ADHD, Alcohol and a Big Dollop of SHAME - Concerta XL Weekly Vlog - 7 months in!

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Trigger warning: in this video I do talk about alcohol consumption and reckless behaviour, if you need to protect yourself from that kind of stuff, I totally understand if this isn't the video for you!
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Hi there!
I'm Emily and I had a late diagnosis of Inattentive ADD (a type of ADHD) just two months after my 30th birthday. Finding out I was neurodivergent was scary and exciting, but after seven months of taking 36mg of Concerta XL life is good. Really good!
This vlog starts with me very excited about going out on a girls night out, celebrating the amount I've managed to reduce my dosage Sertraline (an SSRI antidepressant) down (I'm now only taking 50mg!).
I promise that I won't drink too much, and then quickly break that promise. This leads me to a therapy-like session where I talk about how I struggle with moderation generally in my life and how my ADD might contribute to that. I touch on the deep shame and guilt I carry around with me due to these behaviours, and how I hope to work on these going forward. I'm always a work in progress!
Concerta XL is a prolonged/slow/long release stimulant medication (its scientific name is methylphenidate!) used to treat attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD). This medication is sometimes called Ritalin, Daytrana or Focalin - particularly in the US. Other ADHD medications that you might be familiar with are Vyvanse, Dexadrine and Adderall, which are amphetamines, rather than methylphenidates, however, they are all stimulants. This video highlights some of the drug’s effects on my mind, mood and body.
I will be continuing a vlog showing my experience with ConcertaXL as I test out my current dose and through the titration period. (Started on 18mg, now taking 36mg).
Whether you're considering starting Concerta XL, have already begun treatment, are curious about ADHD and its links to depression, or are simply looking for some reassurance that you're not alone, this video is for you.
Be sure to say hi in the comments - I'd love to make some new friends in the neurodivergence community, and don't forget to like, share and subscribe for more videos on mental health, ADHD, and related topics!
PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional, this video is for entertainment and anecdotal information only. Always consult your healthcare provider if you are considering taking any medication to make sure it is safe and right for you.

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23 авг 2023

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Комментарии : 25

@prf76 4 месяца назад

I’m glad you’re doing well on the meds. I was diagnosed in November 2023 with inattentive type ADHD at the age of 47, then autism is December. Waiting to start tying the ADHD meds.

@juliahordiienko3966 11 месяцев назад

Happy to hear that you are at least 75 % happier now. Congrats on cutting down the ad🎉 It gives me hope for my medication journey

@adhdemily 11 месяцев назад

Aw Julia - thank you so much for all of comments today. I'm really glad that my videos are helping to give you hope and spreading some positive vibes! Best of luck with your medication journey - please do keep me updated on how it goes! Em x

@therealmartinez5930 10 месяцев назад

When I drink on the meds I don’t feel drunk I just feel extra focused

@RLTango 11 месяцев назад

6:35 - I think what your describing here is the need for Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). This therapy will help identify healthy and unhealthy habits, and then help you establish new habits and thoughts in line with the person you want to become. It's intense and very much worth trying since you have so much guilt for things you may not yet have the tools to improve. (BTW - It's more than talk therapy). Positive thoughts your way, E!

@adhdemily 10 месяцев назад

Hey there again! :) Yes, I definitely think I need some therapy on this. Once I get some of my other financial priorities look at shame and how I respond to unhealthy behaviours/lapses in moderation is a big one for me when speaking to an expert. I really need to do some CBT too - is there any online tools you might be able to recommend? Thanks for your support as always! Em x

@thatspaulo 11 месяцев назад

So glad you're back

@adhdemily 11 месяцев назад

So glad to be back! :) Em x

@DylanStruchlak 10 месяцев назад

I’m glad to see that you are continuing. I was on ADHD medication from the age of 4 to the age of 15. I am now 29 and I just picked up a prescription to start again my adult life has been a big struggle and your videos have helped me feel confident thank you.

