Supa 4ys I think what he means is some people that are depressed feel guilty because they know that so many more people out there have it worse, much worse and some of those people don’t even feel depressed and are living a decent life, so it’s like “why should I feel sad and hate my life when they are people that are happy and don’t have a life as well as mine.”
The best description I've heard of depression: "Depression isn't when things go wrong and you feel terrible about it. It's when everything is going well, and you still feel terrible about it."
Vital Smiles I’m so sorry for your loss. They say time heals all wounds, but I don’t think that is totally true. Time can lessen the intensity of the pain-although in my experience, sometimes the pain is super raw and fresh again. Is he usually there for everyone else, but not you? Is he mainly there for you, except on this anniversary? I’m just trying to understand if this is a more isolated/specific incident, or if he does this all the time-dismissing (aka invalidating) your needs and your pain? If it’s just on the anniversary, it’s probably his way of coping. But he’s your husband! If he can’t acknowledge your son’s death anniversary, he really needs to communicate that with you! Maybe you have before, but from what you’re saying-you need to reiterate that you need love and support. You need to feel that you and your pain are being seen and heard. His feelings are not more important than yours. You can and should feel free to express your feelings. And to expect that your husband will support you to the best of his ability. Even if that’s just listening to you. 💜
Exactly. My parents acts towards to me like this, like I have to be happy, try to happy. Whenever I tried, it never worked out, whenever I tried to tell them how I feel, they act negatively towards to me, so I stopped saying how I feel, I just keeping it to myself. Just like Chester said in the video. Almost everyday I feel like I hate everything, I am not happy with anything and I don't want anything.
The worst thing about having depression is the fact that you have to try and be a "Different You" in front of loved ones so that they stay happy...while you just rot away slowly but steadily.
Not me. I don't give a shit about what anyone, whether their friends, colleagues or loved ones think. I'm not living my life for them, I'm living it for myself and anyone who tries to interfere or manipulate what I'm doing will be dealt with quickly and cut off entirely. You should live life on your OWN terms, not anybody else's terms. Otherwise, you'll never be happy. Life is a game and people only "care" if it's in their self-interest. To win the game of life you need to become the best possible player and learn to see through people's BS because no one is who they truly say they are. They all have a nice facade, but behind the facade, dangerous moves are being carefully planned out.
Or nearly everything inside you is dying and the only thing you can feel is rage. A need to smash things up and get into fights. Just so you don't need to talk to anyone and you're not the only one who thinks you're an arse hole. Depression is a monster!
Only thing I look forward to anymore is sleep so I can dream and escape this shitty reality. Really just wish life would change or end. I'm happy with either
Depression is when you don't want to go to sleep because you have those minutes before you fall asleep where you can't stay busy enough to keep your mind from thinking about all the negativity.
The worst part about depression for me is that even though people say you should get help and talk to people, when you do, they don't actually help anything. They feel sorry for you. They don't want to be around you, because you're depressed. They think you're going crazy. Talking to people actually makes it even worse. That creates even more loneliness, and it's just a part of the downward spiral.
If you have the right people around is not a bad thing. My friends are the best told them about my mental status and they said they will do their best to make my life better. They said they are always there for me. So therefore I am feeling a little better when they say that. You just have to choose the right people to talk about your problems and know that they will never judge you for anything.
Idk you but I'm always here if you need someone to talk or vent to. I myself have had depression in my past so I know what your going through. Facebook me and ill add you if you want
Yep. Most people don’t know what this shit’s like. It doesn’t help that the word “depression” gets thrown around too much and has lost a lot of meaning. Major depressive disorder is a much better term.
Same with suicide. My mom attempted suicide when I was 18. I thought she was being a selfish bitch for doing that. Twenty years later I tried to commit suicide. After I was released from the hospital I apologized to my mom for judging her.
Been there and I am still there. CB is right, much of it is caused by myself but I can't escape that f t world mindset and crawl into a corner to just sleep.
The irony is, that is the right advise. At least two problems arise from it though. - It is so easy to say those things that you can't help but feel anyone who says that doesn't actually give a fuck about you. - Portraying the end goal first does not actually mean anything, unless you know the path there.
Anyone who does that should get punched. There's actually a saying in the bible (which is true, religious or not) that says if you wake someone up early with the bashing of pans and screaming of cheers, that it will be accounted as a curse - not a blessing, the same can be said when a narcissist tries to portray themselves as false positive energy.
@@SteveVon7 Depends on the attitude and context that it is said in. If the person that said it actually cared about the person they said it too, it wouldn’t be so bad, or at least not too offensive. If it was said to imply mental weakness in another person, it would make a person upset. I don’t think anyone is showing weakness by feeling intense pain over life and wanting to commit suicide, but ultimately I see suicide as a selfish act. It depends on factors such as quality of life, too. People that commit suicide cause intense pain and emotional issues in the people they leave behind. When we find love within and show it to others, it is strong. But not stronger than people focused on pain. Pain is just something we all have to deal with hopefully as positively as possible.
That is not true, it might sound good and comforting but it simply is not true. Please know that there are people who really are alone and who actually have no one that cares about them.
