I'm happy and relieved to see you're back, hopeful and trying new things to get better. A new thing I've been reading and finding helpful is a book called "Freedom From Your Inner Critic." You're courageous in your compassion, an inspiration and an all around beautiful person.
I happened to wonder what you were up to yesterday and then you popped up in my feed today, really good to have you back. So proud of your determination to get better and all the steps you're making towards progress! It must be so incredibly difficult but you are moving on and doing all the right things with the resources you have. You should feel really proud of yourself. Sending lots of healing thoughts your way and I know you can make it to the life you want for yourself 💪💗
Girl , i want to tell you that you are waaaaay beautiful then most of beauty influencers on social media. You don't know your worth . You have a beautiful face , beautiful hair , your voice is soft . All my support from 🇲🇦 Morocco
I watched a few of your videos so I guess I kinda get the big picture of what you're going through but that's about it. Despite that I think I understand some things you're saying here. The vibe I got from your other videos is fairly static, kind of like my own life feels, so to hear that things are moving, and that you want them to be moving, just the overall energy I felt from you here warms my heart honestly and not a lot of things do that. I say feeling like shit every day due to mental illnesses sucks in itself, but to feel stuck as time flows as well is as if the suffering is expanded into its own extra dimension and gains that much more volume from it, especially at my ripe old age of 21 in my experience. The energy affected me so much it's made me think about art therapy again. I've heard of it in group therapy but I never gave it any thought cause I never produced any art and being forced to do it in drawing classes felt meh, I felt like I had a perpetual art block and I don't think I liked it much. But maybe that's just because I'm always very rational and literal and so emotions and other things that are hard to express using language escape me. I've been interested in them nonetheless for some time. I feel a little motivated to look into it now. Well anyways, best of luck to you on your new adventures, it sounds really exciting!
We love ❤ you dear. We want the best for you. Some day you probably will look back at these videos you made, and wonder, "what was I so worried about?" Lol I kid you not. I'm glad you are showing signs of getting help. Life throws us curve balls darling. You are adorable young lady. It will get better😊
Glad to see you back! I’m glad that the PHP has been helpful for you. I’ve been considering doing the same but can’t afford it at the moment. I really missed your videos. Hope you continue to improve ❤️
You could create a patreon with just the "reward" of featuring the names of the patrons at the end of the videos or something. That's what some people do. Probably if you created one, there would be people who support you just to help out, without expecting a private video in return. But idk for sure, I haven't used it myself.
I hope you find happiness it's not easy having mental illness. You seem like you manage things well. Your coping skills are better than mine. I sometimes don't even try to improve I get so depressed. Therapy is only helpfull for an hour.
Eagerly awaited the next life episode of Crooked Lady's mental state of mind and everything in between. Love your "clear-cut thinking" and raising deep questions extrapolating from your own life experience and situation. Thank you for letting us take part in your (mental) journey and beeing so blatantly honest showing us real emotion.
My black cat Felix died on November 1, I wanted to adopt another one but the shelter said no because I have an old cat that is not neutered so I'm not allowed to adopt, sometimes I think they really don't want them to have homes...it's really ridiculous... sorry for your loss I know how you feel 💔
@@EsmeraldaWolfsbane7777 my cat was named Felix too, he was a tuxedo, after the Felix cat food! He was an older cat, a big boy about 8 - 10 i'd say, he came to us in September last year from the woods and we had to leave food out for weeks for him to trust us. Someone had abandoned him and when we took him to the vets we knew why, he had an irregular heartbeat and when he would sleep sometimes he's be gasping for air, the vet told us he had heart disease and could die at any time. But anyway, he was eating and seemed happy and it would have been nice if he stayed with us another year but he died on 13th October, just outside the backdoor he lay there dead. What people don't realize is that they are more than just pets, they are part of a family so when they die it is devastating, yes I only knew that cat for a year but he was my best friend.
Yeah he really toughed it out. I came home and everyone was sleeping and i went over to say goodnight and i gave him some water from a cloth and he just looked and me and i told him its ok to go home now and then my Mother woke me up at 6am just a few hours later and she said hes gone home. Ill be seeing you
Stay strong. Just because you have all the tools, doesn't mean you know how to build a house. It takes time and I'm happy that it looks like you're continuing to try.
