If you do not want to live and you do not want to feel anything, it does not matter that you have family and children. It's in your head. You do not want to do anything, you do not want to feel. You can not be happy because thoughts overwhelm you, they keep coming back. I know that feeling. There are days when you feel that you do not want to live anymore. So those who say how he could leave his family do not know what they are saying. Chester fought for a very long time ....... Dear Tallida! Chester will always remain in our hearts, thoughts.
Yes, too much childhood trauma that made him and his sister Tobi develop Bipolar disorder😔shes told me she was also sexually abused for years as a child by the same man that abused Chester and she too have tried to commit suicide several times , its SO FUCKING tragic
Had and still have those feelings, so crazy. Wife gave me a choice die or get some help. I got help on luvax and doing good. Immigrant family didnt get it. My daughter has the same issues. Recognized it, so far so good. Mental illness is real. Get a hold of it early if you can
That was the most beautiful eulogy I have ever heard. It brought me to tears too. It's obvious that he was a true friend to Chester in the most honest and sincere way.
lorna young i'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my father to suiside, i know how it feels. Just stay strong, dear. I know it's so hard... But we don't have another choice. May God give you strengths and i hope He'll forgive our loved ones too.
Mari Khorsheva thank you Mari that’s very kind of you to reply, I’m so sorry for your loss too. I’m just trying to take it one day at a time but it’s so hard xxxx
lorna young i guess it's the hardest thing that can happen in life, and unfortunately we can't change it. I think you do right, slowly it'll get better, time will heal the pain, at least at some point. I just wish you to be surrounded by some good people that would warm your heart with love and care, that would be there for you anytime you need, it's so important not to be alone now! My hugs go to you, dear. It'll be OK one day❤
Lily I m sorry for ur loss dear u need to be strong and be happy ur husband is looking ri8 at you everyday .. think abt it u r a strong women .. respect to you I know he hard that is for anybody .. but plz do not let evil take on you .. anytime do not feel u r alone we r there for you and will always be .. whenever u feel like talking just reply to this message and I will be there for you Lily be strong lady we love you .. u r not alone ..
It sucks depression is a horrible thing to live with I know first hand been dealing with it for over 30 years ..... All his music had things about depression in it .. Forever will love Chester rest in peace LP heartbreaking #lovechesterforever
I don't know why there's been very little info on this either. I'm curious to know if he was actually taking antidepressants at the time. I know in interview he mentioned taking large doses of them. I have been truly heartbroken ever since this happened. Ironically going through the absolute worst time in my life which started exactly one week after we lost Chester. It sucks so bad, I've NEVER felt like this about someone I didn't actually know. The connection he made with people and through his music was amazing and his talent will never be matched or even come close. He was incredible, beautiful, and I think about him everyday and for his family, children, friends, band mates, and the rest of his fans. RIP CHESTER
Morgan M this was just a battle that no one saw happening. I wish we can go back in time and help him with his battle! Depression is a real issue and needs to be focused on heavier. I think Cornell’s death was the tipping point for Chester. Just so sad. Two many people lost and I hope and pray they all found their peace. RIP🙏🏼
I heard from a reliable source that he was packing for an 8 month trip and Talinda asked if he was packing his antidepressants. He said he was no longer taking them. I know what it's like not to take your meds. It's an out of body experience. You don't even feel like you are there. Nothing matters and you can do anything.
Right, Chester's wife said publicly that he had stopped taking meds and that there was no way to persuade him in this matter, it's a personal decision.
