500 days no contact with my narcissistic mother | why I'm NEVER GOING BACK | the update 

This was HARD to say the least. Sharing the most traumatic experiences and moments in my life with the world.. Is wild, crazy how I’ve been talking to a camera seems like most of my life.. Although I’ve never posted my teenage “vlogs”.. Editing this video made me sad. I was recording these rants because I felt the only person I could talk too, wasn’t even a person.. It was the camera that I’ve always felt comfortable talking too.. which also made me realize how sad and lonely I was that I wasn’t able to vent to anyone in my life .. Wooo I am always so proud of the younger me, because I don’t know how she did it.. Seeing how much my parents perspective of me MATTERED.. seeing how much it was hurting me, but also seeing how I always fought to be my own person.. How much I fought to make me happy, to live the life I wanted to live.. And to see where I am now .. incredible! I live to please that lonely little girl in her room talking to a camera. That wanted more, that wanted all the things I have now and I am fucking happy, I am so grateful! Never fucking give up , please for me Keep fighting always love you all 🫶🏽🤍 Royal Forever !

I hope you can STAY AWAY FROM THEM FOR GOOD! They dont deserve you! You should hold a funeral for them, lay them to rest and never go back. I hope you are safe angel....I hope you protect yourself always, look.over your shoulders, be aware of your surroundings. Your Mother is absolutely evil, no two ways about it. We love you! We are rooting for you!! ❤

2023 you is definitely me. My biological mother REALLY knows how manipulate people. She is so good at manipulation that people end up not believing that she abuses me. She even likes to lie to me & others about things I have said to her. My biological mother, just like your mom, REALLY knows how to circumvent around my boundaries and my family that raised me. She feels entitled to everything, but does NOTHING to earn it.

I am 46 and have gone no contact with my mother. No regrets. My fiancé told her straight up that if she continues on with her toxic behavior then none of her kids will come around. He is the only person who dared to tell her to her face. She will never change. Your Mom is so jealous of you. You are worthy of freedom and happiness 🩵 God bless you

she going straight to hell paying that lady. she just sold her soul😂😂😂.

Hearing your mother reminds me of my own. She sounds so vicious and scary but when it’s your own mother you don’t hear it the way you should. But when it’s someone else it’s easier to catch.People like that will take your life. You’re a warrior of God being attacked by demons. Never let anyone dim your light!💯

The pain is real. They yell, swear and curse, so that there are no visible bruises, but the damage is catastrophic; emotionally, spiritually and physically (illness manifestations). Take care. Love Princess Holly 🕊🌿🌳🌲🍀🌱🌴

You are a literal hero for posting this. You are saving people’s lives I fully believe this, mine being one of them. Thank you for giving me the courage to try and leave my abusive home

“She doesn’t talk to the family” I recently heard that one. But I was alienated so why the fake outrage lol family members don’t even bother inviting me and wonder why I don’t show up? 😂😂

Unfortunately I understand too well I could write a book on the bullshit and abuse my family put me through down to grandparents aunts and uncles. It got to a point where I almost went to another country to pay for an identity change. I’m so happy you made it out! Keep going you got this!!! 😊

Narcissistic rage.

If you don’t want people to know you do bad shit, don’t do bad shit 🤷🏻‍♀️ I realize this is easier said than done, BUT… FUCK 👏🏻 THEIR 👏🏻 FEELINGS!! Are they worried about your physical, mental, spiritual, financial, etc well being?? My #1 rule in life is: So long as you’re not hurting/disrespecting yourself or anyone else, DO WHATEVER/WHOMEVER you want, bc people are gna talk REGARDLESS of what you do. Living for others only sets yourself up for a lifetime of misery and missed opportunities. The best revenge you can have on your POS “mother” is to be successful. Keep your head up Hun

Yes she is toxic 100% whether she’s caring at times or not hearing her call you a b is very sickening I can relate my grandmother is more toxic than my mom very rude says ANYTHING to belittle and bring you down smh ppl like that want you to be miserable like them.

2013 you is basically me now. 😮 that’s crazy. I’m so drained.

