Art Discussion: Everywhere at the End of Time 

UPDATE: You guys continue to watch, and provide me extremely kind words on this video, Thank you very much, its pretty cliche but it means a lot to have made something and for it to receive the amount of support I have seen here. I recently removed the song from the end of the video for a few reasons: One, like I said previously I was in the wrong for using the song the way I did and the more I think about it the more I feel to just correct the mistake instead of just addressing it, Two, it is a little irritating seeing the copyright claim tag everytime I open up youtube studio. For new viewers or anyone who didn't make it to the end, I strung together a bunch of stock footage of a boy and girl going through life, as kids, teenagers, meeting as adults and living a long life married, until they pass away and it ends on the shot of the grave. The song that played was "The Final Shootout" by David Mansfield and there was a quote from the cowboy movie I mentioned Broken trail. Its a quote that the main character often says when another character in the movie dies, Its beautiful and out of place for as cheesy as the movie is. But its stuck with me for a long time, and felt it was appropriate. Thank you all again for the kind comments, criticisms and conversation Its been really fun :) END OF UPDATE! This video has recently been copyright claimed by "The Orchard Music". At first I was little worked up about it as it seems they do have a shady history of incorrect copyright claims, however after looking at the claim (which was for the last minute of the video) it seems I did in fact misuse their music in this video and in retrospect I probably handled a lot of other artists work here less than honestly as far as copyright law is concerned. I will be leaving the video up and not challenging the claims. I just wanted to be transparent with you guys as well as take responsibility and learn from my mistake. This video has far surpassed any expectation I had of it, Thank you very much

One - Easily identifiable, cracks and all Two - Identifiable, motes of confusion Three - Identifiable, I can't recall what I was talking about, nature taking full fold regardless Four - Music is - - - -YESNONONONON----formless clatterwow I lived how- -----Don't Five - The I A Six

The funny thing about Stage 6 is that it's so much more listenable than Stages 4 and 5. Despite a low piano note here and there and the drumming sounds, it just sounds like your basic dark ambient drone music (except for the very end, of course). In the context of this entire work, that's actually alarming. The character no longer even notices they have a problem and is but a shell. They are no longer disturbed by the messy thoughts and pieces of memories because there are hardly any left. ;(

This project made me fear my own mortality for a while.

This entire album is like a shotgun to the chest. I’m the youngest in my family. I’m 14. My mom is around 50 right now and I swear to god I would break down and lose function if she got dementia/Alzheimer’s. My dad died when I was eight. I can’t stop crying right now and I’m losing my shit trying to type. This is the most horrifying audio I’ve ever heard. It’s just the sheer terror of knowing there’s a possibility that I could lose the one person I love the most in the most torturous way there is. Forgetting everything till you’re empty. You mind being destroyed beyond comprehension. Its painful for everyone.

The first time I listened to stages 1-6 in their entirety I just sobbed. The feeling of the decay of a person in audio form was just so horrifying, something almost indescribable. And those last 5 minutes... my god.

the fact that you were jovial in the begining is excellent. with memory loss in dementia, you never know when it sets in. it starts off feeling like a happy daydream. it’s a very first impression in such a real and true way. loved this review.

"It would be criminal to spoil this" OH THANK GOD I GET TO FINISH THE VIDEO

the ending of stage six sounds kinda like funeral music

See having had someone close die with dementia I didn't interpret those last 5 minutes optimistically at all. My grandpa dissapeared fast on us. And all I could think of for that final bit was the story my dad told of how my grandpa was holding on, nothing to hold on to was left but he kept alive but not really there. Then someone told my grandpa that we were ok, we would take care of grandma and that we would be fine. That was that jarring noise in the ambient music, that crash that allowed them to let go and drift into death. The character dead I interpreted the distorted and somewhat clear ending piece as their loved one's thoughts, the effect his disease had on them. The distorting affect it had on their memories of the character as he moved on, the music left behind is the hopeful part, we remember the good. He died in that harsh moment of clarity.

