Are you transgender? Female to Male/FtM Part 1 

am I the only one who was crying through most of this video because everything she said was so true about yourself

I don't know why I just want to look like a boy. Flat chest, no curves, and more masculine face. Also when people call me sir or use him his pronouns even by mistake, it feels right.

Me: AHHHH I HATE MY BREASTS AND VOICE I WANNA STAB MY BODY AHHHHHH Me: *next day* *feels low dysphoria* maybe i'm faKING IT OH NO THIS MUST BE THE CASE Me: *next next day* ah there it is, welcome back dyshoria. Shall I go get the icecream for when i'm bound to be crying on the floor? Me: *next next next day* *feels low dyshoria* oh no i might be faking it

I just constantly stress. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing a round and feminine face. I hate my genitals. I hate having this feminine body. but, I fear that I will regret transitioning. I picture myself constantly as an adult and being a man, but sometimes I have severe anxiety. I have no clue who I am. Most days I can look at myself and say "Yeah, man, you're a dude." And others it's just confusion. confusion and stress. I just want to know who I am.

My mother was okay with OTHER girls being tomboyish. It's just that, she wanted ME to act like a lady. ''Wear this dress'' she said, ''Let me put this makeup on you'' she said. Even if I hated it, I just wanted her to be happy, so I lied about wanting to be 'feminine' or wanting to wear makeup. I told her I was a lady. I surpassed my real identity for so long, convincing myself I was a princess. After watching this, I finally choose to come out to her today, and tell her i'm no longer a little 'girl' any more.

I'm ftm and I don't mind being a girl and stuff, but it doesn't feel right. I think that having breasts and curves or whatever is sexy, but I don't need them. I want a V shape torso to impress the ladies or something lol. I'm being honest. I've been like this since I was 4 years old and it took me about 11 years to accept that I was trans.Now I'm 15 and I have a girlfriend and she knows everything about me and sees me as a dude. I honestly don't just want to transition to make people perceive me as a dude or whatever, I want to feel comfortable with myself. I used to be an anime fan, but now it got boring for me. Everything got boring so I have lack of interest in idk whatever stuff. I hope I can take testosterone someday :I I got a lot of stuff I want to do, but my body discomfort stands in the way

I don't even know how I ended up in this video. I'm not struggling to find myself, I already knew I'm a trans man. But I really think that this video can be really helpful for other people. So, good job doing this!

This video made me cry, my mother drills it into my head that I'm not trans, but even imagining having a male body makes me feel better. Thank you so much. I'd donate if I could, but unfortunately I cannot. I wish you the best

I hate how much all of this applies to me...

I think I'm transgender but I don't really know. Maybe I've just been pretending to be a girl for so long. I feel like I'm lying to myself as a girl, but I really wish I could look like a guy. I'm scared that I'll turn out to be a girl all along. Whenever I think about it I feel really guilty and nervous. I'm 110% certain that my mom would accept me, but still... I hate when people use she/get pronouns, but I'm okay with my birth name because it's androgynous. I feel like I'm lying, because these people are saying that being trans is a thing totally created with humans and it's not natural. I don't know. I need help.

Everything she explained is EXACTLY how it is for me.. Ugh..

When she explained how signs of dysphoria is e.g. when someone may hunch their shoulders forward and then pour their shirt away from their body. I was like omg I have done this exact movement for a very long time. Just stumbled across this video, but it helped me so much to better understand what might be happening to me. I am recently questioning my gender identity. I have always been more boyish, and when I was little, I thought I would grow up to become a man. This changed with my puberty, when I realised I was born in a female body and expected to dress and act a certain way. Therefore I have always been very quit, and always trying to fit in with the girls. Now that I'm in 2.g (second grade gymnasium in Denmark) I have come to understand my gender identity much more! And this video has helped me extremely! hope it helps every other person who's dealing with dysphoria too! - and I'm from denmark - so sorry for any spelling mistakes ,':)

I cried at the end a bit, I think I'm actually trans...