My childhood is on Barbie: Life in the Dreamhouse.. grew up w/ narcs all my life and didn’t click till age 24. I found the series in divine timing.. and saw my teenage self on the series (2000-2012) I am sorry you went through all that. I realized my mom is a narc and she’s jealous of me during my childhood and teen years.. my brother the golden child and me the black sheep. I was groomed by my mother and a female individual also narcissistic from age 5-17. It’s heartbreaking I was born a premature miracle baby so I was a blessing to those around me, and they chose to treat me like trash all those years. I’ve now made it as the first Asian American young woman to be on a billboard in Times Square earlier this year part of Paris Hilton’s I Am campaign.

If you needed a sign that this video was the right choice, let this comment be it. I disowned my family a few hours ago, took a taxi into town, and am staying in a random hotel until I figure out how to get home from the holidays. I feel so alone. Lost. Scared. I’m 27. But I see hope in your progress. Thank you.

You are so strong! Your testimony is powerful. Witches only have the power you give them keep that in mind. When you believe they can’t harm you, they become powerless. If your mom went to a witch she is now a witch herself by association. She most likely had demonic spirits in your dads house that were bothering you. Not because the witch is powerful but because that is just what bad spirits and the devil do when you deal with witch craft. They torment you and anyone around you. God Bless. ❤️❤️🥰🥰❤️🥰 You are an amazing content creator, and beautiful on the inside and out!!! You are a star !! Shine bright like a diamond! Your Mom is miserable and being tormented by spirits. I pray she get deliverence and leave all witch craft alone before those spirits jump on your dad and who ever else is in the house with her. I wouldn’t step foot in that house again without some Holy oil, and a prayer!!!

So glad you are out of that situation. I hope that your relationship with your little sister doesn’t suffer because of them. Your dad may be a lot better than your mom, but him being petty and treating yall like a maid just because he wanted yall to get out was wrong. You have a Dad. God is your father. Seek him. Find a good church and get prayed over so if your mom tries any black magic it wont work. This was a very emotional vlog. Your tears are cleansing your soul. It is only up for here. ❤

We were born to jezebels . They HATED US FROM BIRTH bc they chose the dark in them and serve Satan. Period . I may need this video to propel me once n for all out of this house I currently live in w my NARC MOTHER . GOD EXPOSED HER IN WAYS I NEVER IMAGINED THIS YEAR & now - I UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING . THEY HATE US AND ALWAYS WILL BC THEY KNOW WE HAVE WHAT THEY DON’T . The LIGHT IN US , the TRUTH ! ❤ girl I wish I could meet you in person , you are a super STRONG SOUL!! ❤

Omg stay prayed up. The black magic your mom did won’t work in Jesus name. I remember her talking about God in your video. How could she speak his name but participate in demonic activity. Don’t give that black magic no power the Bible says God gives us power over those things. Your mom better hope it dont come back on her. Stay prayed up. Now let me get back to watching the video. I just wanted to comment that before it slipped my mind ❤

Yes. My Narcissistic mother used to stalk my facebook page, then call me and acted like an asshole to me about it. Constantly telling me that what I wrote or my experiences I delt with---was wrong, or not correct. I misinterpreted the situation. I resently blocked her, from my phone and my facebook. I was/am so tire of her shit! Every conversation... - I can go on vacation too - I can sing too. - I can.... No one ever said you couldn't. Honestly, it was like dealling with a CHILD. A grown ass, 80 year old child! Or that annoying chick you knew in high school.

PLEASE do not allow the devil to dim your LIGHT!!! Be consistent for YOU!!! ❤ I know like you said it’s easier said than done but PLEASE for your future self post what you want to post! We want to see you! You’re inspiring so many more young black women with toxic mothers overcome their trauma! You’re living proof of what can be done IN SPITE of the cards you were dealt! 👏🏾 ❤️

Bri every time you tell your story I compare notes because I completely understand 😢😢😢😢 you are strong and God is still in control ❤

Everything you have said in this video literally speaks to me.

