Delusions Of Grandeur 

The fact that you talk so much about your teens is the key. As Simon Amstel said in his book "Help", when we have lonely and traumatic teenage years, we're often psychologically trapped by them. We spend so much of the rest of our lives trying to "rescue" our teenage selves. Trying to rewrite those years and make them better. It keeps us trapped in the past - we can't move on to better things.

Hi Jonny, Have you heard this quote before? ‘Helping one person might not change the whole world, but it could change the world for one person.’ I love that quote! I’m absolutely certain that in all of your work you’ve achieved this, probably more times than you know! I read on your Twitter that you’re taking a break and hope that you use the time to relax and recharge - I wonder if you’re still practising mindfulness? I wish you a peaceful break, whatever you’re planning. You’ll always have my support. Much love, Elizabeth xxx

Johnny, you are changing the world. You are loved. Some times making changes is like watching the ocean tides come and go. Whilst your looking at the sand, it does not seem to move. But over time, it is moved thousands of yards, a small bit of sand moved long distances, just a bit at a time. You Johnny make me feel, and know I can be as great and as strong as your striving to be. Thank you. Rob

This is such a beautiful and raw representation of yourself and I am 32 right now feeling many of the things you appear to be feeling. I’ve never seen such a more relatable video

Dear Jonny, Please know that you ARE changing the world, educating people about mental health and so many other important issues. Your videos are an inspiration! Sending you much love and best wishes! X

I was diagnosed schizophrenic a few years ago, and in the beginning of the video when you said, “I’m 32 now and didn’t think I’d...”, I knew what you meant. I’m 29 now and when I was first diagnosed seven to eight years ago I didn’t know how long I’d be able to keep going. I feel the loneliness you experience and some days are so unbearable I feel as if I’m suffocating. I’m sorry you’re in pain. I can see it.. but it’s people like you who give me hope and make me feel less alone. Much love. -nat

Youre the sweetest guy Johnny :) x

You are changing the world for people who suffer from same mental health disorders. Your video gave me strength to battle my own, to know that no matter if the entire world doesn't accept me, I accept myself for my disorder, that I am my strongest support system. I had no idea what was going through my head and it was a scary and traumatic experience for me when I started losing people I loved. I tried to change myself without even knowing what was wrong with me, because thought of losing them woul give me nightmares. But now, on my path of recovery, I am there for myself, and I am trying to keep myself educated to the best of my capability so I can be a strong support for those I meet in the future and make sure I am always there for them becasue I dont want anyone like me again to go through what I went through. Always remember, you are worthy of love and you are worthy of loving. Thank you very much for sharing this video with us. Thank you for giving us the courage.

You have made a massive impact on me. When I saw you first on TV you were the first person I knew who has the same diagnosis as myself and I can really relate which has helped me immensely. You are the reason I do what I do too with helping the MH cause as you inspire me daily 💚. I remember my German teacher telling me when I first got ill at 17 that I can’t carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. Likewise your heart can’t take the excess weight of your love. The world will never be perfect and I now believe that it is not supposed to be. I think that we are all here to learn things from this world in order to move on to the next. God has a plan for each of us and we do what we are meant to do, no-one greater than another. You are enough, but I understand what you are saying as I can feel like that at times too. But remember we all love you so much and don’t listen to what your head tells you at times 💗💜💙

Thank you.

I was looking for delusions on youtube. I used to have thoughts very similar to the ones you are describing, not at the same intensity but yeah. The thing is it's twofold. On one hand it is true that you are not as great as you wish you would be, but killing that thought completly will utterly destroy your motivation. There are great things that can come from a true belief that you are destined for greatness, however it only comes if you love yourself as you are right now, which requires acceptence. You are right in saying that we cannot save ourselves. I was saved in 2019 by the only one who can, by Christ. I think that only true belief can save people from any psychotic or schizo behavior. Only a true belief can overcome a false one. I wish all the luck and joy to you, i can see you are a good person, don't give up!

I've learnt that the most important love relationship is with myself. I have to be ok with myself to be at all attractive to someone else. I'm no longer waiting or expecting someone else to complete or validate me. But I *am* open to the real thing happening! 😄 I had to work on myself, and maybe I'm ready, maybe not. You're a wonderful and impressive person. I wish you Hope, Joy, Fulfilment, and Love. X

I know that saying this won’t help but you truly have made a huge impact on so many people. You may not be able to change the whole entire world but you have changed so many peoples’ lives. The book may not have been a number one but it is a book that has changed my life and allowed me to be far more open so thank you.

