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Hi Shaun, this is really great material!! Thank you very much for sharing your experience and this wonderful content. I've read you talking about the feeling of distorted/fragmented time as part of this, but i'm not even sure if these are the words to describe what i'm actually feeling, regarding time. I'm not even sure if it's DP/DR what's going on. I've been dealing with OCD a long time now, but this year I have the feeling like something else 'broke'. Like the perception of time is not making sense anymore. Feelings like the past/my past is not there, that it goes away as soon as it passes, hyperaware of the present going on, totally focused on the time passing, kind of fearing the feeling of future, trying to understand what future is and the feeling that i could disappear in any time or the universe could change its rules... and all kind of existential questions about time and who i am... There's a feeling of time happening to me instead of me passing through time, and my confidence/skills/identity that brought me here and made me achieve a lot of things, are kind of distorted... The more i try to "understand" how it works and what this means, the more anxiety i feel. It's awful. On the other hand, i guess this feeling of weirdness and not having words to describe it properly, works exactly as a proof for DP. I'd love your opinion on these symptoms. Thank you very much!!!
I feel that I have had this for many years. I wonder is that is possible but it would explain a lot of things. I also have Parkinson’s and thought it may be related. What type doctor should i see for this? Great videos
I cried too when I realised this for the first time. And I am almost crying for you pet because I know the horror you are going through but you will be better I promise you it takes time but it will happen ❤️
@@clyde.l8353 I thought all those things too and that death was the only way out but I promise promise promise it is not and it will go away. You should see a counsellor and doctor in the meantime to ease those negative thoughts until this passes because it can take time.
Sometimes I have to tell myself, if I'm this terrified, there must be something in my life of value that I'm worried I will lose. During my lowest point, the first thing that I was able to hold onto was the taste of eating pickled peppers out of the jar. After a month of not feeling anything of value, I realized that I was enjoying this snack, and it gave me more hope than any medication or therapy ever did. It also is known that spicy foods inherently create intense memories that feel grounding, and it makes sense why I have enjoyed spicy foods my whole life while dealing with anxiety and dissociative issues
@Autumn Goldsmith I just did some research on this because I heard something that could be contrary to what I just said. Supposedly there are 2 sides to this, on the one hand capsaicin has been linked to further memory loss in the elderly (specifically those who eat spicy foods every day)... on the other hand, there is still a direct link between capsaicin producing more endorphins that give you the good feels and temporarily relieves stress, panic, and anxiety. So the moral as always is moderation, but if you're ever in a panic, try reaching for a pepper, maybe it can distract you if nothing else
Is that normal that your life before DpDr seems very unreal? Because I can remember what happened before that but I can't really connect to it and I have no emotions when I think about the past. It's just like I dreamed it
@armaletsplay this is what I experience. I feel very disconnected it’s almost like a numbing feeling. When I try to think about how I felt before I depersonalised I can’t remember it what so ever the memory feels blank
Does anyone else feel confused about where they’re at when they’re at a familiar place? I’ll be at work and everything looks/feels unfamiliar. Like the room expands.
@@pluutoop thats because of your adrenaline hormons and the thought of being in an other world it will go over if you accept it and dong worry about it. A good tip is get your routine in life back and dont check if you have the feeling good luck bro
You have no idea how much this video is changing lives. So many of us truly believed we were permanently broken and going crazy. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!
You are so welcome Laurie 😊 And don't worry, DPDR is temporary and harmless and you can and will recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/is-depersonalization-permanent/
@@henokmersha7128 exercise, praying, avoid caffeine and alcohol at all costs, chamomile tea, watch motivational videos and most importantly go out with friends and socialize as much as possible, it helps a lot. If you have a friend that you can share your problem that's way better because I have none. And also be brave, you already now that you're normal and whatever tricks your brain tries, can't do shit to you. They're just thoughts. But don't focus too much on your thoughts you'll always end up thinking the worst when you're in this state, because of anxiety. For me it started vanishing when I decided I'll no longer let it beat me. I was having such a bad time with it and then one day I take of my shirt play a video called when life hits you and I do pushups, running and jumping with all my power trying to get it out by force, until I was lightheaded and my body was hurting, than I realize it's still there and I can't get it out. So I go to my room take a long look at myself on the mirror and I started crying. At that moment I realized something. I realized that I love myself, I realized that I was suffering now because I didn't give myself the love it deserves. All that previous trauma from an abusive father and weed caused this for me. So I had to give myself time to recover. And I promised myself that whatever games this derealization bullshit tries with me I'll not allow to put me down anymore. Of course I had it happen again to me, but now I made a promise to myself that I'll be strong and handle this if I respect myself. Sometimes it took over me, sometimes I beat it, but the promise I made to myself helped me a lot. And even as a nightmare as it seems, it is actually working for you. Your brain loves you so it is doing it to protect you from danger, even though it's doing it at the wrong time. So fall in love with yourself, fall in love with derealization and don't fight it back because this is the way of our bodies telling us I love you and you should love yourself too. And out of that experience I emerged a whole new better person. So take this chance to be better and trust the process. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger and this is no exception for that saying. Trust god and trust me and trust everyone that has gone through it that you'll recover and you'll be even a better human being than you were before
Hey everyone! I'm here to inform you that not only does it get better, but it can completely go away. In 2021 I ended up taking too much of an edible and had the worst panic attack of my life. I spiraled into existential dread and basically lived in nonstop derealization for about 8 months. In the first few weeks I was so depressed and anxious that I was having more than 10 panic attacks daily, was throwing up everything I ate, and left work entirely. On the 6th day I checked myself into the ER because I wanted to yk, Kermit sewer slide. During my recovery (which was a long rollercoaster) I made a RU-vid playlist of all the videos that helped (and basically saved my life.) If you're dealing with this or existential anxiety right now, I just want you to know that even though it's terrifying and you feel extremely alone, I'm here. I've lived it. I'm still alive, and you'll be okay. You're not gross, or crazy, or a crybaby. You're hurting, and it will get better. Love you all, here's the list :) I wish you all the absolute best ru-vid.com/group/PLLJYuBgviqU_BQ9j2IhfjA7ADknro3_f6
Thank you skye! I’m suffering so bad right now. Time doesn’t seem to make sense, my mind is on overload to the point where I’m scared to even go do the things I like to do. At night i get so deep in my head that I worry I’m stuck in my mind. Reality feels off or like I can’t grasp it. Also I keep having many many panic attacks all day long because of the worry that this is something serious. Did you have any of these symptoms? Your comment brought me some peace and I am going to watch those videos. Let me know.