Do you really cares? If a person from another side of the world died. The none famous one. It wouldnt effect you. Even if you got the news, it will just flew by. Life is harsh
Nobody will care and I still think that even though I had therapy for 3 to 4 years it helped but I’m just thinking of life again and the stuff I hate and all the hatred
Very few people take depression seriously even when it is happening to someone that lives in the same house, shares the same meals, goes out with you to take a cup of coffee. They often take it as a period of sadness that will go away. But sadness is only a symptom; when we are depressed we lose interest in almost everything. We can't take pleasure or happiness from anything. We can't find a way out to our problems We dislike everything about us. We feel we don't deserve to live. Everything hurts you. It's an open wound that hurts every day, every hour, every minute, every second of our existence. And we just want to stop the pain.
I know that. My brother didn't take it seriously, for him it's just a sad period. "You'll fell better in a few days". Few days ? It's here for 7 years. Almost 8.
Yes its so important to surround yourself with friends and family and stay for support stay occupied with positive things and isolation makes Deppression worse
A friend of mine said to me that depression is like a cold: you have it for a while, and then it gets better. I said 'No... it's more like arthritis: you always have it, but some days are less painful than others.'
Definitely nailed it! I live through this daily anxiety/depression from the anxiety attacks there really isn’t very many good days. Just like Chester said when your alone with your own thoughts or inside your own mind it’s a bad place to be.
Yes his Sun sign is in Pisces, he will definitely be sensitive and sense negative energies easily from his surroundings. It was the same with Kurt Cobain
Tbh depressed people like me want to live but don't wanna exist. Even if things are alright, they just don't seem right to me. Everyday we all are fighting in the hope that one day depression will go away😔
I have bipolar disorder. I have tried explaining this to people so many times. Everything's that I've attempted suicide, it wasn't that I wanted to die, I just didn't want to go another second feeling the anguish I felt.
It's weird cos I genuinely just told some they can talk to me if they want and I honestly meant it but dunno if it sounds like how it does when someone says, "you're not alone, I love you" if u catch my drift.
ya it makes no sense. saying you're not alone while you're completely alone and I love you, when people only sneer or ignore you in real life. I'm not alone....sure.
2017 was a dark year for rock. I didn't expect Chris Cornell to commit suicide due to depression. Chester certainly didn't keep his depression a secret but I was still shocked and heartbroken about his death. RIP CHRIS and CHESTER
"He's an artist. He felt too much." DAMN. Some of the happiest people I know have the least self-awareness/intelligence. Which is dangerous to understand because it almost validates our depression. Like it's inevitable.
Had to do a double take when he spoke about envying sociopaths because they don't feel anything. I literally said the exact same thing to my therapist. It's scary to hear that same sentiment from his mouth, though I can tell he was in a much worse place at the time. RIP.
I have been through severe anxiety for years and managed to get out of it not really knowing how. I experienced my 2 best years in 2019/2020 because I wasn’t feeling anything anymore. Everything was so quite. No worries, no anguish, no nothing. Now depressed since 6 month I would prefer to go back to that state of numbness. At least when you don’t feel you are not hurting !
Same but i said it to my fiancé. And he had the same reaction as Chester's therapist. It is very scary to hear the same conversation from someone else.
"Crawling in my skin, these wounds they will not heal" Damn it Chester. When he said "im just going to go lay over here and die" I felt that in my core. Ive been so blessed in life yet Ive always been so miserable. I try to take DMX's advice and find meaning in the suffering, but I just can't. If you tell people these things they say shit like "you'll get over it " or "just give it time" I dont want time, I want to be happy and alive. Why cant I be happy? Why do I allow myself to get to the depths of despair and self destruction? I honestly don't know what Im going to do, but one thing is for sure I WILL NOT STOP FIGHTING. THESE WOUNDS WILL HEAL.
labeling depression as 'not okay' is why you're depressed in the first place. If you can accept all your feelings (anxiety, hopelessness, loneliness etc.) then you're doing all you can. A depression doesn't want to fight you, it just wants to be seen, but people keep running away from it. Stop running away from it.
When you have clinical depression and ppl say "you're not alone" it's almost like a slap in the face, because that's exactly what it is. Regardless of how many ppl I'm around, or where I'm at, I'm always alone. It separates you from everything, there is is no "cheer up" "stop feeling sorry for yourself" "you'll be fine". It's not something you can control, it controls you.
You are not alone means, at least when I say it, that other people go through those struggles too. I would never be that ignorant to say it the way you just described.
Hexenkind1 Well that's easy to say after someone describes it that way. When ppl say "you're not alone" they say it because A)That's what they think they're supposed to say or B)So they can feel good about themselves because they "helped" somebody. The only ppl who care or can somewhat help is ppl who suffer from this shit.
I feel this. I'm on medication and seeing a counsellor now, quit drinking, and I'm just barely treading water. Doing anything is still a struggle. I'm almost 40 now (elder millenial here) and it's brutal seeing where I feel like I should be able to be, but can't be. If you're like me, don't be ashamed to go on medication and seek professional help, because the shit does not get better on it's own. At least I've stopped it from getting worse.
Medicine dosent help ,sometimes it only makes you feel worse. I've spent lifetime in different hospitals and tried just about all the meds only to feel worse.
-Thinking alot -Can't sleep at night -Hard to wake up -Dont feel to eat -Loss weight -Don't care about everything -Loss interest in everything -Doesn't want to go out -Easily get angry/sad -Blaming myself for everything What happened to me?
@@kevinboon4330 -Thinking alot -Hard to wake up -Don't care about everything -Loss interest in everything -Doesn't want to go out -Easily get angry/sad -Blaming myself for everything + -Don't have will to do anything -tired all the time is here! you are not alone. Maybe I need more chemicals in my brain thats make people happy and active 😒 with hunger to earn more money or be respected in society.... but now, for 10 years, I don't have these feelings at all.
