2023 was the worst year of my life...

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@GavinReadsItAll 5 месяцев назад

You are so worthy, and I think the world of you, because you are the world ❤ (You’ve helped me more than you know the past 3 years, and I love you) Here’s to the best days yet to come 🥂

@denisedarden13 5 месяцев назад

Love you still doing what you are doing! Hope you are doing better in 2024❤

@alilbitmads 5 месяцев назад

well im crying, this is such a beautiful video ali, so proud of you and incredibly happy that i've been able to watch you on your journeys. here's to next steps!

@YarnReader 5 месяцев назад

Oh sweet sweet Ali, I love you so much! Being able to be a part of your group has made my life so much brighter. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your story with us. ❤❤❤❤

@kimreese3530 5 месяцев назад

I know how you are feeling. I’ve been struggling with all of the same issues, but I don’t know how to verbalize it as well as you. I quit my job, I don’t do things I used to love, and I rarely leave the house. I have a few friends who have stayed by my side, but most have faded away. Thank you for being so open and honest about your illness. As a viewer, I have greatly missed your videos and I know others have as well. Stay strong and continue your journey with diligence.

@TheWordN3rd 4 месяца назад

I've been hearing up to get an official ADHD diagnosis myself, so thanks for sharing your experience.

@rasaslase 5 месяцев назад

This was beautiful! Love you, Ali! 💛💛💛

@AnaCarolinaVanzetta 5 месяцев назад

As someone who'd gotten an ADHD diagnosis in december 2022, I spent 2023 trying to get people to understand it. Or, at least, take it seriously. It's truly a battle. I still get some doctors who'll just dismiss things, dismiss me. And it was only by mid 2023 that I was able to find the right meds that worked for me. Here's to an amazing 2024 (my 2023 sucked as well)! Just know that you're not alone and you can count on us for anything!

@sunnynalaa 5 месяцев назад

I didn't think that I had to explain to people but now thinking about it, I'm always explaining it. But I always downplay it making it less of a problem or me less "at fault", I think that some feelings toward ourselves cloud our actual view and that's why it's so exhausting to explain and explain again and again (at least for me) I'm saying this bc now that I am actively trying to be honest with how bad it is and trying to flip my brain on its side by not acting like symptoms are my flaws, I'm feeling a bit better about my adhd. I'm still yelling at myself to stop saying "should" about myself and to not say I'm lazy or other things even if I believe it I don't want to say it. But I'm worried that people here might feel similarly and I just want to say that you really have to fight to forgive yourself. So if you still feel like adhd is a personal flaw and not a disability, figuring out your own way of being compassionate towards yourself makes it a bit easier to deal with the constant explaining and justifying to others. (I'm tired so idk if I just said this, but I think it's all the more annoying explaining to people bc we don't fully understand the scale, bc I'm still learning new things that I do/don't do and are actually symptoms and not decisions, like I bet that anything I don't like or don't want to do is bc of my disabilities and not bc I'm "unwilling" or "not trying" bc THOSE ARE LITERALLY THINGS THAT ADHD MAKE HARD! anyways just don't feel like y'all are on your own

@sunnynalaa 5 месяцев назад

That is massive omg, sorry

@AnaCarolinaVanzetta 5 месяцев назад

@@sunnynalaa Saaaame. Always downplaying or dumbyfing it to other poeple! And what I truly hate is the "think positively" or "change your mindset"... Honey, if I could think my way out of it, I would've thunk it already! 🤣

@collected-stories 5 месяцев назад

Thank you for sharing. You are not alone, and you are worthy.

@liveathousandlives9915 5 месяцев назад

Thank you so much! I needed this. The end of 2022 to now. I have be battling serious health issues. And sometimes ai feel worthless and like a failure. I am sorry you are going through the hard stuff. Sending you lots of love!

