Autoandrophilia 

Your candor is extremely refreshing. Most people could only dream of being this self aware and honest. Really appreciate hearing your story. Thanks for sharing.

Wow, you’re speaking my experience to a T. It’s so interesting. You’re the only other person I’ve seen talk about this but it’s very accurate. It’s been frustrating trying to explain to therapists and friends what it feels like to have this obsessive urge to “become” certain men. Most of my life I thought it was a weird quirk only I had. Though I never considered myself to be trans I relate so hard.

Interesting that you mention anime. Despite the implications of my YT name, I'm a straight man. When I was around 12, I got in to pr0n mostly through watching hentai. Through many different factors, that being one, I developed autogynophelia... I wanted to be a lipstick lesbian. It wasn't really until about 16 when I got in to a very wholesome and intimate relationship that that impulse fully went away. Back then, actually becoming a woman wasn't an option anyone ever presented to me. It wasn't part of the zeitgeist. I'm very glad for that, because it's not impossible that I could have been talked in to pursuing that path. For me, it was a phase brought on during the advent of puberty. It's probably that way for the majority of people becoming trans these days. Women around that age often have struggles accepting femininity as well. My girlfriend during that period also had similar issues; both of us resolved our gender issues by experiencing them with one-another. Today, intimacy rates are decreasing, larger amounts of people are dating less and having less sex, and where transitioning is such a trendy and 'easy' option, those kinds of issues are going to be unresolved in far more people. If I'd been an incel, or even had a less wholesome first relationship, I'd be a much more troubled and insecure person.

I’ve noticed how Yaoi has influenced a lot of FtM transitions. A lot of detransitioners talk about being obsessed with yaoi.

I'm a male with autogynophilia. All of these similar conditions boil down to a simple and intense biological drive or attraction accompanied by some form of "dissociative" disorder, of which there's many. Your biological urge forces you to think about something while your disorder makes it hard to see you as you are, therefore the only subject in the equation you can see clearly you start to associate with.

I felt myself nodding along to a lot of this. I’m a butch lesbian and I’ve gone back and forth on whether or not I’m AAP bc I thought they were all heterosexual women, similarly to how AGPs are straight men. Being in butch4butch relationships and engaging in that sort of media really worked with both my attraction to women and to masculinity in a way that didn’t feel “emasculating”, if that makes sense. I also heavily related to projecting onto fictional male characters and imagining yourself as them without being attracted to men. Really glad you’re voicing this.

You calling me out with the Legolas comment. He is the reason I always wanted to take up archery.

As a woman i grew up felling disconnected from femininity because of the examples presented to me at the time, they were all vastly hyperfeminine and stereotypical. So i thought femininity as a whole wasn't for me; at 12 i started dressing up as a man but didn't feel good either, I felt like i was pretending to be something i was not, and that people could tell by looking at me that even though i didn't want to be a man, i was reflecting that i was the caricature of one, which for me was deeply degrading. Also i only admired male fictional characters, their fashion style, their charisma and perfect balance, but never admired a real man. For me, being called a man was never a compliment because i knew people were coming from the perspective of what a real man is, not the fictional ones. I wanted to receive compliments that people rarely gave to woman, like how i was smart, capable to the point other people could depend on me. i just wanted to be respected in a way i felt that people didn't respected hyper feminine woman, maybe cause people felt threatened by them, or couldn't relate so there was always this huge distance between them. I stopped feeling this way when at 20, i got a buzzcut with light bangs and started dressing non revealing clothes, baggy skirts with pants underneath with some sick platform sneakers/boots vests, jackets, high collar shirts, blazers etc. minimal makeup, never in a style that appeals to hyper femininity or appeals to the male gaze. people give me genuine compliments on my personality now, like they like that im not appealing to either side, nor masculine nor feminine. one thing that i couldn't understand was that, most people do not dress for themselves, they dress for the people they want to sexually attract. they always put their sexual identity indicator through appearances first, not waht they really like to wear who reflects who they really are. the lesson i learned was that, only being yourself before anything else will make you feel comfortable in your body, not dressing up in whatever you think your ideal counterpart would like you to; only being your true self will make you attract people who are also truly themselves, and evolve into true connections. my mbti is the commander and i think delicate and gentle puppy like man are fun, and they like my assertiveness and guidance. woman like me more too, they like how i do not depend on other people's views of me to assert and validate the idea i have of myself. be yourself unapologetically and you'll attract people that do not give a damn about what you are and do not give a damn to try to think about which stereotype you are, they won't understand you at first and they're gonna love you for it :)

i’m a detransitioned lesbian but i totally romanticized men in fiction especially the quiet nerdy type who is also a badass (i guess Connor in Detroit Become Human). or, just straight badasses like Leon Kennedy (still love that guy). in fiction, men can be humans, but women are objects and “women” first in fiction. i grew up very lonely and “weird”, i had some mental disabilities and i was the sped kid, all that. also the “tomboy”. it became this subconscious goal of mine to become a man so i can get a girlfriend and my masculinity would look good on me. looking back when i was 15 and discovering my “trans identity” it probably was somewhat erotic. but now i’m happily a butch lesbian. it just took a second.