The worst thing about depression is that you can't express how you feel because everyone will only tell you are seeking for attention; your family will tell you have nothing to be depressed about. Sometimes I feel I'm too weak to be in this world, like I don't even know how I've made it until this day, honestly I am terrified about the future, because somehow I know my days are counted, there is almost no strength left inside me so, I'm just waiting for my day to come which is really sad because this is not how I imagined things would be many years ago.
Hey, Mariana GR. I understand you. Nobody imagines when we are young that life would be so hard. Everyone finds out that this is what we are condemned to be. Hope you are doing all right.
Keeping busy and helping others helps. Also find things you like. For me I enjoy games and music and work. If you can focus on the present and making good memories that's a start.
As someone who has been depressed for years, it's been hitting extra hard the last few weeks for me. I'm not going to lie, and I don't talk about it, but I had a mental break like two weeks ago. I had just gotten out of work and sat in my car, and literally started crying. As someone who doesn't cry or ever show emotion really, it was just weird. It's been rough lately, my mind has been in a dark place. I know I need help but I don't want to get it. Maybe this is my calling who knows.
I didn’t know it for a very long time, but I believe I was fighting to keep war time PTSD shoved down in a bottle with my hand holding it tamped down. Explains why I’d get down right angry and mean and not give a shit about people. It took retiring from the military, and an old vet who had been fighting the same demons and was 100% PTSD to recognize in me what I couldn’t see for myself, since he had been to meetings with younger vets and heard/saw in them and what they were saying/expressing was everything I was relating to him. Since starting to seek treatment, I’ve been having those days where I just sit and cry. Fucking embarrassing, to go from what I was to what I am now. Hyper awareness, fight or flight, random eyeball leaking. Have to go sit in my car for hours before going home to my family and even then can’t stand to be around them, even my little one, when that demon come around for his pound of flesh. Hurts to just type this out right now, but I wanted you to know that even though I can’t understand exactly what you are going through, because I can’t be in your head, but I kind of get it, and many of us have our own version of this hell we plod through.
@@Borescoped You got a hell of an experience. I'll give you that. I can tell you right now, you've been through more than me, I don't have PTSD, so I can only imagine how hard that must be for you. My problem is really just finding a reason to keep going. Some people keep going because they have families, some because they actually like life, obviously there's many other reasons to keep going, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who doesn't see the point to say the least. Another thing is the mental battles, like I said I can only imagine how bad it is for you, but for me, it changes often, from just thinking I'm a worthless POS to just feeling super guilty that I feel worthless. When ever I think about ending it all, if I just keep thinking I'll break down and cry, like you said, super embarrassing, but I break down because all I feel is so much guilt for feeling that I'm not worth anything because I know I shouldn't feel that way. I say the main reason I'm still here is every time I think about it, just finally ending it, I think of the few people I talk to and how sad or disappointed they would be, because I care too much about what other people think about me. I know I should also seek help for my problems but, as I'm sure you know, it's just hard. Honestly I 100% appreciate you sharing your experience, I know it's hard to share. It must have been though to type, and if your like me, the hardest part was probably pressing the arrow button that posts the commet. Anyway, thank you for sharing, sometimes it's hard but it feels good from time to time so well, atleast I think it does, I hope it's similar for you.
The first time I "overcame" depression (2017?), I was just dead inside. i wasnt wishing to be this or that anymore, but It's difficult to feel joy, or happiness, or be proud for a tiny achievement. It's never enough to "feel" something. I just can't. I simply can't get happy, or love my hobbies. It's literally being emotionally incapable of feeling something positive. Last year i had a breakdown because of many things piled up. And it hasn't gotten any better. I'm aware this is not right, like, i may need to talk to someone to express what's going on. But to be honest, i don't want to even get better. I don't even think about the future. And fuck knows that's what depression is, because i no longer care.
I found out over the years that people always seem to be "shocked" and "sad" when someone commits suicide and they say things like "I wish she/he would have said something". The issue with that is that they HAVE said something, but non-depressed people don't want to listen because they feel like it's annoying or repetitive. And guess what, it is. Can you imagine living with it for decades? It is annoying and repetitive for the person who feels it, too! My advice, whenever someone opens up to you: don't tell them things like "it's going to be okay", "please seek help" "life is amazing", don't say that. Instead, JUST HUG THEM and listen, listen, listen! Again, and again and again and again and again.......
I respectfully disagree. I’ve never struggled with depression but several family members and one of my oldest and dearest friends do. Dark, crushing, bleak, and searingly painful, their depression is a hungry monster just waiting to take another chunk of their lives. I do listen, but sometimes it’s hard for me to understand why they are feeling a certain way, but I acknowledge they do. Yes, it is difficult for non-depressed people to hear the unspoken words abowsut another’s struggles, because we don’t always have a common language. It can be very hard to maintain a relationship when the other person constantly pushes you away. I keep trying because they are so worth keeping.
@Marko Djurdjevic dunno man, I've met a couple of dudes who pretend they're depressed just for attention or edginess. One of them was talking about how shitty his (privileged) life was at my brother's friend's funeral. At some point I stood up and told him to shut the fuck up and he stayed quiet for the rest of the thing. Some people man, this is exactly why I hate humans so much
@Julia Milford yeah there's tons of hiding because you know you don't want to bring everyone down. And then when you die they're all like "oh wow didn't know he was troubled, someone should've done something". Hindsight 20/20 baby
That is EXACTLY how I feel, now I just gotta try explaining to my parents, they're always just like "Oh every teenager has depression." I always thought that, now I know it's something more.