This was a really heavy story to sit through but your vulnerability is very much appreciated. I don't feel qualified to speak on this matter as I haven't experienced such things but I hope it's ok for me to speak from the heart. You didn't deserve any of this Miss Briana. You are not crazy for how you're feeling and none of this your fault. You are so loved even when you don't feel like it. I really want you to know just how truly loved you are. No witch, warlock, person, being, thing or anything on this earth is stronger than God. He is the God of all gods and of every living and breathing thing on this earth. God sees your tears, your pain, your hurt and your trauma and he has taken account for all who have wronged you. This battle with your mother/parents is not for you to fight all on your own. Give it to God Miss Briana ... I promise you will feel so much lighter. God loves you and he sees you. Turn to him for he is close to those who are brokenhearted and low in spirit (Psalms 34:18). I pray that God covers you and your mind so that you can keep moving forward by restoring your strength with his unconditional love and grace during these trying times. You got this Miss Briana🫶!!!!

You are an amazing strong beautiful lady. I want to jump through the screen and give you a big hug 🥰 Only people who has suffered narcissistic abuse can truly understand the devastation they make. Stay no contact, pray to god always, rebuke any evil intentions and continue to stay strong. You got this. Sending love to you. Xx

I am so happy that you're back, and better. I pray you and Chris find the happiness, and are able to accomplish all both of your dreams and more. Been following you since the move to Houston, and your growth has been so beautiful to watch. I hate that this is something that you've experience, and keep experiencing, but you are bigger than all things that come your way! We as Libras really do have a hard time with setting boundaries, and giving the wrong people the benefit of the doubt, but boy when we learn, and see how easier things would be without them do be move on, and don't look back. Love you guys!!

I genuinely feel for you… I have been through this exact cycle so many times and it does break you down slowly… I have just gone through a crazy heartbreak and my mom came to “save her daughter” and the first thing she said when I started grabbing my bags was “I think she’s just going to get back on her feet and run back to that man.” I literally can’t explain how much that irritated me because ik this is just the start… I’m ready to leave already but ik this time I’m doing EVERYTHING for myself. I’m not sharing my peace or happiness with a SOUL. I am so happy to see you giving yourself freedom too express. It is extremely difficult dealing with this as a young back woman and then navigating this crazy world feeling alone. The people who you should feel supported and loved by have shown you a completely different thing than you deserve… only you know what you have to do for your future. I commend you for doing the work, even the work that was editing and uploading this video. You deserve peace and I know you are going to get it because that’s your goal 🤞🏾. We’re on this journey together sis ❤.

This was exactly what I needed. I just got home from going out of town to visit my family and friends and the way my mom and sister treated me… 15 year old me would had fallen into a depression but me now?? The freedom to leave those spaces when you know they’re toxic is amazing. It’s also soooo important to have a support system to help you through it. Idk what I would have done without my friends this weekend. Thank you for sharing your story and making me (and others) feel validated. This definitely isn’t about me but your impact is so profound.

You are a chosen one❤🧿💎

God answered my prayers by allowing me to find your videos. You're the first person whose story is so close to my own. ❤

I send you protection and light energy 777

Thank you for making this video. I'm so sorry for going through this. Congratulations your strong girl. You deserve better.

Your story mirrors mine in some ways. You are such a strong person, I can see your strength in your struggle. It's your job to break that cycle. Take the negative and make it positive ( like how your doing sharing your story, giving people hope). Thank you 🙏 and God bless.

Wow! Sounds like my life to a T. I’m leaving my whole family and moving In the middle of the night from Texas to New Jersey. With just me and my dog. I can’t wait. I’m very close to my dad as well. I stopped trying to talk to my dad about my mom. Lost cause and conversation. Thank you for being transparent, it helps. God bless you❤🙏 my mother has hurt me and it only gets worse. I’m done trying to understand, I can’t deal with her anymore. PS- her and all my sisters are into witchcraft while I am NOT. Jesus Christ over here all day. I’m the black sheep