feelings can be a full time job

This is so weird... I relate to a lot of this stuff. Maybe not to the same extreme as you, but there are definite similarities. It's kind of weird for me, though, because I don't think I'm gay. I think it's mostly that I find masculine attributes / androgyny to be attractive and therefore a part of me always wants to emulate that. Because that is what I find physically beautiful in others. I am also bugged out by the idea of being objectified and not being in control. My sexual fantasies are also (I think exclusively) from the perspective of whatever male character or whoever that I'm fixated on. Never female. I wish I was taller, and had a sharper jaw, and other more masculine features. I often find myself fantasizing about having male genitalia. I would not describe these feelings as dysphoria/dysmorphia of any kind, just sort of an... Idealization of myself, I guess? I don't know how to explain it. I also find myself feeling inferior for my more feminine attributes. I feel weak and small and stupid and like I can't be taken seriously. It's strange because in personality and a lot of my body language and things, I am a naturally feminine person... I relate a lot to what you said about sort of wanting to fit the "man" role ("here, let me make this fire for you and open this jar" lol) but in actuality I'm weak and have girly mannerisms and don't fit that profile even though I really want to. Edit: I also never really had issues with this stuff pre-puberty to my recollection. I was never wholly a tomboy, or wholly a girly, I just kind of vibed and did my own thing as a kid. I would play act as both male and female characters depending on my mood, I guess... All my favorite fictional characters were guys and I never really connected to the female ones. idk.

I think you look like Cillian Murphy here!

First of all, love that Connor Cosplay. Second, it's interesting that you mentionned cosplay and autoandrophilia because many young women in the cosplay community are obsessed with effiminate men, especially for shipping. It's not only from manga, but also video games(Genshin Impact for example) and Asian Drama. Most of these girls would end up as pansexuals (Aka Bisexual), "ace" (which doesnt male sense), "non-binary" (aka androgynous) or would transition into transmen. What scares me, and it's my opinion after seeing it for about 8 years, is that their fandom will lead them to a road of no return. Most of those cosplayers, that are just fans, want to be the same as their counterpart. As a way to escape the hardship of reality. But the price to pay at the end will be high once they reach their 30s. And I feel bad for them.

If you are interested in learning about the biological causes for homosexuality I would recommend Dr. Debra Soh or generally looking into the field sexology. This field also includes research about paraphilias such as AAP and AGP. Fascinating video btw, I've never seen someone affected by AAP talk so openly about it.

Oh my gosh the part about Michael Fassbender? I think i had an obsession with him as well at some point. As a little kid though growing up watching movies and TV i would always relate more to the male characters and would want to "be" them. I felt as though this was weird and a secret i kept to myself for a long time- playing with my female and male cousins, none of the other girls showed any interest at all in playing as a boy character instead of a girl- but i WANTED to- i suppose it all started then. Anime reaaally drove it farther, I didnt like the super feminine male characters either? I liked Inuyasha, Koga (also from Inuyasha), Natsu Dragneel from Fairytail, stuff like that. And at 13 i came out as transgender- i got on testosterone last year for a little over a month and detransitioned in december. I am almost 20 now and i'm pretty sure i have AAP its just crazy how i didnt know all this before! Being attracted to a guy but also wanting to b e him. I still struggle with this i think on a deep level, im more attracted to androgynous men and I myself am a bit androgynous, im try to be more feminine at times but it makes me unhappy. So i just wear jeans t shirts and a leather jacket, put on some dark eyeliner and eyeshadow and call it a day. I feel most comfortable that way at least, i dont know if its because im really being myself or because ill have less of a chance of being sexualized, but still seen as female.