I feel more comfortable sitting slouched down in my chair cross my legs like a boy and even slouch as much as a boy And people say you should stand up straight to show you chest and it's uncomfortable sitting up straight Yes I'm a girl and I've thought of me being a boy and it seems better for me

After years of suppressing how I felt about my body and gender identity, I came out to my music teacher four days ago. I couldn't physically talk about it without having some sort of breakdown, nor could I actually get my vocal cords to work, so I wrote her a letter. I gave it to her, walked off, and told her to find me when she had read it. Eventually, she returned and told me that what I had written was so moving that it had made her want to cry. She was so understanding and supportive - literally she is the most wonderful and caring person I have ever met. I just wanted to hug her. Even before this, she had kept encouraging me to be myself as I felt smothered by my family. I could never have opened up about the chasm of insecurity within me without her. P.s. I needed to get it off my chest because I hate my breasts. XD

Can I still be transgender if I don't want muscles and facial hair?

I know I have dysphoria and i've been at this realization for so long. But there are times when its really bad and then times when I start to accept my body. The problem is that I don't know if I start accepting it because i'm trying to repress it or deny it. It has been especially tough on me now because a good amount of friends have come out as transgender recently and are going through transitions and it pains me seeing them being able to live their life how they want it. So I don't know if its dysphoria or just something that i've developed to think so that I can fit in. All more negative thoughts are based on what my parents would think if I was transgender so I can't give myself a clear answer :(

This messed me up. I just always assumed I wasn't trans but like this stuff opens you up.

Tbh when I really think about my gender (usually around when I start questioning again which happens often) I always think about how if I were a guy and how much more relaxed and comfortable I'd be in my own skin

I used to wear a jacket everyday in middle school to hide myself. I'd feel insecure without it. Was this dysphoria?

Thank you so much for making this video. I've known I was trans, but I always doubted it. This provided a lot of clarity, and I really appreciate it.

me: **makes myself look like a guy using faceapp** dad: you aren’t one of those transgender people are you?? because then I would have to disown you hahaha me: hahahahaha very funny

This so is great, and you were totally right. There's not much provided information on Transgender, and not transgender. There's not much provided information on Genderqueers, Non-Binary's and Genderfluid's, too. This is so amazing and so helpful, this is actually helping me. Thank you so much. Thank you for posting these and helping everyone out here who is struggling with their gender identity

So, I didn't know that I was trans when I was younger. I never fully identified myself as female. I never liked pink and I didn't do the typical girly things but I never was a tom boy. As I got older I had my first period. This scared me, I knew what it was but somehow it still scared me. I was afraid people would judge me for it and think was weird. When in reality now that I'm older I realize that's what I thought/think of myself. Then my breasts started to come in. My friends would comment on how they could see my breasts when I was running and how I needed a bra. Whenever anyone mentioned this to me i felt extremely uncomfortable in my own skin.. I immediately went to my mom asking for a bra and I wouldn't stop bothering her until she got one for me. Later on I began feeling even more discomfort towards my chest, at this point I didn't want to "become" a tomboy because I was already getting bullied. Looking back on these memoires I realize I did a lot because of peer pressure. I wore dresses and acted like one of the girls because I didn't want to be bullied. I wasn't myself.. A year later I get into a new school. Going from my experiences from my old ones I knew I needed to wear dresses and be "girly" to not get picked on. During this time I resorted to cutting and I became really depressed. After about half of the year i didn't care anymore. I stopped wearing dresses almost completely and started to wear jeans, shirts, and a jacket constantly. I started to be a little happier but still I was depressed and would cut occasionally. Then the year after that I got into a art school. This is where I was able to meet many different people. I met my FTM friend Cody I realized I related to him a ton. I started to identify as trans. I came out to my parents and they seemed to be really accepting of me. They don't truly understand it but they are trying. My disphoria has gotten a bit worse as I've been getting older and I'm getting a binder tomorrow. I'm wearing as much male clothing as I can find and I put away my dresses because i don't wear them anymore. I'm finally being myself and I've gotten so much happier. I stopped cutting and I hate myself a little less. This video helped me when I first started to question myself. So yeah, thanks I guess

Well ......... my everything was just explained by a 5 minute video 🙆‍♀️ I THINK IM TRANS 😐🍵