As someone who has family that suffers from dementia, It haunted me. You slowly start losing your entire identity, memory. My great grandmother can’t remember me that much and she gets very nervous when meeting family because she can’t recall us. It’s hard to watch people you love slowly fade away, And this album captures that perfectly.

my recommendation to those coming in and watching this: don't just listen to "a few tracks on each album." Set a good chunk of your day aside, just one day, and give the whole thing a listen from beginning to end, yes, all 6 and a half hours of it in one go. It's not even just about the fact that this is necessary to get the full effect of this music art piece. It's also that we as individuals and as a culture have lived with our waking hours being increasingly fragmented and divided into shorter and shorter snips of activity, and at the same time with less and less focus as we also double, triple, etc. up on activities at the same time. Once in a while, it helps so much to just clear your day, and devote your full attention to absorbing a singular experience. And if for whatever reason your lifestyle does not ever permit you to do this, even just one day out of a whole month or two, I would take a serious look at your quality of life and make changes. Being able to do this once in a while isn't just good for your mind, it is necessary.

You definitely have the most cohesive analysis of this album that I've seen. I was getting annoyed with the quality of the rest of them and was thinking about making my own, lol. Stage 5 DOES bring in new samples. It uses some wax cylinder samples, one was just a recording of a guy and his kid. I'm fairly certain the opening of Stage 5 is meant to sound like electrical sparks, to signify synapses misfiring. Throughout the entire album, Al Bowfly's Heartaches is sampled; I believe you can even hear it in stage 6. Another of Al Bowfly's very popular songs, Midnight, The Stars and You was used in Stanley Kubrick's The Shining and was the initial inspiration for The Caretaker project. A great deal, if not the majority of the samples used were from obscure ballroom records from record shops around Kirby's area. I'm an avid listener of dark ambient, and Stage 6 is by far the best sonic portrayal of "oppressive, dark nothing" I've heard, which is funny coming from someone whom it could be argued doesn't even make dark ambient. Whenever I listen to 6 I imagine an infinite void, with occasional flashes of purple lightning, illuminating a solitary lighthouse. Not sure why purple, but that's what I always envision. Lighthouse is probably because of how much I love Alan Wake. The end of the album is a callback to Friends Past Reunited from the first Caretaker album from 1999. Even more beautiful with that context. Another fun project by Kirby to check out, although not even close to the grandeur of this one, is VVM's Death of Rave, and if you liked stages 1 and 2, An Empty Bliss Beyond This World is more of that. I'd introduce a new listener with that album first. I got in on this album pretty early after it's completion, and it's been very gratifying and interesting to see its growth over the last year.

By stage 3 I got really afraid of losing my own memory, and it made a placebo where I found it hard to remember things and it look alike that happened to you

Ooooh noo dude I was listening to this while I was sleeping and that spoiler alert gave me a heart attack lolol.

Everywhere At The End Of Time is honestly the most depressing art I've ever experienced. The fuzzy confusions and horror, leading to droning, and then finally, a somber funeral tune to take off the Caretaker character. Fuck man, its an experience.

35:35 "I don't know how to feel" Bingo. That's what's so alluring about this piece. It's so fascinating how we can be told and experience something as horrific and need so much time to process it. Even then we still may just be an unorganized glob of emotion and conjecture.

I believe there's 8th stage too, but everyone manages to die before it can happen. When 8th stage happens, you forget how to breathe, blink etc. You're basically an empty shell that does not think anymore at all.

Only semi-related but I think the fact that basically all of us are in stage 1 of dementia is so damn ominous... like... we're already on the way to it at all times??

I listened to this earlier today, it was so ... awful, (the feelings not the album) and i would genuinely say the experience itself isnt good, but not because it isnt fun, or sounds good, but because its almost as real as it possibly could be, the suffering you feel after stage 3 is almost real, it makes you feel sick. I often found myself asking "this is cool, but couldnt this have been shorter" but after my viewing, i think the long drawn out segments are perfect. in Stages 4 and 5, its really hard to see the full scope of what youve been listening too, like you forget that this is the same piece of art as stage 1.

If I can also add, as a hobbyist producer for some 15 years. Stage 5 and very much stage 6 the artist used a plug in called Paul stretch. This allowed him to pass original tracks we hear earlier into a ethereal spacey pad that shifts gently into new chords. In the beginning and in different parts of stage six he uses a vinyl needle head scraped on the vinyl this is then digitally altered to the deep sound you here, this is technically telling us the same sounds we hear in part 1+ are present but no longer even recognisable as what it even is. You are right to censor the ending.

