My First Ayahuasca Experience (Life Changing) 

The creative adult is the child who survived

if you think you may want to try ayahuasca, you're probably right. if you think you don't want to try ayahuasca, you're probably right

she takes care of me and you don't...wow, that gave me chills

"You care more about these peoples opinions than about me" I watched that part 4 times. I knew this was true for me but hearing it in words like this really clarifies it and makes it real

"because she takes care of me and you dont" hit me like a semi truck

"We don't stop playing because we grow old. We grow old because we stop playing." George Bernard Shaw. Keep your inner child playing

Ayahuasca was the best thing I ever did in my life. Thanks so much for sharing

Hearing this made me cry. I think my inner child feels the same way.

Tell it like it is. Truth is truth, you report your honest and unbiased experiment and we can determine what we decide. It takes some big onions to share like this. Much respect.

This is probably one of most passionate videos i've ever seen.

You shared this trip report in such a fluid way i loved listening. Thank you for sharing this to such a large audience

Holyyyy! I’m historically crying right now due to the realisation of how much I can relate to this. I as well have been repressing my inner child and joy for sooooo long and didn’t realise at all! I’m so happy to have this realisation and this beautiful vulnerable video that has enlightened me soo much right now! Thank you! Thank you ! Thank you !

I really expected a negative response from the audience, but I am pleasantly surprised to see the viewers are open-minded.

"Because she takes care of me and you don't" those words hit SO HARD. I feel like this applies to a LOT of us with relationships that don't technically satisfy, but supply a need we are delegating outside of ourselves. Which is fine if that's consensual, but I think in many cases we secretly resent our partners who are asking us to love them because they refuse to love themselves. Thank you so much for this post!!

You are such an engaging storyteller, I can’t remember the last time I just listened to someone monologue for this long without any cuts. Great story great message, thanks for enriching my experience \m/

Yup, this is what the world has lost. Adults caught up in self developement and goal setting, who get to 35, have kids, and can barely interact with them because their creative, free side drowned in the wake of the success boat a long time ago. It's not worth it. Glad psychedelics showed you this.

I'm currently in Peru and have done ayahuasca. I had a great experience and got what I needed. Glad you're talking about this!

"You don't play, you pratice..." That's so me.... Thanks

He did this all in one take without a single “uh” or “uhm” wtf

Congrats on re-learning how to feel aswell. I also went about 10 years without crying because "men don't cry". I did not go 10 years without misery. In fact, the hard times were far worse because I was not able to release the emotion. A couple years ago I learned how to cry again. It was extremely difficult and required training. It was ultimately a couple strong catalysts that helped me cry my first couple times. I was amazed to discover that the sensation of crying was actually an extremely pleasurable and relieving release of emotion! It even felt physically pleasurable in my face. Ever since then I feel so much more connected to my emotions if I am in a safe enough place to freely express them.

My inner child wants to play video games, explore outside, and just wrestle with puppies and get dirty. I've been living this "professional" lifestyle and have forgotten who I am. I haven't done any of these in a long time. Thank you for this, Charlie. ❤️

Bro, I really love how honest and open you are about your life and experiences. That's why I love watching man! What an experience!

I feel like this is what a lot of women mean when they talk about “emotional labor.” It’s taking emotional care of an adult who is detached from themselves and trying to show them that detachment so that they fix it. Glad you were able to come to this realization and that it was a good experience for you.

12:45 "discipline and growth-mindedness KILLS JOY". Thank you for this powerful insight - it resonates with me massively. I feel relieved that you've spoken on this conclusion, as I've had that feeling recently as well.

Thanks for educating people about it, our society needs these experiences !

I scensed some actual emotion during this monolog. Amazing

This has honestly been the most eye opening , life changing video I’ve seen on RU-vid. I have struggled personally with deep rooted problems that I never knew the answer to. I never would have thought it was my inner child screaming for help as I always thought I had a happy life. Thank you for his awakening it has been a huge wake up call to actually enjoy my life

Amazing. Thanks for sharing 💙

really cool that you share your experience with us!

I had never heard of ayahuasca. This was a very unique video for me and I'm really glad you had such an enlightening experience! Thanks for sharing.