I'm crying. This is so true. Im so scared to come out

Oh my goodness the 'pulling your shirt away from your chest' thing speaks to me on a spiritual level. I'm definetly one of the peeps hiding their chest with clothing/sports bras/picking at shirt....I feel called out honestly. I've been toiling over this question for many months now, thinking and answering questions with my own telling replies and history and I think I might come to accept that I might be trans. Thanks so much for your videos, really. Your voice just wraps it up in the most calming way and I love it

I've never had bad dysphoria, but when it comes to my chest, well, that's a different story. Literally everything she said about trans guys trying to hide their chest is what I do on a daily basis. When people accidentally call me a he or a him, which happens often enough, it just...I dunno. It feels normal. And when things happen like, once I was out with my mates (who are all guys) and one of my mates friends arrive and you know, we're doing what teenagers do and messing about and stuff, when he calls me a he. As soon as he said that, my friend corrected him and told him I was a she. I did my awkward smile that I sometimes do when people correct whoever called me a he or whatever. I hate being called a she. This video is good. It explains a lot. Thanks.

This is probably one of the most helpful videos on this topic

I feel as if my body is very wrong, I've had dysphoria since a very young age, but I don't even understand what I'm dysphoric about.

Thank you. This video is a bit old, but I've been struggling with this for years. As soon as puberty hit, everything felt wrong. I'm in the middle of social transition and I hope to medically transition ASAP. I was a bit unsure, but now I'm positive. Transition is the right way for me.

This video makes me realize how and y I feel much better as a man and I now know I'm trans guy even though I'm 11yrs

When she explained what dysphoria is; that had me feel dysphoric 😅

this is probs the most non problematic and pretty accurate clinical look at being FTM from the perspective of a presumably cis clinician. not bad

After watching all 3 videos I realized that I had met all the criteria stated for being transgender and after getting my courage up I spoke with my best friend of 20 years and told her that I was in fact transgender and since the age of 5 had been secretly dressing as a woman and had very strong feminine emotional feelings.She immediately made me feel comfortable and told me she would help me with my transition . After 54 years of hiding, an emotional burden was lifted and now I can become the woman I always knew I was . Thank you so much for helping me realize I am not alone in this world , You are truly remarkable in your understanding of my and others like me needs to be who we truly are.

Thank you! Good video and I wish you all the success in your practice.

This video really helps and cleared something up for me even though I already knew I was transgender. Especially about the part where you were talking about how not everyone identifies with intense dysphoria and that simply knowing you'd feel better not being perceived as female still meant you had dysphoria it just isn't as evident. I had been struggling with that and thinking maybe that makes me less trans or something and then I'd think know I still struggled with it. This just really cleared it up.

You said "imagine you could never change it" and then I suddenly started crying

I just wanna give her a hug! I love the way she explained everything. This is a valuable source of information :)

Thank you so much for uploading this video, I've been really struggling with this for a long time and this video really validated the feelings I've had for a long time.

This is the second time I've watched these videos in almost an entire year and I'm only just now accepting that I do have dysphoria, so I'm just going to thank you for making this video

This was so...eye opening. I knew you didn't have to flat out hate your body to have dysphoria, but I didn't know all the other little things (that I happen to do/feel) add up to dysphoria.

3:50 is totally me! Good video, thanks :)

The Dysphoria-part with the questions had me crying. I've never heard such things spot on and they really hit hard to hear. I tried to see a therapist before, but due to fear of getting found out by my parents I ceased all contacts in that department. Part of me wants to take up that contact again when I move out, to see how all this feels. I do feel more comfortable being called a man though, or whenever I bind. (Something which I haven't been able to do for a while due to weight-gain and troubles with my back) A ftm-boy I were togheter with helped me get more comfortable with these thoughts before, since he accepted me for being as masculine as I am, it made me really happy..

I like your voice and the tone of it. It's very calming.

now i know why i have crippling depression, anxiety, and BDD since the past 4 years. im non binary and possibly ftm trans. thank you so much for this.

Thank you so much for this video. It really has help me through my journey as I try to discover who I am.