@@jakenegus2845 yeah I dealt with most of what you mentioned. The trick is in slowly allowing yourself to exist within the feeling rather than fighting it. When you start dissociating you're instinct is "oh shit it's happening what do I do I gotta fix it-" but that just amplified the stress. If you can instead calm yourself down by going "okay. I feel really weird right now, but I'm still realistically safe. What can I still get done while I feel like this." After a while you start training your brain not to fight itself but rather to accept the symptom, which reduces the anxiety. Once you know you can exist within that feeling, you don't fear it. And as the anxiety leaves, the DPDR can no longer exist. You've got this man. I know it's horrible at first but you'll be okay. Sending support :)
to other people struggling with this… it helps me to say to myself, “this is just a coping mechanism, i’m okay” and “this is uncomfortable but not dangerous, im safe” over and over
@@kaidanalexander2840 i still am experiencing but it does help to understand that it’s only a symptom of anxiety, there’s nothing actually wromg with you, it will go away on its own, and DO NOT KEEP GOOGLING ABOUT IT (this makes it a lot worse)
@@savannahhoopes75 i been going through anxiety, dp, and weird reality intrusive thoughts for past couple days. Its so scary but it helps watching these type of youtube videos and it helps reading comments like yours. Its just tough easing the anxiety even knowing what it is.
My problem is that I don't feel my thoughts as mine, I feel them external to me. It's like someone thought the stuff, not me, nevermind what I'm thinking about
Hearing somebody so accurately explain symptoms that I have been trying to explain to other people who look at me like I'm talking out of my ass is so nice and refreshing
I seriously feel this. I’ve been writing in a journal lately because I’m out of thyroid medications and I know when I’m out my anxiety amplifies and I’ve been dealing with pretty sever dp and I wrote a journal entry where I explained how living was like watching tv with the static vision and the tenitis sounds and I went deeper into the symptoms I was experiencing and so after I wrote it I felt like what I had just wrote down was me going crazy and so I felt that if I read it out loud I could reevaluate and figure out what it all means and so I read it to my boyfriend and after I had said some gravitating things he said nothing at all I asked why he isn’t saying anything after that was hard for me to hear myself say and he said he didn’t know what to say about it. At that moment I felt so unrecognizable.
Find Yourself Typically, I find when I am the most stressed I get Eye floater, so if you were to reduce your stress the Eye floaters should go away. Also, make sure your blood sugar sugar levels are good, you have a good sleep and try and not focus on the floaters, maybe listen to music or a podcast, hope this helps… Good luck!
@@andrewmarzec what helped me massively recover from this was always thinking this is just a illusion to your brain which is a defensive mechanism,and for they eye floater to go away you need to the stop the panick and be in a calm state always get distracted a lot:)))
I remember watching this a little over a year ago thinking that this state of mind would never go away. But guess what? It did. I still have tiny episodes every now and then but there is hope. Please don’t freak out. Give it some time and you will feel normal again hugs ❤
When im in the shower I suddenly come realise im alive and I start to question how I got to the shower - I feel like im in autopilot up until that point and I feel as if I am on the verge of collapsing completely
Samee my friend one time saw me putting the cereal box in the fridge because I was in auto pilot and asked me what tf I was doing and finally woke up from it but then it happened 4 more times since
Ya the other day I was driving and totally zoned out and I came to and was like “ woah I’m fully here now” it freaked me out. Also once I put a can of tuna on my counter, then opened my fridge then when I looked back, the tuna can was open. No memory of me opening it
I just feel like I’m in my head all the time like I can’t focus on anything and I have no energy in my mind to do anything and j have this weird pressure in my head all the time
Hey strangers! Just know it gets better. You're real. You're loved. Life is going to go back to normal. Your friends and family love you. Praying for all of y'all
@@Dpmanual Please can you answer my question? Around about 1 month a few weeks ago my girlfriend left me because of uni and long distance and a few weeks before that I was overthinking as to why she wasn’t talking to me and that’s when I felt the anxiety creep in. It would be so bad that I wouldn’t or couldn’t eat for a good 3 days because of the anxiety but then after the anxiety that numb feeling came in and even tho I have been through this before with covid earlier on in the year I just want to know if my situation will get better I know Dee down it will but I just want confirmation that it will and I will connect back to what I used to feel towards things? Baring in mind that numbness when I had covid lasted for 3 months.
As a mom going through postpartum depression and anxiety, this has been incredibly horrifying. I’ve been dealing with it for over a month now and It’s been very hard to form a bond with my baby. If any postpartum moms are dealing with this, I see you and my thoughts are with you! We will get through this!