@justynajusty 5 месяцев назад

❤️❤️❤️ thank you for sharing. You are beautiful. You are strong. You are amazing. Be kind to yourself. Lazy days are productive days (needed to recharge and are good for the mind and soul). ❤❤❤❤❤

@redistrying 5 месяцев назад

Wow this resonated so deeply with me. I'm right here with you!! You are so worthy of all the good days and things. You always deserve the good things

@ZarriahRose 5 месяцев назад

Thank you for sharing ❤❤ rooting for you and proud of you!!!

@Pinkfreakblingbling 5 месяцев назад

Beautiful! It is so brave of you to share your story! Thank you!

@PagesandPens 5 месяцев назад

Sending you the hugest of hugs!!!

@amacina 5 месяцев назад

Thank you for this video, the message is beautiful!

@Allena_inwonderland 5 месяцев назад

😭😭🫶🏼🫶🏼 this was so validating to watch. I'm so happy to see the full transparency in you life. The joy part was so needed 🖤

@caffeinatedsanity 5 месяцев назад

I felt this in my soul 🖤 Sending you love, light, and fairy dust

@julialkk 5 месяцев назад

you are so, so loved

@gabbiepoppins 5 месяцев назад

sending so so much love to you 🥲💙💙

@stephaniebookish 5 месяцев назад

Sending you so so much love! Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable journey with us 💖🫶🏻

@ottoismy1dog 5 месяцев назад

I love you Ali Hang on to those moments of joy that sprinkled throughout your year . I hope this new year is overflowing with happiness for you. You deserve it.

@sarahmellinger2907 5 месяцев назад

Wishing you all the best

@SilverettaRose 5 месяцев назад

im crying, im so happy to be able to part of your community

@alysonwalton6917 4 месяца назад

Lovely to see you Ali! ❤️ ❤❤ a x x

@MoonOwl1961 5 месяцев назад

Thank you for sharing your life with us. Sending you love!

@LessthanThreeD 5 месяцев назад

I'm glad you can appreciate your highs amid your lows and I hope 2024 treats you better. Lovely video, thanks for sharing

@ayragon 5 месяцев назад

Holy carp, tears… this is the first video ever to bring me to tears. Thank you for posting it.

@KittyAndTheBooks 5 месяцев назад

I just cried through this whole videos. Even though our experiences are very different, the feelings you described are so relatable to me. Thanks for sharing this, I wish you all the best, so many wonderful adventures, for 2024.

@LeahG27 5 месяцев назад

What a beautiful video of your story, Ali! Sending you good vibes! ❤

@pucksandpaperbacks 5 месяцев назад

sending you so much love, ali. love you 💖

@inxdyingxhands 5 месяцев назад

You are amazing 🤩. Thank you for sharing this with us. Such beautifully put together video.

@michellesreadingshelf 5 месяцев назад

You are amazing. Sad and happy for you that this was the worst and best. I hope for you to do just what brings you joy. ❤.

@YTLawnGnome 5 месяцев назад

Ali, keep being the good person that you are and keep doing what you can to find ways to make you happy. I cannot believe I have been following your channel all these years. Things have definitely been crazy. These last years for me from Covid to welcoming my daughter into this world, the best and worst experiences I feel hit us all way too fast. May 2024 a year of hope and good tidings for all of us!

@LadetteM 5 месяцев назад

A rollercoaster of a year - here's to 2024 giving you a break!

@TheLitReviewForBooks 5 месяцев назад

I love the way you've held space for both sides of your experience. Hearing you talk about this is so grounding. Sending hugs!

@feeyuhG 5 месяцев назад

I love your perspective that good things are coming!❤ you never truly know what someone else may be going through. Take care of you!

@MegBookishRamblings 5 месяцев назад

Thank you so much for sharing as I know it's not easy to share particularly when struggling. You are so very worthy and I'm glad when I get to see your videos particularly your live ones as they are always so very entertaining. Feeling worthy is something that I've struggled with for years and sometimes feels like a rollercoaster. Thank you also sharing glimpses of what was great in 2023. I hope that 2024 is an amazing year for you!