Wow I was so confused but honestly this helped me ton?? I was always off about dysphoria and if I had it but now that you explained it I related a ton and near the end when you mentioned imagining yourself as your desired gender and what not i started tearing up and became super self aware about my body? wow I never thought anything would help me this much thank you

Ah nostalgic, I remember watching this video a few years ago when I was all lost and confused about myself. :’) Idk why but this suddenly popped up in my recommendation again.

i never thought that i am trans before i thought that it's normal to feel not right and idk i'm in shock🙈

Almost 2 years now since I saw this video and it changed my life forever. I've come so, so far since then and I can't even recognize the person I was when I first saw this. Eternally grateful for this video, it really and truly saved my life. I'm alive for the first time ever

I will always appreciate this video. I spent the first 4 years of my adulthood in deep, deep denial of the fact that I was trans; I had accepted myself as a teenager, but due to overwhelming fear/anxiety I began to repress my identity around 18 years old. Despite the fact that I had crippling dysphoria and many other telltale signs of being trans, I actually managed to successfully convince myself for awhile that I was not trans and it had just been "a phase". That's how deeply I was repressing it. Of course, you can't repress something like this forever, so it was bound to come out eventually... I had this habit where I would go on Google or RU-vid and type in things like "how to know if you're trans" and I would always try and pick out tiny things from those articles/videos/etc. and be like "see, this one point they made doesn't apply to me at all so clearly I'm not trans" - this was just a coping mechanism to help myself continue to repress my emotions, and as she addressed in the video, TYPICALLY cis people do not find themselves looking for resources to figure out if they are trans. Especially not over and over and over, over the course of several years. Yet somehow it was totally logical in my mind that I would be constantly looking up things like that. In hindsight there were soooo many glaring signs and I have no idea how I managed to deny it for so long haha. Anyways... one night I was looking up the usual "how to know if you're trans" and I stumbled upon this video. And god damn, it changed my life. I think it was a combination of this video saying exactly what I needed to hear, and it being the right time in my life to finally accept myself. Whatever it was, this video spoke to me on a deep spiritual level. I barely made it 20 seconds into the video before I started sobbing. I watched both parts of this video and by the end of it I just put my phone under my pillow, buried my face in my blanket and sobbed for a really long time. Absolutely every little thing she described in the video applied to me, the big things and the little things. I began to reflect on my life, my childhood. I couldn't deny it anymore. I was terrified. I was in a long term relationship with a very straight man who I loved with all my heart. We lived together. I didn't have a job, hadn't had one in nearly 2 years. The point is, transitioning was very scary for me and it required completely changing my entire life. But I knew this was what would make me happy. I spent the entire weekend basically writing in my journal nonstop and crying. I came out to him after the weekend and we both cried a lot, he tried to convince me I wasn't trans/I didn't need to transition... there was a lot of heartache. We did have to break up because unfortunately he could not be attracted to me as a man, and although it hurt I understoof that. Coming out to my family was the most terrifying thing I've ever had to do, as they are religious. But shockingly they accepted me. It has been several months since I first saw this video and I can't believe how far I've come since then. I can't believe how much has changed in my life. I cut my hair, got a whole new wardrobe, legally changed my name, and I'm starting T next week. I finally feel like myself. I can finally look at my reflection in the mirror and not hate it quite as much (I seriously could not look at myself AT ALL when I had long feminine hair). I am so so grateful this video exists. I don't know where I'd be right now if it weren't for this video. Thank you so much.

It's strange, because for most of my life I never really felt uncomfortable as a girl. I didn't really feel anything because I never thought about it. But one day for some reason I did think about it and I was like "hang on, I could be happier." It took me a lot of questioning and cross-dressing to figure out exactly how, but I think I know now. The point is that I wasn't unhappy, but I wasn't super happy either. Being a guy will probably make me happier, and that's what matters.

This video just makes me cry.everything she says applies to how I feel. I am a transgender male and my relatives have never really accepted me.i just feel lost.i have been wearing a binder lately ,that makes me feel very good.and my little brother is actually referring to me as a big brother now....I guess everything is going to work out...

her voice is so calming and she explained it so well

this is the realist channel.

