Borderline Personality Disorder as a Child 

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Thank you so much for sharing my story❤️❤️❤️

I really love how the host acknowledges and praises her for her self awareness. I know that BPD comes with a lot of negative self talk and re-assuring and complimenting people with that disorder and commending them for getting help is just really great to see.

Emotional unavailability causes Bpd...usually narcissistic parenting or neglect..which can lead to verbal, sexual or physical abuse, depending on the severity of the toxic caregivers. Usually borderlines are more smothering & not as emotionally neglectful...we usually give too much....just the boundaries arent there, you constantly have to check yourself as a parent with Bpd...& at least we have a high chance of recovering & hold ourselves accountable for our actions, even if it's difficult.

I was diagnosed with (major) personality disorder in Jan 1982 at the age of 17 years old after a very traumatic childhood. I was mentally abused by my step mother at the age of 6 & 7 years old. I spent 10 years in a childrens home after my step mother abandoned me on the street at the age of 7 years old in 1971. My real father betrayed me, because he allowed my stepmother to put my in a childrens home. My real mother would not get me out of the childrens home after she found out where i was, and her words were actually "he's better off where he is". So i guess that's where the overwhelming fear of abandonment comes from. Dissociation was a major problem through my school years all i did was daydream. My life as been a total mess i'm now 55 years old.

14:37 She almost hit the mark. Bipolar is totally different to BPD. Bipolar episodes last months usually (whole chunks of the year), not days or hours as in BPD. Bipolar also has a lot of schizophrenic symptoms, like delusions of grandeur or disorganised speech, which BPD does not. But the biggest giveaway is that BPD mood swings are triggered by some small thing someone said to the person that gets taken personally. So in that sense, they are very immediate. This can immediately change their whole day around, for good or for bad.

I hear the pain in your voice.. Keep it up babe! Thank you for your story 😘

Sammy you are so brave. We can hear your voice shaking and we all love you and we know and can see that your will and determination in un-shakeable.

Wow! Thanks for telling my story. My youth is full of damage, like yours, that feels so real today that it could have happened last week to me. For soooo long I just thought I was that bad kid who turned into a bad young adult who became a lameass adult. I was told over and over that I was like throwing good money after bad. I internalized my anger & hate at myself which I believe did the most damage. I’m still untangling those ingrained rituals today. I sought treatment for depression at 28. At 35, due to being hit by a drunk driver, I sought help for PTSD. After that it snowballed into anxiety, then major recurring depression w/ anxiety disorder...and at age 49 I was diagnosed w/ BPD. I felt like I was a massively horrible human because hardly any mental health specialist wants to treat BPD and meds can only treat the symptoms. It’s like a hit or miss drug cocktail. Thank goodness a doc suggested a genome test for drug compatibility. It was a life saver. So here I sit at 50, a weird mashup of wreckage & adventure. I just want to get back on the path to be the person I was supposed to be.

You can tell how nervous she is. Maybe it’s because I can recognize her voice quavering because mine does the same thing when I talk about my shitty life.

Thank you for bringing awareness to Borderline Personality Disorder.

The shaking in her voice...oh I feel for her. But she did great, God bless this lady

She is beautiful. I am so happy she shared her story with us.

I love this series so much, she deeply inspirs me and I truely appreciate, how Kyle treats his gest with such genuine respect and admiration. It is amazing!

Sammie thank you so much for sharing your story! You have no idea how much you helped me see how much this diagnosis relates to me. Your story is almost a carbon copy of my life. I am in therapy now....having only recently been diagnosed. I have a long road ahead of me but u are so inspiring.....thank u...

The fact she was able to speak like this cos lots of BPD sufferers can’t cope with the exposure.