Hey Lauren, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DP can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com
Omgggg Everytime he would say something I was screaming at my phone "YES! YES THATS HOW I FEEL!!" never have I been so relieved to know that I'm not alone and I'm not going crazy.
Glad it was so helpful Ariana 😊 And don't worry, you're definitely not going crazy: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
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Just found out about this i been expereincing for the past 4 months and it has taken a huge toll on my relationship with everyone around me. Can any Dp survivors suggest me some ways how to prevent it from happening
@@soorajjoshuajerald1532 I literally have to bury it in my mind. That's why it's scary to watch the Matrix and the like, because I don't want to dig up bad thoughts that might make me "realize" something and I'll subsequently die or go insane. It's truly just a fear of fear. I would just try your best not to dwell on it and if you talk about it with other people, just talk about it in and objective way that doesn't identify yourself with it as best as you can in that moment. Separate your identity from your condition.
Hey Allie, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DP can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and trauma, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com
Omg bless you I always thought it started through extreme anxiety. I’ve had it for over 30years and still suffer that’s why I come back to this channel to try to feel grounded
I like the term “temporary airbag” it makes me feel like my brain is trying to keep me safe until I feel safe getting back to myself. I’ve felt trapped in my head for 3 weeks now. You described EVERY feeling I’ve been experiencing the past 3 weeks. The loss of my inner monologue missing SCARED me. I’ve even had trouble day dreaming which I use to do 24/7.
Same I've completely lost my inner monologue because of DP. I haven't had it for 2 months. Somehow you can carry on without it but it is really debilitating and I want it back.
I swear when I have tests at school I feel so calm, dangerously calm. I feel like I should be panicking and I should be hurrying up, but I’m just sitting there without a thought of the world. I feel so disconnected it sucks.
me too. I was walking to the bus stop, and there was a group of boys behind me, I was walking up a steep hill. they were getting closer behind me and speeding up so I kept telling myself to hurry up, then started over thinking about how my heart was racing, then I had a panic attack and stayed home. I can't even explain why, and some places are triggers for me :(
For me personally I enjoy this aspect. My stomach used to eat itself due to stress, but now I don't even flinch say in a car crash. I'm the same before, during and after
Hey guys!! I suffered from dp/dr for two months last year. I had all these symptoms. I listened to one of his videos and I took active action to get myself out of that state and it worked. Just keep telling yourself "It is temporary. It will go away" I swear to you, life will return to normal again. You might have PTSD but you get over that too. You will be fine. There is nothing wrong with you and you will not stay this way forever. I dont care if you took 10000 hits from a bong or got your dp/dr in a more "natural" way. Its all an illusion of the mind. I am completely normal and completely happy. Goodluck loves💕
It forsure makes me feel more human and validated, I've felt like this from my anxiety my entire life, it started when I was about 4 or 5 and started getting worse when I was in middle school, no one believed me that things were this bad and no one could relate to the things I was feeling other than stress and fatigue, which lets admit is something everyone has to point in middle and high-school settings.
But what if I told reality is just electrical signals interpretated by your brain. You don't see it but you perceive it in your brain.....In your brains visual cortex......that's located in a tiny dark place at the back of your brain.....even YOU and your loved ones are just your brains interpretation and that is a fact that has been proven by science. All your senses are just electrical signals. You hallucinate everything you know and love inside your head. When you die you are born into the illusion again... You CANNOT escape and you never will..... Its a cycle that repeats PS Sleep well 😉
I've had chronic dr/dp for 3 years now and when I first found this video I was so happy I cried when I watched it. Now every once and a while I come back to watch it. Just to comfort me. Everyday it gets better and it feels like it has almost went away :)) thank you sm
hey everyone. i wanted to come back to this video because i have finally beat this. i still have anxiety here and there, but i don’t feel this depersonalization at all anymore. i want all of you to know there is hope. and one thing that’s important, is to know that this is temporary, and it’s not stopping you from living the EXACT same way you were before. try to limit your focus on it, take your mind off it, you guys got this. i love you guys.
thank you! im 11 and after thinking I was finally recovering, that was not the case. I'm horrified while I'm typing this, I dont understand human life, my existence, myself, etc. HELP ME PLEASE! :(
@@elilac.1980 hey :) i know it can be so scary, especially so young. i myself am 15 and it was very hard when i was going through this. i just want to reassure you, you are in absolutely no danger. things may feel strange, but nothing has changed. you haven’t all of the sudden completely changed. you are safe, and you are going to be well and happy soon :)).
Anyone having trouble listening to music you once loved or music at all, like I need my emotions to connect to music but I feel disconnected to everything.
OMG YESSS!!! I love music, but with this dpdr disorder it’s almost like I get annoyed with the music or I get a feeling of going crazy if I listen to it, message me on Instagram @stripforingridd
Do any of you guys have this thing where you feel like you cant connect to your memories? Like, everything is up there, no memory loss or anything, but you cant emotionally connect to them? Can anyone relate? Will I eventually get my memories back?
@Tanner Kelbert Yeah guys don't worry, sleeping deprivation will be a consequence of this, in fact, i was only able to sleep 9 hours straight after 4 months in, the first week i slept 3 hours a night... Don't worry, your sleep patterns will come back to normal eventually, wish you all the best
This helps a lot . I have been worried that I’m developing a psychotic illness . I have panic disorder and OCD . I hear it’s a common fear among the OCD community . I’m glad I’m not alone thanks for this .
@@arincrews8879 to me it’s it’s truly fascinating how our brain thinks the same way. I also thought that I might have dementia for a while and then later psychosis. I was fully convinced that I had them and I remember being terrified and absolutely panicking for several hours alone in my bed.