I'm going to see a gender therapist in the future, my gram has to call for an appointment, but before I though I wasn't dysphoric because I'd hear trans men say how much they were depressed before they transitioned or how they wanted to commit suicide and I'm not like that, which is what makes me not believe I'm trans. But hearing you say, "If you say you'd be more HAPPIER or FEEL BETTER as the opposite gender shows signs of dysphoria." makes me realize I'm dysphoric. I do feel I'd be happier as a boy than a girl, I'll vision a boy naked, not for sexual reasons, but jealousy reasons, I'll look at boys at my school and wish I were them, or I'd wish I could look like them. I say the same about girls, but I'm overweight so when I say that I'm thinking about their weight, not body image.

3:22 Oh - that's really good to know. I've been questioning my gender and when I think about being male or being more masculine, it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.

this video is what made me realise I was trans I like to watch it sometimes especialy when I'm dysphoric. I just broke down earlier because whatever part of myself I looked at I felt like I wanted to throw up and simply being able to feel that I have a body shaped like this reduced me to a shaking crying mess on the floor. I just want to say for anyone else feeling as bad as I am, crying doesn'take you any less manly please don't hold it in even if you need to find a quiet place and hide away for a while please don't be afraid to cry

Man. When I was little, I never really cared all that much about being a girl because there was no discrimination. There were a few times though when my guy friends would correct their gendered speach to incorporate me. Like dudes to dudes and dudette. That always bothered me. I was actually able to play Huckleberry Finn in fifth grade and it was AMAZING!!! I got my hair cut and I started acting more masculine and a girl even called me cute! I LOVED that experience so much ^^ It just felt so right to me. I passed as a boy and I was ecstatic! I recently came out to my parents as gay...I've tried to talk to my mom about my dysporia, but every time she shuts me down. She says I can't be a boy. It really hurt me. So I came out as gay instead. I told my sister about how I feel and she understands and supports me. I just don't know what to do now. My parents are STILL getting over the "shock" that I like girls. I can't imagine what they'd do If I came out as trans.

Wow when you said that people will use sports bras, arch their shoulders forward, and pull their shirt tight, I was like woah. I do that a lot and I didn't even learn it from anyone

Agh and now I have to tell my parents😖😫 I've know for maybe twoish years that I'm a boy. I'm only fourteen should I come out? And if so them what advice does anyone have? I want to come out before high school so back to school shopping is all boys shopping and so when I meet new people at this school all they see is a boy not a trans boy

"imagine if you could never change [your body]" *immediately starts crying*

This made me cry, the thought of finally loving the body I'm in just makes me happy.

i like when i get called a guy it makes me smile and ive always wandered "what is i was a guy?" but i never thought that id feel like this

Recently I've come to terms with being trans. Watching this video reafirms what I had previously come to the conclusion of. thank you so much

This did provide a lot of clarity, I was worried I was making it up. Thanks

3:13 I'm about to cry... that is me, and I don't like the idea of being transgender :( it makes me feel like I'm going to feel lost and tired for the rest of my life. But I'm also VERY scared of big and important decisions and I don't know what to do :( I always repressed my feelings, and I don't know what the heck happens with me :/. But when I repress something it usually ends up being true. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING WITH ME, I just wanna run away from everyone, dissapear and sleep in a quiet place with my ideal body :/

For me, I keep questioning if I’m ftm or a demiboy but I don’t feel female. I keep telling myself that I can’t be trans because I like stereotypical ‘feminine’ things. Pretty clothes still catch my eyes, i still love flowers and I grew up playing with the toys my parents bought me. I was raised and my parents wanted me to be their ‘princess’ and so as a child, since I didn’t really understand the concept of having my own opinions, I just agreed with them. I would let them dress me up in pretty Cinderella dresses and such. Although I never really enjoyed it, I didn’t really dislike it either. I just always though ‘this is how girls act’ and since I hadn’t been opened to the LGBTQ community I went with it. When I found the LGBT community in sixth or fifth grade I found out that I was bisexual, with a preferability of girls. I had always thought girls were super pretty, and attractive but I thought everyone felt that way, and I also thought boys were attractive so I just saw myself as straight. In seventh grade is when I began to question my gender. I felt male, and I wanted to present myself as male so I cut my hair and began wearing things like jeans and hoodies. I hadn’t ever understood why I felt so disgusted and like throwing up when I saw my breasts and genitals which are those of a female until I found the word called dysphoria. Although I present myself as a male, I use a masculine name and he/him pronouns I feel like I’m just letting everyone down, and because I like feminine things I feel like I’m lying to myself. I’m just confused and I don’t know what to do about this.

