Why Can't An Addict Just Stop Abusing Opiate Painkillers? 

man and to hear this dude has passed away really hurts like I'm so glad he blessed us with many videos but damn this guy should still be here

23 days clean I’m so happy

I have my appointment next Thursday, after years of codeine abuse I've finally had enough, my emotions are non existent, all I think is next dose, I'm distant and anxious, I have a baby due in 6 weeks I will be clean and starting the road to recovery, thanks for all your videos they are a huge huge help, all the way from the UK, your reaching the world which is great, thanks

Wow I scrolled down to leave a comment hoping to get his thoughts on the way I described the urge to use as holding your breath till every part of you is screaming to breath and that’s how it feels.. But then to find out someone like Ryan past away so suddenly and unexpectedly really hits you like a freight train. I never knew Ryan, this was the second video I ever watched. (I plan to watch them all) but why, how does this make sense? How can a “higher” power just take him out of the game like that!??!!? I am beyond sure he touched so many people... probably at some of there lowest points. He help people like me to see that light at the end of the tunnel. But it feels like that light was the train bearing down on you/me! I have been thinking about doing this same type of page! I have always loved telling my story about coming from rock bottom sleeping in an abandoned shed for years to having a wonderful life filled with happiness I thought was gone forever. I went from nothing to owning a business and having a beautiful wife and children. I was truly hoping that someone like Ryan could help guide me into that place in life where I get to help others climb out of the hole they kept digging. I hope his family is proud of him, and they know how many lives he touched, and even SAVED! You will never be forgotten R.I.P.

Great video as all ways and I'm 10 days clean tomorrow thank u Ryan your videos touched me and motivated me to stop using and I am forever grateful and I know its still early in my recovery I'm strong and I'm starting to get my energy back. Thanks again for all u do Ryan.

RIP Ryan 💔

My uncle ultimately died as a result of a seizure due to withdraw from 25yrs of heavy heroin use.

You're my superhero too Ryan. 😊😊😊

I so wish my roommate would watch this video. She refuses and doesn't care about what we are going through. She says "just stop"!

i did, when i found out i was pregnant.... i just stopped and never looked back!

amen to u an all trying to get clean

hear thunderstorm. Cool. Thanks for video

Awesome video

Thank you so much for the videos. They helped me stay sane going through methadone withdrawal. I wish I would have thought to make video diaries to help others also. I quit methadone cold turkey at 170 mgs. It was scary at times that's for sure but with the help of your videos I am at day 25 clean and sober. I thank you from the bottom of my heart!!! I know there will be more to come but I made it through the hard part. If I can anyone can!! It was my worst fear to withdrawal from methadone and now it's OVER.

I have a special friend who is addicted, makes it easier to understand her actiona and emotions, not easy, but easier,thank you

Opioid with draw is like the worse flu you ever had but times 100 & with the flu you sleep but going threw opioid with draw sleep never comes.Heroin & Oxi-contin with draw last 3-5 days tops & is very very intense.Methadone with draw is not as intense but seems like it will never go away & can last up to 1-2 months & could take up to a year before you are back to normal mentally & physically.Have been on methadone for 17 years & clean in all that time,well except the methadone part,however methadone did give me my life back.I also take methadone for pain so am a lifer.

Hey today is my first night, been on drugs since the age 15 im 24 now. So plz keep me in your prays.

I feel so bad for the addicts.. I thank God every day this didn't happen to me.. pain pills never gave me a good feeling.. I did make the mistake of taking the meds every day for years.. once I finally was able to taper off I won't take them more than 3 days a week. I just couldn't fathom that If I took less than what was prescribed I would become dependent.. being a full blown addict must be hell. I pray for you guys..

The drugs are like a big strong safe entity that hugs that inner child in you that’s traumatized

The way I describe addiction to a non addict. It's like you are incredibly thirsty in the heat and you don't have water, all you want is water everything else is irrelevant the only difference with addiction is the thirst never goes away even after u get a drink.

Damn Ryan, I so wish you were still here. I'm struggeling soooo bad and feel like giving up...💔😭. "Why can't you JUST STOP?!?" OMG!! If I had a dollar for every time my husband has asked me that, i would be rich! Wish it were that easy. The MENTAL is what I can't handle.

I always talk a big game but soon as I can I buy more pills or get them on credit smh items been a very long time i hate myself

Its definitely not fun