His sister and Sam said he was still very much taking his antidepressant medication when he passed he had like a small trace of some kinda Xanax maybe not Xanax but some kinda anxiety medication like that, but I believe they were prescribed to Talinda
Damn. What a beautiful and amazing speech and eulogy for Chester Bennington. And for me, I knew what Chester went through, from when he died from killing himself, from 5 years ago. Here’s my own story, of from what I went through, my own suicidal thoughts. It was around October or November of 7 years ago. And well, before October or November of 2015, for me, I was just starting my freshman year of high school, and I was 15 years old, and I was feeling happy, excited, nervous, and a little bit scared, like all of the above. And I eventually decided to put those emotions aside from when I was 15, as I also wanted to see where I would’ve gone from the beginning of high school, and then let it start off smoothly for me. But unfortunately, the beginning of high school for me from 7 years ago, it eventually took, a wrong turn for me. You see, I was just one week away from starting my freshman year of high school from 7 years ago. And here is what happened. I know and understand very well, that she was old and it was her time to go, but my grandmother who was 85 years old, she apparently passed away, I think from old age, if I remember correctly, back in August of 2015, and she died directly week before I was going to start my freshman year of high school, and that is where it took a wrong turn for me. And it wasn’t right after she died, but I do remember that around in between September and December of 2015, either around October or November of 2015, I started to go down a dark path, and then have thoughts of suicide, all because I was really sad and depressed that my grandmother died, as I didn’t know how else to do with her death at the time. And it took me a while, but the thoughts of suicide eventually went away, and I don’t have those thoughts anymore. And almost 2 years after all of that happened to me, in 2017, we all heard the news that Chester Bennington of LP unexpectedly passed away from hanging himself, from him committing suicide, and I think that we all know why he did it. But for me, even though I had nothing to do with it, his death was and still is personal for me, and it always will be personal for me, because of 2 reasons. One reason is because I knew what he went through, and the other reason is because when he passed away in 2017, he literally died 9 days after my 17th birthday passed. I was just 17 years old, and my birthday is on July 11th, and I was born in 2000, and I am 22 years old by now, and I am still happily alive and well, here on earth. But 9 days after my 17th birthday passed from 5 years ago, on July 20th of 2017, we all heard the unexpected and tragic news that Chester Bennington of LP passed away after he committed suicide and hung himself, at just 41 years old. So again, even though I had nothing to do with his unexpected death from 5 years ago, it will always be personal for me, because I feel a deep and special connection to it, because I did and I still know what he went through from when he died, considering that I had thoughts of suicide myself, and him dying, literally 9 days after my 17th birthday passed from 5 years ago, on July 20th, of 2017 at just 41 years old.
Ive not heard of you ryan but this speech is just beautiful.Im sad i never got to see linkin park live.Guess i'll have to meet chester on the other side.Depression is evil.Makes us do things we wouldnt contemplate normally.Ive been there i was a victim or abuse i was a victim of being held against my will i was so scared.Battles with alcoholic men being abusive and aggressive.Im still here standing.As you said ryan,he wasnt in control R.I.P CHESTER XX LOVE U Thankyou so much 4 sharing.Thoughts to all of us fans his friends but most importantly his wife and children 😓💖
Wow Ryan, that was beautiful and I cried with you the whole way through. I'm so sorry you lost your amazing friend. He was an angel and as a fan we were so lucky to have him. It's hard to imagine he is gone. I hope that he is at peace now and his family and friends and of course his beloved linkin park are able to survive this enormous loss. We will never forget you Chester and wherever you may be I hope that you feel every bit of the love pouring out from around the world just for you. Xx #FuckDepression
@@michaellopez4121 Ryan Shuck , He introduced Talinda to Chester at a private party (04) and seduced Chester, then homwrecked his first attempt at a family. Talinda married Chester then ignored him until he gave up, and she is now partying with his money while leaving his kids at home with a nanny. Sad story, really.
I'm sure he never knew that 7 years on it still hurts just the same , it's so tragic he didn't see his own value . I wish him and his family eternal peace . In my thoughts always never forgotten .