Your voice is so calming to be honest (I know it’s off topic)

She's so calming and non judgmental throughout the whole thing, woah

when she said to think about how it would be of you didn't get transition and when I did.... I STARTED TO CRY!

I don’t know what I am. A boy? A girl? I’m so confused. 🤷‍♂️ 🤷‍♀️

wow, I can relate to this 100% I've always thought I might be transgender, but this video definitely clarified it for me

when i was a young teenager i had dysphoria without any understanding what it was, still looking back i always hunched forward wore loose shirts and never never left the house without a big sweater of jacket to cover up my chest. its kind of weird how i came up with methods to counteract my dysphoria before i even knew about it consciously. honestly it was such a relief when i found out i was transgender so that i could make sense of my pain. and it is much easier to fix my pain when i know the cause of it, before i knew what was wrong specifically i had no hope of the inner suffering going away and tried to kill myself hundreds of times throughout my middle school years. i think its great that this video can help explain things to other transgender kids so they don't have to suffer as long as i had, its easier to have hope for improvement when you understand your situation. my life is better now that i have started transitioning and i hope for all the best to my fellow trans men.

I started binding a year ago, I am 14 now. I also cut my hair really short that year. My mom once noticed that I was wearing a sports bra under my shirt, and the way I pushed my shoulders forward while sitting and she told me "Dont worry, when you grow up, you'll be happy to have boobs" But I just dont feel comfortable looking in the mirror, and seeing my round face and my feminine body...

Oh my god thanks This really helped! And yes with the part feeling better by being male and not being perceived as a woman I totally relate I didn't realise I actually had Dysphoria But it makes sense now 🤔

I knew I was trans before watching the vid but... a part of me was hoping I wasn't... hoping I wouldn't have to go through this struggle... 😞

Honestly thank you for making this video. I think I'm transgender then I'm not then I am and I just get so confused this helped a bit

I'm so lost. I know I'm not female but I don't know who I am. I've forced myself into the female role over the years, but in games where I can customize my avatar I pick female but make them as masculine as possible. Wide waist, narrow hips, flat chest, thicker arms and legs, but I choose a softer face. I'm depressed but I don't know how much of that is connected to my feeling of not fitting in as a girl. Part of it, i know, is a manifestation of my grief and bullying. But I do feel dysphoria often. I hate having a chest and will try as much as I can to avoid wearing v-necks, or tight shirts, or dresses and skirts. I don't know what to do anymore.

Thank you this video was very helpful and I iv always felt like I was a woman I really don't like my body as a Male and I'm going to start seeing a therapist and start transitioning from male to female

I watched this to help me try and actually see if I was trans, because I didn't want to transition, or be a 'trans-trender'. I realized I would actually REALLY be happier with a male body, thanks.

This is all true about me. I'm 11, female and would rather be male. I found this video helpful as I'm telling my parents that I'm trans. Thank you for making this video, and yes I died like and subscribe 🙂

This hit me very hard, I began to cry very hard. I have many suicidal thoughts, I cut, Because I feel it helps. When someone calls me a female, and use she/her pronouns I feel like crying, I feel depressed. I am very dysphoric about my body, when I look at myself in the mirror I feel uncomfortable...like it isn't right..I cry afterwards. I wear a binder, and I tend to wear my shirt the way you described. I denied for three years about my feelings, but I cannot shake them...I can't...and my mother told me it was a phase. She believes I am just genderqueer, that's what I told her to get off my back. And whenever someone calls me by my birth name...I just feel a wash of anxiety and sadness wash over me. I picture myself in a male body, I picture the day I could get top surgery...but it feels so far away. Like I could never reach it...Like I will never reach it. ....I have no clue what to do anymore 😢😭😭😭

