many of his videos

This is so fascinating, im loving this deep dive

Thank you for the informative video! Could you also do another dive into the topic, but this time focusing more in the derealisation part? Would be greatly appreciated.

I wrote a short story for one of my college courses about a 3 month dissasoiative "episode" and I did my best to describe how it feels to not be me, to have months of life missing in my memory and yet it was otherwise perfect. My brain told me the best version of me is one where I'm not in it. If anyone wants to read it let me know I can probably link a comment to it here somewhere

This is really good. Excellent work Dr K!

introducing salience as a measure of the dissociation severity is so so important. the only periods of your life that you feel truly present for are those that have a cohesive narrative, where everything just sort of clicks and makes sense

Yes this is me absolutely, I knew it was dissassociation but I never really thought about how it's probably affecting my whole life. I've been getting treated for my depression but I never mentioned this to them, I'm kind of afraid that I'll be judged or not believed or something because multiple personality is kind of a serious thing and I had "personalities" that I was talking to in late teens but for my own good they said they are gonna go away on strike because I didn't study, I'm unable to study lol so that was like 5 years ago and they never came back. Other than one time that I was super depressed, a new person came to talk to me and made me feel better and talked to me into me being worth something and mattered when I was at a very very low moment he said all the right things. Once I was feeling better from his compliments, pep talk, and advice it went away and I haven't actually had any more of those since. I think it's like the brain is really trying to protect you and keep you alive Because I was feeling so depressed and disassociated that I was unable to do anything hardly so when these Imaginary people in my head came suddenly it was nice and I wasn't alone, And I had like 10 people to talk to Who were rooting for me lol And who were all a different aspect of my personality was their whole being of each of them. Like all my negative, my depressive, My rude self, was named drag down. There was origional me who is myself, male me, flirty me, etc etc. Hard to tell apart so decided to have a different accent for each. Anyway, i may have subconsiously willed them away because I got scared about a movie where a guy had schitzophrenia. I knew they weren't real but it was still a nice experience once we could tell who is from who. They weren't all suddenly there at once, they came one by one in a short period of time.

Idk if it’s much more prevalent now I was a master dissociator before any of social media and computer games and such. I was called a very calm quiet child. Only at the age of 30 finally specialists confirmed to me I was great at dissociation and only by age 32 I finally stopped dissociating so easily.

I know my case is pretty extreme, I was able to get diagnosed on what happened When i was 16 I had several traumatic events happen at once and I remember feeling a change hit me. Like night and day, suddenly everything was from the third person and I wasn't controlling or making decisions anymore. Like a movie where someone was playing me, in a half-assed but convincing way to everyone else and all i could do was watch in horror. It made me feel like I'd never get to participate in my life again, like I'd have to watch this fraud imitation of me make decisions for forever. There was this underwater haze of a feeling, reality wasn't real. But I knew deep down it had been real before, so it couldn't just disappear. Everything and everyone who raised me and the homes I've entered into a million times could have been places I'd never seen for all I knew. The people I loved most felt fague now, so making memories with them was horrific because it felt like I was watching us interact in the past even though the present was unfolding before my eyes in the moment. There was no moment to feel things, that felt cut out too. And anything I said was a predetermed script so it wasn't even my own words even though they sounded like something I'd say. My entire sense of agency as a human had washed away. Its back now, I'm 22 and am so grateful I made it out the other end because what the fuck It lasted years. 6 long years I clawed my way out and found good people, a better home.. therapy and medication 🫶 I'd never wish dissociation or derealization on anyone. They're so awful If you have it, dont give up or give into the overwhelm. If you can get yourself somewhere safe and therapy if possible , pieces can come back ❤ your survival instincts will let you back into the pilot seat again. Find good ways to ground yourself if you get small episodes where you slip out of place. Its going to be okay

I learned to dissociate as a kid because I was constantly in pain. I wasn’t believed by my doctors or parents and was told I was making it up for attention. The only way I could deal with the pain was if I wasn’t “there.” It led to me not being able to remember huge chunks of my childhood.

Damn, Dr. K! When you stated talking about ketamine being a dissociative agent, used to treat depression it just clicked in my brain! It made me understand so much and I love these moments, when it just clicks! But the problem is m, that I need to watch a lot of long videos all related to a specific or multiple topics, before this can happen.

Thank you for this.

Thanks Dr. K. Good work everyone!

Amazing stuff! I wish this was taught in school!

