When I was a kid, I loved this song. (Still do tbh) I grew up in a toxic household. I was abused, although not sexually as the song implied, but the lyrics put into words feelings I couldn't really define at the time. The feeling of submitting to the assertion that you deserve to be punished, that loving someone is making them feel terrible, the unnecessary guilt for even existing at all. I didn't even truly realize how much my parents behavior effected me until I was around 12, I'm still coping with it, and I'm 19 next year. I know it's kinda fucked up, but this song really comforted me, helped me come to terms with a whole lot of negative emotions.
for the people who don’t really understand this song ever after the lyrics: ⚠️TW: rape⚠️ this song is about a girl who was being raped by her father, but she does not understand that it’s a bad because she believes he’s only doing because he loves her. one day her father stops raping her and she thinks he stopped because he doesn’t love her anymore, and so she ran away. while she ran away she met a stranger and he took her in but she asked him to rape her (because she didn’t understand yet that’s a bad thing) but after the stranger declined her request and instead treated her nicely in a non sexual way. But because she felt like he did not love her she went back to her fathers house, when she got there her father had friends over and they all basically raped her to death she let them do it because all she wanted was someone to love her even if that was her terrible father because she’s scared of being alone. this song is disturbing but it’s supposed to spread cause kikuo only made this song to spread awareness to the people who have or had to suffer from rape or really any sexual assault and for people to realize that. stuff like this happens more then we realize.
Yknow what? Having eyes is over rated I wish I wouldve went blind before I had a chance to read this… Thanks for the context But also whhhhaatt tthhheeee hheeelllllll
This song BOPS. But I have also have thrown up. Welcome to vocaloid, the only place where the anime girls are cute, the lyrics are cryptic and the music fuckin bops
As a victim of CSA, this song was strangely comforting to me. However, even as a kid I knew something was wrong. But my father never loved me therefore I never confused it. I grew up angry & was known to beat up boys at a young age. But when a boy actually was hitting harder I mooned him cause that was what I thought would protect me. Anyways I am an adult now with loads of therapy & a great boyfriend who has never met my father because he might kill that sick fuck. My mom had a boyfriend that treated me well while they were together so that definitely helped me differentiate between love & abuse. I was more dealing with feeling grossed out by men, & violent tendencies towards men. Then realizing I was just as abusive & it's a whole spiral. But I survived so life goes on.
@@vibecheck8987 he already did, he is now homeless & got diagnosed with skin cancer that when untreated for too long. Now he is suffering alone, without any family or friends to be there for him. Dying alone basically. Yet I feel a tiny bit bad for him. He still hurts me a lot but I just can't help but wish he became a better person even if that was impossible.
Fun fact: the person who runs the channel the translated video is on, momocashew, is also a (former) Vocaloid producer and herself a singer for Project Mili, and her singing is AMAZING. Like, most of the stuff they put out is incredible, and definitely worth checking out.
Sorry, can you please explain why that song distribing? I know that it's creepy because of music, but I don't understand its meaning tbh 😔 UPD: Guys, thank you so much that you still answer my question but I know what is Gomenne Gomenne about, my question was only about Cotton Candy.
Margasian ahh actually i didn’t really focused on the lyrics but i think it’s about someone who gets high and takes drugs to forget their sadness/problems but i can search up if you want or send you a translation ^^(btw i’m french sorry for bad english
this song is about a young girl who is raped by her dad, what she means by "collapsing body" is that the rape is too much that it ruined her insides. this song is not about cannibalism, it is about child rape. her father is brainwashing her to believe that being raped and abuse is being "loved". one day she ran away from her father's house by going into her neighbors house, her neighbor is a he. the boy pitied her "collapsing body", so he took her in, soon enough they fell in love, the boy truly loved her, and the girl loved him too but she was confused she didn't know what "true love" means, she thought the boy hated her because the boy is not raping her or abusing her she thought that being taken care of means they hate you, so she went back to her father's house but as soon as she went back her dad bought a few mens in his house to gangrape her. the gangrape was too much for the young girl so unfortunately she died.