Idk if I have ocd,bcuz I've never had ocd symptoms, I have adhd and health anxiety that was caused by dpdr. So for some time I was convinced I'm a schizophrenic and then a murderer and then a rapist..etc, have never had such thoughts like these before. Started to get them like a month ago,it's tiring honestly
In my case I'm afraid of humans... I'm a human too, but when I look at the people on the street I feel a little bit scared because I think we are weird looking. That doesn't happen to me when I'm looking at animals.
I miss being alive, I've been feeling all these symptoms for several months. and these thoughts.was driving me crazy, I was thinking that there must be something serious with my brain. but after watching this video and realizing that there are lots of ppl going through the same thing, that really soothed me so much. now I know the reason behind this terrifying feeling is anxiety, yes, I've been feeling anxiety and depression and loneliness, emptiness for many years. it's like my mind is telling me to stop! I really have to do something about anxiety. thank you for this amazing video!
So glad to hear it was helpful Osama! 😊😊 I know DP can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and trauma. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover! Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com
if possible microdos lsd ...and dont thimk much about it ..keep life simple and clear as possble ..i can get even more critical so keep your circle small
“Still high and you can’t come down” that’s exactly how I feel, and when I try telling people about that feeling they just think I’m trying to act cool or I’m being a douchbag
Hey Kayden, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DP can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com
Hands down, this is the best depersonalization disctription I've ever come across.... It's a very weird thing to experience. I am truly thankful for this video...
I have to agree, I've been dealing with this for a couple months, especially thr time distortion thing which I've never seen anyone talk about and thought maybe I was gling crazy after a bad lsd trip, but thid video really helped calm my fears down
I watched this video in tears because I've never felt more understood. I get these symptoms very occasionally when I am reminded of my trauma and every time it makes me feel like I have made no progress. But this video really helped me put everything into perspective, and gave me the tools to say 'this is normal', 'it will end', 'I am still me'. So, I'm sure you get this a lot but thank you so so much.
me to, my brain is so sore.ive lost so mich and i had a breakdown 19 month ago.i get agitated and my body is aching so much.i dont feel real anymore, i go ok-ish for a day or 2 then it creeps back in x
@@kevinharling941 I’m so sorry you’re feeling like that! If you have the money or opportunity I would recommend seeing a therapist. But what ever you can do, I really hope you feel better.
I first had this when I was very stressed out. I have moved on. To anyone who thinks its bad. You'll find a way. There's light at the end of the tunnel.
10. Feeling cut off from reality 9. Feeling like you’re not real 8. Fear of going insane 7. Vision problems (includes “floaters” or tracers) 6. Distorted perception of time 5. Memory loss 4. Emotional numbness 3. Blank mind - feeling like you’ve lost your inner monologue 2. Existential/intrusive thought 1. Strange fears
@@darrend2035 Yes I experience dizziness and I have these all symptoms.. I also have fear that people are always gonna hurt me or kill me.. I'm very scared at nights.. I can't stay awake for long because I fear darkness and always feels like there is something scary here.. I cried so bad once because that was so scary.. is this the part of depersonalization too?
@@darrend2035 like a dizzy lighteaded brain foggy type feeling that with your vision makes it hard to focus like everything is to intense for your eyes or stuff feels like its visually moving faster even though nothing is moving faster or even looks like its moving fast it just feels like it is
Hey guys I commented about 3 months ago and just wanted to say I’m doing slightly better and I believe I will improve and come out of it 2 main things I’ve noticed and wanted to share . Your sub occipital muscles may be chronically contracted from obsessive fear and intense anxiety/ panic ( theses muscles in between rear upper neck and back of skull) These can get very tight and constrict communication with the body and brain Try massaging, pressure point what ever you can do to relax and try to reset the muscles It seems to take TIME . Also try to relax and pray more I know in the heat of it it hard to hear this but you must forgive yourself, let go and try to embrace the calmness
I just want to say: I suffered from this for a long time and thought I would never feel normal again. I eventually recovered, and quicker than I thought.
Can I ask how long you had it? I have had feelings of unreality for a bit more than ten years, and I have this fear that I'm stuck with it because it has only gotten worse even though my anxiety got much better.
My friend I'm sure you get thousands of comments about how amazing it is what you are doing. It truly is, because my brain is still in a very anxious state, I only got this seriously for the first time on Sunday. I'm forgetting a lot of the affirmations I'm telling myself which have been helping me, I don't go to forms I go straight to your videos and they calm me down so much. Seriously these are excellent and you're doing such a great job. This is the scariest experience of my life. The past few days I've been getting back to normal and communicating with my friends again and going about my day to day tasks and I know for a fact I'll be back to normal.
Same here! This video has helped me realise I’m not going crazy, cause that’s how it feels. I’ve been through a lot but this is definitely the most horrible and terrifying experience, maybe because I’m afraid of mental illnesses in general and so it probably triggers even more anxiety 😥 are you feeling any better?
Omg no 😭 but there is some true in it a little bit because when you are on the phone too long it's not good for dpr dr, ofc it doesn't cause this disorder but it can be a little bit triggering
Hi everyone! I struggled with derealization a few years ago and promised myself that if I ever got better I would come back to let you all know that getting better is possible! I was stuck in the cycle of panicking about the way I was feeling for a while. I don’t want to say the timeline because everyone is different. Even after I started to accept my feelings and knew what was going on, I still experienced the symptoms of derealization. It takes awhile for your body and mind to feel safe again, but you have to stay consistent. My best advice to anyone who is struggling with derealization is to be kind to yourself, slow down, and remember that what you are feeling is not dangerous. After time, it will get better. I wish all of you guys the best of luck on your healing journey ❤
I'm 14 and I was horrified I felt like this was a nightmare going on in my mind. But when you started to check off all of my symptoms I felt so unbearably happy
I just cried for twenty minutes watching this video, staring at myself warp in the mirror and not being afraid of it for the first time in like 5 years. This completely explains my symptoms. I had no idea that anybody experienced this but me. Thank you so much, you have no idea how much this video helped me.