It makes me so sad that so few people have listened to or even heard this album, as someone who has listened to the full 6 1/2 hours of it. I can say that you come out of it a changed person, a little haunted maybe, but with such an appreciation of life, and sympathy for people with these kinds of disease or people caring for these people. Also, if you, the reader do go listen to it, read the description, and the comments. They're some of the funniest, most heartbreaking, honest, and sad comments I've ever read. And through that shared experience, you see everyone coming together in the comments, sharing stories, embracing others, and making others laugh; because death is inevitable, and being together might make it a little more bearable. And not to spoil anything, but after listening to an album that makes you more scared as time goes on, those last six minutes contain some of the most mind-shattering, heart-exploding concepts that I've ever experienced through music.

“strange, long, and really good” that’s what she said

i remember learning about the caretaker from solar sands, i then listened to the entire album of everywhere at the end of time. i cried a lot, but it wasn't all sadness. it was more of acceptance, because now we just keep people suffering from dementia alive. one song that i've held onto from there a lot is 'drifting time misplaced'. it's a jazzy piano cover of lullaby of the leaves, and it's just something i feel like i've heard many times before (though probably not considering i'm 15). fun fact: both the songs 'misplaced in time' and 'drifting time misplaced' use the same song, just one is a cover, and it's very sad to use it in that way...

The last five minutes are All Star by Smash Mouth, sorry not sorry

Stage 6 is what really got me, that emptiness, at that point you are so far gone nothing is recognizable the things entering the place you exist in who were once your friends are now just empty canvases, when you look in the mirror you don't even recognize yourself you can't remember who you once were everything is so unrecognizable you become distant and no matter how much you are in the real world you will never truly be able to experience what once was

The way the sounds briefly spike, then fade away into reverb at the end of "Long decline is over" reminds me of the last breaths of a dying person. Unfortunately I had to experience this first-hand with my mother not too long ago. Those last breaths are agonizing. The time between gets longer and longer, and just when you think its over, they take another breath- extending their life for another 30 seconds or so until eventually, after a long decline, that next breath doesn't come. Click. The lights burn out forever.

I didn't get much in the way of "feels" listening to this, but it certainly got me into the mindset of the demented subject, or at least my understanding based on what I was hearing. In short, it drove me a little mad without my immediate awareness. Short term memory was stunted, I was on edge all the time, faint horror at common objects, reading skills and understanding others were difficult, and it took me a few seconds of thinking to get names for things and people down. Funny thing is, I felt otherwise normal. It wasn't as if I woke up in the Matrix and realised all I knew was wrong; I was just confused by the tricks my brain was playing on me in its attempts to find a mindset that fit my environment (the strange music, that is). Certainly an unusual distortion of the mind.

Im trying to imagine what it would be like if I ever got dimensia humming post hardcore songs in a nursing home, i have to laugh at the thought otherwise it would terrify me.

listening to this series is a self-discovery journey.

Thank you. I literally cried the first time I listened to this. (The first comment I made was copied and pasted from the 6 hour video). I fear my mom getting dementia. It’s nice hearing another person like me giving their opinion. Thank you so much

while listening to this i first started to think about my grandfather who has dementia and i think would be in stage 3 currently but as it kept going i started to think about myself and how one day it’s possible i could develop dementia as well and that’s where it gets haunting to me.

My Step-Father has Parkinson’s disease. And his Parkinson’s is starting to cause dementia. I listened to this album, and looking at him, and knowing what he has to go through every day... it was rough. But it was an important experience. I can relate to him when he has trouble understanding what is going on around him.

the transition in the audio from stage 2 to stage 3 made me scream out loud

It's hard for me to even start it. Im only 21 and experience alot of jaded and jagged memories from an onslaught of traumatic childhood experiences. Im going to have to set aside time to subject myself to this in full.