The way I always interpreted the oniichan think is that this man takes understanding of her situation at home and helps her escape the sexual abuse she experiences at home. But since she is a little girl (like an actual child) who has been sexually abused all her life she thinks oniichan too wants to "have sex" with her so she tries to initiate it and he is obviously freak out at that since he is not a sick fuck so she escapes thinking oniicham hates her for the way he rejected her sexual advances towards her. Still so a really sad story
Ok so I understand this part but what I don't get is like isn't miku a computer generated voice so how could all that happen or is it just like a made up backstory thingy
@@RosemaryRosella226 In Japan you call men a little bit older but not too much "big brother" (so onii-san) to show respect. If the man was a lot older you would call him "uncle" and same goes with women (so sister and auntie).
To anyone who's ever been through this, I am so sorry. I know nothing anyone can say can take away that pain, including people saying they are sorry for you. No words can patch up the wounds that you are left with, it's like putting a band-aid on a gaping hole in someone's chest that you can literally see through and hoping it'll fix things. But I still want to say, (even though it won't fix anything by saying it) that you are not alone. You are not to blame. You are not bad. You are important. And you are so goddamn motherfucking strong, holy shit. You've made it so far. You've fought so hard, simply by continuing to exist. And again, you are not alone. There are so many people out there that know how you feel. That feel what you feel. And you are not to blame, not guilty, not dirty, not bad. You are not a bad person. This doesn't make you a bad person. You matter. Your voice matters. Your pain matters. If any of you need to vent about your experience, feel free to reply to this. I will read each and every story. Please know that there is always someone out there that hears you, that sees you. And I can be one of those people. (Only share if you want to and are comfortable!) You are important, valid, strong, and not alone. I love you. I'm proud of you. You're seriously amazing. I hope you are able to heal as much as you can. ❤
When I first listened to this song, I felt sick to my stomach. And that normally DOESN'T happen whenever I listen to songs (especially dark ones), but this one just struck me with disgust. The fact that twisted stuff such as sexual assault & r**e happens so much in this world to innocent people angers me. If you're a victim, I'm truly sorry you had to go through that. You're strong & you're NOT alone. I know that sounds really cliché, but it's true. Sending love
I once was listening to this on soundcloud and found a comment saying: "The only reason I like this song is because it explains my life." Everyone in the replies were concerned and so am I
ok idk why years later i just noticed this, but notice how in the beggining when shes with her father, the background is colorful and "happy" but when shes with "Big brother" background turns dark and when she comes back to her dad again, it turns colorful again
I’m just going to go ahead and get one of the most obvious choices out of the way. To be curt, this is a song about child abuse. Horrific, horrific child sexual abuse that is compared to cannibalism in the lyrics. Really, there is nothing that horrifies me more, and this would easily be in the #1 spot if I were ranking these in any way. Do you want to know something potentially worse than just the lyrics? If you were just listening to this song randomly and did not understand Japanese, you might not even realize that anything wrong was going on in this song. It is catchy as hell and could be something feasible to dance to. Then you would track down the lyrics… (According to RU-vid comments, this actually has happened.) All things aside, I would recommend you to give this a listen. It is most certainly a depressing and horrifying experience, and the latter is what you’re here for, yes? Please keep in mind, though, that this is a horror that occurs every day to thousands of children… A little dose of realism is good for all of us.
Secrets of wysteria is filtered with metaphorical words but the meaning is still there and at the end if it was turned backwards you can hear someone saying the things from the letter sent by Albert Fish to one of the victim's mother.
"According to youtube comments, this actually happened" ummm.... And why are you surprised by that? Awful things like that ARE real... Child trafficking, child (sexual, physical or mental) abuse. It's not surprising, it's sadly something that happens but that's reality, it shouldn't be surprising. What we SHOULD do is make sure that kids can stay safe and sound and help the kids who suffered from such awful treatments.
@@ameladaptivedaydreamer949 The comment was not about that child abuse/rape surprisingly happens, OP knew that. It was that, surprisingly, by youtube comment proof, that people have danced and enjoyed the song THEN went to look up the lyrics and got a terrible surprise of what they were dancing to in ignorance.
One of my favorite things about vocaloid is no subject/theme isn’t allowed really. So you can get some really touching songs about depression and suicide and then get a weird song about stealing cows because you’re an alien
I know right. It's liberating and uncensoring. You can express yourself and your ideas in any way. I love vocaloid and music in general because of this.
