Adderall Addiction and Recovery- 10 Year Adderal Abuser 

So I just overcame adderall addiction, I noticed the depression slowly being lifted through the months and one day it was just gone. It was so strange… and this video just popped up lol. Wild. Amazing story and thank you for uploading. I hope anyone out there struggling knows the other side is attainable and awesome.

I think this video is great and so valuable for all those people out there struggling with addiction. A lot of what you say resonates with me, and it's really impressing to see you this energetic and accepting, keeping in mind that you went through ten years of hardcore addiction. I'm 100% sure it inspires people to dare to take a different path. I hope this channel grows and more people can see what it can be like. All the best!

This is the first time I've heard someone articulate this struggle and all of the niche aspects. Wow powerful reality check and really informative - thank you so much for making this and for your candour

Great video! I abused adderall for about 15 years off and on...more on than off. I'm 2 years sober and so thankful to finally be free....and alive. I know it would have led me to an untimely death if I hadn't stopped. All praise to God because I literally prayed for His help to stop. I had to surrendee it all and humble myself before Him before He finally gave me to desire and unction to get clean...not only from adderall, but from alcohol, ciggs and weed too. My biggest fear was that i was gonna gain weight ..and I definitely did. But i know changing and getting completely healthy takes time. Ive always struggled with my weight, so its no surprise that this is where my biggest battle is after all is said and done. The most important thing ive learned is how to love myself no matter what size i wear. I want to lose weight because I want to care for myself as a person and be healthier all around now....not because i care what others think about the way i look anymore. I respect myself much more now and I'm not ashamed of myself. I would much rather be here, where I am now...heavier, with only one mountain left to conquer..than skinny and enslaved to multiple things that were sucking the life out of me a little more every day.

Thank you so much for this video! It’s been so hard to take responsibility, wake up, and own up to my addiction. I’ve been taking adderall for 10 years now, the last five years I’ve been abusing it like you described. With dosages that were scary high. Im terrified of getting off of it, and I’m scared how badly the detox will be due to the length and amount I take, but I have no choice but to go through it and get sober, I now have a beautiful daughter that depends on me and needs me here. Once again thank you’!

Legit your so right about the aspect of needing a job/career that matches where you are mentally-more people should talk about that. 👍

I can’t thank you enough for this. I’ve been looking for this exact story with all of the information you’ve provided for YEARS. I started to think a successful recovery from this addiction wasn’t possible. I can’t thank you enough ❤

i was only on adderall for 2 weeks but came off it and had depressed feeling for weeks. im all fine now but going back on it soon, i know to keep my doseage low. your video was really good and you seem ilike a really nice person so thanks

Recently diagnosed with ADHD at 38 . It definitely helps me focus and it gives me the energy I need. I'm prescribed 10mg twice a day but I usually just take 1. I'm terrified of becoming addicted

Thank you for sharing your experience, this is very helpful. God bless

Thank you for this cause you can’t find many stories on it 🙏 I’m one month sober after 7 months of using it it gave me several psychotic breaks I dealt with them and kept going back three times before I finally quit each time being worse. It’s crazy how you took it for 7 years and then had your first psychotic break but I took it for 7 months and then I had mine wonder why I had it come on so fast

Thank you for posting this. Im 26, 8 years in been trying to quit for many years now. the longest I ever make it is like a month before I cave for one reason or another you know. I certainly destroyed a good relationship because of the person it’s made me, I am trying to rewrite myself and have things going for myself I just wish I could quit for good. I’m hopeful that next time I get a month or so in and want to break I will hear your voice reminding me to keep going🙏

Thank you so much hearing about your experience and healing is motivating. I've been stuck in the abusive cycle and afraid to let go of the addiction. I found my art and drawing skills to come back and increase on the drug and I know can't depend on it but I'm stuck in my mind because I feel like I can advance with drawing on it but I know I can't depend on it . I'm afraid to let go of it

Gosh, thank you. So very much ❤

Thank you for the video. I'm dealing with Adderall detox after 11 years of daily use. I'm day 15 off and it has been rough but I'm still working and trying to push through.

This is great content. Thank you.

keep these videos coming!!

Thank you, Lauren

Thanks for posting. I'm 8 months clean. I never had a high dose, but I still miss it. I can't help but feel like I'm better overall with medication.