I listened to this alone last night, all in one sitting. I started around midnight and by the time it was finished the sun was up. The first 3 stages were generally pleasant to me, even despite the distortions. I was unsettled during Stage 3 but not any more than I would be listening to a creepy story. The beginning of Stage 4 jarred me even though I was expecting it. The abrupt shift in tone was like a dream suddenly dropping into a nightmare, one that you're aware of but can't wake up from. Stage 5 made me feel dread in the pit of my stomach like I've never felt before. The music itself was in pain, crying for help. I tried painting during Stages 4 and 5 because the cover art inspired me but had an impossible time focusing on a subject. I painted a flower but got lost in the motion of the brush strokes and the petals ended up as unidentifiable masses of strokes of color flowing out from the center. I gave up and scraped the top layer away, resulting in a streaky blur or oranges and reds. I didn't take any pictures of it before the scrape, so nobody but me will ever know what it looked like before. It was hard even for me to remember the flower. I think I unintentionally captured what I was feeling during Stage 5 perfectly with that. Struggling to conjure up a simple image from my mind, wandering away from it, and then being left with the vaguest impression of what it had been without hope of recreating the original. By Stage 6 I was just sitting on the couch, headphones still on and eyes closed. Doing nothing but listening. No longer checking the time to see how long I had left. I didn't feel scared anymore, not at all. Even with the more brutal droning. The chaos of Stage 5 was over and the relative slowness of 6 was comforting. The last seven minutes, the payoff that every review touches on, I thought of my great-grandmother who died years ago. The last time I'd seen her she barely recognized me. I hadn't been particularly close to her, but somehow that feels worse. I could have known her better. I've been in the empty room she left behind a few times since then. None of the furniture has been disturbed. The other two grandparents I lost weren't to dementia but I thought of them as well. I hope their last moments were as peaceful as I felt at the end of this album. The release of all of the fear and confusion that had built up over the 6 hours before it. I hope mine will be like that, too. I don't know why I'm writing a whole novel in your comments. Sorry. I have a lot of thoughts that I needed to get out and it's easier to ramble here among strangers than to bother my friends who might be put off by how heavy this was. I did mention it to a friend today but didn't go into quite this much detail. I went to sleep after listening and was afraid I'd have nightmares, but my dreams were uneventful. I woke up with the cat snuggled up to me. I'm glad to be alive.

My entire family on my dad's side has a history of alzheimer's and dementia, and my mom's side our family has been pretty lucid throughout their lives. due to COVID, my grandma had to eat unattended in her nursing home, and she choked to death this month. I know that I should have felt bad, but I really felt numb. I had already grieved when she forgot my name, and who she was. The true agony of this album is it's length. Not knowing if I'll continue along my dad's or mom's side is excruciating, but this album, now with this event in mind had let me know that my time is limited. The value of life, in my opinion, is in it's finite nature. Death is necessary in life, and I'm not afraid of death, I'm afraid of time lost. Mentally, I'm at my prime, and until I reach stage two, I know that I'll use my faculties to their fullest extent, and enjoy myself to make up for future lost time.

"The only truth is music". ~Jack Kerouac

This review is amazing! For me, I had an emotional moment during the last song in Stage 6. Right before the last six minutes, there’s a moment where it’s basically silent but you hear coughs. I saw this as us hearing our family sitting in the hospital while we were on our death bed. That idea made the last portion much more emotional for me. All in all, I googled up ways to prevent dementia and sites said to eat healthy, not smoke, and work-out. Well this is a good reason to finally get fit 😭😭 (Also Im definitely subscribing. your review was amazing)

Underrated Made me subscribe, and bought the albums. You should do more of these documentaries that take the viewer along. Maybe improve your audio a bit

You talk abt your madman ramblings, but I really vibed w all your commentary; I had a lot of the same observations as I worked thru it (and am still doing so). Props to u for listening to that in a room alone at night ahaha good stuff. Keep up the good work

I think that the transitions playing the music loudly got a disgusted 'can you not?' out of me says something and I'm not sure what, outside the fact that I really don't wanna hear that music ever again

Really enjoyed this review, was looking for someone to talk about this album in-depth, looking forward to more content from you.

The fifth stage was the most horrifying to me. I'm autistic and can be sensitive to certain sounds sometimes. So stage 5 literally had me wanting to run away from computer or throw of my headphones cause the sound was so horrible to hear. I hate to think of people's minds becoming so deteriorated and dead thats it's the only way they live life at this point. Still great job on the video and bringing this mysterious and powerful music album's to light.

