I appreciate all the love. Y'all are the best! ❤️ Here's an update video of life after Ayahuasca along with tips for integration! ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-DQmkvErKvUs.html For those interested in embarking on their own Ayahuasca Journey, I offer private virtual 1:1 Ayahuasca Coaching to help prepare for your first ceremony. This also includes Post Ceremony Integration Coaching to help you integrate your experience more deeply and continue the momentum of your spiritual development. Click this link below to book a consultation: www.momentswithz.com/spiritual-integration Much love 💛
That was a very powerful story, and I hope you don't feel bad about needing to be restrained, it seems you required special processing to make it all better!
@@chaimbrownbasketball4730 I appreciate the concern 🙂 I don't feel bad about the restrain. It saved me from severely hurting myself. The facilitators knew exactly what they were doing thankfully 🙂❤️
You are not a crybaby; you are in touch with very real, very healthy, and very normal emotions. Thank you for telling your experience. This was a profound experience, even if it was terrifying at the time. Congratulations on your freedom ❤
This is hands down one of the BEST Ayahuasca stories I've ever heard. Jesus Christ, you've been through so much. From going to one of the most hellish experiences to one that transcends the cosmos. God bless you man, you have a purpose and definitely deserve a lot of love and light!:) ♥️
Brother! You are awesome and free! You are your success! Period. You did this. You win, you conquered. Don’t ever forget that. Love and blessings to you always!!❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
It's hard to imagine how you could see yourself in that way! You are beautiful and strong.. your kindness and ❤ shines through you!! Iam going to have my first ayahuasca experience in less than two weeks.. and beleive or not my intention is wery much like yours.. After watching you I know that I am ready for anything mother aya will give me:) Thank you for sharing. You are definitely someone I would cherish as a friend❤
Thank you for such a lovely comment. Sending you love and courage as you embark on your own Ayahuasca experience. Here's a video I made where you will find helpful tips to integrate your experience afterwards. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-DQmkvErKvUs.html I'm here if you have any questions 👍🏻💛
I feel like I had a similar experience.. Wish I was in a controlled environment.. But this hits home and I've tried to deal with it by myself for years.. More and more I hear similar experience's..Giving up and surrendering was the relief button.. Thank you for sharing..
Yes! Being able to release and express emotions is powerful. It opens us up to feel and express deep love. Starting with and for ourselves and our inner children. Thank you for sharing. 🫶 It takes guts to be vulnerable. It’s a superpower. I cried for hours in my first Ayajuasca journey. Then I spoke in tongues to the Universe, like we were old friends, not understanding, yet understanding every foreign word coming out of my mouth. Maybe I was a baby again, looking into the eyes of God. I felt deep love…
I admire you for your courage and for your willingness to share your deepest pain with us. I absolutely love this video! AND…the cat is a fabulous touch! LOL!!
I need to say vulnerability is the opposite of weakness only a strong person can be vulnerable! and in this video you were brave being open about your experiences.
Wow Z thank you for sharing. I'm certainly feeling the pull following a few psilocybin ceremonies...I'm doing lots of research into mother aya before making any plans and came across this. I cried with you. How beautiful was your vulnerability ❤ Thank you... I will most definitely be doing it now it's a just a matter of when. 🙏 Namaste 🌟
I'm honored that my story played a role in your healing journey. There's also a 10 month update video I've posted where you can find tips to help you integrate the experience afterwards. Sending you much love as you embark on your journey. Namaste :) 💛
Hey strong guy♡ I can so relate to your experience!! It s so moving when you admitted your insecurities! You are incredibly courageous to share it!! Your life ll change completely after that! And you ll love it.