I spent 39 years of my goddamn life feeling like this and never understanding it. Then one day they tell me I'm bi-polar, and suddenly everything made sense. I'm struggling to cope with all these feelings also. It feels nice to know that I'm not alone.

Hey Johnny, I hear you and can relate to alot of what you're saying and the emotions involved. Feelings like your missing something but not yet able to figure out what it is. Feeling the pain and suffering of others but not yet able to fully understand and address one's own feelings. Most importantly however I truly believe you have achieved much more then you realise. The work you have done to highlight mental health issues and your willingness to open up in your videos is invaluable to others also struggling. Allow yourself to recognise and be proud of your achievements. You cannot change the world all by yourself, no one can but you can be and are an infinitely more powerful force to affect positive change in others. I and many others love you and your spirit mate. Keep doing what you do and never give up hope. 😉

God, I relate to the struggle of feeling so far away from how you used to be at peace with yourself, and just feeling tormented by that memory and how distant it seems. You seem like such a sweet person. Also, I'm the same age as you (June '87 baby over here) and it's really comforting to know there's someone my own age out there that knows the struggle lol though of course, I wish you ALL of the recovery and peace of mind in the world. I wish I could attach a hug to this comment. You are so not alone. ♥

I'm learning a lot about this disorder from these videos. They will be up on RU-vid so that others can get a auto-documentary look at it. Thanks for doing this!

Jonny, I'm not having a great mental health night and am struggling to string things together, but wanted to share a few thoughts that came up as you talked: You're enough. You have such a full heart with a beautiful hunger for healing and peace. I wish I could be as empathetic as you are. Everybody wants to be known, and that's okay. You don't have to be famous to be known. If you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one. - Mother Teresa I love when you share because it's a brave vulnerability. We've never met and idk if you even read your comments but your videos make me feel seen, and like everyone is trying their best on their journey, and even when we fall short that doesn't mean we're somehow worthless. A stone that sits on the very top of the mountain's mighty face, doesn't think it's more important than the stones that form the base. This might not mean anything to you and if it doesn't resonate that's okay, but I'll leave it here because when I've been in a similar place it hit home. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EB3v38tVCfk.html Sorry for this mess of text. I think I might be talking to myself a bit here.

You’re awesome, just the way you are. You make a difference by simply existing. ❤️

Wow thanks for making this video. You are not alone. I can relate to so much of what your are saying. If it's any concelation I've found a partner and it hasn't fixed me. Stay strong 💜

Hey man I hope you’re doing okay, I’ve been dealing with a lot of the same issues. This world seems to contain way too much hate and my very being doesn’t want to accept that without making change. Try to keep in mind you can change the world for those around you, and that can change the world over time if they go on to change someone else’s life and so on so forth. Take care of yourself dude, you deserve happiness.

What's really useful about this upload is he slips in to the delusional every now and then, while - genuinely - revealing his grandiose belief system that got him this far. He will look back in ten years and think, "SI wish I hadn't worried about status." Thank you for your honest upload.

I've been getting a bit worried about you. A while since you posted. Really good to see you again x

I suffer from delusions of normal. Yeah I thought that if I could find a way to make a lot of money I could change my life for the better. Well I did find that way and after that nothing changed for me. All I wanted was to have a nice girlfriend and some loyal friends that's all I wanted. I instead somehow got the shaft instead. It's straight out of the twilight zone for me. This world sucks the big one.

This video has touched me. I believe we all had these feelings of grandeur. But the the truth is, you are making a difference with your RU-vid channel, you are contributing to this world.

Everyone has his own world, if you change one’s world, the person can actually become able to help others and thus change their worlds...it can start this wonderful chain reaction and really have some impact in the future. One cannot change the entire population snapping one’s fingers, but you can contunie helping others and it might change a lot in long run.

Oh Jonny, I know what you mean. My grandparents generation were so cut up about WW2 and I got this kind of messiah complex too. Introverted but wanting to be extroverted as well. Also on meds used to treat schizo.

People do love you. You look different from last time I saw you must have been ages ago. You looked like a young man, now you look like a man- man. I'm glad you got to this stage of plumage. I hope you go on to all the plumages with the rest of us. I struggle massively, broke down and didn't get back up, but didn't die, because I have kids. You are not really alone xx

Thanks for sharing

Sending you Healing and Peaceful wishes. Please do not forget you have made a difference to those around you x

certain postal workers too that think THEY own the postal truck that complain about smoking like its theirs. I'm surprised that postal workers didn't try to take some flat tire repairs to the repair shop and pay out of their own pocket. I am glad you raise awareness about this I can SO relate.

