I'm currently 19 years old and I'm in my prime time to explore and grow, though I'm pretty restricted on what I can do. I try to jog but I just cant find the energy to do so. I cant really plan a diet or go to the gym because I don't have the finances to do so. My sleep schedule is a mess and my mental capacity and stress endurance is depleting by the coming days. I've grown socially inept because of the isolation and anxious when it came to leaving my comfort zone. I live in the Philippines which is a very conservative country, but it lacks comfort and standards. My family isn't really understanding and they won't listen to any suggestions that I make to try to somehow make our lives better. I try to educate my self about many topics but it's just too much for a kid like me to handle. I'm not confident enough to leave and find a job. And secondly my country isn't really job friendly when it comes to Accepting working students. It's hard to live like this I have no one to talk to, and every day it just keeps getting worse. I don't know where to begin. And I'm scared to take a step because I know that I'll be alone without a guiding figure and a supportive family by my side.
Your current situation sounds rough. I understand that there are some aspects of your everyday life that you can't change because of your environment. I'm 20 and also living in my peak life, and I think it's very brave of you to open up about it. I haven't taken care of my body for the past three years and can see the aftereffects of it. If you want advice, I can try to give it to you.Based on what I read, it seems like you lack purpose in life. You feel behind and demotivated. You see so many people around you, especially on social media, having a successful life, particularly people our age. Personally, I stopped comparing myself to others and decided to improve my life at my own speed. I recently made my first RU-vid videos since it was a dream of mine to create a channel. There are some aspects of your life that you can change, such as improving sleep quality and jogging. The most important thing you should do is try to understand why you are so stressed and anxious. Accepting your feelings and your current situation is the first step to change.
Hey Seth, my latest video should address parts of your concern. You don't know where to begin because you're so deep into the dream of feeling bad. But the good news is you're good at articulating yourself and expressing your feelings. Continue expressing them and the more you talk about yourself, the more you express your frustrations the more likely you are to get yourself out of the deep state of feeling bad (because the time you spend talking about your feeling bad requires you to observe your bad feeling to express it in language). The one caveat is when you express yourself in a non-safe space you will be met with replies to your expression and people trying to tell you what to do, how to think, how you shouldn't be thinking xyz, and such. Expression itself is the important part. You're welcome to continue doing that in this youtube channel or hop in on my discord server and just dump your emotions where you won't be met with replies and criticism!
Hairloss was weird for me because longer hair felt like such a core part of my person, it was a lot more than just the insecurity. Then I figured out I was transgender😐. Feel I'm probably a pretty heavy outlier there though lol