Thank you ❤️ I appreciate you taking the time to listen to my story. My life did completely change after. I'll record an update video detailing the changes soon 🙂
🌀💙 There are literally no words I could express better that the ones who have previously expressed their deeply appreciative comments of your astounding honesty and HEART. I’m 73 and am being called to my 3rd Aya ceremony. I briefly noted your comments in hopes to reassure ‘my mind’ that we will be perfect in any & ALL of what we will experience. Bless your huge heart, mother aya’s spirit, and all the is calling me forth. I will be following you as you are of my tribe & community 🌀💙🩵
You really treated yourself badly before Ayahuasca. You are handsome, warm, honest, articulate......how could you have ever thought otherwise?!!? Beautiful delivery of a beautiful story. I would be too afraid to hear that story and still do Ayahuasca, but the benefit of your transformation makes me wish I was forced to take it.
I really appreciate that. The thoughts in my head were so loud and debilitating that I couldn't see myself as I truly am. I will say that my experience is quite unique; most other people in the group had a much less scary experience (some were overwhelmingly positive). If you were to take it, it could be very different from my experience. Nonetheless, really appreciate you :)
@@MomentsWithZhi I remember taking Christmas Tree acid once. It was a little pill, no bigger than a baby aspirin. I broke off what looked like a third of it and popped it. I remember that "knowing" that I had taken too much, and there was nothing I could do about it. Scary as hell, not knowing what will become of you and having zero control of the situation. I am intrigued by the Ayahuasca spirit that spoke to you. Wouldn't that have to be God? Who else has that kind of power? My son, that I adored, was killed when he was 15 in a car accident. I was beside myself with grief. That's when God spoke to me. I didn't pay attention to where the voice emanated from except that I recall it as a voice that boomed across the universe. I wasn't afraid of the voice or the experience. It was accepted by me as the most natural thing. But to this day, I'm puzzled because the voice was monotone i.e. robotic. I expected God to sound human, so now I'm conflicted. Is God a machine? Is life a giant computer program? If God didn't speak to me, who did?
@@TheSkyhightribe The Ayahuasca spirit could be God, a part of God, or a gift from God. I honestly can't say for certain. What I do know was that it cared for my well being played a huge role in my healing. I'm sorry about your son 🙏🏼 As for the voice you heard, what did it say?
@@MomentsWithZhi I was laying in bed, heavy with grief. My thoughts said "give me a sign that you are alright". A voice that consumed the entire universe said "I sent you a sign. I sent your brother." I replied "when will I see him again"? The voice said "78". that was all. I understood the 78 to be that I would die when I was 78. That will be in 2029. As for the part about "I sent you a sign, I sent your brother", my brother had just come to my home 2 or 3 days earlier, so I racked my brain for what he had said. He had said, "I don't know if you believe in reincarnation..." then he proceeded to tell me about visions he had had of his own past lives, and recognizing his wife from the day he first saw her, knowing he had known her before. That was all confirmation for me. I believe in reincarnation, but we had been raised by a minister who did not believe in reincarnation, so I had no idea that my brother accepted it as well as me.
@@TheSkyhightribe such a powerful experience, thank you for sharing. Even if the voice is monotone or robotic, it seems like the message itself was true and I hope it gives you the peace you were looking for.
Thank u for ur realism… this meant a lot and to me ur a brave soul to go thru this and able to come back and tell us the stories. Salute to u sir! I understand exactly the pain u go thru… but I’m glad ur still here alive & kicking. Much love & respect to u!
I have known and learnt over the years about ayahuasca but never had a ceremony. It is calling me now. I have similar troubles too z, I know everyone has there problems but I couldn’t tell half of what I’ve been through or done. For sure I will be in for one hell of a ride and that worries me but my soul is telling me I need this
You're welcome ❤ Congrats on taking this courageous step toward your healing. Let go of expectations, trust the process, and go with an open heart. You got this :) Sending you much love and strength! Would love to hear from you after your retreat just to make sure you're in a good place ❤
Wow! Your testimony was beautiful. ❤️ Thank you for sharing this. I gained so much from your experience. We all smiled and also cried with you. I'm now a subscriber. Peace love and healing to all. ❤️
Thank you ❤️ I appreciate the kind words and sub. I'm glad you were able to gain something from my experience. Much love to you! ❤️❤️❤️ I would suggest checking out my 10 month update video. I go over all the things that I've learned after the experience 😊
Thanks for sharing your story, I hope you are doing good because I know from personal experience how intense the integration period and just the overall affects of an experience like that can be. But I would like to say that vulnerability implies strength and courage. Weak people hide who they are and don't face their demons.