As someone who suffered from depression pretty much all my life I just want to say the past 2 years have been incredible for me. I've never felt this happy. Just know there is hope!
@@yoe91 yeah killing yourself isn't good for your family but he made sure they wouldn't ever need anything else after he died. he wasn't being selfish he just couldn't take it anymore and felt horribly alone.
yoe91 that’s literally the point if he didn’t care about his family and stuff he wouldn’t of done it he shoulda cared about himself and he woulda realized that he needed his family and stuff
At about 0:23 Mike’s face went from smiling like Chester was making a joke to “oh shit” in a matter of seconds. It’s haunting to watch now knowing what happened.
yeah chester transitioned often from humor to realism when he was opening up in these interviews. mike was definitely aware about where he was going as he shared all of this
It's hard not to look back and think of how you could've done things differently and subsequently blame yourself - and this thought process only makes matters worse.
I am living this right now. It is a vicious cycle. It has been a lifelong process to learn how to deal with it. I struggle everyday to explain this to those around me but it seems all for not. I want to be left alone often just so I don't negatively influence others like right now.... I have spent all day in my blacked out room watching youtube because it is easier than dealing with anyone around me.... I've tried many different medications with no real positive changes. At 40 I have been at this for about 20 years, my only light is that I have made it this far.
I’ve been feeling the same way for only around 2-3 years now, though it feels longer than that. This is my normal now, and I don’t really see a way out. I feel a little bad for feeling like this and for talking about it because I have a lot of people to talk to, it’s just that doing that never helps with anything.
@@dylanhitchcock6574 One thing I have learned is most people just don't get why you cannot "shake it off", or "just be happy." Not to sound like an asshole but if it was that easy do you think I may just do that?!? Some days are better than others but honestly stop trying to explain yourself. Unless you've been through it 99.9% of normal happy people don't and will not understand. Take it one day at a time and focus on the good days and have a short memory for the bad ones. Dwelling will only drag it out. You owe it to YOURSELF to be the best you and accept that bad days will happen. Much love, and feel free to hit me up when you need too. Helps to have someone who has been there and gets it sometimes. Take care.
Know what is strange when I have a good day the next day is going to be an extra bad day. I'm not making this up. Or maybe it is my mind playing with me. I have to stop the negative thoughts like some one else said, ...it gets you no where fast
Thats about as perfect description of real depression as you can get. Nothing can just cheer you up or take you out of it. People that have never had it don't understand and can get frustrated thinking they have solutions.
A world without feelings is an uncontrollable state of boredom, it consumes you thats why sociopaths tend to end up as criminals, they are in a never ending search for stimulation.
Not only was Chester screaming to sing their songs, he was screaming for us, he was letting out our emotions, emotions that we can't let out, he was doing it for us.
“I envy sociopaths because they don’t have to feel anything.” Most people don’t realize how real that feeling is. Sometimes I wish I were a completely self-centered person so I wouldn’t constantly be worrying about other people’s needs at my own expense. I don’t mean to humble myself, but being an empathetic person can be so painful sometimes.
the pain of compassion, the constant expectation and worrying passion, sometimes I just don't want to care so I don't feel the guilt, the other side of it. Like being sensitive, you feel the good more but the bad too yet it's worth it. I think that to feel outweighs no feeling like life to death but sometimes that's the desired seemingly cure.
Well, I don't feel much and I'm still depressed and anxious as fuck. It really wouldn't help you at much as you think. You'd just have different problems, a different kind of depression, that's all.
I live that shit every moment. LP's music has helped me through some of the darkest times by giving me something to play that I can relate to. Rest in peace knowing your songs had and will continue to have an impact for years to come.
PERSONALLY this was the problem to me.I related too much with negativity and negativity dragged me down! Sad music can give us RELEASE but not happier feelings.We shoudnt consume it constantly.WE NEED TO BE AWARE about the content we consume because it becomes our worldview and thoughts.SAD SONGS cant give us happy feelings.Down the road we IDENTIFY ourselves with DEPRESSION and negativity cuz its all we know and have inside.It just feels common so we consume more and more sad content VIA sad music,sad videos,negative youtubers etc EVERYTHING WE HEAR ARE IDEAS! and ideas becomes OUR BELIEFS and the more sad we feel and we wonder: why? RIGHT NOW am I questioning myself.WTF am I doing here if Im depressive?This is the worst place A DEPRESSIVE PERSON SHOULD BE.How much SADNESS we put into ourselves just by filling our minds with negavity and sorrow?Its not about being delusional and hiper positive but its about realizing that we are feeding our minds with sadness and hopelesness and if our minds are full of this content theres no space for happiness or positivity at all because the content we toss it into our minds have became our NEGATIVE WORLDVIEW.My PSYCHOLOGIST told me we shoudnt run and its good to feel the feelings but for how long?How much time we are spending dating sadness?
@@Laura-we6xi honestly it is the exact opposite for me. If I'm struggling with a bad day, I throw on some angry, depressed music for an hour, get it out of my system and I feel better. We all have our triggers and coping mechanisms. Linkin Park's music has been something that helps me. But as someone who struggles with mental health like I do, feel free to DM me if you ever need an ear to listen. Best wishes.