Dude, there is a lot of new people reviewing this and I love it since I found these volumes recently! Now I’m subscribed ‘cause I’m pretty sure that your content will be this way interesting. Keep it up. Pd. For a RU-vid channel with a few subscribers you have a nice microphone and a nice background that’s just something to appreciate!

I listened to it one stage at a time, and it deeply disturbed me. I got the same emotions as when I visited my grandpa every few months when he was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s. Like a peek into how bad things had gotten. This is one of the most beautiful and important musical projects of the last decade, and I never want to hear it again.

Not fun seeing a family member succumb to Alzheimer’s but for some morbid reason this album gave me comfort

I would love seeing a review of the 2011 an empty bliss beyond this world. Nonetheless, good work on this review. Leyland Kirby's creations definetly is something many people seem to have very different emotional reponses to so i appreciate you doing this

This project, and how it makes people feel perfectly sums up my most abstract fears. For a long time after I found out about death when i was young I would get panic attacks and scream out how I didn't want to die in the middle of the night. It wasn't until I was forced to cope with the emotions and face them that I understood what actually terrified me, and it wasn't the end of my existence. My great grandparents went through a rocky point when it came to Alzheimer's and/or Dementia, my grandpa having had issues since i was born and declining to the point that I have no memory of when he was lucid, and my grandma having a fall that put her in a nusing home that kickstarted her issues after my grandpa had passed. Seeing her decline was something that helped me form the thoughts of what I feared, it wasn't the possible endless dark, it was the thought of slowly becoming less functional, less recognizable, and less responsive as a result of getting older that shakes me to my core.

“You forget you’re forgetting” that is brutal

The best in depth review I have found, should have more views. You earned a sub, keep it up!

Its great to see someone else who loves this morbid piece of modern art as much as i do, and its cathartic hearing you put to words what is so difficult to listen to. Kudos, friend, i hope you came put the other side ok deep down ☆♡☆♡

My grandfather has dementia, seeing him on his decline has been so hard. I cried so hard at the end of this album.

This review was exactly what I was looking for. In the future though, don't be so hard on yourself. You have a great analytical mind, the self deprecation is unfounded. Your well-formed opinions will be more potent if you say it with your chest. In any case, thank you. This was a great analysis.

I wish the audio wasn't so messy but yeah holy shit good video.

That's what she said. This is the only reason I came here... To write this comment regarding the thumbnail.

I like the small little edits he made going through more towards the end to make the viewer actually feel what they were supposed to feel confusion or I'm just making it up in my own head

This project is honestly one of the most incredible pieces of art I've ever heard in my life. I'm only 20 and have no family history of Dementia/Alzheimers, but I've always been scared shitless of it for as long as I've known of it's existence. Nothing else has given me such an incredibly strong feeling of the fear, anxiety, dread and confusion that I imagined the people who suffer with this must feel. It's not often I feel like a changed person after experiencing something like this Excellent video btw

Shout out to RU-vid recommendations

I was listening to this while relaxing with my eyes closed and the mario world music scared the shit out of me

a lot of people found this album extremely terrifying, and said it makes them fear death, but for me i feel *less afraid of it* after listening to this album. confronting the idea of death makes me feel like i can accept that its going to happen, and that in a way i dont have anything to worry about, i *know* its going to happen to me one day, so i may as well enjoy life while i can. btw, "surrendering in despair" is the melody of "the lord is my shepherd", which is, fittingly enough in a sort of twisted way, a hymn about surrendering to god

This is so well done. I just listened to the whole project yesterday and I am glad you mentioned physically feeling the cuts around stage 3. It was really making me uncomfortable yesterday to be yanked out of such a droning, descending piece of music. Very good stuff.

This needs more views and you need more subs

The thing I find surprising that no one mentions is that in Stage 1, the pieces are small snippets of songs looping. Some being only about 10 seconds in length. It's like the Caretaker can only remember these small sections and play them over and over again in their head. It's already quite disturbing, when you think about it. It's like they can't remember anything past a certain point, or that they can't remember what they just remembered, so they play it over and over in their head. I just wanted to pint that out. Great video by the way.