"I'll start this fire, I'll climb that tree, whatever you need" LOL 😂 You're seriously hilarious. That was the moment where I had to comment for sure. Great video overall. Very insightful. When you point about how we're "not allowed to have these discussions anymore".. that is important. Why can't we have these talks about why we are gay? Good on you for being brave enough to discuss with your audience. I think this is something many gay women experience, but just wont talk about. Reddit mods are the worst. Also amazing cosplay. I'm obsessed. ❤

I truly appreciate how open you’re about this! I myself am a lesbian which was something my family wasn’t very happy to admit. But it still take me a long time be comfortable with who I am. I rather be looked at for my heart my soul and my poems. I wish there was a way to share some of them with you sometimes I feel like people forget the connection and not just the sex. ❤

I've noticed how a lot of Fujoshis wanting to participate in yaoi ships themselves end up adopting a more masculine look.

8:09 Yeah and the book also acknowledges the link between serial murder, sex crimes, and AGP.

Im a cisgender guy but i have a congenital disorder that nukes my T production, and basically everything here is literally me Only thing to add is, with me theres an addictional fulcrum of ethnicity/culture. I'm a first generation african immigration, and always felt alienated from the typical black American machismo, in addition to a general failure to perform heteronormativity. I always felt a link between my rather cold, distant, characteristically demeanor and fictional characters, particularly in anime. I don't know if theres a link between the shame culture of the Japanese and my own. My username comes a book by a japanese American author that i strongly identified with. Basically while most guys are idolizing andrew tate, I'm idolizing zhenya from codename anastasia

aag is something i’ve been trying to learn about recently and it connects with me quite a bit. though there are some areas i am confused about. i have always been a larger women, broad shoulders, large hands, big feet and considered tall-ish for a girl (5’7). femininity has always felt like a costume i’ve been forced into, and i avoided as much as possible, but at the same time i felt jealous of feminine women cause it always appears so nature for them. though as I’ve gotten older (28 turning 29 now) i’ve been able to admit to myself that when im in sexual situations (usually with men, even though I’m attracted to women i’m terrible with them and men will fuck anything) i imagine myself as a man who’s been forced feminized, like i am a man in costume as a women (a barely convincing enough) duping men into sleeping with me. it feels icky, i don’t like it. when you mentioned the aversion to hyper femininity due to is the strong tie to capitalism really spoke to me. i had never thought of it that way.

This is a major character arc moment, we need some filler after this.

I relate really hard to some of this. Not so much the wanting to be masculine (quite the opposite in fact), or being attracted to androgynous males, but the lack of depth in female characters more generally.

Legolas is uniquely beautiful

CONNER 💖 Btw. Love the hour long videos of you talking 😂

Great video on the subject so many try to deny is a thing.. I am a Male to female back to male detransitioner and it’s crazy how common AGP is.

This completely mirrors my experience as a FtMtF detransitioner myself, and I saw plenty of other FTMs in fandom spaces who were just like this--wanting to become the male characters they adored. In terms of dating, I've had decent luck by searching actively for submissive men. I just don't date normal guys. I'm bisexual but with a preference for men, and I'm just frankly not very turned on by vanilla hetero sex. I do think I acquired this fetish by consuming lots of yaoi at a young age. I remember when I was very young, I fantasized about vanilla sex. I think yaoi actively changed what I get off to. It may be related to the fact that I was molested when I was a toddler--it's hard for me to know since I was so young and this stuff is unconscious, but the number of FTMs who were sexually abused is astronomically high. One thing that has helped me is writing my own characters--female characters that embody what I like. It doesn't have to be realistic, but there's something freeing about writing a 6ft tall ripped futa with a submissive and breedable boyfriend.