I'm diagnosed with BPD and the best way I can explain dissociation is like having a life you never knew was there. There is no connection with my emotions compared to myself or my memories. For example, I can lash out on someone for x reason then next week act like that situation never occurred. It's like having emotions so strong that your brain just shutdown to prevent damage. It's like reliving an experience that you've had before but to you that experience is new every time you have it. I've noticed if my brain is not dissociating, I feel manic and am able to create memories, gain knowledge, and live high on life. Depression medication will make me hypomanic as well. BPD is rough. Support is hard to find especially if you are male and many psychiatrists do not want to make a diagnosis, the only reason I have mine is because I had one psychiatrist asked me if I had ever been diagnosed which led to do research and then going to my formal psychiatrist. Depression medication doesn't seem to fix the core symptoms of BPD and BPD has comorbidity of other disorders like ADHD and Autism which all four of these disorders overlap in some behaviors and others not so much. DBT doesn't seem to work for me as I know the implications of my actions, but I do not care. What has worked for me its building an identity that I can be proud of. Following my passion and from that creating aspirations/goals to obtain. For a long time, I had no clue what was wrong with me, and I felt misunderstood. I hope one day the disorder will be less stigmatized. There are also studies that indicate people with BPD have lower intelligence, but I found those studies to be full of erroneous control groups. If you take someone who is depressed who just got out of a psychiatric unit in the 90s of course they will score lower on intelligence. Depression is known to cause psychomotor disabilities. Infact people with BPD are able to process other people emotions more quickly compared to the average person why do you think we call this having a sixth sense. Jordan Peterson also argues that many BPD have highly intelligent who are more than capable of analyzing their actions but unable to control the downfall. This is my personal opinion, but I think BPD is on the same spectrum as depression and mania and BPD is in the middle meaning you have intense mood swings over a short period of time that can be severe depression or intense euphoria this makes sense when considering depression medication will not fix the symptoms of BPD but also can cause mania as well as being my personal experience with the disorder on how my emotions range compared to how quickly they can change. When talking about BPD I always think of two artist, Kendrick Lamar(count me out) and Juice WRLD. BPD is much more common than people think, and trauma seems to play a huge role in the development of the disorder... and honestly that makes me sad AFF.

I could legit listen to this all day.

From 1:04:30-ish re: PCC, so is this why when you have a cognitive bias, you keep trying to pull up (episodic) "evidence" to self-reinforce the bias? Is cognitive bias like a mini-dissociation in which you try to use logic because you've detached your emotions from the subject (because they and/or pain were overwhelming) -- and because you've detached your emotions, you can't process them, which causes you to keep re-visiting the subject, which then by repetition causes it to gain salience and therefore you keep trying to figure it out more, and end up trapped in a self-reinforcing cycle and obsessing over figuring it out because you can't feel it so you don't trust your intuition nor can you accept the logic? Incredibly important lecture - loved it!

Thank you for this! I deal with occasional bouts of strong dissociation where I feel nearly separated from my body. I feel like this helps me understand what is happening and possibly gives me a path forward. I wonder if you have anything that you are able to speak on regarding aphantasia, or the total inability to form images in ones mind.

This video it self prolly just saved me and my friends/family

We're so lucky to have you Dr. K

2:37:16 DID >>>> alcohol & nicotine addiction properties etc. deeper complex topics >>>>> E for everyone topics I think if there was a decent interest for an influx in these more complex topics would be a good thing to start implementing because I understand always welcome the newcomer and I think HG has done that VERY well over the last few years. Maybe start with once a month or once bimonthly plan for a lecture like this. It doesn’t have to be one or the other, there is sooo much more to get into though when it comes to the more complex stuff giving more routes and information for viewers to explore in their own & the HG team will have endless content options because many things have been mentioned superficially and more in depth. The fact of the matter is these types of talks will go on forever because people are always learning and teaching, more and more.

All this time i thought i have some kind of depression, or apathy, but now everything have come together

Learning that fighting back is useless. Spot on. My brother used to scratch me until i bled, I would get punished if I even took my hands away from him and escape not to be scratched since he would cry and id get told its my fault. This went on for years before I was 5 and until pre teens. I think ive spent a lot of my life depersonalized and only had some periods "free" from it. Felt more connected to my body and felt like I am not a ghost not being able to affect my surroundings. Its very difficult to find therapy where im from, its even more difficult when you tend to try to go for it and then run out of stamina to try. But ine plus is when i get injured i am very able to stay collected. If my arm is hurt it looks to me as some one else's arm is hurting.

This stream and the CPTSD one is gold content. Can't believe its for free

I would greatly appreciate a detailed video on DID. I do not believe a guide could be made for it. It is such a complex thing. Even experiencing it is…impossible to grasp. I think interviewing people with DID and ESPECIALLY those closely related to those people would be incredible and interesting to others.