Wait you said warping? As if you were tripping on acid?? I’ve done acid and other stuff and have recently quit weed. I swear I was tripping the other day staring at my phone and saw the screen warping. I didn’t know if it was real or not and was like wtff is going on. Is this permanent damage from the drugs I’ve done or what?! Any advice :/
Don't cry. I'm in the same boat as you! I'm trying to help myself by having a extremely high level of consciousness and keeping telling myself that I'm just through a very "pitch black tunnel" that I should keep walking because the light is near! I know is easy to say than done, but everything will pass, just keep repeating to yourself "that this won't last long" :-) God be with you!
Same here man, i ended up getting a taxi at 1am to A&E as i thought i was about to go completely insane and do something horrible. Once i was there in the waiting room i felt better almost instantly, which kinda proves it is all in the mind, a trick. Absolutely terrifying though
@Sai suman Bhuyan I’m fine now for the most part. It took me a while to recover fully; I had to start seeing a psychiatrist again and go back on medication for anxiety. I found my anxiety during the episodes only heightened the whole experience so that was the first step. I was also given xanax for really really strong episodes(thankfully I only ever had to take one of those). Once I managed to control the anxiety portion of my episodes, it was a learning curve to understanding what works best for me on reconnecting my brain back to reality. There are various coping mechanisms that work for different people, like reading out loud.
Oh my lord. I've felt like this for almost a year since having my first anxiety attack... poor memory, lack of concentration, sensitive vision, visual snow, feeling emotionally "numb," detached from myself and my surroundings, skewed sense of time... The list goes on, but I legitimately thought I was dying for a while, which was terrifying. This video gives me hope!
This saved my life! when you know it’s anxiety, the recovery process begins Edit: I’m now 100 % recovered and can do whatever I did before being exposed to the condition. Let go of your anxiety and distract yourself and with time it will heal
@@thatguy6458 I’d say so. I feel comfortable in the world again. I’m not scared anymore. I do have these occasional existential thoughts I got from the experience, but I’ve always dealt with thoughts of existence. My best advice would be to accept those thoughts and know they don’t define you nor make your crazy. It’s okey. It does take time though, just never give up and trust you are safe like you trust your lungs to breathe without you doing it manually. Nothing will happen if you let your guard down and relax. Just do it at your own pace, and you’ll see progress.
@@omkarsinghkalsi5396 I don’t feel depersonalisation anymore. I only have some anxiety every once in a while, but even that is getting better. I’ve had completely normal days even! Keep going my man, you can chose your own reality!
does anyone else feel like when your having an “episode” you are only able to focus on one thing that is happening in the room and can struggle to remember anything that happened after?
I agree, I’ve been thinking I’m going through a psychotic episode and need to check myself into a facility. The existential thoughts are the worst for me. The world looks off, like it’s a stage. The objects aren’t real and I think of myself and I get light headed. It’s been almost 3 weeks and this is the worst experience of my life. It feels.
Hey, thanks for your comment and I'm glad to hear the video was useful 😊 Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DP can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
Anyone else feel like you can’t remember how you felt, thought and acted before you smoked weed and now you’re stuck with DP? I’ve come to the conclusion I am thinking normally and was overthinking whilst I had depersonalisation, I’m pretty sure it’s gone away for me now.
That's a very common thought with all anxiety-based conditions, it's a psychological phenomenon called state-dependent memory. But don't worry, once you've recovered you will get completely back to normal 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/
how did you deal with the trauma from your weed incident? Do I just try to not think about my weed incident or do I have to actively try to think about my traumatic experience on weed? Will it eventually just subconsciously process into my brain without me knowing it? Or do I actively have to wrestle with the thoughts of the bad weed experience?
I know right??!! How come no doctors or the ER staff that made fun of me when I had a panic attack in the hospital aren’t trained to handle DP panic attacks when weed is now legal in my state??!!!! Errrrrr
*Guys, you can really do it!* I know it feels hard or even impossible to escape from DP but I assure you it is all in your head. *YOU ARE GOING TO RECOVER*. I have been there and I have now truly recovered. I know it may sound obvious, but I really cannot stretch this enough; please just ignore it! Stop overthinking and wondering if you are ever going to be the same again. The answer is YOU NEVER CHANGED. Remember, it is fully related to anxiety. I made myself believe I will never be normal again when I had it. This created more anxiety and DP kept on bothering me, because I was constantly thinking about it. You must leave this loophole. Just focus on your everyday work and goals. I know you may feel unmotivated,but you can really do this. When I stopped focusing on it, I started seeing real progress. Guess what. I am now enjoying life again! A huge tip is also to communicate with other people. Casual talking can help a lot. Just don't lose yourself in the overthinking loophold. Don't even think about you having changed. It is the disorder causing you having less interests. When you recover, which is going to happen, you will be the same person you were before you had it. Remember, it is a stress related thing, so when you catch yourself overthinking, just tell yourself that it is the anxiety causing it and that you really don't give a f*ck. STOP CARING ABOUT IT, JUST GO ON WITH YOUR LIFE AND YOU CAN BE 100% CERTAIN IT WILL GO AWAY FOREVER.