You pose some really interesting questions. While I can't relate to your exact feelings and experiences, watching your videos is still really insightful, mainly because it only proves that there are always gonna be people who do not fit any of the specific labels created by society (whether it is sexuality or a mental disorder), which makes one wonder if the way we label things in psychology is the best way to see them at all, furthermore, how much are we influenced by genetics, environment etc. Nothing really is absolute at the end of the day, and I think the way people are obsessing over labels these past few years is very unhealthy (lot of self-diagnosed ADHD, autism...or the 50 different genders type of thing). Funny thing is, the whole woke movement, usually Gen Z people, usually autistic or super shy filled with anxiety, and usually into anime...that could be a category of it's own...that could technically be a label, or a diagnosis. I have a friend who fits the profile you described almost perfectly: She is really into anime gay stuff pretty boys. She's technically a lesbian irl, but wishes to be a man (and specific male characters she likes). She told me that if she were a male, she would be gay too, but she can't imagine being with a man as a female (real men kinda scare her too apparently), so she identifies as a lesbian...(and is into girls too, which kinda confuses me, cause doesn't that make her bisexual if the conditions were different?) She also had some trouble with the men in her family, so honestly, her situation makes sense, and can be explained. Now, I have largely different experience than...well anyone that I know of or met. I don't feel different or weird or isolated from society, I feel very normal (I am actually considered weird at times, because I _don't_ feel weird). But I can't relate to anyone in anything, which is why I've never had deep emotional connections with people. I have a lot of friends, but it's never anything deep (never had a best friend who I could tell everything or that kind of thing, but the friends that I have are fun and nice, can't complain). These things aren't an issue for me, and the reason I feel very normal is precisely because I don't really have mental issues as much as my peers or anyone these days (then again that's partly a product of the modern age we live in). But it makes me wonder, how is it that the way I experience the world and the issues that I have are nothing like the stuff other people have. And then there's the fact that I was actually diagnosed with Asperger's when I was 10, but now I firmly believe it's bullshit XD (it wasn't all that official, no tests or anything, the psychologist just talked to me???), because I just don't have any of the issues associated with ASD, specifically the social issues, and need for routines or rules (I actually can't stand rules or routines, especially when someone makes me follow them)...never had that even though officially that should be the _basis_ of autism...But I do think differently, similarly to what we now call neurodivergent people. I once met a girl with ADHD, and it surprised me how her thinking patterns were similar to mine, plus I am kinda hyperactive and do everything fast at times...but I can't have ADHD, cause I don't have the attention deficit (I am actually pretty awesome at focusing), or any of the issues associated with ADHD (I read up on it, it just doesn't fit). So yeah, it's interesting that you mentioned at one point how autism played role in your life, in a way that was very much different to what we view as "standard" or "accurate" (makes you wonder what even is accurate). Then there is this whole trans thing, good for you on figuring that out XD, like I honestly believe autoandrophilia could be the valid cause for a lot of people to be feeling this way. Like I said, my situation is very different from yours, and yet in some sense I feel like I really understand you, considering I can't really explain why I am the way I am by using modern psychology. One could argue there's really no point in analysing things like that. I largely live by the philosophy: Just do what makes you feel happy, live the way you want to live. And I generally don't overanalyse things like this, cause I don't think our brains are capable of fully understanding everything. There isn't always one clear answer that makes sense. Regardless, it's still very interesting, and I can't help but wonder about me and other people, cause let's be honest, it's kind of human nature to forever wonder. Sorry for the long comment, I literally have no one to discuss these things with...

This was an incredible video. I enjoyed learning about this.

I think you are very attractive perfectly androgynous but still very “pretty” imo

learned something today, thanks for sharing your journey.

Thank you so much for making this video. I have Autoandrophilia as well as a Yaoi fetish. I think Yaoi and just poor female representation made me start to identify with the male characters. I never fantasized about being with my favorite male character I wanted to be the him.I now settle for my natural androgyny. I even practice doing a male voice for voice acting and I never thought I could deepen my natural voice that much. I had to turn this infliction into a positive, I suppose.😅

You say women in anime and such are vapid and empty therefore no one wants to be them, but I had the opposite experience. I wanted to be like them. But there's a weird paradox where on some level women are seen as 'receptacles' but on the other hand women can manipulate men just by showing a bit of skin. As strong and powerful as a man can be, a woman can have him wrapped around her little finger. A sexy woman can bring a million men to their knees. I don't see women as weak. Women are men's kryptonite. There's something oddly fascinating about how a few simple curves can be so disarming. I fail to see it as a weakness.

thank you for being against auto philics wh do not have gender dysphoria. im a trans woman and i have auto andro philia. it's a bit weird having both but i also can see from both sides due to this.

You look like a young Elizabeth Taylor

You're like link from Zelda you can be both genders and still look good.. why?

Yeah same goes for autistics who are male. pretty obvious AGP going on with me too. Wish people would be more willing to talk about it.