@@michaelr7506 Yeah for sure.Only you know what's best for you:) personally I'm starving sources of drama and sadness I share my comment cuz I think its worth to think.It took me years to notice this pattern of picking sad things.Months ago I listened to "when the party it's over" from billy Elish and I saw so many depressed teens there.They all have the same pattern.They dont talk to their parents about their pain,they keep identifying themselves with other sad people and they get deeper and deeper into their depression..When I think about my myself as a teen I think "omg there was nothing ever wrong with me" but I was getting worse identifying myself with that darkness.In your case you say you listen,release and let go but a lot of people get stuck on that place and it only gets worse.
@@Laura-we6xi I do work full time, so I may be a bit slow at replies. But I'm always up for making new friends and if I can help someone through a bad day, all the better. And yes, a lot of young ppl keep things in. To me that has less to do with media they consume and more to do with not wanting to feel weak in front of those charged with protecting you. It's why music has historically had a theme of rebellion against the previous generation. Glad to hear you are having a good day tho. Thanks for the replies. As much as I despise social media, little interactions like this hammer home the "social" aspect of it. Enjoy the rest of your evening
I still can’t believe he’s gone.. His music helped me through elementary, middle school , and high school . And now it’s helping me through work. My heart hurts so much that he fully described depression and nailed it too well.. I will continue listening and keep my hands held high.
Well that’s kind of relevant... considering how many people in the world are depressed at some degree To me it’s surprising I didn’t get this in my recommendations earlier For you it seems it’s something fleeting so that’s why it was a strange thing to happen for me that’s everyday for the last 10 years...
You should definitely have a talk with whoever you know that really cares about you, do not wonder if it will go well, do not tell yourself that there is no point, just do it. Find a close family member or friend, just be honest and share with them your struggle, just to let them know what you are going through, you will be surprised how much they care. Understand that your experience inside your mind, is not stronger than the comfort you can have from someone else in the real world. Have faith, reach out to someone you know that really cares, even if you doubt, even if you've done it before, just choose to believe that you are working on a turnaround. The awful neighborhood that is inside of your head, is an illusion and you know it, when you choose to listen to a caring person over your negative mind, you will find peace. Once you have a real moment with someone who loves you as a person, life is not a burden anymore, it becomes a blessing.
@@zachsawyer4822 Not destroy the phone, just adjust the settings, turn off "report diagnostic data", "search recommendations", and "search history", that will give you less intrusive results and recommendations.
@@HopelessDestiny91 I have been unemployed for 9 months now. I'm so scared no one will ever hire me. ..I was terminated from what I believe my medication and mental disorders I just couldn't deal with being there any more so I wasn't too upset at the time but now I really regret it. I was there for 15 years. I am a quivering mess at job interviews. I have not been looking for a while I had to take a break it was giving me mad anxiety. I is hard to hold a job in this state of mind, I have to start looking again next month. I have always been depressed and anxious but was able to work don't know what happened. No I do know. it's like I had a melt down.. all of a sudden every thing went to shit. Whew l I am a loner but sometimes I wish I had some one to talk to. Some one who truly cares and doesn't judge or think I am just feeling sorry for my self even though I do have pity parties a lot. Whew. At least I can sleep THANK GOD. it is important to get enough sleep and I have crazy colorful wild dreams probably from the seroquel I have to take for insomnia. It's my sweet escape then in the morning I go uuuuggghh. I have been having some thoughts of suicide lately but I just can't do that to my kids and sister and neice. We are all we have. Both parents died with in 3 years of each other and my sister's baby father died in a freak accident. Was a horrible 3 years. Then last year my youngest was diagnosed with bipolar disorder which is a absolutely devastating! !. .out of the blue one day she slashed her leg to ribbons and threatened to kill herself by swallowing her bottlres of UNUSED medication Zyprexa ..almost right after I got out of the hospital from a spinal fusion. The cops came and handcuffed her and took her to this awful place almost like a prison and wouldn't let her come home until she took lithium for 4 days. And i was in so much pain from surgrey it was really bad. Sorry that is fuck ed up she didn't stay on the lithium, gawd it's a funky med. I better stop now. I have no one to talk to so I could sit here all night and realized that I just hijacked the other posts by writing a novel. Thank you to anyone who actually read all of this it's A LOT
Strange how fate works. I'm depressed and have struggled to understand what the fuck is going on with me. By random luck, I stumbled upon this video. Chester Bennington's words on this topic are spot on. His explanation is on target to what I and many feel while trapped in a deep depression. I don't have the courage to do what Chris did to escape this madness, and I suppose that's the purgatory I must endure. Thanks for this video, and God bless you.
@Mafaman I thank you so much for that and I needed to hear that you care about my problems. I may have to take you up on your offer, I am waiting for the husband to come home and scream at me again, last night was enough. .long story short I don't know how to do anything for the umpteen time. Anyway you are a doll. And I will be here for you too if you want
Denise Pleines I feel your pain too. I have the most debilitating depression, anxiety and OCD. I know how hard it is struggling through each day. My girlfriend who I was living with for two years left me 3 months ago and now I have no one. She was my soul mate and I miss her terribly. I don’t go out anywhere apart from work and I’m pretty much a recluse. I had a life with her but now I have nothing. No purpose for living. I think about suicide everyday as I just want this mental anguish to stop. It feels like a thousand nails all piercing my head at once. I’m 38 years old and given up on ever being happy. I just want peace.
The way Mike looks while he listens to him and reflects on each of his friend’s word....hits hard. Man, must have been the hardest for him to have his pal die.
the thing is, how long is that tunnel? when you walk that tunnel for years upon years, and never see a light, it might as well be a dead end cave. at least then you would know there was an end. in the tunnel, you can keep thinking the exit might be just a little farther, and every time it isn't it feels even worse.