For anyone that watches this, This girl is actually an absolute monster. I've seen her play animal crossing. She hits her villagers with a net. The horror.
glad to see you back. i know you would of read this a million times, but you are NOT ugly. You have zero features that are bad, looking normal IS normal, there is northing wrong with how you look. Your in a mental battle, and once you win you will realise you are good enough
The reason you have this mental illness is because you are given the time to have it. The moment you are thrown into a situation which requires all of your focus on something else is the moment your illness no longer exists. It's not medication you require, it's a shift of focus. You can get this one of two ways, 1 find something so inspiring you are driven to only focus on that personal goal not related to your image (you are experiencing a hint of that right now through exploring art and creativity), or 2 put yourself in an environment where your survival requires all your focus. If you cannot find inspiration you need to go for the latter. By forcing that shift of focus you will understand success and inner peace does not come from the values you once thought were important. The thing that once took all your attention and crippled you, rapidly moves down your list of priorities. Which in turn heals you of your issue. Me telling you I think you are beautiful makes the problem worse as it keeps your focus stuck where it is self-destructive. ts time you jump in the deep end, despite the fact you can't swim, and realize getting back to the edge of the pool the relief and achievement felt had nothing to do with how well you wore your swim suite. Oh (edit) and dont go dating anyone or looking for friends while they rank near the top on your list of priorities, they should come after you have found other higher priorities. This way your relationships will be healthy and not define you and draw you back to square one if they fail. If you follow this advice the lonliness wont last, as people will be drawn to you. You have a community behind you here by the looks of it (I have only seen a few videos) why not film yourself painting, or doing your art, and sell your work online. Just an idea. You got this.
In A shooting range, regardless of how good of a shooter you are, you will inevitably miss target from time to time, but a bad shooter deals with a miss differently to a good shooter: If the bad shooter misses he will blame it on his gun, and if he cant blame it on the gun he will blame it on the target itself. The good shooter however, will miss and not blame the gun or the target but instead blame himself, this causes him to reflect upon his areas of weakness, target them and practice to get better. All of us face challenges, oftentimes the same ones, ultimately what decides the hierarchy is how we deal with challenges, not which ones we were given.
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Hey, cute crooked lady! Have you ever thought about trying cosplay? Could be a way to see yourself in a different light and you may find some relief in becoming someone else for a while
I don't think much of this is really helping you. I beat depression but I only started to heal after I stopped obsessing over my depression and trying to figure out how "fix it". Endless discussions and writing that goes nowhere, none of it helped with the real problem. The only way I made progress was by putting myself in slightly uncomfortable situations, slowly building confidence and turning my focus externally to other things beside myself. I decided I would just say "yes" to everything. I haven't touched anti-depressants for over a year but I keep some in a drawer just in case. Remember that doctors have incentives to give you pills, and while they might work great for getting you off rock bottom they are also a ball and chain that will restrict you from being your true self and becoming free from this nightmare.
Don't listen them telling you therapist or men can help. Turn to God, find Him and He will help you 😚 to understand love, because when you know He loves us 🧡 you will start loving yourself
Calling yourself the crooked lady.noooo the beautyful lady thats what you are❤ missy se that guy in the photo writing to you?that guy is me writing to a beautyful lady just love youself❤i have seeing the worst of the worst believe me.i love you in christ but jesus loves you more. dont hurt Gods felling by calling yourself ugly when your not ok just loveeee yourself❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are beautiful because God says you are, you are fearfully and wonderfully made and he loves you so much. He died a painful death just so you can be with him for eternity and he’s waiting with open arms ready to embrace you and to show his grace and love.
@@CrookedLady I'm glade to hear your doing better and still trying to improve yourself, I've found that no matter how attractive and good looking a person is their mentality will make or break them, the energy and presence you give of with your mind set has more of an effect than your physical looks, so I'm confident as you come to help yourself more and understand and accept yourself with love that change can have a huge impact on your external surroundings and people you interact with, wish you the best and keep at it sweetheart.
@@CrookedLady have you ever tried anything like it before, if not go for it, would be uncomfortable and awkward at first but what have you got to lose really?