This might be a longcomment and I'm just gonna kind of ramble. I think the biggest thing for me is that I want everything to be equal between me and whoever I imagine my partner to be. Growing up I never thought about gender as being important, I wasn't a girly girl but I wasn't a Tom boy either I was just me. I'm just a soul trapped in a body that has been labeled as female but I never got to choose that and I don't really identify with it I don't give a crap. So a few years ago I got into some yaoi stuff (fluff but still) and I was just pissed that every relationship in every movie the woman was always just sexualized or a prize to the men. So in yaoi it was equal. At this point I was also sex repulsed and considered myself ace. I was obsessed with the concept of a Queer platonic relationship even though that's like, any healthy relationship basically. So yeah it's mostly a dislike of how society sees females that made me dysphoric. Coupled with what I think is AAP which I still have. I think I'm more into the twink types(?) buy I was never into anime. Guys like leon kennedy, dante from dmc, v from dmc, and any fem guys I see on Pinterest and stuff. I'm weirdly obsessed with like non passing trans girls and fem boys and stuff because gender politics are a hyperfixation of mine. I wish I could be equal to men i wish i could protect a guy and help him. Religious upbringing hasn't helped either with the feeling of being inequal to men.

I feel pretty attracted to you. Love your voice ❤ but totally understand what you’re talking about. You named every early 2000 male fixation I’d forgotten.

Whenever I see a man claiming to be a lesbian trapped in a man's body, I must fight the temptation to tell him "no honey, you just want good ole pegging." Jokes aside, have you ever considered femdom before transitioning? Or is that much more about masculinity for you than dominance? Frankly, I didn't have any bad experience with a boy. It just didn't do much mentally and it couldn't compete with fantasies of being the dominant one with a guy who would want me that way. Let's put it that way, if you have a kink and they want the normal thing, it's just..not there. You'll get bored and it's awkward and even if it might work physically, mentally it's meh. Maybe I'm somehow damaged and some hormone doesn't get released as it should but I really can't relate to other women's experiences with euphoria and good feelings. Because of this, I can relate a bit to not wanting my body being touched, well, at certain place anyway, but I'm not a butch and definitely never considered transition. I consider myself quite feminine and I love how my body looks. The problem is that I don't represent my wants through my looks or outward expression in any way so I often feel like an imposter, a fake and attract men that seem to be of little or no use to me in the bedroom, just romantically and I'm of no use to them. What am I, supposed to walk around in a dominatrix suit or something? I found a guy that maybe is AGP and maybe have had an experience with AAP and tried roleplaying gender reversal with me online but it just felt ridiculous. :D That was the point I figured I definitely wasn't AAP. I realized I wanted to be seen as I am. With my name, my anatomy and physique with realistic expectations, neither as some Johnny or a strong muscular badass woman. Yes, it would be cool to be strong enough to carry a guy in my arms but let's be realistic. One last thing, it happened to me very often throughout the years that whenever I didn't put my gender on display, people often assumed I was male and I always enjoyed it. Not because I would want to be seen as a man but because they were constantly disproving stupid stereotypes about how a girl or a woman should behave, think, talk, what interest she should have. I never tried to be anyone else in online space, I just expressed my thoughts or talked about what interested me - movies, games, music bands, yet, here we come. Apparently if you have something else than your selfie or some fictional female character as a profile pic and talk about something else than beautifying products or Korean drama then you're male in their brains. Hm...

I wouldnt look to male agps to look for changes in behavior or learning normalcy.....women have a much better ability to change and grow towards their partner.

You are mixing up MEF (masochistic emasculation fetish) and AGP. "Extreme submisiveness" is not in any way part of the definition of AGP, and while there is a tendency for AGPs to be submissive, there is also a tendency for AAPs to be submissive (see, the sheer number of FTMs with feminization fetish, the defunct r/ftmpunish subreddit etc. AGP is simply love of oneself as a woman. There is an unfortunate tendency for people who discuss the phenomenon to have a deeply incomplete knowledge of the issue, and to only know of it from internet propaganda rather than actual studies from Blanchard, Lawrence, Bailey, Hsu, Ellis etc.

The experience one gets of transmen, as a natal male, is people identifying their way into your group and then criticising every aspect of it and demanding accommodations must be made for them: which is the most female behaviour I can think of, ironically.

Have you seen Helena's discussions/presentations with Stella and Sasha on Shipping? She goes into a lot of the comic/lit scene per young girls dysphoria.

Would you be open to discussing the topic on livestream?

do you think you have genuine same-sex attraction, or do you think it’s all meta-attraction?

Isn’t Autoandrophilia the same thing as Freud’s penis envy, coupled with the euphoria of role-reversal and the love of masculine energy and emotion? I assert that Androgynephilia as far deeper and more appropriate to the male than penis envy is to the female. Freud took the easy path…

Life long tomboy. Now, I'm non-binary,& an a moon elf. 🌙 🧝‍♂️

Great video. The only thing i related to was liking yaoi for a span of like. 3 months. Back when i was cis. Anyway this helped me figure out i am definitely not an autoandrophile. Jai Hind 🇮🇳

Or maybe u were always lesbian but didn't know it cuz of alexithymia

Is transitioning harder than method acting?

