Actor Haruma Miura’s emotional letter to his 30 year old self: "Are you spending your days happily" 

For those claiming that “he doesn’t seem depressed”. Depression is scary in that it could push someone to suicide at the drop of a hat. They could’ve been happy that morning, been with friends, eaten dinner with their family before killing themselves by the time it hit midnight. Depression does not come with an agenda and most importantly not all depressed people ‘look’ depressed. Some of the most successful people in the world are depressed. Don’t think that just because they’re smiling and have a comfortable career, everything is okay. It’s called the silent killer for a reason.

That’s why you always need to check in on your friends and family because you may never really know what’s going on. Just because someone’s smiles and shares photos doesn’t mean they’re happy. Check in on your loved ones❤️❤️❤️

I'm Japanese. He was loved by a lot of young and old people in Japan and I never literally saw people saying anything bad about him. He was very responsible and serious, so that probably drove himself into a wall. He always had the best smile everywhere, but it was just an act. It wasn't the real him. Suicide is not a good decision. But I think he didn't run away from life, he couldn't run away from his life. He was a wonderful guy. I wanted to see him on TV forever. RIP 三浦春馬😢

In his last pictures he's smiling but I can see that there's sadness in his eyes. It's not the same as 10 years ago, where I can see the spark in his eye and the joy in his smile.

Depression is a silent killer. And for those who say Haruma hid it well, he may have already been depressed but everyone missed the signs . I did not know my kids were suicidal until the school brought it to my attention . I couldn’t understand why. I was a stay at home mom that was always available for my kids and their activities. In hindsight, they were times where it does look like attention seeking especially when anxiety kicks in. I had to learn a lot. Had to open that communication sigh my kids. My ex was a Marine and told the kids to “get over it.” We don’t agree on a lot of things. To this day I pay more attention. Sometimes my son just needs to vent. My other son is bipolar and the meds keep him on track. You do need a support system. One without judgement. There are anonymous 800 numbers you can call for help or to talk to someone.

He would've never imagined this would happen to him when he was writing this letter. He's in a better place now. RIP HARUMA if any of you are going thru tough times, trust me it won't last long. You are loved and i appreciate you EDIT - what's going on in the comments y'all? Smh

"He doesn't seem depressed" Do y'all know that THE PERSON WITH THE BRIGHTEST SMILE HAS THE SADDEST SOUL? Ugh I loved him sm. I mean bruh he was the one who got me in Japan movies/dramas. A true legend.

Unfortunately he lost the battle with demons inside his head, he fought hard.. I hope he finds peace 🙏🏽 I wish in Asia everyone could speak up more about mental health. Normalise and prioritise mental health, no matter whoever you are and be it a celebrity or influencer whoever. It is just considered taboo i dont know for what reason! It is high time before we see another person leave us like this 💔

I still can't believe this... it just doesn't feel real... This year sucks

Haruma had accomplished a lot in dramas, movies, musical, singing and advertisements. Truly an amazing talent! But he was a human too, so he would be tired and exhausted. Thus he needed a good rest too. As his relentless work schedules had taken a toll on his mental health. Hope mental wellbeing of celebrities can be improved after the lost of a great star!

Oh my seriously.... Is this true? His is one of my favorite actors with takeru satoh

I remember a good friend of mine who committed suicide as well. The most common thing I notice is them telling people around them they are well and fine. It's okay not to be fine, to complain and to cry. There is nothing wrong on admitting that your weak and your tired.It's okay to ask for help. To ask for understanding. I hope more will be careful on leaving messages to celebrities or even to a common people. Words are like dagger especially to those who are already suffering.

As a child I grew up watching his shows and movies. He was a great person and an actor. I respected and loved him and will always remember him.

He acted so happy on the screen nobody could tell he was depressed. That's how you know he is a great actor. He acted so happy when he was going thru a hard time. I watch him since I was a kid so it saddens me because he was a part of my life. He was always happy. I just can't accept that he killed himself but what do I know about his life? I don't know what is going on behind the screen. I'm sure it was hard for him to put a smile on his face while working.

He’s one of the few Japanese actors that I like. This is just SAD. My condolences to his friends and family 😢

I can only imagine how alone he felt and isolated to come to this conclusion. Really affable and talented guy, this is heartbreaking.

