Dealing With Emotional Ups And Downs In Opiate Recovery 

I usually get the euphoric feelings later in the day but in the morning I am seriously depressed, but I get over it by living. The mental part is SOOOO much tougher than the physical aspect

Not all superheroes wear capes...thank u Ryan

I love this guy. What a legacy he has left behind ❤

I just found you! Yesterday I found out you passed away! No! You have helped me get through my detox and back on the road. I am going to keep watching your videos. I hope you know how much you mean to people. Thank you so much💕 Words can’t express how sorry I am for your family. I am a widow. My husband died very suddenly too. Our son was 6. No coincidences.

Working out helped me the most with the early depression...

Ryan, I never met or talked to you but I love you brother. I know you are in paradise. You helped so many & continue to do so from beyond this physical existence. Thank you

I don't have an opiate addiction and I don't know anyone close to me who has, however I still feel your videos are very inspirational. I am a medic student (very soon to be paramedic) and I see the effects of opiate use/abuse. Alot of people look down on those people in the medical field because "they take resources away from those who truly need it", however I don't see it that way. Saving a life is saving a life no matter how you look at it. If it takes someone going to the absolute edge to realize this is not the life they want they I'm more than happy to hold their hand in the process. You make me look at addiction as something that can be fixed with hard work and not an end all be all. Thank you for that!

It's all true. You can get through it. Sure,it will take time,but you have to stay strong. Like many I just got tired of chasing my tail,wasting money,ruining opportunities. I hope anyone who reads my comment agrees. If you are tired of this like I was,please stop now. It only gets worse. I'm not going to lie,withdrawls are horrible,but you can get through it,and it will take time,but it does get better. If anyone needs someone to talk to,or has questions,just shoot me a message. Stay strong!

This is one of those videos ... I so appreciate being able to watch / hear Ryan tell me, more or less > You are normal. Your feelings are valid. You will balance yourself out again. Sometime I will think to myself, but I don't wanna feel better... but it always passes... ❤

Ryan, You've been my Inspiration for the last 24days. I got real tired of being a slave to the clinic for last 9 years. Too many failed spine & arm surgeries landed me there. I tapered myself & went for it. Thank You for your Video Journey. My symptoms are pretty much on que with yours. It brings me Immense Relief that all this is Normal & will pass! Thank You so much!

you helped save my life. I would not have gotten through my subutex withdrawal without your wisdom and insight. you are truly a hero and have inspired me to become the person I was born to be.

Yes last week I was crying so much and had so much anxiety and couldn't sleep. My soul wanted to run out of my body : that's what it felt like . So much panic and a lot having to do with work and what choices I need to make for my future .....

hi Ryan. its my 1oth day clean.im using 2mil of subutex everyday to keep steady and not to relapse.. your right everyday is a battle with the so called 'hi hi'z and low,lows.buddy,watching your videos everyday keeps me on the straight and narrow.so thankyou Ryan.your an amazing guy..bless.

this is where im at right now in my recovery. Im 8 days into my methadone withdrawal, and i think the peak of w/d is over and done with... physically i feel better today than i have in a week. My highs are HIGH... if i laugh, i laugh till tears come out. If i cry, youd think my mom died all over again. If im anxious, i get all sweaty, and if im irritated, i damn near see RED!!! And it all happens in the same time span. But mostly, i feel very positive about my recovery.

CONGRATS ON 3K SUBS MAN!!! You deserve 3 million for real dude, can't say enough how great you really are!

I love rollercoasters but man this has been the hardest for me so far! up..down..up..down! Thanks Ryan✌

Ryan I am fresh out of rehab and your videos are extremely helpful I actually went to unity behave real health in Florida and it was a wonderful and experience I would definitely recommend this rehabilitation center to people I have a story to tell I'm sure it would help people please get a hold of me

I seriously think you are amazing

You were right

thank you

this was me yesterday. around 3pm - 8 pm. i took my daughter and wife out for a walk and we bought a good meal, hung out, and felt good again for a good majority of the night. walks seem to help. thanks for all the videos bro

4 months clean and I still feel this way every now and then. Just a question, how long does this sort of thing last? I know it probably varies from person to person but I just want to get some perspective.

this is exactly what Im going through and this is the only thing that is causing me to keep thinking is this worth it ? the mood swings are out of control Im on day 15 and physically everything is pretty much gone just a few things here and there nothing serious but my mood swings are out of wack and every time I go through this I ask my self is this really worth going through ? should I just take a tiny suboxone so I can get through this day? but I know it will only set me back but work and my mood swings and depression are out of control and my GF has had just about enough of it and the more I try to act like its not bothering me it it gets worst. So here I am day 15 and the emotions and moods are very un stable iv been on suboxone for 3 yrs and before that was on blues for 3 yrs. I wish there was a way to tell how long it would actually take but I know there is no way to tell which makes it really hard to keep going especially when you have a lot of stuff at work that I need to deal with and act like I got everything under control when I actually don't so its do able but its not easy ...

Yeah, this is a major point, and a huge part of the seduction process of this drug that everyone here can relate to, I'm sure...Thanks!

ryan, how bout the runny eyes thing, how long before it goes away?

brutal, 16 months clean and im still a pos, zero ambition, motivation sucks, energy low yet being im a 20+ yrs straight i expected this, but i figured id be at a higher light energy wise,

that is so true that how I feel right now lol

I was on the pain pills four years an that short time when got straight it took weeks I mean weeks an I still wonder if this is number I 54 Oct I be 55 so I would think I should know what number is I been around the block a lot of times but this time it ways pain in my back from hard labor my is gone an my right pea but gone I started with low pain pill but down the road I to take more an be fore I knew it I was hook never meant for it but got tire of hurting all the time my back went out on me back in 2009 or early then that I would aleves big family bottler size started 2 three or for times a day then it was 3-4 at once 3-4 time a day till I started to see a back doc and it started my pain sustain abuse it hurts me to teens are younger when they started they is just begin there live so I can see what's is number bless there heart they don't know what every day life is for number people feels a lot of them when young if they can't be still in class the parent take baby's to a doctors an they give them some kind of drug to slow it works they walk around like they s just here no life they some were out there my grandson like that I am proud of my daughter give it to him in the morning to go school but after school an week end no no he's a all boy at school when he gets done with his class work he can't be still that's a problem with the teacher there all cans of ways to look at it cause it does hurt other kids trying to work I am proud my baby girl just gives at school time an let him be boy after school I so sorry I jump from me an went to my grandson I hope there a lot of others parents out there doing it to are at least try it god bless every one amen

What scares me is I could never have a job on subs I got a job 5 days after I was clean I'm on day 14 now and I'm scared it comes and goes and I gotta go to work Monday landscaping which is out in the sun and on subs you can't go in the sun for long periods of time nobody talks about that only subs do that it's like sunlight is burning you like you're a vampire

hi Ryan my name is jamie what is your e-mail so I can share my story and hopefully we can talk and u can help.