Great question, we increased the dosage for the second night. The shamans adjusted the dosage depending on how we reacted on the previous night. And of course the night after I lost it we decreased the dosage 😂
@@MomentsWithZhi thanks for sharing 🙏🏼 I have my ceremony in 2 weeks and have similar fears to you! But I’ll just surrender and accept as much as I can (easy to say til you’re in the moment)
There’s a lot of potential in psychedelics, I can’t wait to try any of them mushrooms specifically but it’s just so hard to find a reliable source over here, I’ll be glad if anyone can be of help..
Psilocybin has been a game changer in my life! I prefer micro dosing a few times a week now that I got the dose just right! Seasonal depression is a thing and shrooms can most definitely help..
Congrats on building the courage to embark on this beautiful journey. And not to worry! My experience may not be your experience. Everyone's healing journey can be unique to them. And if it's any reassurance, as intense as my experience was, it was still soooo healing for me. I'm wishing you love and courage for your journey 😁💛
The way you describe how the mind should work is exactly what happens to my thoughts when I take mushrooms. My thoughts are more fluid, insightful, and my speech is more articulate.
I know what you mean. These plant medicine has an amazing way of allowing the mind to become less structured and flow much easier. With practice, we can even tap into this state without plant medicine.
I'm so proud of you man for doing this! You really touched my heart. You've got such a wonderful future ahead of you, which of course occurs in the now :-) Thank you thank you thank you 👊👊👊 You are such a strong man... And amen to your summary! You really advanced for your age. You've got nothing to worry about keep expanding 💫 MuchO ❤️ "chief" Harold Peck Jr #FruitKakeTV
Thank you for sharing your profound healing experience with the medicine in such an open hearted way. You teach us that what ever happens in ceremony ultimately has no judgment ~ only love 🙏
You are an absolute incredible atory teller. I AM GLUED TO YOUR LIPS. But I am listening to this because I want to do an ayahuasca retreat myself. Now I am scared Af 😅
Haha, thank you for the kind words. If it's of any comfort, my experience was by far the most extreme even compared to other participants at the retreat. If you feel a genuine calling towards this kind of path, trust that you will get exactly what you need! Fear not! Trust~
Who are you? You! No not me, you? I am you! Rush Hour 3 The lotus flower grows in swamp and in this swamp the lotus still blossoms, the parable is that we should do the same from restfulness to wisdom, blooming like the lotus flower, beautiful in the middle of the swamp. May wisdom expand within you, may the wisdom of the heart help you to transform into light for others. May the wisdom of full acceptance reach you so that you may be whole. We are one heart one soul one body one mind💜🙏. We are one yet many.
Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that entereth not by the door into the sheep fold, but climbeth up some other way, the same is a thief and a robber (John 10:1) (John 10: 7-18)
I laughed, cried, and felt incredibly happy while watching this video. Thank you for sharing your experience Zhi and for being so raw and honest! Sending you love and wishing us all a bit of healing from our own demons❤️
Thank you all so much for taking the time to listen to me share this experience. The support and responses I've gotten so far has been incredible. Thank you so much for the support. You guys are the ones that give me continual affirmation that I am on the right path and to continue to share myself. I hope this has aided you on your own journey towards healing in some way. I'm looking forward to producing more content as we embark on this journey together
I had an Ayahuasca experience three weeks ago that took me literally into hell and back. Ten years or so ago I’d had several and they were all good experiences. This time, I asked for enlightenment and boy did I get it. But, just when I thought I couldn’t take anymore I called out, God help me, and I was out. I was God, breathing out the Universe. What an experience. I was enlightened all right. One day, soon I hope, I’ll make a video on my experience. By the way, it’s never too late, I’m 72 and you don’t have to go all the way to Peru either. Mine were all in the UK.
