Dunno who you are. Dunno why you're on my feed. But good luck bro. Respect yourself just a little, DO HARD THINGS, like taking one day at a time, and that respect for self with grow, it will make things easier, eventually, and the self love will grow mate. Chin up bruv.
Today is a new day. A new day to start over! You can do it. There is a saying “ one day or day one”. One day i will get clean or day one of being clean. You can do it. You messed up but thats ok get up brush yourself off and start again. Keep on trying. U will Get clean