"I'm sorry i'm sorry." Is quite a deep song upon itself. I hate it how people dance to this song and loves it more than anything and they don't even read nor understand the lyrics. It explains sexual abuse more than anyone can. Kikuo is strong I know she isn't a real person but for people to are true survivers your strong.
And then you learn this song's on tiktok. I wish I was kidding. I remember my friend watching someone dance to this on tiktok and asked me for the meaning behind the lyrics. I ran out of the classroom the second I heard the music 🤣
That's one thing I don't miss about school. I don't need to hear or see any more students doing tiktok stuff to disturbing stuff like All You Wanna Do, Useless Child, etc.
My teacher once said that she got a 1st grader crying to her after coming from the toilet, it turns out, a man tried to r-pe her in the school bathroom.. with that, it shows it DOES happen commonly, sadly.
This song, makes me cry, it does tell people that s3xu@l @bu$3 is *NEVER* okay, neither is r@p3, I do not like that tiktokers used this as a "adorable song" especially 0:45 at the song pov, people have called it the miku scream, I am sorry if this is late, I do love how once again, it spreads aware of REAL people going through this... I feel sorrow for people going through this, and it's okay if you danced to this, you did apologize and did not know what this song meant, as long as you don't make fun on the song- (which I don't think you ever would) you are okay
I think the beginning about the ribs and collapsed body is about how sexual abuse victims feel so used to the point where they’re falling apart and the ribs and collapsed must’ve been symbolism for that. The daddy part might actually be her father, he must’ve sexually abused her growing up and she’s beginning to find someone she loves but she can’t move on from her father’s sexual abuse. I’m a sexual abuse victim and now whenever I try to find someone to love it’s really difficult for me because of my trauma. I’m guessing that “I’m sorry” means that she’s apologizing for betraying her father and she wants to be with her father. I just got to the end where you’re talking about the meaning of the lyrics and I was so close to the meaning of the lyrics it’s actually scaring me.
i can imagine all the abuse and it disgust me how people are that cruel i have no hope in humanity honestly this world is disgusting the fact that the girl died during "it" happening and they continued is ugh im going to have nightmare s please stay safe.
I wasn't going to say anything, but we in the vocaloid/anime community did that on purpose. Our plan was to get strait tiktok to steal the song and alter the dance. This was so we could laugh at there lack of research and wanting to "hop on the trent" This was payback for stealing our trends, sounds, and other things we originally started.
@@thesameenergy3192 It’s not bad to dance or enjoy the music, but if you did enjoy the meaning of it then thats something else. It’s not like even once you knew the meaning you won’t enjoy the ‘music’
Me, to one of my friends on the bus: "My playlist has weird shit on it, I'm not showing you" Them: "It can't be that bad, just tell me" Me: "Oh, well there's a song about abuse, Good Child Syndrome, two about suicide, a yandere-esc song, a girl being bullied... Oh yeah and one about rape!" (Songs in question- Kimi Wa Dekinai Ko, Aishite Aishite Aishite, Corpse Dance, Ruru's Suicide Show on a Livestream, Suki Suki Daisuki, Fukoyanomusume, and Gomenne Gomenne) Them: "...what?" Me: "Told you so" Other friend: "BLAST HIGHWAY TO HELL WHEN WE GET ON THE BU- bad time?" Me + person I was talking to before: "Yeah."
Nothing is funny about this, you literally missed the point and therefore the mindset you have to have to come in here and be respectful. It is a sad, disgustingly true heartbreaking story of child abuse/rape, and nothing is funny.
honestly, im glad songs like this exist, yes is a awful and painful story but its true to reality. its really common for victims of abuse to go back to their abusers and have difficulties with relationships after escaping said abuse. like. i was abused by a boyfriend for two years, i managed to get away from him and into a healthy relationship with a friend. unfortunately i broke up with them after 3 months and let my abusive ex back into my life.. abuse is very complex and its nice having accurate depictions of it, even when it makes people uncomfortable.
As a victim of well sexual abuse from a young age at at least of 6 for almost a whole year, i understood the lyrics at first. But atleast i have a better life now and i hope other victims do aswell, i wish you all a safe life and that i appreciate you all.