@Anime/Rock&Metalfan Knowing that you're going through it, is a big step. At least now you know that you should talk to someone. Some people don't realize that they are depressed until it's too late. For some, it's slow and gradual where you don't notice it.
@Anime/Rock&Metalfan the worst thing you can do is sit about go for a walk do some excercise keep you're mind active mate,I suffer from it unfortunately for me Its self inflicted through using cocaine
People should not tell ''friends ''about their depression,because deep inside they dont care.... It sounds mean-but is reality.. -nobody cares about personal problems of others ..I tried to talk to one ''friends'' when I was depressed they even left me on read..... Sometimes the people who would care the most are family💗...🥴
Like a big black cloud n all you feel is pain n life n living doesn’t make sense took me 18 years to get over a major depression I still have some bad days...I bought a little dog n he’s helped me feel love again
@@AK-nd9io it really helped to me in due time. The fact that other people can feel the same I do. 'Cause it's so much pain thinking I'm only one who has this wrong way, like everyone happy but I can't be.
As a person who has suffered with depression since I was 8 years old I've always felt a bit better when I'm asleep because reality is a shitty place to be.
Reality is a shitty place and sometimes life just absolutely sucks I feel alone all the time even though I know I’m not alone and I never feel like doing anything except sit in my room alone with my thoughts and as Chester said that’s a bad neighborhood for me to be walking alone in
@Austin Casey I do my best brother I take it one day at a time and try to focus on the good but some days are harder than others I appreciate the kind words always keep your head up brother cause we never know what tomorrow may hold for us
He lives in our hearts. He helped so many people. The sad, the lonely, the depressed and the lost...he touched each of us. Long live Chester Bennington's soul in his music. You say he lost his fight, but his demons are gone. I hope you find peace my brother.
It has been 26 years of clinical depression for me and I am only 37. It as hard as hell living like this. Sometimes I feel like giving up. All my hopes and dreams seems to be shattered. I am still contribute to society, but I could be so much more. It all started when my mother get clinical depression, because of abuse at work. I was in shock and hurt me so bad it pushed me to get depression as well. On top of that I was verbally abused at school after they could not physically dominate me. I was at a Psychiatrist at the age of 11. The same Dr. that diagnosed my mother and he missed the signs. The problem is if clinical depression is not treated fast enough the damage is irreparable. You have to be on medication for the rest of your life and you and even then you will still struggle at times.
I'm just coming out of a cycle. I've noticed that it comes in phases. You can be perfectly normal for years and then one day while doing something completely thoughtless and routine, it sneaks up on you and sucker punches you. There's no escape. The only way out is through. You have to let it wash over you and try not to let it do too much damage before it passes. Getting sunshine. Stay moving even when it hurts and it's the last thing you want to do. Keep repeating to yourself that it will pass.
Will always love you Chester. ❤️❤️❤️ Depression is living in a world of color and you only see gray, it’s watching everyone around you breather and live while you’re drowning right in front of them.
I love how no one has disliked this video but it scared the hell out of me because I feel the same way. I know I'm not alone 10,000 fists taught me that. Love you too brother keep it up keep the message going strong
@@geraldfilkins9425 For real, even talking about it takes effort and clinical depression (which I'm struggling with) is a horrible, unenviable beast that just sucks the life clean out of you. It's aggressive apathy in its rawest, most horrible form and it Will kill you, unless you beat it. Sometimes beating it's not even an option either because the damn thing can bounce back at any moment. The best most of us can do is keep it contained, stave it off with sticks and stones and everything that works. It's Really easy to turn to alcohol or drugs too, to get away from it and even easier when you genuinely don't care anymore. When it literally doesn't matter to you whether you live or die. My heart goes out to anyone else unfortunate enough to be dealing with this shit. But on a slightly more positive note, it's possible to win. You can work through it, contain it, manage it and see that sunshine through again.
Have been listening to a lot of LP recently after a few years off. The messages and references to suicide and depression can be found in almost every song. And people wonder what happened
Linkin Park honestly has helped me so much with my depression. Just hearing Chester's vocals and their lyrics just brings so much light into my life. I am forever grateful for Chester and Linkin Park for getting me through every day. He said it best "The skull between my ears is a bad neighborhood."
One of the earliest times in my life that I got sad and moved out of my childhood house, I blasted Hybrid Theory in my empty bedroom and suddenly felt better
Listening to his voice still helps me to some extent to this day and I'm now 31. He/linkin park was my favorite growing up and without him here it's hard and can only listen to his old songs and take me to that happy place
I felt what depression was like since my Grandpa passed in 2008 of Leukemia. I've gotten stronger after his passing, but there are days where I don't want to be around anyone or do anything. But I do what I cantonot let it show cause tbh, I don't like showing or telling anyone, including my parents how I feel most of the time. I just keep them buried inside alot so I don't burden people with my issues.
and nobody paid much attention to it, that’s the sad part. it’s like what he was saying, he was just saying and that’s it. it’s heartbreaking that nobody tried helping him.
Ghost Weylyn Lupine I’d say a *lot* of people did listen to him, but I had hoped that his art gave him enough of an outlet to release those emotions and would be able to keep going on. Anyone who’s really listened to his lyrics, even if he didn’t write that particular song, can just feel the real emotions he put into it. I knew it was coming from a real place and there was a constant internal struggle. I hoped that a combination of performing and standard therapy (which he admitted to attending) was going to be enough to keep him from taking his life. I often wonder if he would have ever taken that step had Chris Cornell not done it first.