It´s been almost a year since I last experience this symptoms. Finding your video online was honestly God a HUGE HELP through my healing process. Doctors only tell you ´´the have heard and read about the condition´´ but they are truly far from understanding it. Thank you for moving forward and for looking after the few and many who felt lost and trapped in this condition. To anyone out there reading this: YOU WILL RECOVER! life your life normally and stop researching the condition. Science helps but the biggest part is up to you!
Hey Joey, thanks for your comment! 😊 And don't worry, existential thoughts are super common with DP and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/
@@anthonygreico9735 like I go through phases where i binge watch stories of kids that were abused, trafficked, etc (content created with the intent to raise awareness or tell the kids brave stories) and it must upset me on some level but I think I try to find out why it happened to me
@@anthonygreico9735 like I have an urge to watch content that’s related to kids being traumatized and what we are/can do to help, stories of those recovering from trauma or just stories of having been through it
I cried through this whole video, and even harder when it was done. I can't explain why, But it's a relief to know I'm not going crazy. I just want to feel ok..
So glad to hear it was helpful Keaton 😊 And don't worry, you're not going crazy! 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
Don't worry, fears about vision like that are super common with DP and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
@Find Yourself I've almost completely recovered since then. My eye floaters went away and if I do experience them it doesn't cause me any anxiety anymore.
@Find Yourself floated are a completely natural part of vision; everyone has them. Anxiety/dp just make you notice them more. Since I experience much less anxiety now, I find that I noticed them rarely and when I do it doesn't bother me in the slightest.
@Find Yourself it's impossible to be completely cured. Every person on the planet will see floaters when looking at a clear blue sky. The floaters will become unnoticeable in almost every situation though. And you will also realize, that while annoying, it's a harmless thing.
@Find Yourself Your floaters are not causing your anxiety even if it feels like that are, they are a product of them. If you work on your anxiety, it is absolutely possible that you will stop noticing them entirely, and you will be as good as cured for from them.
I feel like you just cured my disorder COMPLETELY.. I can't thank you enough. God bless you ♥️ my problem was not understanding my situation and what caused it, I was so confused. Now that I understand EVERYTHING I feel much better and I feel that I can easily beat it😭😍😍
I had that exact same worry! 😊 I know it can be scary but don't worry, it will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/about/my-depersonalization-story/
When I expierenced this I thought I was going insane or something and all I did was look up “psychosis” “scizophrenia” I was just afraid and had great fear that I was possible of having one of these but after watching this video I definetly feel better
Glad to hear the video was helpful Stephanie! 😊 And check out this article, you might find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/schizophrenia_cancer_depersonalization/
This helped me so much, I overcame the fear of dpdr and anxiety and got back to living my normal life after 3 months of consistant setbacks. Only thing left is some tears and anger that were suppressed by dpdr. Trust me guys all you have to do is overcome the fear of anxiety, make it your best friend and everything will go back to normal. Quote "anxiety is caused by the fear of anxiety" litteraly changed my life. To everyone who is going trough this right now, know that everything is okay with you, you just have anxiety like every other human, if you didnt have anxiety you wouldnt be normal. God is with you and he made you for a reason!
I had derealization and depersonalization for a while. It’s scary. You can’t connect to anything, emotionally. It does finally go away. It will disappear gradually as the brain lets down the barrier. During dr and dp, my brain was my worst nightmare! Had a mind of its own.
@@taohiker1 Don't worry Taylor, it doesn't matter how long you've had it, you can and will recover 😊 Read these: www.dpmanual.com/articles/is-depersonalization-permanent/ www.dpmanual.com/testimonials/
I had this in my second year at university. It lasted for about 4 months and I seriously thought it would never go away. However, after doing some scans on my brain (to reassure myself) and reading about the disorder a lot, I managed to completely overcome it. So for everyone out there suffering from it, I feel your pain and I hope that my experience can provide you with some hope and light at the end of the tunnel.
@@PoppyJadeLowdon Hey Poppy basically everything in the video. Just keep remembering that nothing is physically wrong with you and try thinking about other positive things.
@@ramavie3459 Nothing in particular, for me the most important factor was correctly diagnosing my problem. This made a lot of my anxiety disappear. After that, I just tried to think about other things and it slowly went away.
I’m 17 and the trip hit me like a brick wall and it was the most terrifying experience, I’m on my journey back to my old self and look at this weird period of your life as a blessing, you see your life with some sort of blur and use this to learn about who you are, no matter what happens you are still you. We will do this
The visual snow and floaters thing BLEW MY MIND. I cant tell you how many appointments I've been too and the frustration felt when I get told time and time again that my eyes are perfectly fine
Don’t worry, visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
I can not even tell you how this video put me at ease. You literally described EVERY symptom that I have. It made me feel like I’m not actually crazy... I almost turned myself into my local psych ward last night (not even joking) because I felt like I was having a psychotic break. But this video helped significantly. The eye issues have been the worst symptom for me because my vision is already bad so to add this, it just makes it so much worse. But the way you described why this happens, my god. Thank you.
You're very welcome Tegan, I'm delighted to hear that the video was so useful 😊 And don't worry, visual symptoms are super common with DP and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
Ermmmm, did you check his video description? Well obviously he is coming from a good place and he made an amazing free video, but he also has a book to sell. Which is totally fine btw.
The only thing that keeps me sane is my passion, responsibilities, and will. I don’t know if I have experienced any of these episodes, but I often find myself extremely distant from others when I’m anxious or feeling bad. I can hardly talk, make eye contact, make out fast rational and logical thoughts. My mind is a blur and I feel tired or just a heavy weight or tension in my head. I am happiest when alone and doing my hobbies, I feel connected to the earth. I’m not a social animal and overt behavior confuses me.