One of my childhood friends took his own life. It's been 8 years now. It is much better but still every blue moon it will just hit me. I never seen it coming, like most suicides. You just never see it coming because they always look so happy on the outside
Why was Ryan even asked to speak at Chester’s Eulogy? Because he is the one who brought Talinda in (callgirl and stripper) to an LP party in Indiana in 04 to “meet” Chester. Ryan ‘knew’ Talinda for 4 years and knew Chester had a wife and 2 yo at home. But like Ryan admitted here “he competed with Chester” So, Chester was homewrecked that night by Ryan and Talinda. Chester ended his life on Talinda’s watch … thanks Ryan. #thetruthhurts #nochestersnotproud #fuckblamingdepression #abusersblamedepression
Thankyou Ryan S. What a great friend! He was lucky to have you. I think you two were very close. Closer personally than Mike or L.P.. Like brother's. RIP C.B.
LP was also his family as well they hungout together all the time outside of band stuff, but he was the closest with Mike Shinoda, Sean Dowdell, Ryan Shuck, and Chris Cornell.
People that are a becon of hope and light seem to come from the darkest places , he was talking about it alot before he died, was he trying to warn us ???? We will never really know , i just miss him .
It just amazes me why all the people close to him do not even question what happen, if he was so positive, wonderful, great father, husband strong, able to over come his addiction, loved everyone , why would he of choose to kill himself? Was he so depressed that he was seeing a doctor or on medication? What about the crime scene or the autospy report. We have heard very little and after seeing what everyone went through just a few months before with his close friend Chris Cornell, seeing how hurt Chris's children were, what would be so bad to push him over the edge in the matter of a day? Makes no sense, suicide is not normal, hanging yourself with a belt would be painful and not be very quick. There is a lot we are not being told or this was not a suicide.
pokeyshellie Depression is a mental illness and Chester long battled depression. Sadly, for many sufferers, suicide *is* "normal". I lost my father to it, and I struggle, myself, with depression every day. And just because someone *appears* fine on the outside, doesn't mean that they *are* . Chester's struggles were well-known... but unless you're being vocal about wanting to hurt yourself, no one will ever know, because severely depressed people often are *very* good at hiding their pain. 😞 My father gave no clue. One minute he was laughing around family, and minutes later he went into his bedroom and took his life. 😢 Check out the video about the different side/face of depression (I forget the exact title, but it should be easy to pull up). You'll see what I mean. There was no murder. Chester was in emotional pain and he fought for as long as he could. Let him rest in peace. Don't believe the conspiracy theories. It's all bs from people in denial.
I think you need to rewatch and LISTEN. especially from 15 mins and on. Chester had demons he just couldn't get free from. He couldn't control. He wasn't in a good place in his mind. He was devestated by the death of his good friend Chris. It was Chris's first birthday after his death. Chester didn't want to die. He wanted the pain to end. It was suicide. I've seen it first hand with my husband. Depression and addiction destroys. For instance, like Robin Williams and many others, people learn to hide it. Sometimes we don't know how to help ourselves or how to ask for help. I adore Chester. I can understand what he was going through and how he must have felt. Personal experiences with my hubby. God rest their souls.
Sorry I just don't buy into that, he couldn't of carried on so normal right up to the day of. Besides that, I think he would of thought of all those six kids he had I do not believe that would not of crossed his mind. Hanging yourself is not a fast quick un-painful death, hanging from a door does not give the same effect than if he would of hung from a rafter would, like the ones that were in his house Then the whole business of picking Chris Cornell's birthday and choosing to kill him self the exact same way Chris did. Say he was depressed and he did have demons and he wanted to kill him self, why didn't he shoot him self in the head? He had money and could of got a gun if he didn't already own one. That would be quick, easy, no struggling to breath etc. Plus just going through the death of Cornell, seeing how if affected all his family and fans. If we are to believe he wanted to go out that way and be remembered by his family and fans in that manner then he was a very selfish, self centered didn't give a crap kind of person and I do not believe Chester Bennington fits that roll . Suicide leaves a million questions and we sure do not understand what goes through a persons head at that moment, my father committed suicide but I know why so I'm not left with that part of it. I saw many interviews of Chester and he had so much going for him self and seemed to know he had some issues but said he choose to over come them so hey, that is just my opinion and I'm entitled to that.