ここ、すごい。こんなに世界から応援されているんですね。 春馬君にみんなの愛が届きますように。

Haruma Miura...U will always be remembered.... I will always miss you.... Rest in Peace....

It's not unusual for the suicide victims closets family members and friends to feel like the "event" was unexpected, I've read about several cases where the family members and close friends are shocked because they never saw any signs or the victim didn't say that they were depressed or anything. (Which honestly is really sad in itself.) However most suicide victims have this kind of persona(?) when they are with others, because they want to act like everything is okay even though it's not. I myself was one of those people in the past, I didn't tell anyone how I really felt because I didn't want to be a burden to the people around me. Another reason as for why I didn't tell anyone was because I thought that I didn't have a valid reason to feel the way I did because overall I had a good life, but there was kind of like a demon(aka my brain) inside of me that made me feel like I didn't deserve to be alive. Now this is just from my personal experience as well as my own personal opinion..... BUT it's important to not forget that there's several different reasons as for why people commit suicide. IMPORTANT MESSAGE! If you or anyone near you have told you that they are depressed or that they feel suicidal GET PROFESSIONAL HELP ASAP! There's nothing wrong with it and there's nothing to be ashamed of, sometimes you just need someone that you don't know to talk to that can also give you the help you need. Hope you're all doing okay and are staying healthy❤️❤️❤️

He will never be forgotten Rest in Peace angel

春馬くん 本当にたくさんの人が貴方を想ってるよ 届いてるかな。。。

I am so devastated with his death. I never thought he'll do this. I never thought I'd feel this way. I love Japan and it's like it is not complete without him.

this is so horrible, i just wish somebody knew how he was feeling and was able to help him before this all happened. i hope he’s at peace now ❤️

Depression is a horrible, horrible thing. I've suffered for years with this beast. People with depression are great actors (my self included), when asked are you alright, put on the happy mask, "i'm fine, great happy face". I don't know why but I feel so sad about his passing, I just feel sad that he was alone.

He was my favorite actor , i was watching gokusen many time . This time only i know he was dead already i was too busy in my personal life . 😭😭😭 . Until i was trying to searching his name for his new movie . I'm really shock .😭rest in peace i love you🌼

Sky of love movie ❤ i will never forget that movie was so beautiful Rest in peace u beautiful soul Haruma 🌸

This is literally so sad! He was so young, he still had so much to experience in his life,But I hope that now he is happy and in peace. R.I.P Haruma!

Haruma was breathing and his heart was beating when they found him, so he was alive. And when they brought him to the hospital an hour later, they reported that he had died. How could he die after an hour of being alive??? Where is the logic???? Do the authorities consider people idiots? To consider him a suicide, it was necessary to report that he died in an ambulance before the hospital and he was still alive. This is pure murder!

I remember watching Koizora movie when i was younger and then Kimi ni todoke and a drama called "The days of my life", he was really good actor specially in his lastest dramas he was able to show the emotions of each character, i never thought he would do this :(

Last month a famous Indian actor 'Sushant Singh Rajput' in his 30s, a very optimistic, cheerful, adventurous, promising soul left us in a similar fashion. Shock isn't even the right word to express what we've felt after his suicide even so he didn't leave any suicide note. Now hearing about this case breaks heart even more. What's going on! Why don't we realize that suicide is never the answer 😷 May they rest in peace in their final destinations now 🙏

I watched almost all of his movies, dorama and tv shows that invite him as guest star. I know he's a true humble person and very kind to everyone. He's friendly to everyone though he's big star in Japan. I love his act so much since Bloody Monday aired. I experienced depression feel recently, but thanks God I could manage it properly before I really commit suicide. That's why I can understand his feeling a little, eventhough I won't understand how big his problem that bring him to commited suicide. Please rest in peace Haruma-san, we hope you'll find the best life in heaven. We love you forever, we really grateful to know you and thank you for your contribution to entertaining us all this time 😭❤️🙏

Praying for his soul and family. It’s heartbreaking losing someone. He gone but never forgotten.suicide it’s not the solution to our problems. He died young. He great actor.

The news of his suicide is so hard on me. We're same age. I first knew him in bloody monday and got crazy over him. I watch most of his works and even a variety show with sato takeru. It's been 3 days and I still can't believe it. When jonghyun, sulli and hara passed away and their fans mourning I never knew it was this hard.