That is so great to hear. I am in the UK too and have managed to attend ten different retreats here. I have thankfully so far not been to hell but have had extremely difficult and intense experiences but guess the full on terror is yet to come. May I ask whereabouts you drank? Was it in Ireland?
I’m glad you made this channel Zhi, you’re such an articulate storyteller and I’m glad you’re sharing your journey and experience. As someone who also lost their mind in the jungle sometimes I fear I didn’t dive deep enough, like Shantanu said - There’s always more. Love you man.
I miss you a ton Andrew :) Thanks for your kind words! No need to fear not diving deep enough. Everyone heals in different ways and at a different pace. You dove as deep as you needed to that week in the jungle. You will continue to heal at a rate perfectly suitable for you. I promise
As they say in AA, everyone's rock bottom is different. Some people have a very high bottom and others' bottom is much deeper. Also, trust yourself and look at it as a feedback that you don't need to beat yourself up for not going deeper ie. falling short in some way (incorrect core belief). You actually learned an important lesson that you have agency and your body/mind is allowed to choose how far to go and how comfortable it needs to be for the moment. Trauma has taught us overwhelm outside of our control. This is a pattern/vasana/neural pathway of trauma. If there is indeed any more depth to come, then there will be another time when you have integrated that depth level and can go deeper. Or maybe the depth was an illusion and you are self-gaslighting as you have learned/been conditioned to do. Another learned trauma thought/behavior pattern/vasana. Usually we feel this way (incomplete) until we learn to trust ourselves and we develop unconditional self acceptance that we are ok as is, accept self with flaws and all and this is where release/freedom lies (a bit counter-intuitive and no straight logic to it).
Past weekend was my first experience with this intelligent medicine… 2 days of Aya.. The human vocabulary does no justice to this profound life changing experience… Thank you for this video and I completely understand and are so proud of you brother 🙏🏼 Corazon Medecina ❤️
You just described my EXACT second night ceremony I just finished last night. I’ve been laying here absolutely traumatized looking for answers, and your mirrored experience just offered that for me. And the encouragement to reach out and the help will be there. Thank you, brother.
I'm so glad you found the answer you were looking for. Take it one moment at a time. This is not an easy journey but it's very much worth it. Your clarity and peace is coming. It's going to be ok my dear sister 🫂 Feel free to email me at hello@momentswithz.com if you have any questions or need some support, you are not alone in this 💛
That was an amazing story and beautifully told. Thanks for being super transparent and honest, and sharing as much as you can. It's a good reminder to the rest of us in our daily life. Going with the flow of the river. Living in the moment. Wow when spirit said "you are my child" ... Dang I felt tingles.
I love that you hold power to being vulnerable instead of seeing it as a weakness. You speak for those who aren’t ready to use their voices yet, thank you for creating a safe space on your channel for people to share their thoughts. 🙏🏼
Thank you for taking the time to listen to my experience Lan :) You've always been a relentless supporter and it serves as a constant reminder for me to believe in myself. Love you so much Lan
You are such a beautiful soul! This is an incredible presentation and I learned even more about what happened that night in the jungle. We were all rooting you on and I’m so glad it became a positive experience in the end. Thank you for acknowledging me, hugging you the next morning was healing for me, too. I am lucky to call you “friend” and I look forward to the day that I can hug you again in person. Love and light, Donna ❤️
I have listened to a few of these stories but this is the first one where I felt like I was EXPERIENCING it WITH him...and indeed, his blockages are similar to mine. It was personal yes, but somehow listening to his story transformed ME to a degree. Amazing and powerful stuff, to share our stories. And this unusual sense of feeling connected to you now. Wow. Thank you for sharing yours Zhi!
This video deserves more recognition. I don't often catch feelings watching or listening to trip reports but I did during yours. Thank you for sharing, brother. Glad you are doing good now!