@KeepCalmwithBooksandCoffee 5 месяцев назад

Ali you are so worthy and wonderful! Thank you for sharing and for making some of my bad days better through your Twitch channel. Sending you so much love and light for the future. 🤍

@laurencarroll4751 5 месяцев назад

This was a beautiful video. And one I relate to so hard. The good can exist alongside the bad, and I’m sure so many other people are inspired by and touched by this ❤

@elena-mariaboni 5 месяцев назад

Thanks for sharing. I hope the bad days become less intense and the good days are plentiful.❤

@TheHexedLibrary 5 месяцев назад

Ali, how dare you make me weep on a Monday night. Both the bad and the good things from your year are incredibly relatable for me, thank you for sharing your year with us. I know we'll never be without the bad, but I hope this year is more good than bad for all of us.

@christinahelms1514 5 месяцев назад

I know exactly how you feel. I'm going through the same. Just take care of yourself and work towards healing. Hugs!

@thewolfandherbooks 5 месяцев назад

Oh my gosh. There are no words. I'm so grateful that you're alive ❤❤❤

@brandim1230 5 месяцев назад

Okay wow thank you for making this video. I'm in tears. I'm still trying to process some stuff that happened in my life in 2023.💚 You have inspired me to take better care of myself

@kelsiemarice7507 5 месяцев назад

I’m not sure the last time a video made me burst into tears so quickly. I relate to this so much. Thank you for your vulnerability and always creating a space for vulnerability with your content. ❤

@Monica.Bibliophilebynight 5 месяцев назад

Welp! Here come the tears! This was so beautiful Ali. Thank you for sharing this with us ❤

@gabbyreads 5 месяцев назад

Aw Ali, this is such a beautiful video, I’m so sorry you’ve been going through so much 😭 I’m sending you love!! 💗

@Books.and.biscuits 5 месяцев назад

You are a beautiful human, and I’m glad you are here on this earth with. Thank you for this video Ali! You are loved❤

@GwendolynKensinger 5 месяцев назад

Awww Ali sending you so much love. THANK YOU for sharing the bad and the good from 2023. I'm so happy you're here and still creating if and when you can. You're a light in this world ✨

@hellotheredara 5 месяцев назад

Your vulnerability is inspiring. Thank you for being open to sharing this with us. You are worthy! We are worthy!❤

@ItsmeKristieB 5 месяцев назад

This was 2020 for me for a number of reasons beyond the Covid of it all. I truly feel your pain and I'm sending you all the hope and energy for a peaceful 2024 full of good sleep and mental health, healthy animals, and zeroing in on the medication jackpot.

@goomee 5 месяцев назад

getting to spend time with you and your little community from a million miles away was always the highlight of my week 💕 here's to hoping 2024 doesn't require so much strength

@Filthymutt 5 месяцев назад

Wow. . . I don't know what to say. You're brave. I'm so sorry you're having to go through all of this, and I hope things are getting better. I don't ever think you are ready for these things that life throws at you, but you are doing an excellent job at handling it all. We love you. You are such a ray of sunshine and I appreciate you so much, and it's apparent that so many others here do, too.

@asparagusisreading 5 месяцев назад

I appreciate your vulnerability and honesty about what you’ve been feeling and experiencing the past year. I felt more connected with you due to feeling similarly about some things. We’ve known each other some through Twitch and RU-vid for years but this last year-two years have felt different. I agree, I think 2023 was such a good year for you and the community with the bonding and friendships, connecting over shared interests and experiences, supporting each other and just the open expression of love and kindness. I anticipate 2024 being better as the community grows and you explore more about your creativity and what you want for your future. You have many ideas and we’re excited for and a large community in your corner!! Proud of you, love you! Now go kick 2024’s ass!! Not the sweat gland waterfall and Frankie eating things😂 speaking of hydration…. asparagusisreading redeemed hydrate 💜200