Goddamn!!...what a story. Imma have to binge watch now 😂

GOTTMIK

I have never played Detroit but the picture you show of Big Boss reminded me of Snake Bliskin played by Kurt Russell in Escape from New York and Escape from Chicago. I find your story interesting because when I was growing up, way before the internet, I read a lot of science fiction and wanted to be those characters. I also watched a lot of the old black and white movies with Cary Grant, Danny Kaye, Gary Cooper. You know the suave cool gentleman and I sought of fashioned my life on their projected personas. At 14 when dating girls I would take them to restaurants and dress more formally than kids do today, oh and I am also a Whovian. I should also add that I am what many would call a boomer but not really, I have had many gay and trans friends but remain hetero. Anyway my point is that the idea of wanting to be who you see is not limited to one type of person. Although I admit having it become an obsession I see can be problematic. I have tried through my life to see others and myself as human and no matter what they consider their self to be they are a wonderful expression of their humanity and the Universe in which we live.🙂🌻🧡

Interesting that you say when you're dating someone the AAP comes back. From what I've heard of Phil Lily and one other AGP males say that it's the opposite when they are is in a relationship the AGP tendencies seem to subside..hmmm 🤔

Im a bisexual trans woman and it didnt take much for me to start passing but anyways I am autoandrophilic, yes I am autoandrophilic and I am AMAB ok I get sexually aroused by wearing mens clothes I wear mostly mens clothes and barely wear amy female clothing.

good video. that was a good video

You know what just get some experience. You haven't done it with a chick? GO go do stuff, GO LIVE!

omg Connor

8:42 Symptoms of T aren't the same as being autistic. The way you describe symptoms of "autism" cross asross vastly different then what I deal with being autistic. Being autistic is not "being a emotionless robot" as much as a case of me struggling to present my emotions in way non-autistics can understand. I'm constantly told my emotions don't exist or are delusional, because fail to grasp them unless I make the effort explain my emotions in terms they can understand. Just because a deaf person can't speak in a way most hearing people can understand, doesn't mean they have anything less to say. Instead of looking at the symptoms of T and conflating then with "symptoms of autism" take the time to compare the roots of the symptoms. The symptoms of autism are sensitivity to stimulus and difficulty excessing their emotions. The latter symptom actually isn't unique to autistics, autistics are just able to excess their emotions with other autistics, as much as non auts can with other non auts. I really I think if had a non-aut live around autistics his whole life he would have the same iusses expressing his emotions. Non-aut are more sensory tolerant then autistics, I honestly joke about them being "sensory retarded" because that's how their symptoms whould described if was treated the same as autism. A large of detransitioners are autistics that were undiagnosed and told that "transitioning" help with their symptoms. For your part I wish I leave this on a more positive note, as do think that diet is can help with dealing with symptoms of autism. This is purely speculation on my part, but I autistics are more sensitive when it comes to diet and there are of things I started avoiding that has helped me a lot. But at no point i stop being autistic, maybe for you the symptoms reduced to the point where you "stopped being autistic" atleast were symptoms are concerned. But for me being autistic goes beyond the symptom i deal with, in lot of ways you still have traits that are similar of the more neutral or positive symptoms of autism. I don't know you personally, and I don't want to across comes "egg cracking". As I've dealt with egg culture "diagnosing" as "trans" do my struggle to grasp certain arbitrary sex roles or "gender". I do feel like the term "autism spectrum" falls the problem as "trans umbrella" in that it whitewashes anything beforehand like Asperger's or Crossdressing as being "Autistic" or "Trans". I feel the way "autistic" is used today is similar to "trans". "Autistic symptoms" and "Transgenderism" I think are just manifestations of larger things that we lack proper terms to describe. AAP and AGP are closer to getting to that root then "trans" is, but I really have is the wide shovel of "autism" or maybe closer Asperger's to refer to what I believe is a much larger root. If you took the time to read this entire reply thank you and I would love to hear your thoughts.

According to BBL, there is no such thing as autoandrophilia and there is no autogynephilia in non-trans women. The first time I read about this autogyne nonsense, it must have been in the mid-nineties, many men around me declared they were autoandrophiles and many women, trans or non-trans alike said they were autogynephiles, so that's for the "theory" at least. I have to go train more muscle, because people are a lot, astronomically, weirder than I ever thought they were, and in a sexual way.