You nailed this!!!

There's a strong possibility that I need to work on my patience, but I feel it'd be a nicer experience to advertise external/tertiary aspects about HealthyGamerGG's programs in a more consolidated format that doesn't clutter your streams - it could be turning new people away just as much as it could be interesting to returning viewers. As a long-time viewer, I find them cumbersome; thats just my opinion, though. Still love yah, Doc ❤

Just a quick comment regarding the recovery projection for BPD - these percentages are based on cases that are working all of the therapy/DBT actively and consciously, non stop. If it wasn't said, it is worth noting that our average mortality rate is 45x the typical humans, 27 is said to be the average age we reach, with an average of 20 years less life expectancy than the typical humans due to physical maladies/chronic physical illness from extended elevated stress levels. We may go into remission but it never goes away completely, and it can relapse if not consciously managed. But we can get better! Happy BPD Awareness/Mental Health Awareness May!

1:32:22 oh wow, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.... What a throwback! Thanks, Dr. K. You're the best.

One Love! Always forward, never ever backward!! ☀️☀️☀️ 💚💛❤️ 🙏🏿🙏🙏🏼

I would really love to hear the spiritual side of disassociation like you mentioned in the video. I'd prefer that over the alcohol and smoking addiction lecture.

Amazing vid doc ❤

Me every time school is involved: Tries to pay attention to class or do homework -> gets bored -> dissociates either for hours or until it's over -> has to do tests like this -> struggled massively in school

One of the things I like doing is analysis song lyrics for dissociative themes. In particular The Cure seems to be full of them. But the one that really comes to mind is "Going through the motions", the opening song of the musical episode of Buffy. Depersonalisation? Check. Derealisation? Check.

Did my Msc on transdiagnostic factor of DPD very interesting topic!!!

I'm only 42 minutes in and feel super seen. Nice to have my own perception of my cognition being validated. QUERY : I'm curious about the overlap between habits and identity. Does something only truly become a habit only once we begin identifying as "one who does [habit]" and how might that play into mental/actionable strategies relating to the development of new habits ?

I just know that i look at myself in the mirror and go 'huh, that's right, that's what i look, kinda forgot about that" And have 0 conception of what might drive people to "love themselves" to the point i can't see anything that would deprive me of things (time, money, physical abilities) for visual identifiers that i cannot see myself as a good trade in just about any possible context, it's just inconceivable to me, like a deaf person trying to understand why audiophiles spend so much money on audio systems, except for me is nornal people and self-care beyond health reasons

The timing of this video was impeccable

I don't know why I can't finish this podcast XD I keep falling asleep through it, I've done it twice now XD

48:26 this compartmentalization/fragmentation of self causing our ability to move throughout the world to be problematic is definitely a lot of what caused my most recent self sabotage shuffle & downward spiral

Oh my goodness this is just what i need

this guy's saving my life holy shit

i’d like to see a stream or just something on coercive control, especially in regards to a relationship between a child and a coercive parent.

9:35 I love Dr. K's almost sinister evil genius grin as he tells us how so many people are suffering from this condition! Of course, it's because he knows he has the power to help so many of us by addressing this topic

That little flow chart at 26:00 really said it all.

Thanks so much for covering CPTSD (in the earlier stream) and dissociation! Dissociation is both a (huge) blessing and a (at times handicapping) burden to bear.

39:02 Weird. I have some pretty bad nearly chronic dissociation and I have a tendency to become overly attached to people. Im well integrated emotionally in some ways, in poor in others. I also had a narcissistic mother who blamed or place a lot of her problems on me.

Dr. K is the real life Mcdreamy cause with his channel he's truly saving some lives today!

This is so fascinating. It’s kinda like a neurological picture of how Internal Family Systems/parts work or DID works. Physiological compartmentalization in action. IFS specifically may have a somewhat poetic way of phrasing the same thing but it’s all physiological: all the meditative parts of it, and the defensive mechanisms like dissociation specifically, and the unresolved, emotionally loaded memory parts of it. We’re all low key just dissociating bambis on a savannah slowly being eaten by the lion of our lives 😁 brains are wild

who am i? who are you? where am i? what is this world? why am i here? what is this video? why am i here? why do i exist?

I’ve been like this for years I’ve been to treatment centers nothing is working

1:05:00 this is a real thing! a few years ago when I was deep in a dissociative episode, I kept startling myself in mirrors because for a few seconds I literally did not recognize my own face. it gave me an incredibly uncanny and alarming feeling of someone I didnt know being in my house

As a huge nerd, I'd appreciate it if you included a short list of citations somehwere. There are people out there who would impulsively read science papers, have faith.