@phix27 5 месяцев назад

Thank you for sharing your year with us. You've got such a community and it's funny how, in our hardest moments, our village can come together for us in ways we don't expect. I hope in 2024 you still get to travel, and that your health becomes more manageable. I also had a difficult health year but it's so worth it to keep living because of all the beautiful moments too, just like you've said. All the light and love in the world

@julias5717 5 месяцев назад

crying my eyes out. this is the best video i have ever watched on the internet and i finally feel fucking validated. THANK YOU

@mariahtoast 5 месяцев назад

Ali, I love you so much friend. You are a fighter, even when the days feel hard. You got this friend ❤

@riankoch9126 5 месяцев назад

What a beautiful video I needed to see today. I know, annually, November to February is hard for me because I’ve got depression and SAD. But at the same times it can be demoralizing when it just happens again. And I needed that little reminder that there are good things happening right now. Thank you Ali 💜

@JayGTheAwkwardBookworm 5 месяцев назад

Sending you lots of love Ali 🥹

@Ms.SpookyNerd 5 месяцев назад

2023 was a struggling year for me especially with mental and physical health. Discovering that I have very low iron was scary in itself. So been eating healthier, back to exercising, taking iron supplement pill once a day of 65 grams. Glad you had a better 2023 as the year went on more. 📚☕❄️

@HuckleberryCyn 5 месяцев назад

That you so much for being so vulnerable with us. I wasn’t going to comment initially, so much you said resonated with deeply. I also had a mental health collapse last year, I am currently going through the process of getting diagnosed with a chronic illness, and this week I have a biopsy to determine whether or not I have cancer. It has been so awful and wonderful in equal measure. I have phone call after phone call with doctors and insurance, but then yesterday was utterly magical. I went to a poetry workshop and I read my poem in front of the group, I met my wife for lunch and got milkshakes, and in traffic a guy asked me about shake and joked about having a bite. I dug around for a spoon and gave him the biggest scoop I could and the guy’s girlfriend screamed in delight as we met in the middle of the road for a trade off, just as the light turned green. Life is hard enough and we have to do things that bring us and everyone around such joy. Thank you, thank you, thank you again for sharing your story. We may never meet, but I’ll always be rooting for you.❤

@Cinephilegirl_ 5 месяцев назад

Thanks for bring all that joy for books to my life. I've struggled with Mental health for about 12 years and every day I'm scared something send me to melt down again. But at the same time I know if it happens I'll be ready. My life has been a roller coaster the past year I lost my mum this very beginning of the year and I'm still here so I hope you hang in there too! Who is going to have me this amazings bookish recs ? Hope this found you in a good place right now and stay strong!

@sallyandbooks545 5 месяцев назад

What a beautiful video ❤ Sending you a big gentle hug To you and your family ❤

@moonbook12 5 месяцев назад

Life isn't easy and I proud of you for finding your in your voice, it's hard for me and found your mantel health isn't easy I was diagnosed with audism but also lost a few people (family and friends) and my cat (he was 18.5 years old) but you're amazing

@Cafe_Scribbles 5 месяцев назад

Aw precious Ali. I’m so sorry that you’ve been struggling. You are such a beautiful light in the world and you are so brave for reaching out for help and getting vulnerable in this space. Thank you for all the love you put out on the world 🫶🏻

@christinacampbellbooks 5 месяцев назад

This was so beautifully put together. And I'm so pleased you managed to experience some wonderful moments too. Just last week I went to the Doctor so he could check some of my moles. He's referring me to a Dermatologist with suspected skin cancer. I'm waiting for my letter for my appointment details now. So thank you very much for sharing this. It definitely made me feel less alone ❤

@mmanderso 5 месяцев назад

Ali you are one of the sweetest people I watch on RU-vid. I look forward to seeing you and hearing you discuss books and life. And while I love that, I love your mental health more. We will be here for whatever you can give us. If it’s lives - which I also love or twitch streams your health is what’s most important. I love how you got to see Gavin and travel across Europe last year and I hope this year is just as full of adventure. Plus you make the most BOMB ASS spreadsheets for a reader ever! ❤ you!