Beautiful, articulate, good hearted young woman. Thank you for your bravery and generosity in honestly and openly sharing your story 💜

great lady and her doctor to recognize the basic problems,her strength through the many years will inspire all of us and future generations in the mental health field which is really family health,god bless you as we go through life

BRO when i first got diagnosed with bpd this was the first video i watched. a couple months later, i find her in my explore, completely unaware its the same person. i was looking up a specific video by her and i cannot BELIEVE its her ive grown to love her so much shes so amazing.

Thank you for putting yourself out there Sammy

Proud of this girl for beings brave and sharing her story. It is not an easy disease but you can tell she is a fighter. You’re on the right track girl! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 By the way her diagnosis and mental health challenges does not revolve about men’s needs. Some of these comments here only show that BPD is not the worst diagnosis there is. Ignorance is.

Her voice still trembles. Thank you! 💕

Wow,That is brave to evaluate yourself and be honest about the signs of mental disorder.And for your self diagnoses to be confirmed by a Psychologist.Many people are suffering with this conditions and never have the courage or support to go get examined.

💔❤️‍🩹 the description at beginning. Sammy is very resilient and determined. I know a higher source was definitely helping her and guiding her. My life is almost identical to Sammy’s. Thank you for your courage and desire to want to help others.

This interview is amazing! My only experience with a borderline person was my mother and she had zero insight with constant denial and blaming everyone else for everythiing, including her own behavior. This video gives me some hope and also really changes my perception of BPD - this girl has incredible insight and self-awareness, something I had no idea could be possible for someone with this diagnosis. The only question I have is whether you can really expect the average person with BPD to have insight into their behavior and emotional dysregulation - with my mother it seems completely hopeless and impossible. I wish there was some way to help her, but the denial and deflection tendencies are so intense.

What a beautiful human being. Thank you for sharing your story

Oh wow! The fact that we have even similar personality, from what I can tell from these series now...

I feel like Sammy is my long lost sister. 😩 everything you’ve said I relate to so so much. I appreciate you for sharing.

Go check out her channel after you watch these! Sammy has helped me so much through my own journey with BPD. Having her on RU-vid is like having the support system I lack in real life. I’m just so proud to be a part of the Sam Fam💖

Thank so much for sharing your story

Thank you for sharing your story ❤, I had an very unstable family life as well, and haven't had anything to do with my mother or sister either, the toxicity is too much to handle. I am working on my BPD with EMDR, and its amazing. It works great for trauma and BPD

Thank you for your bravery. I have OCD.Bob

what an adorable,intelligent,engaging young woman...a real fighter.I hope she continues to work through her life obstacles .❤

I watched all your vids about BPD thank u for helping me understand my pain.

It's crazy how similar my own story has been. I can hear the anxiety and I feel for it.

Love this girls aura and energy. I can relate so much

Catalyst, we will meet and connect someday in a really benevolent enlightening way. You're an exceptional human being.

Wow i can relate to her story so much. Inspiring. I wanna make videos talking about my BPD & drug addiction recovery. Idk where to start tho 😛

THANK you SAMMI!

Very interesting - thanks

She's a huge inspiration and a mental health warrior. 💖

This is amazing

You are unbelievably amazing! I will be 60 years old next month, and I am just NOW figuring out that I probably have BPD!!! I have been in “fight or flight” mode my whole life! I’m on my 3rd marriage, and I just keep thinking if my circumstances changed, all would be better or I’ll be happy when... Thank you for being so courageous, intuitive, and open! You are a gift from God to SO many people! I have been praying for help for almost a year since I realized there was something more wrong with me than just an anxiety disorder. I, too, was diagnosed with bi-polar and knew it was not the right diagnosis. I have been seeing a therapist and psychiatrist for 5 years, and NO ONE ever mentioned BPD. I just happened to see a video from psych2go on RU-vid talking about it. Then, I searched further on RU-vid to see the differences between bi-polar and BPD. I now feel like I finally have the right diagnosis and can go forward with a plan. Thank you again. You are an answer to my prayers. ❤️

This was so interesting. Love from your SamFam, Sammy.