Thank you so much for your kind words and support brother. It means a great deal to me that you took the time to listen to my experience. I'm wishing you all the love ❤️
That was such a beautiful story! I've done ayahuasca once before and I definitely went trough my version of hell. I literally stopped being Bipolar II after that, no symptoms since 3 years. I still have some stuckness inside me, I feel like generational trauma is deeply coded in me. I actually was shown it the last time I did that. I was taken to my DNA which was also at the same time the akashic records. But I was just shown that, I was yet not ready to go trough that though. I am now going again in the next few days, I feel I'm being called back as I've gotten strong enough to purge and to do healing work on my lineage. I know already that this time is going to be very hard. But I'm so ready and your video boosted this feeling!
Thank you for sharing. Healing takes a lot of work but I know you're strong. On the other side of healing, is true freedom. I believe in you. Sending you much love and support as you continue your journey ❤
Amazing story. This video really resonated with me. Very similar to my ayuhuasca experience in so many ways. I’m happy the medicine helped you so much. I see this video was posted two years ago. Looking forward to watching more of your videos and following your journey. I did two ceremonies almost a year ago now, and I am still processing it. The first ceremony was amazing. Second one was the most terrifying experience of my life. But exactly what I needed. I also receive downloads regularly. I also routinely get messages from mother Aya in my dreams. I’m planning to go back to the jungle soon.
Your story gave me chills. My Aya experience was traumatic too so I know exactly what you mean by how scared you were to the point you wanted to kill yourself. I went crazy in the experience too. I LOST it all. I thought the same things you thought about going all the way to Peru to go nuts and that I'll be in that state forever and live out the rest of my life in the psych ward. I went through it 😪. I'm thankful for what Mother Aya has done for me but I'm deathly afraid to take it again. Still traumatized 4 years later 🤦🏽♀️
Wow it looks like there's a lot of parallels between our experiences. With such a scary experience, I'm curious, what were you able to take away from it?
@@MomentsWithZhi I learned alot from the experience with Mother Aya. I took it 4 times but the last day of it was the nightmarish one. I learned that I have alot of fears that I have to work through in order to grow and do what I came here to do. Going crazy in the experience gave me a sense of calmness and peace in this reality I'm living now where I don't seem so crazy. I learned to quiet my mind more. I worry less and try to live in the present more. I learned that there is so much I don't know and that's ok. I learned that it's ok to say "I don't know" where as before I would try to explain everything even if I wasn't sure of it. So may lessons learned during those few days and nights in the jungle.
I absolutely love the entirety of your video! you have a real gift with your words and expression. Was glued to your story.. I'm looking forward to seeing more from you :)
Proud of you for sharing your story with everyone and creating this channel, Zhi! Enjoyed hearing about your experience for the second time and glad you're finally able to live the life of freedom you wanted. Your story and insights were inspirational
Wow !! that is the best ayahuasca video ever !!! The way you explain it so clear, so genuine !! 🌹❤ an extraordinary experience you went through !!! Thank you for sharing !! you are so kind and gentle and your message is so beautiful !!!! Bless you !! ❤🙏😇
Thank you for sharing that moving story, it moved me to tears - twice! And I'm really happy that you came out on the other side with this renewed outlook on life, which is always so refreshing and fulfilling to see. Thank you also for taking the time to share your experience with the world. Clearly, others have already benefitted from it, and I have no doubt that more will follow suit.
The experience you went through is your familiar spirits (demons) telling you what you've been telling yourself your whole life. You had a demonic encounter which explains why your fears were amplified and you felt like there was no escape but death. You were being deceived and tricked into wanting to take your life so you could go to hell. Since that didn't work, satan appeared like an angel of light and gave you false peace so you could continue to follow false doctrines. However, you speak truth as the bible says "Be still and be renewed." To find God, we must get rid of the distractions of this world so we could hear His still small voice. Your spirit is seeking truth and the only truth is Jesus Christ. Thank you for your testimony and I pray that the Lord encounters you so you can testify for the Kingdom of God. May love, peace, and grace follow you in Jesus' name I pray.