Here’s a lil poem I wrote. It’s called “Muffled” Sometimes I hear but I don’t listen Sometimes I look but I don’t see Sometimes I touch but I don’t feel My senses fade in and out They blur They back down, afraid of attracting too much attention to themselves. When I talk without hearing my voice I wonder who’s talking Am I sharing my body with someone else? My attentiveness is dulled. My body goes on autopilot Invisible ear muffs are put on My world becomes muffled
Thank you from my heart, I feel so much less alone! I cried.. To all of DP people reading my comment, I wish you all to heal and a lot of happiness! (sorry for my bad english!)
this helped me SO much, i have been experiencing this since august 2020 (it’s december 2020 atm) and it’s gotten to the point where i can’t remember what it feels like to be normal. but this whole video made me realize that i need to control my anxiety and not let it control me.
@@Arkeshan meditation!! reiki music!! 2 things that helped my anxiety SO much. I still get anxiety and just a few days ago i didn’t sleep for 2 days straight cause it was so bad, but reiki healing music and meditation is so amazing for anxiety. Focusing on the music and ur own breathing is such a stress reliever.
@@GeownerTv I d k. One day I was waiting my English Literature homework suddenly I felt like something is wrong with my eyes. Like the book's letters became small. It was really weird. It was since then I started to have this...
I think it's also important to recognize that DEPRESSION goes hand in hand with Depersonalization and that this condition is half the battle. I am overcoming both (and still a work in progress) but I remember watching this video a few months ago and thinking, "okay that's great this DP should pass, but what happens after that?" Basically a "what is the point" type of mentality. Separate each condition and address them individually. 1. For depression, it has helped me to rediscover my purpose and take the time to enjoy the little things every minute of my day (like watching my son walk around and hold my hand). 2. For DP, I've accepted that it is truly an ANXIETY-based condition and like many of us are saying here, can get better with proper sleep, exercise, mental awareness, and, for me particularly, breathing a deep breath and telling myself this is anxiety when I feel a spike in DP. I wish everyone here good health and an improved sense of being after we overcome this.
Thank you for this, I’ve been feeling this way for quite some time due to my depression and anxiety and reading your words have me hope that I will overcome this feeling. :)
my DP has gotten really bad after taking this anxiety medicine called Prozac. i’ve been feeling DP for about 3 weeks now it’s very scary. i don’t wanna leave my room, i get anxiety going out in public, i don’t eat anymore and i’ve lost 10 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks. the moment i wake up i don’t feel real, i’ll look at my mom and in my head i won’t know who she is, i’ll be in my house and not know where i’m at. i need prayers and reading these comments and watching the video has really helped me. thank you.
Hey Kayla, thanks for your comment and I'm glad to hear the video was helpful 😊 Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DP can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and trauma. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com
Just know that this too does pass. I wish someone had told me that. Also partner with your doctor about this. There are therapies, like CBT that can help.❤
i need help. i’ve been having really bad dreams lately. this morning, i woke up sweating and scared after a nightmarish dream. ever since this morning i’ve felt like i’m still dreaming, and that i need to get out of this dream. i’m very scared as i type this. i’m tearing up bc i don’t know if my mom is my mom or just a part of my dream
The part that bothers me the most is my inability to feel emotion. I feel bland and completely numb. At my grandmother's funeral two weeks ago I was obviously sad but somehow I felt... numb. I got out of a relationship about 6 months ago and felt nothing. It's terrifying. This is around year 2.5-3 of feeling this way and it seems to only worsen. I am stuck in a loop of not having energy in which I get caffeine to get through the day and it only worsens the anxiety. I stay absolutely stressed with my job and full-time college, but I know it is deeper because I am staying afloat and succeeding in both. It is the weirdest feeling to feel so detached but be so functional. I am addicted to being around my friends because when I am with them my mind is distracted and I can finally relax (not all of the time, but a lot of the time). The second I leave I start overthinking and sometimes panic attacks ensue. I get depressed. Even trying to sleep I am not in peace, as I frequently wake in the middle of the night if I can even get to sleep in the first place. I have reached a point that I get anxious to open my emails and feel overwhelmed. I sometimes don't want to answer the phone and the thought of doing paperwork is daunting. I get it done, but just getting started is mentally draining. I am thankful for what I have and the support group around me, but feel like a burden and almost always like I don't deserve it. People ask me how I am (they really want to know.. not the greeting way), but it is literally too extraneous to try and explain so I just say I am doing well. I am not sure how much longer I can continue like this before something gives. I don't want to take medications and the things I have tried haven't been able to solve it. I am healthy, but my brain is not. Here is to hoping for a light at the end of the tunnel. My biggest fear is that I am stuck like this forever, and I will never experience real happiness again. I just want to be present and live in the moment.
i hope you are okay man. i feel this on a spiritual level and i related to some parts of this. this is haunting. i wish happiness on us both. we deserve peace within. hope your okay
Dear Collin I understand everything you said. Cause I'm the same way. But I want you to know something.....you are More. We are more. I know that even tho we would like to be "normal" and live in the Now I believe it happened to us cause we are special. And that is good. You are completely aware of what is going on with you and that is special. I believe people like us are on a higher level of consciousness. We change the world for better. We feel more thats why you start feeling numb cause feeling more hurts. But actually you are just beautiful being floating high.