"It was called Temporary Bliss and it was... Not blissful!" I can so agree with that... I was halfway through that part when a good-ish time turned into a painful one. Stage 4 in general was hard to get through, to the point that I actually breathed a sigh of relief when I got to stage 5... And while I'm here, I want to share a few of my own thoughts on this album. Stage 3 is my favourite - I'm not sure if I can see myself listening to the whole 6 stages again, but I can actually see myself re-listening to stage 3 at some point. It had enough coherent music to still be a (mostly) enjoyable listen while also simulating a clear feeling of memory loss and confusion. My absolute favourite individual track is also part of stage 3: Hidden Sea Buried Deep. It's a quiet minute and a half of crackles and a faraway piano tune that keeps stopping and re-starting. It gave me a feeling of zoning out while trying and failing to remember something, and it's wedged in between two less-confused-sounding tunes and it's quite disorienting... And to top it all off, it ends extremely abruptly. I honestly do feel like this album has changed me in some way. I had a full-on existential crisis for a few days after listening and jt has made me much more aware of how horrifying dementia is. I haven't been able to get it out of my head!

Quit worrying about it. You did a good job. My grandmother and father both died from Alzheimer's. This is good ambitious Art. For you to think about it, let alone share your thoughts of it, is pretty cool to me.

Thank you for analyzing this; this was one of those artworks that struck me so profoundly that I couldn't get closure from just thinking on my own, so in cases like this I look up analyses in order to combine other people's thoughts with mine. I couldn't bring myself to sit through more than a few minutes of stages 4-6 because dissonant audio puts me in a bad place no matter what the theme of the project is, but I listened to enough of the last track to get chills from the ending when it came and my goodness it was profound. The ironic thing about this project for me was that it made me remember my childhood more clearly, since the ballroom music was nostalgic!

42:17 scared the shit out of me

my man 42:18 made my heart almost stop

Bro this channel bangs so hard I love it so good

This is the first video of yours I've watched...... I love you.

Did you hear a hint of a fall, voices, then angelic sounds? Gives me hope.

Thank you for this analysis. 17:35 I had to google Benjamin Libet, too. I love how this piece of art is here on RU-vid as a single video and how everyone gets to listen to and watch it and form their own interpretations.

Dear Jazz and his growing group of Very Real friends, I just finished watching your video here, and I’m pretty impressed with your perspective on comprehension and interpretation. I found out about this project, “Everywhere At The End Of Time,” by The Caretaker a few months ago, and every day since it has not left my mind. I have not listened to all six stages in their entirety as of yet; I do plan on listening to it all, and all at once with headphones. I have seen a few videos of people’s different takes on this very precious work, and I wanted to say a, “Thank You,” to you for your time on your project. I think that I am trying to find the right time and day to fully and respectfully listen; I truly believe that this art and people that have experienced Dementia/Alzheimer’s Disease definitely deserve our recognition. My paternal grandma, Leona, died from Alzheimer’s Disease around 20 years ago. In one of the stages it mentions a possible repetitive/compulsiveness action. My father said that she had a full box of tissues in her bed with her and that she would slowly and calmly pull them out, one by one, and lay them down neatly on top of one another. She had lost her ability to speak by this time. It will be a great day when a cure is found. I would love to see other similar works like this...maybe something to, “describe, indescribably,” something on Bipolar Disorders or other serious mental afflictions. By the way, no, it doesn’t sound like shit! 😊 Thnx.👍

Stage 1 - Everywhere At The End Of Time Stage 2 - Everywh re At The End Of T me Stage 3 - Ev y h re At Th End O T me Stage 4 - E re A En T me Stage 5 - E A End Stage 6 -

Everything at the End of Time is horrifying, but the background ambience music and the 60(?)hz buzz in your speaking segments also scare me to no end for some reason

You’re so underrated, this was an amazing review of this work of art and is really helpful for me because I don’t have the patience to listen to the full six and a half hours.

I found your channel not too long ago and I like your content thus far! I'm definitely subscribing--you're INSANELY underrated.

As someone with a very bad memory, this project has shook me to my core, and I'm only in section 2.

yes this is a sensitive topic that will destroy my mind yes I will watch the video in full wish me luck

This definitely made me subscribe. Great review!