I know a lot of abuse victims (physical, mental and sexual) from an old group I was in. A lot of people told them (and me) why didn’t you just leave or why did you keep going back. It really dies down to it happening so many times that it’s normalised and if it’s done by someone who is meant to love you. You start to believe that’s the only type of love you’ll receive. It’s kind of sad so this song really isn’t straying far from the truth at all.
I read your comment and I nearly started crying. I didn't think anyone else had that mentality as a child, I always thought I was the odd one out. That there was something wrong with me, I really needed to see your comment. I hope you're in a better place in life now and are doing okay :(
I read your comment and I nearly started crying. I didn't think anyone else had that mentality as a child, I always thought I was the odd one out. That there was something wrong with me, I really needed to see your comment. I hope you're in a better place in life now and are doing okay :(
fr, i came back to my abuser so many times because I thought that he was gonna change or that he isn't actually bad, or even because i was so lonely and desperate and had no friends so the only option was to come back to him again, cuz even if I knew he was bad it was better than that loneliness.
Thanks for the TW, genuinely. I may not have needed it, but I know it definitely helped some people since it can be triggering. Your content is awesome, stay safe thru these tough times my guy
For a recap it’s about a girl who fell in love with someone other than her dad and her dad got mad. She felt guilty and tried to run away but when she got caught she felt more guilty and offered herself to her dad. Her dad ended up eating her all because his daughter found love with someone other than him. 😢
shooshiMooshi haha right. Most people dislike her voice because of how robotic it is, but with the right tuning and things it can sound just as expressive or more
I've known this song even before Tiktok existed because I'm a vocaloid fan, and I've learned some people have been dancing on it recently, it's making me cringe so much like wtf 😂 they're dancing on a song about a child abuse.
My heart feels heavy and I feel also like my stomach just went up and down riding a rollercoaster I can't even begin to say that this song is both disturbing and very catchy 😖
I love this song because I think kikuo has managed to express what abuse feels like so well, to the point where I wondered if he had experienced it himself. I mean just... The despair, the pain, and still that feeling of guilt you feel because of the manipulation of the abuser...
I think he does know, because it really does make you feel so powerless and scared. I wasn’t ever really able to fight back back when it was happening, but now I just hope if I ever cross paths with the guy again and he tries anything, this time I’ll be brave enough to make him eat floor
as a csa survivor this song hits fucking deep (but im ok, im in therapy for it dont worry) also, the father of this girl likely told her he loved her a lot as he was abusing her. just like we learn to associate kisses and hugs with affection, this girl learned to associate abuse with affection because of her father teaching her to do so
as someone who knows japanese, watching this even without the english lyrics still makes my stomach upset. the japanese lyrics are also,,, somehow way worse than the english one for some reason. eugh.
Yea all the comments on all the TikToks with dances to this song are like "YEA, YOU GO, SLAY" etc and it's just weird tbh. I mean, sure, some of them are somewhat justified, but, yeah...
Its not really surpirising for me to listen to dark songs like this but damn, this has taken a toll on me and now i am scarred. This really broke my heart the moment she said she is sorry for having feelings for somebody else and how she felt hurt and what her dad did to her was because she is being a bad kid. Atleast thats what i think. Telling from the innocence and the way she describe herself and the situation , as if she knows that it hurts her but she keep telling herself that its normal and deserve it without really understanding that she was being taken advantage. It takes someone so traumatised till she comes back to the abusive home and feels like this is what she deserve. As long as everybody is happy. I think maybe thats why she left "Big Brother" because she felt disgusted with her body being tainted and when someone finally showed care, she feel she dont deserve it
Been finding for such video like this for a long time. Finally, found this and was amazed that someone is so brave enough to understand the song deeper and made a reaction about it 🤣
Found this when I was younger. I was smart back then and asked my mom, that day I realized people can do terrible things. It’s a bittersweet feeling because at one point I could be more wary of people but at the same time I gave up on humanity a little that day. The song slaps tho.
@@agalwithnoname same, I'm nowhere near as affected as other people are but I still have this uneasy feeling in my gut after giving this song a listen so I'm good lol