@@pluutoop this comment thread was so pure and just what I needed to read. I feel similar to what the original comment said, only I feel completely non functional and non productive every single day hahah. I'm struggling to stay afloat and get good grades in college but it just doesn't seem to happen. I'm thinking about taking a year off from college to focus on my mental health and patiently hone my skills and not be forced into the very competitive industry I am studying towards. (The design industry). Thank you for putting your positive thoughts and energy out, it has helped immensely :) 💖✨🌿
@@chloe.cordeiro it's my pleasure. And obviously you do what you need to do to feel better. And when bad times approach I always comfort myself by singing "If it's meant to be it'll be it'll be baby just let it be......." 🎼 or "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming what do we do we swim, swim" ❤
Same here, i think its just another part of my brain trying to cope with the panic in it, since some ppl deal with this panic- also might be bcs of childhood trauma I get this feeling whenever i see ppl talk abt impulsively clicking on videos, that its a problem for them bcs they click even if they dont find it fun or interesting, and here i just realized that i dont even know the difference anymore, what actually makes me happy? What are things that are solely my brain impulsively do? I dont know, everything feels the same
Did anyone else watch this video at a bad time of depersonalization and feel 100% better after? This video like saved me it just started 2 weeks ago but I feel so not alone now
So I smoked a wax pen 6 days ago and i had a little panic attack and so I went to the hospital and they said everything was good so I slept it off and the next day I started to feel out of reality and my head started to hurt and I began to throw up really bad. I lost 20 pounds and I lost my appetite I get really bad headaches. I have the same symptoms as depersonalization derealization.is this the same thing or do I have something different?
@@NURXZI Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 Don’t worry, that all sounds like a very typical case of weed-induced DP to me. I know it can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and trauma. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com
I had this a couple of years ago. It's very scary when you're going through the worst of it BUT it fades away. So anyone who's dealing with this now.... Don't worry it'll pass.
@@jasminegrant7092 you slowly come out of it. Once you start to really notice it lifting (for me, 3 month point) then it doesn't seem to bother you as much. Then you feel really encouraged as it fades away month by month. Try not to get hung up on the time factor because that in itself will drive your anxiety.
I thought I was going insane, or had schizophrenia, or had psychosis. I thought it would never end and I was trapped in hell. Thank you for making this video. I let the biggest sigh of relief out while watching this. It does get better
Glad it was helpful Jay -- And don't worry, you're not going crazy 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/
Hearing someone describe EXACTLY what I was feeling is so reassuring that I wasn’t the only one. I thought I had damaged myself beyond repair but knowing others have the same situation is so calming to my anxiety
i literally looked up “is there a word when you feel like the world isnt real” and literally there were numbers there to help me and i saw “depersonalization disorder” and dude i was like 😀
You hit every point that I thought was “too unique” to be normal. Feeling like I’ve been dealing with it too long. Memory loss. Eye floaters. I thought I was going insane or that I broke something, this video put me at so much ease.
The eye floaters and vision issues in general were a huge surprise to me. I thought I genuinely had problems with my eyes (as well as all the other 'imagined' stuff).
@@Jamie_E_Pritchard Don’t worry Jamie, visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/
My psychologist just told me that I should research about derealization when I come home and, as I found this video, I've been crying for the entire 20 minutes and as I'm writing this comment because I've been dealing with derealization for basically my entire life, I didn't even knew this existed before and it's everything so different now, thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for making this video, it'll help me a lot when dealing with my DP
I remember watching this a month ago, thinking that this was the end. I thought I was insane and that marijuana had just fucked me up and that I could never recover. it got to the point where I felt as if I had made up my whole family or if they’re not real. but I know they are. we all are, you are alive. Thank you for this. you saved me
@@arichavaria2944 i’m a lot better, I still have anxiety and i’m planning on going to therapy soon. it comes and goes. I still feel like i’m not completely myself but i’m a lot better compared to how I was in december. things do get better, stay strong
I'm sitting here stunned, I just can't believe that as a 67 year old male suffering from DD this is the first time in my life someone has explained in simple terms what I have been experiencing since I was about 11 years old. Thank you so much Shaun O'Connor for this life changing experience
hey i got DP 5 months ago and i was hopeless i was scared i would never ever lose the feeling and my life was over and then i found your videos and you're a life saver you made me feel so happy to know i could over come this but when you're in DP you over think to much (or i did) so i always would think if it would help to over come this was it worth it once again i felt hopeless until my sister told me when we were watching a movie i was acting normal and i felt uncomfortable and she said "i was worried i would never get my bother back" and it came to me i'm not going to let DP mess up my life and my bonds i made so i got to work got the manual and worked and it help and i'm so happy i was back to normal please anyone who reads this it's not the end i promise it will pass you have to put in work and i know it hard you feel like laying in bed forever but for you and your family and loved ones believe in yourself i believe in you you can do it i know you can do it keep your head up ♥️ (and sorry for the bad grammar hope you can read it easy and thank you so much Shaun you're a life saver)
@Find Yourself you see like black and white dots? i had the same thing 1.) you're focusing on them too much, just don't pay attention to them focus on other things 2.) you're probably tired and stressed out, let your eyes rest - but it will go away as you recover and get more rest
i can never recognize myself, or my voice when i hear it. when people say my name or something im like “that’s me” and it’s just so weird, idk what to do anymore
Hey Perla, thanks for your comment! 😊 And don't worry, experiences like that are super common with DP and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/
Bruh same, I literally can’t comprehend the idea that my identity exists. Like wtf, it’s the worst feeling ever. I’ll be going about my day and my brain is like ‘hey remember you exist’ and then I spiral into a mental breakdown about my entire identity/existence.
@@echilcote4235 yeaa bro i feel you this is just the shitestt feeling ever is like i am living but not really idk how to describ it like i had for 3,4 days im tryin my best to do better is just like i am dreaming with my eyes open
@@e.ie.l6194 Sometimes my dreams feel more like reality because in my dreams I don’t feel like this. I just want my life back, literally none of my friends or family understand how I feel and it sucks.