Craig Kostelecky well, yes, you’ve got a point. i do see how he’s had enough of an outlet. although, sometimes, your only outlet just isn’t enough to keep you mentally going. so i deeply hurt for him, but at the same time i understand. he had the chance for his therapy, but unfortunately the worst gets the best of us.
The ending that reads, if you feel like this you are not alone”...completely misses the mark. I can be in a room full of people...and I am still, always alone. Depression is the loneliest place on Earth.
And then you take the steps towards getting help, because that's what you're supposed to do. And there's no help, no fix to this. That's why it's a mental health crisis. Nobody knows what to do. My last attempt at reaching out to the doctors I had a telephone appointment and was sent links to online self-help and a suicide hotline. That was it. I don't expect anyone to wave a magic wand and I know this is ultimately on me but the point of this rant is I'm sick of people acting like help is out there, you're not alone etc. It's all bullshit.
This is the classic mistake people make when trying to understand depression and suicide. These things are not about feeling alone, or feeling unloved.... Suicide and depression are about the value that one places on the world which surrounds them. People who make the decision to leave this world, are often surrounded by much love and many friends, but they decide to do it anyway. This often confuses people because they always focus on the things that don't matter in these cases.... "He was so loved...He was always surrounded by loved ones, so why would he do this?" Questions like this can never be answered, but more importantly, questions like this are not about the ones who leave, but always about the one who are left behind. It's true, depression can be the loneliest place on Earth and this is something that no person, outside of those who are depressed will ever understand.
@@RumbleFish69 You put that perfectly; “the value that one places on the world”. You can still function, have family and friends, have a successful career, but you’ll still feel like you’re in a place where you don’t belong. Your brain simultaneous has a desire to fit in *and* can’t stand being here. It’s tortuous.
@@user-bf7vu6od4k Exactly!!!!! And when you are at your worst you are not going to call someone or reach out and it doesn't matter who loves you or what you have, you want to escape what is going on in your head!! Three weeks after I tried to kill myself a psychiatrist is like now you have a support system, call someone. I was like it just happened before and you expect me to reach out now. No one understands except other people like us!!
I can be alone at home and feel 100% content also. Depression can sometimes come from trauma. I am 53 and working through my own personal trauma, I wish you well, and hope you find your space. Beginning of this year, I was self harming. So when I say, I get it, I am not being trite. xx
The saddest part is people like him put on a facade of happiness to others so they don't feel the same. So to others you seem perfectly fine but inside. Inside you are struggling to find a reason to go on.
Sometimes it's hard to even recognize depression in yourself. It's like, "Oh I guess staying in bed all day in a dark room isnt the best thing... huh?" "But it feels so right!"
I felt the need to comment on this-out of all the famous ppl ive heard talk openly about depression chester bennington is the one I actually could truly relate to-I found myself in a state one night the other day and just started playing and singing numb on my guitar and idk what it was but I just felt every word and this feeling took over me-like I was tuned into my soul or something cuz I just felt it organically so hard-then I started listening to more of his songs and came across a few that I could entirely relate to and actually felt like I was not alone and started to understand myself a little bit more from it-like I was a little less lost-one love to everyone fighting this fucked up battle and r.i.p to not just a legend but a beautiful human being
I've had a lot of emotional struggles in my life that I attributed to being upset about ongoing abuse, domestic violence, sexual trauma, and poverty, and I really, really feel like some things that helped me were practicing mindfulness, yoga, meditation, Reiki, shamanism, and journaling. That said, I think it's valid to also take medication when necessary, but also to be frank, a lot of the shit I was depressed about was societal and I knew from a very young age there was no way to change society so that added to the depression. I found out much later that gut health has an effect on mood, so I started watching my diet and when I changed some things about my diet, I also started to feel better. I wanted to write this here because I wanted people to know there are things we can do to help ourselves be happier and more emotionally stable, and that while it's a process and a lot of factors affect this, it is worth it to seek out therapies, changes in diet, medication, and other changes so that you can get up every day and want to live. Blessings to everyone and good luck taking care of yourself. ❤
It's hard when people that have never been depressed say, "Call me!" or "Just be happy." That's not how it works. When it gets dark, that's where it's about too late.
I think what most people who haven't been through it personally fail to grasp is that when you're in those (often painfully long) moments, it's really, REALLY hard to call someone, or reach out, or to feel like you're worth someone else's time. Not their fault, I do deeply appreciate the sentiment, but like, it can be really hard to seek help when you need it most. Today I would've laid in bed all day dreading my existence if I hadn't gotten a text from my friend finally at like 4pm. Sometimes you just really need someone else to go the extra mile to reach out to you....and that's the hardest part is that you never know when it's gonna happen, and when it does, it's hard to let someone know, and harder still for that to be the right person in that moment. It makes me think a lot about AA and NA groups, how people build networks in those groups for mutual support, and someone you know, like your sponsor for example, will sometimes go outta their way to check up on you. I've never been to AA or NA cuz I never felt I needed it really, but I feel like we need something similar for people struggling with depression. That would be so powerful to have a handful of people who you know you can hit up for support any time, because they're there for you and you're there for them. We need mutual support communities for people with depression.
@@RyTheUnDefined I'm glad you got that text message and were able to get up today. One day at a time! And I agree that groups/communities for depression would be helpful.