Dont seek it, let it find you My first experience killed my ego and I saw God 🤷‍♂️

Thank goodness you posted this. I’m a huge advocate for psychedelics, especially DMT, to assist with mental health and to elevate the average human mind. There is something very important to be learned by stepping so far out of what is comfortable that you fall off the earth. This has personally been a major driving force for my successes to date, and an inspiration for how I want to design my life. Thank you for having this on your channel with all the influence you have. Many blessings to you from the lover ayahuasca

People will be looking back to this video 10 years later as the point where it all began. This is where Charlie Escobar started, with his charisma he built the biggest drug empire of the internet world while convincing the goverment he was running a self-help empire.

Man, this video resonated with me SO hard. I too feel like I repress my inner child. I am also always trying to be constantly productive, and I hide many feelings while at it. Heck, even when I am playing video-games, I am focusing on getting better at them! I need to let my inner child play more. Your video made me realize that. Thanks man! It is not the first time Charisma on Command helped me in a deep psychological and philosophical manner. You guys are amazing! Thanks for everything :D

Quite surprised to see this topic on this channel, a happy surprise ! :)

Dude, that is really deep, actually it almost feel like your experience explains a lot in my own personal life.... I never felt like a kid since about 6, then it was just..... stifling, shutting up, getting lost in books...... gotta play more, haven't even taken a vacation in like 16 yrs...... stresses.... wow. Very insightful, thank you so much for sharing your experience.

2000% scared to do it, but watching this makes me feel like I have to now. Thanks Charlie my man!

I am so glad you shared your experience, Charlie! I have been meditating for a couple of years and having very similar experiences of connecting with my repressed self and more frequent feelings of pure joyful bliss. Love where this channel is heading!

I am so proud of you and inspired ! I am an end of life doula and have done ever so much work on my soul. To hear your expression and to see YOUR JOY was immeasurably miraculous! I’m so proud of you! Keep up the joy!

I actually cried while watching this, it just clicked. Thank you so much for sharing.

Dude, I cried watching this...

I did an exercise similar to the one Charlie mentioned at the end that worked sort of in reverse, but I feel like this video helps explain that experience - got into a meditative state, eyes closed and lying on the floor, with some calm music in the background that was similar to a soothing jingle on some sort of baby toy/rocker. I was told to imagine all of the things that I am doing and will do to make my loved ones happy. I was just calm, seeing everyone happy - it was wonderful. I was getting more relaxed. Then, I was told to imagine myself as a young child around age 5-7 playing in a playground. The flash to that image of myself as a young child was so visceral: all images I had conjured in my mind had effortlessly parted ways to the sight of that young child in a playground with a brilliant flash of white light. I was told to imagine the child using their favourite piece of playground equipment after a long day of play, that child who didn't have a care in the world about anything we do as we grow up. I looked at him and remembered thinking that this poor little boy had no idea of all the struggles and events life was going to throw at him. Then I had to tell him something that he would take with him to help improve his life forever. It was hard for me to walk up to him, hard to even look him in the eyes - heck I'm welling up just writing this... I told him over and over to just do what makes him truly happy and not worry what everyone else thinks of you - to not sacrifice yourself for the benefit of others - and then I hugged him. And I broke. Could not continue the exercise as I flooded with tears. I got up immediately and left the room and I had no idea where I was going or what time or day it was, but I just wanted to walk away forever. I just walked and walked down this long hallway - I had NO IDEA which direction I was going to turn, if I was going to leave the building, nothing. It was like autopilot. One of the people conducting the session had to run up to me and bring me back. They sat with me outside the room and comforted me until it was over. Even though I knew what the conductors were doing, and even though I had a feeling that I knew what was coming, I didn't expect it to hit me that hard. I thought it was just a meditative mind game, but this video makes so much sense of it, now - at least I think it does. It seems like my inner child unleashed in that moment and brought forward all the years of repressed emotions. They took over for the first time in years and didn't show signs of letting go. It was almost like a punishment, but I probably deserved it. If that instructor didn't come to get me, I have no idea where I would have gone. The experience was extremely cathartic. Despite that, I have a feeling that my inner child wasn't done with me, yet. Cannot imagine how it would be like with the help of ayahuasca. Trust me, you will not be truly prepared for your body's response to communicating with your inner child.