I know exactly what you mean by.... needing "something" to take just to be able to get out of bed and function!! I'm not on Adderall but I am on Methadone and I've been on it for 6+ years every single day. I'm tired of the handcuffs so I'm tapering off 100mg. I'm currently on 57mg. I'm so ready for the days to come where I wake up and can not be so pissed that I woke up and feel like shit. I'm done and burnt out on having to have something just to function.

I think it is important to remember that "add" is transitory and very dependent on your overall health and learned behaviour from your childhood. Personally, and if you look at the actual research studies, I don't believe in adhd. And that is coming from a place of empowerment. I felt really low when I got diagnosed with add (like, am I permanently busted?). No, after being tricked into taking the drug and the horror it did to me (dropped my testosterone to very low levels) causing sexual dysfunction, atrophy, among other things, cognitive impairment, I've realised, by the help of Patrick Teahan's youtube channel about trauma that there was never anything wrong with me. I was in a bad place, and came from a bad place, which made me susceptible to certain ways of thinking about myself and my surroundings causing "add". Wishing you all the best. It's been 8 months since I took it and it's slowly getting better, taking it day by day, exercising, eating properly, sleeping more, cold showers, no stress.

thank you 🙏🏻

Been taking it for over 12 years, prescribed. At my worst I was mixing opiates with it and taking over 100mg a day my face would be numb from lack of circulation. I don’t take it that much anymore I take about 40 mg a day, but I’m having health problems and it’s made me lazy now. Like your saying the adderall makes me feel good without having to accomplish anything. So I’m ready to really get off. The relationship I’m in isn’t helping with that, he’s very type A and quitting the adderall I can’t keep up with him. I already know what’s needed bc I went through therapy to get off of opiates.. Thanks for the words ❤️

i appreciate this

This morning tears just started rolling down my eyes.. there wasn’t a reason for the sadness. Things aren’t going my egos way as of late. A weeping cry SSRI- sertraline dampened my emotions, sex drive and my sense of joy. Im still missing a genuine joy in my heart. I feel hollowed out. Things are getting better. Day by day 🌞🌼💐

Ty for this vid. You are so spot on. Do think things are different for those without adhd? 7 years of daily use here but never prescribed them. Ill add that i never knew what anxiety was until i became dependent on this. Awful..

Hi all, 180 days off of adderall and just saying that it does get way better. I’ve been sleeping a lot still but able to enjoy things again. It feels amazing to not have a one track mind on those pills anymore

Hot showers and then turning it to cold really helped the cravings turned them off for me

I love this video. Thank you. I’m booked into to see a dr to possibly get a script for my ADHD. But I am also someone who can abuse alcohol so of course I am nervous that I could be creating a new addiction. I have in my head that the medicine might help me slow down my alcohol addiction. Am I being delusional? Should I cancel that first meeting so I never even experience these drugs? I tell myself I won’t abuse it but i thought that with the booze as well.

Thank you for this video. I would like to hear more about the psychotic breakdown you had. I am trying to figure out what happened with my relationship of 8 years. My now Ex completely lost it and it destroyed our relationship. She never admitted it but I know she was taking more than she was supposed to. She had narcolepsy and was prescribed 2 20mg XR a day. She took them responsibly for a few years but then she started acting weird and then it went to full blown psychotic. If you are willing to make a video about it, it would help me greatly.

I’m only a couple weeks clean, but I’m finding a keto diet or low carb diet is really helping. I think sugar was the problem in the first place and adderall was a band aid.

I’m an adderral addict for 3 years. I always thought taking more than 40mg a day would be an overdose. Your dose was insane!! Wow!