I have symptoms of Bpd, and learning and growing ❤

She's a Warrior! #Respect Angel from The Bay

As much as I respect your privacy Sammy, it is EXTREMELY helpful to know some specifics in order to gauge levels of toxicity for people that may be on a lesser spectrum of BPD. This is because even though some may have experienced less traumatic severity we can still experience desire to cut off family and this would help gauge whether or not that is appropriate. Not at all prying to request or complain about lack of specifics just felt like this is an important point.

It’s weird how similar our lives are yet different . One of my friends told me they think I might have this.. I couldn’t believe how accurate the symptoms related to me. It made me angry and upset because I’ve been getting the wrong diagnoses from doctors the whole time and I feel like I finally got the right diagnosis after being confused for years.

she's so strong!

She is so strong :)

Thank you for sharing this story, I am sick and tired of reading about "not smiling, hard to soothe child" and "well intentioned families" and "invalidating environment". I have a similar background, you are free to believe me or not but it was like being in war. I was scared to death all the time. I was unable to sleep and sometimes I feel this sensation again. Fear, pure fear. I am angry just because I feel in danger all the time.

I really think Kyle does a great job, and Thank You for Sharing your story too

I also went to my physician when it came to my mental health, and he just wrote me a prescription for anxiety, which I still take (we have raised the dose once already) and hasn't helped me at all. Through research I'm starting to think that maybe I struggling with borderline personality disorder.

Your amazing.. Ty. I'm 51 been diagnosed all my life.. To the point I have no one in my life I don't let no one close to know me anymore.. I don't know how I made it to still be alive .. Today ?? Therapy scares me to let anyone close to me anymore. I trusted a person i believe was a friend. 5 yrs I didn't realize I was never in his life.. He didn't even treat me like a person at all . he lol was my whole life.. He never claim to know me at all .. He was never my friend.. I had no clue. !! He just used me.. Kept it hid from people for 4 .. Hardest thing to let go . is a person who i never had.. His head games.. Triggered my personalities. He called it nothing but crazy babble.. He ignore me . I go nuts. Cause I didn't know why.. I would relive traumatized me for days.. All my personalities would come out.. An hate me.. I have no clue what all I say. I just know it's not good. People get negative to me.. Hurt me I don't understand why. I try so hard to be good to people.. But I been abused all my life . my mom says I'm fine I just freak out some times stop it.. Idk sorry I'm babbling. An bothering being a burden .. I don't think I even know how to comunicate anymore.. Sorry I have no support system.. An very greatful u bring attention to what I have only been called crazy an told get over it.. I'm trying so hard to do my self care . an came across your vidios. Cause I'm so messed up.. But I do live in a safe place I can call home.. I don't get beat on no more.. I make little tiny crosses from dead dogwood trees. Help my mind stop replaying traumas in my head. An try an live another day.. I call them pocket crosses around the world . helping people smile. Share across . cause people can't see my scares . makes my life very hard. But I take 2 tiny little dead sticks.. That most see is dead has no purpose uses or meaning to it anymore.. Make crosses with them . An give them to people along with the ledgen on the dogwood tree.. That's the tree they claim JESUS was sacrificed on. An when people smile an Exsept them . they put life back into those little tiny dead sticks.. They are how i get through life.. Trying to help awareness for the mentelly disabled an abused.. Cause life is hard .. When u don't look abused or crazy.. I hide my tears . cause people ain't cared for years. Just think I'm wierd.. If I talk about me.

Her story is almost identical to mine. But I’m 17 I just reached out for help. I didn’t realize being self aware at this age was a big thing.

MY THERAPIST SAID I CAN BE SURE I HAVE BPD!!! i am so relieved.