@adhdemily 10 месяцев назад

Hey Dylan! So glad my videos have been a help to you - wishing you all the luck on your medication journey as an adult :) Thanks so much for taking the time to comment - your support of my channel means a lot. Em x

@sarahbestPhD 10 месяцев назад

Your point about not being able to do anything in moderation rings so true to me. I also struggle with binge drinking sometimes, and the shame that follows. Before being diagnosed with ADHD I also “self medicated” with weed and caffeine to a point of excess. I’ve heard this is a common thing among people with ADHD though, so know you’re not alone! Also it’s wonderful to see your moment of gratitude, and to see that you’re generally so much happier now than before! :)

@adhdemily 10 месяцев назад

For me it's food/drink and impulsive spending, and the HUGE WAVES of shame afterwards. Thank you for sharing your experience in your comment; it's reassuring to know I'm not 'weird' or just a terrible person when I feel that way :) Thank you so much for your ongoing support of my channel - you are a star! I hope you have a good week, Em x

@Hypnobreast 10 месяцев назад

Have you tried Vyvanse or Adderall? I hear Vyvanse is one of the best for Adhd?

@just_budha212 10 месяцев назад

Love your green couches

@adhdemily 10 месяцев назад

Best money I've ever spent (apart from on my dog).

@just_budha212 10 месяцев назад

@adhdemily my dogs are too expensive. But worth it too. Burns in ireland is 85 euros a bag ogmf 12kg

@Byr0n1c 11 месяцев назад

Im still rather new to ADHD, but I understand that binge drinking is pretty common for many of the reasons you listed - plus its apparently another thing that increases dopamine. Ive been looking at a lot of my activities like that as "dopamine chasing" (a term I heard in another video and it made a lot of sense to me). We seem to become fixated on anything that improves those levels in any way. I had been a binge drinker for a long time - clubs, parties, friends places etc, but had cut back and started avoiding it more for a long time. But, I have been letting myself have about 3 ciders a night and a little port sometimes, and it really does help, even in moderation (wierd!! :P ). Ive been leaning on any crutch I can since diagnosis a month ago, as Im waiting on my doc to get authority to prescribe the medication to me. Caffeine has been my other big go to, to try and get by until then. Dont be too hard on yourself - once I started realising why I was doing these things, I was able to forgive myself a little more and be a little less tough and strict about it all. You are only human after all, and at a fairly significant disadvantage to most neurotypical people 🙂

@adhdemily 11 месяцев назад

Hi Bry0n1c! I'm really glad to hear that you have managed to cut down on your binging, I think the most important set is acknowledging where a behaviour is doing you harm, so you're on the right track, well done :) Thanks for the support! I'll try to be kind to myself...! Em x

@just_budha212 10 месяцев назад

The concrete jungle is shizer. Glad I live by the sea 🌊

@adhdemily 10 месяцев назад

It's the best!

@paulboechler1314 11 месяцев назад

I've also had problems binge drinking and this past weekend was the first time in as far as I can remember that I hadn't felt terrible for at least part of the weekend. Concerta is really helping edge those cravings, but they're not completely gone. Bad habits and all that. I have a feeling that some people with ADHD need to cut alcohol completely out of their lives, the shame can be unbearable. Have you thought about trying other types of stimulant medication? I can feel my Concerta ween off by the end of a long day at work. I'm worried by this Friday my meds will wear off after work and I'll drink more than I want to. I am interested to know if there is stimulant medication I can take before going out for a late night with friends so I can have less urge to drink more. It's all new to me! Something I'll bring up with my doctor. Thanks for sharing!

@adhdemily 10 месяцев назад

Aaa that's so awesome to hear Paul - well done! It's always nice to have a fresh head on a weekend, there is so much that can be achieved! And the best bit? You can do whatever you want with that time :) I'm not a big drinker in the sense that most weekends I don't drink heavily (maybe a glass of wine with dinner once or twice a week), but if I slip up...I really slip up. I haven't tried any other of the stimulant medications, but it's interesting to think about when the meds wear off and how that might be before an evening drinking alcohol. I'll keep that in mind! Thanks for the comment - I really appreciate your support of my channel. I hope you have a great week, Em x