2020 is really sad... it feels like it’s getting worser and worser

The sentence that he wrote "Are you spending your days happily" really hit me because my answer is really No. Haruma can't take the sufferings anymore by each day so he decided to end his miseries. Rest in Peace Haruma😪🙏🙏🙏

I watched a lot of his movies and series, I never expect that something like this would be happening. We never know how a person actually feels within. So, please be respectful and treat people all equally. Please rest in peace now.

We have come to realise that what we see everyday from the people around us may not be real.. Smiling faces, happily engage in activities, joking around etc etc. Even salt can look like sugar....slice potato can look like ginger. We can always fake our emotions anytime if we want to. That is where the problem lies and that is how suicide happens.

Most suicidal people are happy and at peace once they've made the actual decision. At that time, they know exactly when it's going to be over.

2020 and people still think that people posting pics with smiling faces don't need therapy.

"The word happiness is too vague but I hope you find life worth living everyday" - Kim Hanbin, 2018

Sometimes behind the fame, money and happy smiles someone is still hurting may his soul Rest In Peace .

I don't know him , never heard of him, but my heart is in pain and very sad when I so this news through RU-vid and media What makes a young successful handsome rich loveable man to get rid of his life? I think we will never know the answer, but maybe we can search for happiness in another places than what mentioned before. Happiness is not in money or work these things are only tools not goals. Happiness come from inside out, when we have warm family as a state since birth, when we feed our children with love and confidence, when we stop as parents to value them with their success and let them know that we will always love them no matter how they clever or not , succeed or not, rich or not. We as parents are responsible how they grow and face life with strength and confidence. I wish No one experience this situation with his love one . Every soul is valuable

Poor Little Angel, I like him, he is a great actor. His soul may rest In peace. 🖤

i will definitely say that "don't judge the book by its cover" cause not all people who are happy are happy, some are happy because they want to hide their sadness but i couldn't blame them cause there's also a quote that states "we wont know your problems unless you speak it up" so it needs courage and timing to do that but then again there's a saying that goes "even if i speak it up, the problem still lies to people whether they understand your problems or not and its up to them whether they want to help me out or not" and "if i speak it up, is there anything that you can do to help me out?" but on the other side, we must understand each other cause all people have problems. as long as youre alive, problems will eventually come to you so its up to u to prepare yourself for the worst or not and to those people who committed suicide, just respect them cause its like they are trying to say "im done living on this earth, im sick and tired of of living that i want to die now so i can rest, i cant take it anymore, that im weak and coward that i cant speak it up my problems to my relatives and friends" and many more statements that people had on their minds before committing suicide. so i think that's the same situation for miura-san before committing suicide

Fate is really strange he didn't even know when he was writing to the future him the 30 year old really accomplishes everything thing he dream in past except happiness I wish what if someone is by his side his friend or anyone who can heal the broken him or stop him from ending his life but now sadly the only word which is left is what if.😔

Haruma Miura is so beautiful and wonderful actor. We love him. Haruma, We never forget you. We need your songs and DVD and books everyday.😌❤💿🎵💃🎥📕🗾🗻🗼🐴🏄✴

I'm just watched his movie "From me to you" so heartbroken to know he left this world RIP Haruma Miura

As of now, there is a report that Haruma-miura cause of death is not suicide but homicide. According to the hospital staff, there were many wounds on the body that could not be made by one person.This fact is about to be hidden in Japan. And there is the fact that Haruma Miura has been gaslighting from the office and entertainment people for two years. Please, please stand up in the overseas media and report this!!

rest well and soar high, butterfly.

When the news broke, my heart also broke into pieces. Haruma-san is one of my favorite actors and it pains me for not knowing that he’s in pain all this time. He hides his pain so well, he didn’t want to trouble others and made fans worry. Haruma-san, if only we know you’re having a hard time, we can prevent this. Now, all we can do is pray and wish him to rest in peace. I miss him.

I really didn't expect him to do this. I've watched his movie and drama since I'm in high school. So it kinda sad to get this news. I'm gonna miss his acting. And his precious smile

That letter hits me really hard😭

Perhaps this is the answer he choose to that particular question he asked himself ten years ago. Am I happy now? It is a simple question. Yet it could means everything to him. Happiness is not something you could measure or put value on. Hope he'll attain the happiness he's searching for. R.I.P. H.M.