pokeyshellie I showed my mom the recent video released of lp singing and stuff and my mom was like so who's the one that committed suicide? And I was like him. And she's like wait really? He doesn't look like he's about to commit suicide he doesn't look depressed, I don't think he killed him self, guys my mom doesn't know about LP, she's never seen them before or heard of them until I started showing her what I listen to.....
pokeyshellie your choice not to believe, there is so many of us, that can relate to how Chester funtioned on the outside and to his turmoil that was doing on inside his head. Believe what you will
I think he got bored, im still amazed how a depressed, abused and a successful talent wil take his own life, after been able to overcome the depression by being successful and having a family. Guess he was done with the success and reached the hallmark of his career, he knew he had done enough for his family to live on. R I P Chester
This wasn't his funeral. This was something that Sean Dowdell (Grey Daze/ Club tattoo) and Ryan Shuck (Dead By Sunrise) put together for some of the fans. Where anyone can speak out on a favorite memory/story of theirs about Chester. Then they played a few songs that Chester wrote for Grey Daze and Dead by Sunrise. They put this on for some of the fans who weren't able to make it to the tribute concert that LP did to celebrate Chester. Both tribute shows for Chester were on the same night.
The crowd keeps nervously laughing out of secondhand embarrassment. When Ryan, Mike, or Sean start talking they all sound so dishonest and self absorbed. Like Kanye grabbing the mic from Taylor ~ it’s just gross. #chestersnotproud
@@suvituulikkivahanen2600 What kind of event was that? Do you know that? Btw at the funeral everything was actually staged like a show. Wristbands were handed out, pins, laminates. So the comparison to a comedy show isn't that far-fetched. Even since Ryan's speech didn't take place directly at the funeral.
This wasn't his funeral. Ryan shared his Eulogy with the fans that he did for Chesters funeral. This was something that Sean Dowdell (Grey Daze/ Club tattoo) and Ryan Shuck (Dead By Sunrise) put together for some of the fans. Where anyone can speak out on a favorite memory/story of theirs about Chester. Then they played a few songs that Chester wrote for Grey Daze and Dead by Sunrise. They put this on for some of the fans who weren't able to make it to the tribute concert @ the Hollywood Bowl that LP did to celebrate Chester. Both tribute shows for Chester were on the same night.
Chester Bennington, Chris Cornell, Kurt Cobain, there is nothing legendary about how they will be remembered? Every body saying mental health issues is no joke! And very well it is not! But a little contradiction cuz a little bit too much joking going on right here! A perfect chance to speak out about mental health issues but none-the-less, a missed opportunity for the fans! I no we don't want to remember our rock idols! As going out this way. So we find justifiable reasons. I'm a huge fan of Elvis Presley! But I don't condone his addiction to painkillers! He was a smart man and he knew what he was doing! Just as well as Chester Bennington was a smart man and he knew what he was doing...
This wasn't his funeral. This was something that Sean Dowdell (Grey Daze/ Club tattoo) and Ryan Shuck (Dead By Sunrise) put together for some of the fans. Where anyone can speak out on a favorite memory/story of theirs about Chester. Then they played a few songs that Chester wrote for Grey Daze and Dead by Sunrise. They put this on for some of the fans who weren't able to make it to the tribute concert that LP did to celebrate Chester. Both tribute shows for Chester were on the same night.
He didn't commit suicide he was murdered if he was I expect his killer to find out where I live so I can avenge him even if I have to kill a man I'm not scared of death
This wasn't his funeral. This was something that Sean Dowdell and Ryan Shuck put together for some of the fans. Where anyone can speak out on a favorite memory/story of theirs about Chester. Then they played a few songs that Chester wrote for Grey Daze and Dead by Sunrise. They put this on for some of the fans who weren't able to make it to the tribute concert that LP did to celebrate Chester. Both tribute shows for Chester were on the same night.