I was 20 when I realized that I needed help, but the help I got did not recognize the full extent of my issues. It wasn't until about the age of 30 that I got mis-diagnosed with bipolar 2. I didn't go on meds until the age of 33, and during a stay in the psych unit when I was 40 I finally got diagnosed with BPD. Unfortunately my psychiatrist does not believe that diagnosis is right. As mean as that hospital psychiatrist was to me, I believe he was right. In fact, I had my suspicions about BPD even before I got that diagnosis, because I felt there were things I was struggling with that the hypomania diagnosis didn't cover, and I was realizing that my mood swings were happening within a day or 2, not weeks or months. I'm not even sure how to bring this up again with my psychiatrist, because although I have the fear of abandonment issues and instability in relationships, for the most part I am not outwardly angry or hostile toward the people I feel have abandoned me. I tend to internalize my anger and self harm physically and emotionally rather than take out my anger on other people. If I feel abandoned by someone I might get really angry at them and yell and scream in my car, but never to their face, because I am afraid that my anger would result in further abandonment. Every day feels like a freaking rollercoaster because I'm always hoping for reassurance that I am the other person's beloved, and if I feel like their words or actions are not reassuring, my mood will plummet. But I am so good at hiding my feelings that I think people have no idea just how much emotional pain I am in.

Sam Fam checking in!!

I love her💓

I always have the same feeling..while im blaming other people about what happened, i also feels like there must be something happen inside me..

Richard Grannon should come on your series. He's very charismatic and knowledgeable on bpd and npd. His channel, Spartan Life Coach, is useful and practical.

Sometimes I feel like I’m two different people one day I knew something was changing and it did and I saw myself in front of me And that one lasted a long time that’s the most I’ve ever felt before I hope you understand I just know where this young lady is going through because it’s like she’s reading my mind in my story so OK anyway

Exactly what my doctor did. Shoved pills at me n sent me on my way, while I’m crying my eyes out. Smfh. Haven’t been back to him since.

The trembling in her boice remind me of me . its how i sound talking in general :/

My mum and dad left 2 young children each (2 brothers and 2 sisters) and got together. I was born a year later and feel like crap to say the least. At 39 , bpd is coming on thick and fast. I broke my neck last year and now wheelchair bound. so Im feeling all 9 traits X10. 😶.. just waiting for a diagnosis. I'm on 375mg vensir and feel it's making it worse. ✌❤

My son is 38 and I think he has BPD. He is mad at me for suggesting it. What can I do to get him help???

I do have BDD, as I have depression, anxiety disorder etc. ALL of these are BIG SERIOUS ilnnesses. Just because they are some what bettwr understood now, does NOT make them any less horrible to deal with. Let’ s just keep that mind! 🙏🏽

I don’t think you understand us people that grow up in a house where you have to take care of your siblings and everything, you grow up wayy faster then “normal people” if you know what I mean

i am self aware. i hope completely. I feel like i may have been misdiagnosed with bipolar. what do i say to them to test or reevaluate my diagnosis?

thank you; I just descovered that my dauther has BPD not a Bipolar disorder - what can I do for her?

Most people with BPD are very anxious. My mom was very unstable and my dad was abusive towards his women. I thankfully didn’t turn out like this. I suffered from depression in my late teens/early 20s and then overcame it. I’m quite a stable person and quite sensible. I love myself too much to ever allow myself to be unstable.

You just told my childhood story.

Thank you so much for sharing your information on B.P.D. I also stuffer from B.P.D. I Just want to say you are so beautiful and brave for discussing this sensitive topic. People with B.P.D just suffer so much it seems yet people label us as bad but if you ask me we just have difficulty with dealing with our emotions due to us being super empathic and sensitivity. I just wanna give you a hug beautiful. I wish you all the best in the future. I also want to wish anyone suffering with B.P.D. to seek help. I also want to wish anyone suffering with this illness the best for the future to find some inner and outer peace and happiness take care. Please always remember everyone suffering from B.P.D that you not alone best wishes.

I have bpd tendencies but I don't disassociate at least not like her. Idk what is wrong with me. Can depression act like bpd? So confused.