10年後の春馬くんは凄い人だったよ 春馬くんを悩みの底に落とした人達が許せない

I'm still crying watching this, may he rest in peace 😭😭😭💔

Just found out this video..I'm speechless and crying ..I can't believe it he is not here any more .how painful

春馬くんは神の子だから 辛いけれど神様におかえしします たくさんの作品を残して くれてありがとう

I dreamed that an artist I admire committed suicide and woke up sad and worried ... And now I find that ... he was one of my favorite Japanese actors, I'm crying a lot ...

I still watch his movies and dramas. It makes me happy seeing his beautiful face on screen. As an audience and admirer his works is the biggest gift that he could leave behind. Wherever you maybe I hope you are smiling that big beautiful smile. I love you ❤️

For anyone who feels sadness always remember that there will be time you'll be healed and never ever think that leaving the world is the best solution. The world is a beautiful place you can find solutions even it's the hardest. Never think of suicide.

I can’t believe that two weeks passed... my absolutely favorite actor from Japanese films. I grow up with his filmography and now he’s gone. I’m so unlucky person who loves and always lost. Jonghyun and now Haruma. I can’t believe and my heart is broken.

I hope that he now finds the peace that he yearns for, R.I.P Haruma Miura.

I do not know him but I am so shocked and sad that he took his own life like this. I hope Japan and other countries focus more on psychological and mental health issues and illnesses as they can get very scary and serious which end up causing tragedies like this. Hope he is in a happier and better place now and my deepest condolences and sympathies to his family, friends and fans!

This actor was so stunning like in his performance it's so sad that hes gone. RIP ❤

It's been almost a year since he just disappeared from our lives... Some fans are saying that it was before the 18th. Many fans in Japan are questioning his death. Because no one has seen the hospital where he was rushed to, or his funeral. There are so many strange things that happened before his death and after his death. The media and his management company have been silent. What we feel is that there is a very big force at work with Haruma. We may not be able to find out what it is right away, but we are saying that we should all continue to raise our voices. 🌸🐎We will never forget Haruma Miura 〜 Haruma Miura forever!🌸🐎

Awwwww.. sooo sad his gone.. he was the best Japanese actor...😭❤️🇺🇸

OMG I just got to know about this today. Still can't believe this happened. I love all of his dramas/movies. May his soul RIP 🙏🏽😢❤

I miss him. He was so talented. I love his smile. I just wish that there would’ve been someone that he could have shared his pain with. I am so sorry he was in so much pain

I can't believe he passed away. I like him from the time I watched him with Shida Mirai (14-year-old mother). Never expected this, but somehow we never fully understand what's going on in somebody's mind. I will miss you so much. RIP my dear.

Me and two of my other cousins shared admiration towards Miura Haruma since high school. We really loved his movie “Koizora”. I still know how to sing their theme song. But it’s just too sad to know that he had to go this way. 🥺😭😭😭 Love from Philippines. ❤️❤️❤️ May he rest in peace. 🕊

First movie I saw him in was Koizora. I cried. I enjoyed his other dramas, but his performance in The Hours of My Life absolutely was a masterpiece of acting. I re-watched it and cried each time. We have learned Covid 19 has caused many people to become depressed because of the fear of the virus, and the horrifying death the media would broadcast daily. I do not know reason for his depression. I feel the world lost a great actor because his performance was method you felt the pain of his characters or the happiness in his smile. Actors are like Clowns they hide their true selves behind makeup and different characters. Bloody Monday drama was one of my favorite. I hope he is at peace. He left a legacy of a killer smile and characters that will remain for years.

I just miss him till now. I still watch his J- drama and movie. Wish it didn't end like that. 😔💔

He was a big part of my childhood so it feels like I lost a friend. I am sadden, but pray he finally gets the peace he needed and wanted. I'll take a shot of whiskey for you, Haruma.

1 can save millions but millions can't save 1.

I so enjoyed his work, be at peace. You are loved.

Oh no... he was one of my favorite actors. He must of felt so alone... RIP Haruma Muria. You did good.