You should definitely have a talk with whoever you know that really cares about you, do not wonder if it will go well, do not tell yourself that there is no point, just do it. Find a close family member or friend, just be honest and share with them your struggle, just to let them know what you are going through, you will be surprised how much they care. Understand that your experience inside your mind, is not stronger than the comfort you can have from someone else in the real world. Have faith, reach out to someone you know that really cares, even if you doubt, even if you've done it before, just choose to believe that you are working on a turnaround. The awful neighborhood that is inside of your head, is an illusion and you know it, when you choose to listen to a caring person over your negative mind, you will find peace. Once you have a real moment with someone who loves you as a person, life is not a burden anymore, it becomes a blessing.
@Some Random Guy I agree that not everyone is given the same family situation or social environment, but that doesn't mean that it's out of your control. You are the one who keeps or discards someone from your life until they die or leave you, and you are the one who can go out into the world and find new people. You might not like the people you know online right now, but make no mistake the internet connects you to the entire world almost, and you can find more understanding people then can even be met in a lifetime. I mean just look at this comment section, all these people with similar experiences in depression are connecting and interacting to this day. You absolutely have innumerable friends you haven't met yet out there if you look for them. You can even find locals, in your community and meet in person. If all you have is fake friends, forget about them, find new ones, and stay close to your family, hug and pull them tight, show them all your appreciation, and treat them with your very best. I understand how much loss and emptiness you must feel without your wife, but the Love of friends and family is all you need to make life worth living I promise.
I get it that these people think they want to help, but they are unaware of what that would mean. I can't call the same person over and over again, every single day just to bitch about how shitty everything is. They wouldn't be able to handle it and it would bring them down and it would be awkward for them. And for me too. I'd feel stupid and would start hating myself for dumping all my misery on somebody who otherwise is alright, or at least is not fucked up like I am. Also, in that interview where he's sitting on that couch with Mike, you can see how Mike laughs after Chester says the heaviest things. I'm not saying this to throw shade on Mike, i'm just trying to point out, how those who are not struggling either have no idea how serious this is, or they do, they just feel awkward and don't know how to react when something so heavy is brought up and are uncomfortable in the situation and can't help reacting in an awkward way.
You will never see this as it’s 2 years later. But I just wanted to say that your message with this video has really really helped me. I needed this today. Thank you.
A vast majority of people NEED their private time, I don't get whre the fuck we took this strange idea that we HAVE to be in contact forever. We're social species but everything in moderation FFS. I can't relate with the loneliness tho, I'm schizoid and I've never missed anyone in my life
@@silverhawkroman You say you can't relate with the loneliness. Can you relate with solitude? Both words are about being alone, but only one of them celebrates it.
When I was seriously depressed. I asked my parents if I could put my mattress in their room and sleep there. If I would sleep on my own I would feel so alone that I'd crumble. I hope to be that guy to be there for people who don't want to admit they hate being alone but don't want to bother others. Some people can't admit it.
@@johantitulaer1052 I get that for some reason the nighttime intensifies how alone a person can feel I don't know if the darkness or lack of sunshine has something to do with it or not I somehow think social media has put way more people in the loneliness field than ever before because it's a false sense of connection
That's the problem because when I asked my mom what she would do if I sad I'm depressed she answered she don't know Mental problems are one of the most common things in our modern society but we learn (barely) nothing about it in school
I was diagnosed with MDD. Hearing Chester Bennington himself thanking about how I feel was beyond words. I was crying and smiling. Crying because we lost his amazing light. Smiling because he made me feel just a little less alone. Very few videos have ever made me cry. RIP, Chris and Chester.
honesty, i can relate to chester, cause as days pass i dont talk to anyone i barely eat i dont even go out i just want to be inside my room all alone just cause, the outside world doesnt feel right
Unless you have depression, you will never know how this feels. The best way I can describe it is... you want to run away, but not just from everyone around you, but from yourself too. I sympathize so much, I know how you felt. My prayers and thoughts are with his family and friends 💕
Depression is pure hell. I have depression on top of anxiety. It's a constant battle everyday and I feel like it's not getting any better. I wish I couldn't feel anything anymore. 💔
I envy people who effortlessly wake up each day with a smile and feel happy going about their life..I would give anything to have that, just for one day.
Maybe those ppl don't really exist. Maybe they're just ppl who wake up and decide they're tired of feeling miserable. They chose to feel something else.
As a person who is bipolar and experiences both sides of the extrem regularly, I can tell u, that it's fucking awesome to feel good and enthusiastic. But I also more so know how it feels to be down and sad and hopeless. It's even more extrem when you literally felt the opposite just a few moments ago...
Eh it's an idealistic viewpoint and these people don't actually exist. Motivation is something you have to habituate yourself to it doesn't come naturally on a regular basis. Life isn't going to inspire you until you realize you can reach for it. No one is happy all the time and this kind of unfounded perspective towards some ideal human being is part of the reason why depression clings onto some people. Those people you think wake up in the morning happy and ready to face the day are only that way because they have to be. More importantly because they want to be.
@@jadedlove1345 GTFO with your demon bullshit! Mental health is serious shit and bringing in some superstitious nonsense isn't just not helping anybody, but rather doing harm by externalising responsibilty and skewing the truth.
Our world has changed so much and not for the better. It's getting harder and harder to cope. We all need to find a support system to help one another through life. So much competition and so little cooperation. Life us what you make of it. Happiness comes from within not from things outside.