A point on going to a GP and how many of them try to hand out prescriptions instead of sending someone to a mental health professional- my doctor's clinic is supposed to work with my mental healthy clinic and have specific bridges to keep the two sides connected on the patients. However, when I wated to get back into therapy and was talking to my GP about where to go, she wanted me to see the psychiatrist at that mental health clinic and get with a therapist there as well. When i first started talking to my new therapist, she told me their psychiatrists will not see anyone if they have no first tries different prescriptions with their GP. And the jut seems so...backwards and potentially dangerous to me.

1thing that iv always noticed that one day i will be so angry and so frustrated and snap at everyone but im not angry 🤷‍♀️ knowone has done anything to make me off balance i just feel like that and will shift between sadness and angry and have no reason behind it within the matter of a hour if that, iv just had 2 days of being sad for no reason 🤷‍♀️, so il sit there getting frustrated at myself as to why i felt like that,

It's called introspection...

I’m no expert but I didn’t think you could have schizophrenic tendencies with BPD because schizophrenia has that emotional flattening to the disorder. A sibling of mine is schizophrenic.

Thank you so much for these videos! I met a man in February. He Told me he loved me on our second date. By our fourth date he wanted to marry me. A couple months later he gave me a ring bought me a $3000 couch and then soon moved in with me. We got married July 31. Less than two months later I found out he had a kid and lied to me about the girl he was living with when we first started dating. My family and friends hate him. He moved away to work. I don’t think he knows he has bpd but I am convinced he does. I want this to work so bad. But after he put the second hole in my wall broke my Xbox controller and broke my TV my parents will never except the fact of me wanting to be with him again!! I never knew about his bpd until now. I know I can’t change him or make him hole but I now understand him way more and he no longer has to live with the lie of having a daughter. Please help

Helped me understand a family friend who I have been avoiding because she appears to pick fights constantly. Family feels she self medicates her bipolar. Clear to me it’s more likely b p d .

My wife has BPD this is a god send. How do I find her RU-vid Page??? Someone please help. Thank you very much.🙏

If anyone can help point me in the direction of any content for parents looking for help with their BPD daughter or BPD child please let me know. There’s not much out here on that, rather a lot on BPD parents. Thank you! God bless

If you'd told dad they probably have taken all the gifts - Sami & her sisters - and given y'all to dad. Perhaps. Unless your sisters were from other fathers. That's amazing all you sacrificed to stay with your sisters.

On Sammi's channel she seemed to have returned to embracing the BiPolar diagnosis...so, apparently it's not a misdiagnosis after all?

She is beutiful

You are gorgeous! Beautiful

I wonder if her sister's have bpd . ?

Thank you for your support of Sammie's choice to cut off her parents. I have had to make the same choice and most people will tell you how awful you are for doing that.

You block youryour mom out because she’s toxic, but you want her to call you on Christmas and show you she cares.. Have some kids, then you will see 1st hands how different the world really is.

Can you please include more people of color?? We’re always ignored in the psych community and we’re the one who are likely to commit suicide at a higher rate! Being a person of color matters when it comes to BPD!

19 is only a child in our sick society.

The interviewer is slightly creepy.

Med circle - why are your subscriptions so so expensive? I understand you have to pay all these professionals to do good work. So Can you please consider monetizing your videos on RU-vid and reducing the overall :(

I think your sisters had a better shot then you did because of you. They had a mother figure where as you had no one. You helped save your sister it came at i price but you did shield them

"boopadoo" ☺️

ONE OF THE GREAT THINGS ABOUT AMERICANS - IS THAT THEY (ALL) FIRMLY BELIEVE THE KRA THAT THEY TELL YOU - NOT UNDERSTANDING THAT "ONE SIZE DOES / NOT / FIT ALL"

oops sounds like they don't .

her voice started shaking when she started talking-- I don't think this is helping her move past all of this trauma- I am using the Joe dispense meditations to heal trauma! It works!

Getting in trouble for defending other kids. Some fuckin' times man...

HEY KYLE ARE U SINGLE ? 😘