You are a beautiful soul, never give up on your dreams! You are enough ❤️❤️❤️✊🏽

This is relatable. Things will get better even If you can't see it.

I would fire that therapist. You can still make an impact on the world you are very young don't give up.

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I saw your interview, you saved me thank you

I admire you so much for your courage and honesty. Just know you have made an impact on me.

I understand the feeling broMigo

We were lied to about everything , everything.

You are not who anyone or therapist's diagnosis labels you as. You are who you continue to work toward becoming, by creating realistic goals, following through and feeling good about what you do, regardless of what others think. I hope you can get your personal insecurities sorted out, because that's the first thing you need to work on first, to find happiness and fulfillment. Take good care of yourself and allow yourself to feel good about who you are and what you do, forget about what anyone else thinks. Maybe not everyone, but those who matter most in your life, are people who love and care about you, regardless. You need to know that and hear it, because it's true.

hes such a good guy with a big heart

Every time i have a psych assessment i get asked am i in a relationship? When i say No. I get asked if i have ever been and do i want to be etc. I cant even manage in person friendships. Everyone can give me strings of reasons why we cant hang out or meet for coffee and how busy they are right now. But those reasons we cant hang out never change to a time when we can hang out.

I feel like I could conquer the world

Me too man. Me too. 😢 I've always thought I had some special place in the world. Like, I felt destined to do great things. It turns out it's just part of what's wrong with my personality. I leaned on this feeling for years when I felt down. It has always been part of what kept me going. It's a real bitch right?

Hey Jonny, i want to change the world :) make it a better place, i dont think that is a bad thing but i also want to be humble about it, its not all about me and what i can do, its more than that, its all part of the plan and i feel like every little part of it is fulfilling my destiny, a self fulfilled prophecy that is my life and i think we can all say that too, good or bad, i believe there is a reason for everything but sometimes we just cant see it, cant see the wood for the trees and when the wind blows and the leaves dance we wonder.

Have you read The Velvet Rage?

Hey mister; you're grand! 🤗💙

Good to see you Johnny...

Such a handsome guy!

Love you bro

Respect, real talk

Love you brother miss you

Jonny wants what we all want.❤

I wonder if you do any drama, as I think you would be good at it. A one-man monologue or performance. Drama can help to process emotions, get into the body and out of the mind 🙂 I think maybe you were/are craving performance and people watching and appreciating you and your art. Being an artist is hard and can be lonely, but makes a difference in the world. You are very dramatic, I see enneagram 4 coming through. Know that sometimes labels and diagnoses are wrong, but you need self-belief to guide you. I pray you will tap into a higher source/spirituality to guide and inspire you - to know you're loved! 💖

Delusions of Grandeur, or...Looking for love in all the wrong places

I mean I like your song and your voice.

You are changing the world Johnny. It's not always a big glamorous affair to change the world but with each and every action or inaction we change how it will be. I think your letters and songs are a good way to communicate your ideas and I think you have just helped me to realise that those we communicate our ideas to need to be in a position or likely to be open to receiving those ideas. A big star might not pay attention as they are contacted by so many, but the man working in the local community centre will probably put a sign up for you, about a talk, or whatever the idea might be. And yes, you are enough as you are.

About parenthood; can you are yourself becomig a father or is your diagnosis to much to handle in itself for you🤔? You seem like such a nice guy and cute too! Love from Sweden❤

can relate

Hey Johnny, I'm 32 as well. I know what you mean. My recommendation is to read more so what you write can connect to the outside world.. for you to change the world you must understand the world😉 I can recommend starting with classic oldschool philosophy.

You make a difference first on the inside. Then the world changes.

in a world without god or magic influence, you make your own magic and do as much as you can. you don't need to be sent by god or anything else. just do what you can and keep the delusions in check. you will help more than enough people that way.

You saved me.

Weird is interesting

Are the Deeloozions of Granjur a product of the capacity of our imagination kup_pooled with high intelligence?

I'm starting to believe we share the same brain 🤔 😅

You MUST be an INFP!!!

to be honest, u have a handsome face…

There is nothing wrong with you. You are amazing I wish you were a female

delusions of grandeur shouldnt be trated like this but if you can cope up with that it could help you in your daily life i guess

Che the genocidal dictator?

Thank you.