No one could blame you at least mine is covert yours is real upfront wid it 🤯

How do i relate so much with this. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, is it me being in a relationship, or me having my own belief but i still will be the child that she throws her anger at. I don’t know if what i do is enough for her. I’m doing law in the uk, being an international student from Malaysia, and she’ll always start her calls with screaming shits like “please be grateful for what i do for you and what you get” in the back of my head and as a law student, isn’t that a parental responsibility to provide for a child in every way possible? Im still a student and yet for almost 4 months here and she told me to survive with 500 pounds for 4 months which includes in buying storage boxes, irons, plates, pans, and food. I know that she knows that the expenses here are more than that. But can’t she be reasonable. A lot of things happened ever since i came here, went to see a therapist, learnt to ignore her, but the more i do, the more she gets pissed. The more i wanted space for myself, the more she accuses me of blocking her, but the fact is that i only turned of the read recipients. I was called a whore, a slut for having a boyfriend and falling in love. Not only i have to face shits from her but also my siblings. Using my siblings as a bullet to say that she hates my love life indirectly. Similar to you, i was once closed with my dad before i came to uk, but ever since im here, he changed. I feel alone. Now the only place i wanna be is with my boyfriend. I need opinions on should i just proceed on going back to see my boyfriend over for the holidays?

Wow 😮 I hope you really get to heal from this pain you have endured.

Your mother is rabid 😦 I hope you stay safe! The strenght you have is incredible. Dont ever go back, as you know these people are truly beyond redemption.

I just want to say through it all I can see the growth. You’re younger than me and I dealt with a lot. It’s good you push through therapy really helped me to not take it personal. It does hurt but I pray you never allow the pain to make you want you to unalive yourself. You are a beautiful and smart young lady I wish you the best. God bless you! Remember Jesus loves us all! Ephesians 6:12 12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Remember this it’s not the person but the spirit in the person. Pray and rely on the Most High he has the power to change our situations. 🙏🏾💕🙏🏾

QUEEN 👑 I AM SORRY YOU WENT THROUGH THIS DIVORCE THEM FROM YOUR HEART. BEEN THERE. VENTURE ON YOUR OWN. THEY DON'T DESERVE YOU. BLESSINGS 🎉

Sorry for the lengthy text. Your childhood experience sounds very similar to mine. The cycles of love bombing, gas lighting, controlling and abusive behavior resonates extremely well. It wasn't until I had my own children and started to see the cycles being repeated on them (scapegoat and gold child) that I started to really distancing myself. It took another 10 yrs, a broken marriage and being financially ruined to really go no contact. I have siblings that are much younger than I and I just couldn't let them go through it alone. Once my youngest sibling left her house I was finally able to move forward. I've only spoken to my mother a hand full of times in the last 15 yrs because one of my siblings was diagnosed with a mental health disorder and needs a lot of care taking. Emergency cases only because she if feel she uses this as a way to regain position of power and control for herself. You said that your mom's outer appearances are very important to her so she made sure y'all (as a family unit) were very well maintained. And that she "encouraged" you to go into what she considered to be a more prestigious career, my mother did the same. I believe it's because they see us as an extension of themselves so you attaining that career and you visually looking prim-and-proper gives her a sense of value/worth. Non of it is for us. It seems caring when in reality it's very self serving. Now I don't personally know either one of you and I hope I haven't said anything too offensive but something that really helped me heal and improve myself (one cannot have long-term exposure to an environment like that and not be affected) was videos on RU-vid about parents with personality disorders. I'm not saying your mother or my mine have personality disorders but they do seemingly share a lot of the same traits. It help me acknowledge, understand, accept and process it all. As well as it given me practical and successful ways of approaching my situation with my mother (remember I still have a sister that lives with her whom I know will need help some day). But at 42 yrs old I can say this, I am not perfect in life or as a person. I have flaws and I work very hard to manage this broken bruised person and not always with success but I give myself some grace. And I am happy. I wish you healing happiness and a sense of peace on your journey.