This has been more eye opening and helpful than anything I have ever watched or listened to ever. This includes Anthony Robbins. Thank you.

i love how you expressed all those conversations so well that i could imagine them in my head 💚

What if you're not an achiever, but a complete time waster? Would I need to speak to my inner adult? Asking for a friend.

The worst thing that I've ever done to myself is convincing myself that the things I do are work and not play. What's the point of being an animator if it's not fun? What's the point of being an artist? Or an Actor if the only joy that I find in the entire process is when there's just another piece of content created? I've been using and honing these skills as a means to an end, the end product, and it's usually pretty decent. I never drew as a kid because I wanted to hone a skill, or for the sake of the finished creation, but because it was just fun to draw things. I realized this all because of all the RU-vidrs I hear saying something along the lines of, "Making youtube videos they want to make." It's not for the joy I bring to others, it's for the joy that I bring to myself through the process.

I find this video great because it highlights something not just about yourself but what a lot of people struggle with. That is that our greatest strength can and often is also our greatest weakness. Your entire channel is a testament to your talent to analyze and process the information in a way that is easy to digest. You obviously love what you do, but at least at the time of this event you went to, you hadn't really learned how to "turn it off" and I know I struggle with that as well in my own areas I feel strong in. Like your story about the guitar and always trying to figure out how to get better, but never just allowing yourself to enjoy the abilities you have cultivated without having to worry about being "better" in that moment. It's really all very enlightening.

I always learn something useful on this channel but with this upload I feel that I have learned something truly profound. Thank you.

I never thought I would see a dmt video on this channel haha

Dude ! You are too Awsome! Much love and Respect. Thank you for sharing your inner child with us.

Thank you for sharing about this sensitive subject, Charlie. This is something I've been researching a lot about as well and it's nice to hear from someone as relatable as you.

This is low key one of the best videos on RU-vid. Thank you.

"Let them flow.. Let them flow.. Can't hold them back anymore.." I have also worked on releasing my true feelings. Now I realise it's nothing to work on, just to let them flow. Let them flow.

I'm really happy you've spoken with that side of yourself and your words have made me realize how much I actually listen to that kid. I had the sense that I was losing him, but I actually speak to him every week. The crying with joy is something I've trained myself to do as a way to practice gratitude for everything. You basically affirmed to me that I'm doing the right thing and reminded me that it's my choice of how much I allow him out. My teenage self is super repressed, though, I feel...as a result of not dating or experiencing/exploring my sexuality back then. I'm enthused to see what I can do for that now lol

Dude, this is an incredible video. This is by far the most profound and educational video you have ever made in my opinion, and that's saying something because all of your videos are such.

Great vid! I am glad to see content like this that is appealing to the masses yet has substance and depth...keep up the good work!

Wow, I feel as if I've been drawn to the video for a purpose. This is the very first video I've watched of yours and I feel like it was speaking directly to me. I've forgotten how to have fun and to be joyful just for the sake of it. Everything in my life is done for a purpose and an outcome and not just because! I'm going to try and connect with my inner child and find out how I can heal. Thank you, loved the video.

This was crushing. I have lived an unusually happy life and have always wondered how considering I am a Mensa level community college dropout who makes a decent living yet plays 2 games all year and rewatches all seasons of The Office every 8 months. I've lived my life for the kid inside me and have failed to reach my potential. The kid inside me told me to grow up and now I will.

You never cease to amaze me with the content you put out!

Thank you for sharing and being so honest about your experiences. Not only in this video but in so many videos. Your honesty is what keeps me coming back to these videos. Earlier this year I decided to audition for a play with a local theater group - I'd done drama in high school but not since. The joy and happiness I felt in just auditioning was astounding. I got a part in the play and anytime I work on it whether it's acting with the other cast members or listening and imitating accents or memorizing lines I am so happy. Hearing your story I think that when I decided to audition (it had been something I'd thought about doing for years but never did) that I was finally listening to my inner child. I agree finding the play in life is so important. It gives me so much energy it doesn't matter how my week has been when I go to rehearsal I get to play with other people and it fills me with joy. Thank you for all your work I love your channel thank you for your honesty about your own struggles it shows how genuine you are.