I have a feeling im trans but im not 100% sure, ive always wanted to he a guy but ive always still had that feminine side of me so i started questioning myself and experimenting with masculine things such as names/pronouns/changing my style whether that be in games around my friends to see if i felt comfortable , but had to hid it from my parents as their transphobic n homophobic, im a person who loves bl stories but recently everytime i see a cute gay couple i get jealous and i rlly envy them. But the thought of being trans and actually transitioning scares me, ive never had those childhoods other trans ftms had at a young age. I’ve thought about being genderfluid but id never feel like a girl, id feel like a guy but just feminine, im just so confused 😭 has anyone got advice or experienced this?

i want to mention with gender dysphoria. i didn't use the typical coping mechanisms: alcohol, drugs, ect. i actually overate. i think i'd overeat to numb the pain/discomfort of gender dysphoria/anxiety/depression. some ppl might feel similar. i turned to a lot of junk food. another thing id' do is lay down a lot cuz u can lay on your chest and not feel it. this brought me relief but it also wasn't good cuz i just lie in bed all day lol. also, some suicidal thoughts here and there, and self destructive thinking. ex: "i'll never feel right," / "i'll never feel like myself," / "i'm disgusting cuz my face looks wrong. it's ugly cuz it doesn't feel manly enough or not mine/how it's supposed to be boyish.

this is a really well made video and you present it so well I really enjoyed watching it thank you, and I'm so sorry about your student loan that's not fun at all I hope its better soon aa I wish I could afford to donate

Mate bless you for this video, I needed to hear this. Now I'm sure what I am thank you so much.😃👌

This was extremely helpful

I get dysphoria but I'm uncomfortable with being seen as male??

Well i told my parents about me being ftm and they did not support me and started to yell at me and were mad and now they force me to be female and wear dresses and all that girly stuff Someone help me

Hi and thanks for this video I saw this when this was new and this helped me sooo much now im soon 1 year on T and 6 month post op. You have helped me and my family with these videos so I just want to say thanks!!!

I usually assume I prompt any reaction I have, be that joy or sorrow, about changing my body. When she said ‘imagine you can’t change your body ever’ my heart dropped and I teared up. I didn’t mentally force that. It was so natural. I know what my prompted emotions feel like and that wasn’t it. Frick frack I do have dysphoria. Well damn it. There goes all of my money. Damn it brain. You ass!!! Why can’t you get along with my body!!!!

I think I might be transgender. At home I like dressing up and doing makeup and all that, then right when I walk into a public area, small or large, I feel almost embarrassed and try to make my outfit look more masculine and wash off the makeup in a window reflection or a bathroom. I am in the middle ish of puberty, so I'm not done, but I would rather have a flat chest and the opposite genitals than I have now. I have a pretty curvy figure, and avoid wearing tight shirts and pants other than skinny jeans. Also, I hate it when people call me "Grace" or "Gracie" or any stuff like that. I've been a pretty girly girl until 2nd grade, and watching these videos makes me think, "should I consult a professional?" I told my parents and they thought it might be a phase but were okay if it wasn't. I'm just afraid if I start transitioning, what I'd I regret it? Any advice?

Thank you for making this video. It helped out a lot.

I've been on T for around 6 months now and I am so happy with how I am turning out. I love strangers seeing me and thinking I'm male. My voice dysphoria is gone and my body dysphoria is lessening. I was always sure I wanted to go on Testosterone and transition since the day I accepted myself and found out I could. I'm starting to be more confident and happy than I ever was. I wasn't even nervous about getting on Testosterone. Then again, I just really hated my body. I know it's different for everyone and lots of people are scared but I know so many transmen who were scared to start T and did it and they are really happy with how their body is coming along. Just my two cents.

about a year ago i had a dream about asking my mom for a sex change and woke up right before i got it. I spent the week thinking "No im a girl i cant do that no way". Now i think im trans but i cant tell. could this be a sign of dysphoria?

What if you have dysphoria, but do not necessarily want to fully transition? I bind my chest now, but it is very large and binding only helps so much. I would like to get top surgery eventually if I could ever afford it. I also wish my face was more narrow. I'm not sure it T is the best option for me. My personality interest lean toward the more feminine side, though I'm not sure if I truly love those things. I guess its because I don't want to be fully male, but I don't want to be female either. I would also like to keep my current nickname Elle. Am I still considered to be transgender?

never been so uncomfortable and so relieved at the same time.

you are literally incredible. thank you so much.