Sometimes We Have To Skip Trying To Understand The People Closest To Us ... They'll Treat You The Worst.. Believe It Baby Girl ❤️ It's Not You Some Mother's Just Don't Like Their Daughters.. It's Not You They Don't Like Themselves... Trust These People Are Miserable On The Inside 💠 Love Yourself Move On It Is What It Is Stay Strong... Stay Positive 👍🙏

You should write a book! ♡⁠ Forreal tho, you are so inspiring and relatable. Your story reminds me of my own and my sister's. I'm so sorry you've been going through this. Thank you for sharing. It is truly so helpful and I hope you're doing so well and taking great care. ♡⁠ I love your style, your disposition. Sending you the best of vibes.~

Don’t talk my mother either she the mother from pure hell no contact am happy

Wow. I’m 60 yo and I’ve never heard people fight like that. I’m so sorry you went through all that

I’m so happy that you choose to love yourself enough too get yourself out this that curse . I’m so proud of you Goddess🌹❤️

As someone who’s made the decision to go no-contact to an emotionally abusive mother, this was so reaffirming. Thank you for your vulnerability and sharing the gift of your story to help others In identical situations around the world.

Stay strong lovely. Thank you for the awareness you are spreading

I hate to say this but I’m so grateful you made this video because it literally seems like we lived the same exact life. I’ve always felt so alone & so misunderstood to the point that it seemed like no one in this world would ever understand. It’s so refreshing to know that I’m not alone. The experience of having a narcissistic parent or narcissistic parents is so painful and confusing. It’s truly evil. I have been no contact with my mother & I have grown closer to God. I wrote a book, graduated college, & Im living in Godly peace. This is the best feeling. It truly sucks not having a loving relationship with my mother but there is purpose in our pain. You are helping a lot of other young men and women who may be in a similar situation keep going. Stay prayed up & God will continue to do the work on you. This is a lifetime of healing not just a season ❤️❤️🙏🏽 Walk in your purpose & truth‼️

Is there no way to block their accounts? Chile you would think if they were lurking on your channel they would be learning what not to do again and how not to be anymore. Only a monster would see how they’ve hurt their child and feel nothing. I hope you stay no contact. You’ve suffered enough. Narcissists only get worse with age. You deserve better than conditional love and toxicity. Wishing you continued healing and wholeness ❤️🙏🏽

I'm sitting at work saw this and started crying, I appreciate you making these videos about your mom. I just started my channel and went no contact last week, it's very hard.

Omg i thought i was the only one. This is confirmation. I punched through a window too at 13 and had to go to hospital. Veins and skin was showing. glass was in hand. I still have the stitches scar on my hand. She would fuss for hrs sometimes 2+. Whats sad reflecting as an adult is i was purposely locked out after just bein in the house and yelled/called names through the door because i said something she didnt like. I was about to pee on myself & thats why i was like open the door. That area was no where to go outside and walkn i wouldna made it in time. And why would a female child have to. When she called me a lil bitch again i punched it. Its def a cycle of confusion. Healing now. I even had to distance 4rm a friend because she insisted oh your mother is great and never heard me out as an adult. Im also convinced religion harms people

I'm so much older than you so not sure how we crossed paths on yt, but It's amazing how beautiful, eloquent and strong you are considering your upbringing with a narcissist mother! I'm probably around your mom's age group and have been around men and women exactly like that, and they are very sick and toxic and can't change. They are professional manipulators and will eat you alive if you let them. The sad part is that your mom will get old, possibly sick, and you will be the only one who may end up being the caretaker. I've seen friends go thru it, and people question them on how can they care for parents that treated them horribly. It's unfortunate, but karma will bite her in the ass for the treatment you made you endure. Your mom had mental issues or endured abuse as a child, and needed extensive therapy she never received. Just move on with your life, surrender yourself with good, positive people and creative your own beautiful family.. and mentally bury your mom! Limit videos about her, because narcissists feed off of it because they are on your mind. They're in your head and that's what feeds their sick minds! You are all she never could be, no matter how good or bad that you do in life. A narc will never applaud you, unless its a trap! You have to show a narc that they are no longer in your head!!! They hate to be ignored!! Go on with life an be HAPPY!!!❤

Sorry for your lost hunn 😢💙

Going through this. If it wasn't for these videos I would think I'm alone in this. Rebuke and protect your energy from people. Oan I was in a relationship and going through something where I feel more comfortable sleeping with the lights on because of the negative energy that person left behind. I saged and start doing positive affirmations. Your story is so similar to mines. These people have manipulative spirits to the level of other people can complain about them but then forget and turn on you. Narcassist can love on you but they can switch on you. They will sabotage themselves trying to compete or hurt you. They don't think logical, have no empathy and don't care how their lies can affect you. They will know you're recording them and they still don't try to act better but documenting is good to protect your character. I will not deal with certain people because they love to have cookouts and parties but can't speak up when things get real. If you truly love someone you wouldn't watch them sabatoge themselves but people didn't speak up due to jealousy or they was toxic as well. I like how you have receipts, I had to do the same. Keep your head up. Try to find different types of happiness and succeed succeed succeed! 💛