I’m glad you shared this experience!

I'm happy that you comunicate with your inner child. Well done :)

Wow! One of the most profound videos I've ever listened to. Thank you. This is life-changing insight.

Love this so much!!! Thank you!! Added to my "most enlightening video ever" list. (It's a short list)

I'm from The Netherlands and it's remarkable how 'common' psychedelic drugs are here. I mean, you can go to a so called smart shop (like every big town has at least one) and buy truffles there. These shrooms vary in intensity and are completely legal. Even the mildest variant takes you on a mild euphoric trip that puts certain aspects of life in a very different light. I tried it once with a friend who was very insecure about how things were going in his life, so we bought some with a couple of mates, sat down in the woods and tripped our asses of. It's amazing what psychedelics do to your brain and what lessons you can learn from yourself.

Dude its awesome you shared this! Thanks! Really Appreciate it!

Dude I am so stoked that you shared this. And made me feel better about going balls out truthful on what I’ve been partaking in as well! Transparency is the best policy. Charisma on command is based around communication! My motto is ultra communication at all times and thank you for your videos.

This is your best video. Probably the most life changing thing I’ve ever heard. Didn’t realize how much I’ve been cruel to my inner child. Thank you so much for posting this.

This is amazing! We should all listen to our inner child more often. I sometimes feel like we‘re all still ACTING like we‘re adults and prove it by ‚liking‘ the adult stuff. Love from Switzerland!

“ ... because she takes care of me and you don’t” - that seriously hit home; thank you for this level of courageous

wow. this is my favourite video that you have ever done. as a holistic health coach knowing about these things I cannot thank you enough for educating people on your experience and knowledge on accepting your inner child. love what you do!

Hi Charlie! I just saw your video and got me thinking a lot, I get where you’re coming from. Just right after seeing it my inner child came to me, and for the first time in a long time I was able to be receptive to him, tears came as I saw how bad I have been treating him, felt really bad 😔, but I listened to him and just like your case of having someone treat treat your inker child as it should be, I realized he want to be treated and taken care of like the people I appreciate in my life. Thank you so much for sharing and shedding a little light, we think (the inner child and me🤪) that it’s so great that people like you are here and that can take us away from the mindless and numbing monotony of every day, if even just for a moment. Thank you so very much, cheers!!!!

A decade without crying?! Jesus, I can't even go 3 days without tearing up at least a little bit at whatevers happening (usually happy things)

5:58 I sobbed. Straight out sobbed. Tears shot from my eyes. When you tried to shut down your inner child I felt gut wrenchingly sorrow for the little you that you rejected. I don't even know why I had this response, it came from what seems out of nowhere. Through your talk it made me realize that I am the opposite of this. I play to much, my inner child runs my life and not in a good way. I procrastinate, I find humor in almost everything, I have fun doing the simplest tasks and i avoid work that i don't find enjoyable at all cost. I also eat like crap and i realized that I'm stuck. I do not know what to do about being stuck or how to balance this part of me. If anyone has any suggestions, I'm open to hearing them because I know that there are so many things that I just let me pass by and if I put effort towards I would be much more productive.

Thank you for this video! I've been meditating recently on archetypes and their relevance in my life-- particularly in my love for temporary autonomous zones. I feel like your story made a puzzle piece fall into place in a reflection of my experience (an acknowledgement that I connect with my inner child while in a temporary autonomous zone, like a festival or a party)-- and one that I was not previously able to articulate. Thank you for this, your story is beautiful and how this echos in my life is profound.

Best Ayahuasca reflection I've seen on the net, thank you!

Hmm, sounds like it may be very helpful. Been a very rough 40yrs.... BTW you have a great smile, and you are fun to listen to. Thanks.

4:10 "the shaomin said (ad takes over) I make about $20k to $30k a month"....LOLOLOLOL

Absolutely awe inspiring. That’s genuinely touching. Even made me write a comment. Thanks a million for that!