@mishelly 5 месяцев назад

Hey Ali I’m sorry to hear about your struggles last year. Thank you for sharing! You’ve reminded me that my doctor gave me a light recommendation to see a dermatologist it seemed like a casual if you have x or more moles you should just go check it out… I haven’t taken it seriously; maybe I really should. My year sucked last year too- because I very nearly decided to get divorced (and we have 2 kids) in the middle of that drama my son was put on suicide watch he couldn’t go to school they advised us to admit him to the ER.(that has been an eye opener of how much teen suicide rate is an epidemic. He is alright with counseling and love and close monitoring he’s happier than ever now) and the rest of the summer has been all of that roller coaster I’ve gained weight ads to the shittyness I just thought I would share idk if it’s true sometimes others sharing their lives helps, I’m glad to see you back on RU-vid and booktube I’m eager to catch up on your videos. Hope 2024 is better for us all! 🥂

@Greeneyedgirl0704 5 месяцев назад

It was a really rough one for me too! I’m always thinking of you sweet friend & admire you so much

@Gillian.Ashcroft.66 5 месяцев назад

Wow. I put down your absence to many positive reasons & figured you'd be back eventually. Glad you shared & very glad you had some great experiences to relieve the terrible. Humbled that you chose to share too this time .❤

@eduard05ilva 5 месяцев назад

We are here for you 😢💙

@JulEnglefaris 5 месяцев назад

Getting off the Internet in every aspect helps SO much.

@msellenandrea 5 месяцев назад

I'm crying.Thank you for opening up to us 💖

@sofielaser2522 5 месяцев назад

❤️❤️❤️

@thefaeriewilds 5 месяцев назад

I. LOVE. YOU. You are a wonder and a light and so treasured, whether you're traveling the world or avoiding it all in bed. So happy to have you dancing through the winefest of my life

@smittenforfiction 5 месяцев назад

💖

@JessicaRoseReads 5 месяцев назад

💙💙💙

@MoodyMegReads 5 месяцев назад

I just wish I could hug you! I had a double MOH surgery on 2 cancerous moles and I wouldn't wish that on anyone. What was once 2 tiny moles are now 12 inch keloids across my back.. its so so so important to get your moles checked yearly! Thank goodness we did. 🥰

@KathyTrithardt 5 месяцев назад

Oh hey, I literally just went to the Eiffel Tower today for the first time, so it was neat to see it pop up in this video.

@AliDoisRead 5 месяцев назад

❤

@LisaK1075 5 месяцев назад

We love you Ali❤

@DauntlessBookReader 5 месяцев назад

😢 Ali you are a wonderful person and you deserve every bit of happiness 💯💛 one thing i can say is the booktube community while it can have a few bad apples i wouldn't know because I've only been around the good ones 😊 In the end true friends will always love you no matter what 😁🫶😁

@mat2093 5 месяцев назад

Hope you do better this year.

@bookspastbedtime 5 месяцев назад

😭❤

@DesAnanieva 5 месяцев назад

Girl same. Insomniac since I am born, always thinking of death. I had throat operation 5 years ago benign tumor. At first doctors said I couldn't talk but everything went fine. The fucking 2023 my lil bro was diagnosed with cancer 😭 at 24 he lost his testicle. My mom couldn't handle it and at the day my brother was discharge from the hospital she had a stroke. All of this happened in another city. Thank God my aunt was with my mom. At Christmas my father had a heart attack. We all are fine now as far as possible, but I can't stop thinking this happened because of me and my brain projecting negative energy to the universe. I live in a Balkan country and here mental health is not a thing I guess. Thank you for reading i guess and I hope you are better and better with every minute ❤

@DesAnanieva 5 месяцев назад

I am scared even writing this is gonna be bad...