How long does the fatigue last? My body crashed after catching a virus and now im left with chronic fatigue. I think the pills weakened my system

Nobody can verbalise withdrawal/dependence better than you. And you look good to look today 😊 I went to gym today and I felt like a granny. The amount of effort to gym for 5/10 minutes OMW. It’s a psychological battle.. Its a spiritual war, my ego hates it. My ego wants to be the guy looking, feeling strong.. Chest out pumped…😅 Sertraline/ssri ❌, feels like brain is damaged, heavy head In the 4th week now since the last pill. Mwah looking forward to your next video. Bye for now

Im going on 1.5 years I took two pills before a funeral before that it was in 2020 November, I went from abusing addy to then trying meth, I feel almost normal but the wreckage it caused my life was terrible lost my family and I tried to commit suicide damn I'm still recovering from all of this

I am struggling with functioning and working. Any advice? I don’t have a support system so I have to work. Also did the depression truly ever go away? Do you think you ever truly went back to baseline? Like truly?

hey, thanks

My problem is with Ritalin. That's a 2 day binge per month. This has been going on for years. I congratulate you for your victory. My question, do you still have access to these pills, for instance like a doctor or someone else?

Dating one of these folks is seriously draining & could destroy you.....the innocent party. She only spoke of forgiving herself for what she's done TO HERSELF....Like,huh!@ I'm sure she's hurt others throughout her addiction,though... That makes me think of the rampant narcissism going on,nowadays It doesn't matter WHAT YOU'VE DONE".. Like,seriously. Eye opening video on how these folks truly think,though!@ Scary

Did it make your hair fall out a lot? I started using it everyday. And i noticed my hair shedding like crazy. Not sure if i was just coincidently going through a cycle at the same time, or if it was the addis

The worst when you stop abruptly is the EXTREME tiredness and lack of feeling emotions..major depression. How much did you take on average daily?

14:25 Working in STEM, everything you said is true. At some point one has to ask if the money is worth the mental stress to the point of requiring these drugs. Is a 6 figure salary really worth it? Thanks for sharing your story.

5 years off heroin and all substances....except now I'm abusing adderall. I have 0 control over anything that changes how i feel. I use cause i can't handle my emotions. Life is going well right now but adderall starting to take its affect. My arm in a sling and 2 knee brases from muscle over use with not enough rest. I'm up to atleast 120mg a day

When did u stop taking it? How long have you been clean off of it?

Adderall helps me so much but I lose so much hair from it so I barley take it and it sucks

Congrats on your recovery! How long did it take to get your dopamine receptors to start working on their own again? When did the depression stop?

A sincere question: Why would you become hooked on adderall? I've taken ritalin and it was horrible, even before withdrawal. I'd much rather abuse alcohol.

I’m struggling with adderall / dexamphetamine abuse- since a few months trying to get off it. I’m 20, do have ADHD and am looking for some people to talk with since I can’t really talk to anyone about it :(

You remind me of drew Barrymore ❤

I first tried Adderall when I was 18 and took 100 mg IR. Even though I didn't take it regularly because I wasn't prescribed, I had dreams about it. I ended up stealing pills from brother and a roommate because I couldn't control myself.

I noticed you didn't mention irritability, anxiety, yelling at people for no good reason. Did you not experience those emotions? Or in hindsight now, do you think you were the cause of arguments and not the other people?

Emerald coast alternatives zombie tea felt like natural adderall and helped me detox

You just know that when that shit is running through your system, it can’t be good for you lol

two multivitamins, alpha lipoic acid, red meat, green juice, and tons and tons of exercise. helped me quit. also picking up martial arts

I wonder how many years of our lives we shaved off ?

Holy sht I take 10mg XR per day. 60mg is....wow. And that's prescribed. America.

It’s been a while.. where you at?

I take 200mg a day sometimes. Am I a junkie?

Are you driving and filming a youtube video?!

I was off for 4 days and just filled a script again. I want off

Look this is a great video explaining drug addiction but please, please for the sake of others and yourself, do not drive and make a video. The amount of people who have been distracted by using a cell phone while driving and had an accident is horrific. Nothing is as important as having your full attention when behind the wheel.

Thank you so much for this video! 🙏🏻 My son is only 9 and homeschooled. He attends an autism school once a week for 3 hours. Last week the teachers suggested I put him on medication as he is “not progressing” after 2.5 yrs doing therapy there and they have run out of tools in their toolbox. I’ve been in crisis for days… wondering if I’m a bad mum for not wanting to medicate my 9 yr old child. Everything I find online is echoing the sentiments of the teachers. Apparently ADHD meds are amazing! But I want to hear the TRUTH! Thank you for sharing the truth on this matter. It’s very important to hear both sides of the story and now I feel I’m informed and my instincts are right. 🩷