Another powerful way to get in touch with your inner child is writing with your non-dominant hand! After getting in the mindset of your child self, try writing questions to your child self with your dominant hand and just wait for the answer as your non-dominant hand responds. I cry every time I go through this exercise, and it's nice to have physical reflections to look back at later.

Your story only made me realise so much about myself I can’t even begin to imagine how much experiencing ayahuasca myself is going to help me realise! Wow thank you so much for this video! 🙏🏻

Thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing. I’ve been enjoying your videos, and this is the most poignant and meaningful one of them all.

Thanks for deciding to share this with us Charlie. Always like to hear your open and honest reflections on your experiences. You approach things with an open mind - even if its polar to your current beliefs, and its really refreshing.

Hey Charlie! Could you make a video focussing on Freddie Mercury and entertaining/hooking up an audience. This may be hard because he was mainly singing, but I think this makes this ability of him even more remarkable. I know you've did videos like this in the past, but I think he is a great example and deserves a video on his own. Nevertheless keep up the great work, really love your videos. Greetings from Germany

Wow man, that was very interesting. I've heard several accounts of peoples experiences on ayahuasca, and they all seem different. I've never heard one like this though, and it made a lot of sense. Very cool. I guess it is hard to notice an imbalance if everything looks good in your life externally. Great video.

Wow. Incredible! That was so very clear and well done. And I am writing a book on the Inner Child. Beautiful. And I am in tears.

That was amazing... I can't describe how deep this has touched me and how much I relate. Thank you.

I congrat you for manage yourself. I had 2 experiences with ayahuasca, it is a psychedelic tool for introspection, who get into your subconscious mind. And you can see and feel very deep things of you. Is for braves

great he's talking about psychedelics, please do this more people need to hear about it :))

This may not be your most popular video but it's the most valuable to me. Thanks!

Man I felt this on such a deep level. I have a tendency to repress so much of myself for the sake of social convention and expectations I place on myself. As you were speaking I kept reflecting on my interactions and day to day activities and my mental commentary on them. I love your channel but this video is my favorite on your entire channel and inspires me to do some inner work. Thank you so much for sharing.

Glad you had a health experiences with this! Drugs aren't all bad :)

Wow, this was incredible. I really didn't think id make it through the whole video, but I'm glad I did. I remember when I bought my ps4 back a few months ago I felt really guilty saying things like "its a waste if money and time, you sold it for a reason, you could be making progress, ect." But I knew this mindset wasnt healthy. I totally get were u are coming from. But like we all do, I have my own problems to fix and I think I might try this ayahuasca thing out.

This is so synchronistic. I used to watch you but unsubbed a while ago because I didn't want to put too much pressure on me being charismatic and pleasing other people. I really started my spiritual journey. Then today I asked the universe for a sign they were with me. I felt disconnected in some ways, and recalled my own trips and wish i could have similar experiences. Never tried ayauascha but looked it up to listen to other people's experiences. Your video was the first video to pop up, and it was posted 22 hours ago, 22 being a special number for me. Watching this I realized I too need to focus on my inner child. I wish you'd do more videos like this one, I really enjoyed it.

This is my favourite video from you. I’m quite repelled from the idea of taking mind altering substances, but I’m glad to learn the lessons that you did without actually having to go through with what you did. It made sense to me watching the video. I got excited toward the end when you provided that practice, and I thought I’d try it and it would be really cool. I’m disappointed that it didn’t work for me, I did what you said but didn’t get anywhere. I found it difficult to think clearly and focus, even though I tried to deprive myself of any sensory stimulus/distraction. I couldn’t ‘talk’ to myself or even reflect on my life. It was exceptionally difficult for me to try to fill the space with things from my childhood, even though I’m only 16 I barely remember my own past. If anything this exercise has just made me realise how confused and unclear I am. I don’t know what my problem is but if I try to think on a deep, emotional level about myself or my life it’s just blurry, unproductive and I just can’t seem to do it. However, once again I thought the video was amazing and got me thinking. Genius!

Thank you for sharing this.

This is so sad that people let themselves forget to just Be.

Wow man, that was beautiful. Thanks for sharing that experience, even when you felt uncertain about it at first.

Instantly doubled the hype for my Amsterdam trip next week!!! Thank you for sharing

happy you brought this up :)