There are people who have High Functioning Depression. They can still function in life, for the most part, but no one really believes the struggle they have because life isn't falling apart yet. So it's harder for them to get help.

I understand why they decide to kill themselves, I don't know when I'm going to lose to the voice in my head. It's really hard for someone to keep going when there is a continuous voice inside you that tells you to just give up and one day you just let that voice win in order to escape from it. But I really hope people can find courage to silence that voice with self worth, self love, love for others, love for their work, passion or anything, *anything* they could hold on to keep going, to keep living. Please be safe guys from the threat outside as well as inside you. 💚

I'm so sad to heard about this, he is the one of my favorite actor.. :"( I know everyone have a reason and everyone have decision about everything in their life.. but please You're amazing person and you're beloved, think hundred or more, coz your life is precious..

He was driven to work very hard for whole year, in 2019 he didn’t have even one day off! The office didn’t take care of his mental health. He was so sudden thin in one month during the drama shooting but his office paid no attention to this. The office didn’t make any announcement of his work schedule or his physical and mental check report.

R.I.P Haruma Miura, you are my favorite actor⚘⚘💔😭

I remember watching his movies as a kid :') Stop trying to find truth in conspiracies. What we can do and what he needs the most right now is our prayers so that he would find peace and rest. Be compassionate to those people around you, be more empathetic, be more considerate... that's what we can do for him now. To be a better person to make a better place for everyone to live and grow old in, so that no one would suffer the way he suffered when he lived. Please shows your support and love to your idols, friends, and families. Think twice before you say something because it might hurt someone deeply.

A beautiful light, a beautiful person, dirtied by this filthy world, he fought his battles and now he's in peace the world lost an angel when he passed ,I just wish that he had someone to be with him when he was at his worst, his breaking point, then maybe we still would be able to see his beautiful smile, you never know what will happen so tell the person you love how much you love them, be kind and live life to the fullest, cause you too are the reason for people's smile whether you realize it or not, you are precious, you are loved always remember that

This shows that people that show optimism and happy life, can be one of the most depressed and likely to give upon life

Esta persona era maravillosa me parte el corazón saber que sufría por dentro.

My idol since I was high school. It really breaks my heart.

This just makes me more sadder:((((((( My heart breaks for him and I still can't believe that he is gone. It's just unthinkable that there isn't anyone that he can talk to. I hope Haruma can find peace.

RIP Haruma, Will miss you. Love you for AOT movie

When I see the news, my heart beat so fast I got anxious like at first I thought "no that's absurd, there's no way he would do that" and then checked it out on google... and it was really confirmed. My heart sank and I broke into tears. Haru was my first ever japanese crush he was also the one who got me to j-industry after watching him in koizora, his acting is just so amazing and he got wide range of emotions. Other than that, he was such a lovely human being, he always smile so brightly that I would have never thought he was having a hard time on his own, seeing this news is so heartbreaking, I dont know how am I going to accept the fact that he's already gone. I feel so devastated and sad. I just want him back but that's ridiculously silly of me. May he rest in heavenly peace and I hope his family and friends can stay stronger 💔💔💔

A depressed man won't make plans for future and upcoming movies. This sound a murder to me. Like SSR case.

My favorite japanese actor was Haruma Miura..He will be my favorite actor forever...😭😭😭😭😭

Some of the brightest smiles hide the deepest & darkest emotions (sadness & pain) within, reassuring/deceiving those who love them dearly that they are fine, when clearly by tragic final decisions that they are indeed NOT. 😔 R.I.P Haruma, you will be inevitably missed. ❤️ 😭🎭

He was killed

This needs to be investigated. Something’s not right. It might be a homicide.

This is the first time ever I hear of him. Such beauty and no one who could help him. We cannot imagine how lonely many famous people are. I'm so sorry to read this.

He was my favorite Japanese actor, it was so exiciting finding a new movie with him... I hope he found a better place ❤

Too sad I'm not even recover from sushant singh rajput suicide now haruma why 😫😫😫😫😫... 2020 is worst year...

U will be missed forever, Bitou Tatsuya

Iam shock to heard this 😭 I never expected this.... My Hiro 😭😭😭😭😭

It still make me shock.. like cant believe it. But it is happen. He's one of my feveret japanese actor.. since koizora.. nvr thought he will end his life.. haruma hmmm 😢😢😢