The notes regarding each stage are insightful, and it's very interesting to hear about the progression from a musical standpoint because i lack that knowledge, thank you. I listened to it yesterday, and i found that i constantly wanted to go back towards the end, genuinely a terrifying thought, with the actual disease, it's an impossibility you can only move forward in time getting worse. I was zoning out during the end stages, i didn't want to think, couldn't make sense or comprehend the static, in a sense isolating my thoughts. By the end of it, i was distraught, it put a melancholy tone on that day, but i'm content i experienced it, it was certainly eye opening and now i hold a deep respect.

Great video

Wax cylinder recordings have a similar effect on me. I particularly like the 1888 choir concert of Handel from the Crystal Palace in London, the end of stage 6 gives me the same feeling.

I have to say out of every video I've seen about this album, yours is one of the only ones I feel examines it with care towards the content and subject matter in a truly respectful manner. Most other videos are hyperbolic and try to put EATEOT forward as a disturbing internet myth, or some kind of challenge to listen to when in fact I personally don't believe that was what was intended at all. You talk about what it made you feel and you talk very thoughtfully about how it portrays mental degradation sonically and as a long time fan of The Caretaker (listened to these albums quite a while before they blew up in the way they did) I appreciate seeing someone who really gets the art and wants to talk about it specifically, not the bizarre and honestly, oftentimes disrespectful culture that's since spawned due to it. Wonderful video, one of my all time favorites for music analysis.

it's so awesome to finally find other music essayists on this damn platform

bro was i the only one to sob at the end..? like how do you NOT cry at that

Thank you for making this video so so so much, i personally don’t think i am at the best mental state to endure this series, so seeing this review go into detail with the comfort of your commentary allowed me to understand it. Thank u !

i like how detailed it is and how it was like an experiment with field notes etc.

Amazing video dude ✌️

You're doing great!

I listened to it and I feel like I should learning piano or keyboard and make something like this called 'Goodbye, Baker.'

This album was quite an experience. I feel like this is the son of man painting and the other paintings of the bowler hat man. Anyone can feel something, whether it be anger, sadness, confusion, happiness, fear, shock, or nothing. Basically EATOT is one of those albums that can’t truly be likes but can’t truly be disliked either.

Okay, okay, storytime! I was listening to this album a couple months ago and the first song- THE FIRST FREAKING SONG- gave me anxiety! But yet I pressed onward! Fun fact: during stage 3 and 4 I thought it was a good idea to drink alcohol while listening. BIGGEST. MISTAKE. OF MY LIFE. I was seeing some veeeery unholy things in my room. I felt completely unsafe. Once I finally finished the album, I couldn't sleep. When I finally slept, I only got two hours, or at least it felt like I did. I woke up in a cold sweat. This cycle continued for like, almost a week and I had some pretty depressing nightmares too. Luckily with the help of listening to anything else and taking deep breaths I was back to normal. Kinda. I can't listen to this for a second time because it brings up my fight or flight response. Definitely one of the scariest albums I ever heard.

To copy from another comment that deserves its merit (@DUPP), C3 uses Seger Ellis' version of Heartaches, not Al Bowlly's (A1). To me this draws the horror more precise. If music is the metaphor for memory then hearing the same music with a different composer or actors is truly terrifying.

great video on the subject

I mean I listened to the first 3... got bored and skipped to the end. I may not have cried but damn did I get close.

this is a very good video and despite what you think, your thoughts were actually very cohesive to the point where I was gaining new ways of thinking about certain parts of the album. I'm really glad that I got to see someone else's authentic experience with this album because after only listening to a few parts of the album, I started to feel extremely depressed and lonely in my feelings, as my grandma had recently passed away from Alzheimers. I started to feel an extreme sense of guilt and sadness while listening to this album while I came to realize that this is what she was going through while I was just living my normal life, all of her memories were slowly leaving her along with her memories of me, and I didn't really understand what she was going through. It was comforting to hear someone analyze the album rather than just reacting to it, I haven't seen anyone do that yet. great video dude

one of my favourite head cannons is about stage 3's "E3 hidden sea buried deep", the same song starting over, again and again, as if desperately trying to remember something, starting from the top but getting stuck every time...

i noticed in stage 4 you put black and white on the tv was this intentional almost as if you wanted to go back to the old ballroom music that was at the beginning