I completely relate to you and this video

Thank you for sharing your story! I'm so happy to know that I'm not alone in this situation 🙌🏾

so proud of you. yes its not easy but you deserve peace and quite

My boyfriend and I are currently staying in my childhood room at my parents and I’m tryna save to get out and get my own space but sometimes it’s hard and it may seem like I’m never going to be able to move and get my own spot but… my mother is the same way but she doesn’t do it wit my dad she does it to me with my second oldest sister cause she staying wit my parents to but my mother keeps trying to get in my ear about my boyfriend because she doesn’t like him or agree wit a reason of seeing us together and my second oldest sister doesn’t like my boyfriend either so they double team me and stress me out and it’s really taking toll on my relationship wit or towards my boyfriend because of them

I just want to say I love you for being brave, bold and loving yourself. People don't know how bad it was and I also have gotten gaslit, ignored shunned. It's given me peace and I want peace qnd prosperity for you Bri and it's already in your future. Keep looking after yourself it's difficult but your going to be moving mountains! Keep going onward and upward you are divinely loved and protected. No evil shall prosper in your life, all negative energy must be sent straight back to sender ❤

Bri this is my first time watching your podcast it's very informative I agree on so many levels of what you have would you believe I am 62 years old years Young and still going through challenges that my mother has put me through I'm just starting to learn how to cope I would love to have a I understand what it feels like to be able to express your emotions just know I care continue to

You are not alone. I stand with you and have been going through this very traumatic experience for years.Choose You every time Bri. Much ❤️ and blessings to you.God will reward you.Thanks for being vulnerable to share with many of us whom needed this video.

Love oneself and always trust God he's your help❤

I can relate with a lot of things that you went through. Sending love. 💜💜💜💜

I hope you will be well, you are a wonderful being :) My father also appreciated me a lot, but my mother was jealous of me. And I left them together and left, so toxic..

We have lived identical lives. I'm very sorry. I'm six years NC. Stay strong, it gets tough but stay strong.

The ending of your Video really resonated with me you said “when you was younger you didn’t have a chance to speak up for yourself so when you got older, they thought it came off of sensitive , aggressive, or dramatic. when really it’s just suppressed emotions we never got to express and now that we’re older its hard to express because we doing it the best way we know how. everything you are going through with your family i feel it because i’m going through it. i hope you rise above everything.

Going on 2 year this july. Hang in therr ur doing better than when shes in ur life.

I feel like a lot of people push things like this under the rug … like forgive and forget & it’s not that easy 🥹 especially when it’s your own mother it hurts . ❤️ keep going u got this

Never go back.

Hey girl I’m sorry you’re going through this. You’re brave and you deserve the best 16:27

Heyyy

Hey beautiful! Idk if you’ll remember me cause I was quiet and too myself but, my name is Manoucheka we went to high school and college together (Megis hall 🙌 lol). I watched a couple of your videos and I must say, your a very strong individual. I pray that God continue to bless you and fill you with all the love, positivity and support you deserve. His word says God doesn’t give us more than we can bare and watching this I can see your heart and God has a pitcher and he’s just pouring I’m talking about overflowing ❤. You sharing your life story I know will help someone out there that maybe going through the same. I just want to say your an Amazing beautiful God fearing Woman and continue to shine bright like the diamond your always ment to be. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ 👑 @brianadiasvlog

Can i suggest making s new anonymous yt channel. I went no contact in oct and i felt my life blossom instantly online my personality wasnt crippled any more! Keep posting here till the other one surpases this channel! I did thst too. Now no demonic energy can touch me! Girl goong no contact saved your life.cyour so alluring moms not doing the inner work

Heavy on "your wish is my command" 💫🧞‍♀😅