“I hate that I like the beat and the rhythm” Honestly, every single Kikuo song ever. But then five minutes later and don’t care about the lyrics. But at the same time you do.
To me, it's the opposite. My mother used to talk to me like this. But even though this song brings back those awful memories and hurts me, I still keep listening to it.
this song shows how gaslighting works, she abuses him verbally and then makes him believe that he needs her to survive and makes him believe that she loves him. he believes he is useless and can't survive by himself and that she's the only one capable of loving someone useless like him
The root of this song is emotional manipulation through abuse, where in the mother tells the child that they cannot live without her because they are useless on their own. And this happens in real life a surprising amount, but it’s never called out because that’s how some of the older generation was taught how to teach their own children, using fear, guilt, and ridicule. Edit: Something I forgot to mention also is that the Mother (or guardian) is lonely as well, and without their child, they feel lonely. So at the end of the song, they call themselves 'useless' for not being able to take care of the one thing that made them not lonely
You say she contradicts herself but I think that actually she isn’t, She’s telling the child that they are useless and insulting them and all that- so that they’ll end up depending on the mother because they’ll think they can’t do anything on there own since they are so “useless” saying stuff like “I’ll protect you since your so useless”. You also missed a line where the mother says “a child who’d be dead if it wasn’t for me”. And then after they left, the mother realizes “oh sh*t I messed up” and calls herself a useless child and wishes she could undo what she did
@@U_z_e_r_n_a_m_e not really, it's just a manipulative tactic abusive people do to get, as they said, people to depend on the abuser by insulting them at their weakest and manipulating them to think that the abuser/s are the only people who could 'love' them by letting them know how; "you're such a kind friend" "you're a good child" these kind of things make the abused unable to complain because they have to be always kind or good as they're complimented and would like to keep it that way and sadly enough go deep enough to believe everything they say because again, they 'love' them. This gives abusers an opportunity to insult and lash out to them while having them cling tight on their pinky. Edit: add gaslighting i guess in my understanding is more of questioning someone's reasoning and judgement to the point of insanity. Some examples like if someone touched you in areas you dont feel comfortable to being touched and you tell them to stop and they say something along the lines of "i'm just touching you, no need to overreact" making you thing you're the bad person for overreacting over 'just touching' . A streamer, destiny, had a good analogy to this Let's say the action of the situation is a bar, graph bar type of thing. The gaslighter did something that's 90% wrong and of course, you'd point that out but they will minimize the bad part by only addressing the 10% 'good' of the act then they'll judge the way you thought it was all bad.
Her saying that she's a useless child hinted to her probably having called herself the same thing in the past and being forced to believe the same thing as a kid by a parent. And so she repeated the cycle with her child but it didn't work.
Shooshi please check out Dasu's songs! Especially Cur Ergo, nakakapagpabagabag and pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanocosiosis I had a hard time typing that and I'm not kidding with that title, thats the original title. She's a filipino artist so the songs are mostly on tagalog but english subs are included. Thank you for the awesome content you bring!
2:03 Facts about “Kimi wa dekinai ko" In this song, a mother tells his son many times how useless he is, and that she'll always have to take care of him. She repeatadly tells him this, until he has enough. The song shows him fade off the screen, and I can theorize that symoblizes him either leaving or commiting suicide. The mother then calls herself a useless child, and says "that child is no more." She expresses how the child “left her and how lonely she is now that they are gone. She says how she wishes she could revert time so the child would not leave. The video then ends with the mom fading out and the song going "Aah!!!!!". I beleive this symbolises her also commiting suicide like the child.
Small theory: so we all get the point- this song is about a mom who emotionally abuses her child by saying that he is a useless child, and he is abused up to the point when he is grown up. The writing when he is a kid looks colorful and uses hiragana. But when he grows up, it's less colorful, neater, and uses kanji. I'm thinking the kid used to write down all the things his mom said to him in a journal or a notebook of some sort and continued to write them down up until he grows up. The two figures, which is the kid and the mom was also drawn by the kid. Furthermore, the title of the song that shows up, in the beginning, seems kinda messy, which could mean that he titled this journal of his "You are a useless child". Then, when he disappears, (died, ran away, or something) the mom finds the notebook he's been writing everything in, and as she reads them, she realizes she was the useless and terrible person all along. She reads what the boy wrote as a kid, so the writing is back to hiragana and it's more colorful.
this remind's me of how my parents used to treat me, they kept telling me I'm like a 5 year old amongst other stuff and tried to take control of everything I do, from what I spend my own money on to what I wear and eat. Quite recently I was thrown out on the street because I was tired of how they always treated me badly but luckily I had friends and other family members who wanted to help me and now I have my very own appartment. I have no idea what my parents are doing and honestly I couldn't care less
PLEASE WHEN HE SAID "sound just like my father" UT REMINDED ME OF THAT AUDIO FROM TIKTOK "this beat slaps hard, just like my dad. I hate my dad" LMAO anyways,I havent listened to this song in a while since it my sister actually hates me playing this song since she found out the lyrics. I have been playing that song since I was like 8 or 9🤠🤠🤠 She used to vibe to that song now she skips the song entirely😔😔
So, this really reminds me of Tangled. Mother Gothel raises Rapunzel to think the outside world is terrifying and that she'll never survive out there without her "mother" but then goes on to console Rapunzel and tells her that mother will protect her. Its a bit different in this situation but just wanted to point that out.
Ooh, this is a cool parallel! I've never seen Tangled but from what I've heard about it plus Gothel and Rapunzel's dynamics, this song fits them quite well.
I always interpreted the line "Yet I fell in love with that sobbing, which came from that mouth that couldn't even say your own name" a little differently. I don't know if I can explain this right, but bear with me here! So, when you give birth to a baby, hearing them cry the first time can make you feel - besides being relieved - a huge amount of love towards them. It doesn't have to be just crying, it can be anything about them that can make you "fall in love": laughing, their appearance, their breathing as they sleep, how they grab onto your finger with their little hand, etc. (but because newborn babies mostly cry at first, that's why I thought it might be that). So I believe the mom did love the kid to some degree, but she was also dependent on him. Possibly from the beginning when he was born. It's like her kid was what gave meaning to her life in a way, it's what made her feel important, and that's why she didn't want to let him go, making him also dependent on her by the abuse she inflicted. I think the mom originally might have had issues like low self-esteem, that she projected onto her child.
yesssss, i was also thinking the same thing! that maybe the reason why the mother was so contradictory was because she was actually projecting herself unto the child, that it was actually herself that she thinks as useless and stuff and that she wanted him to depend more on her more by degrading and gaslighting him. or this might also be the case of her unconsciously abusing him not realising that her child grew up so wounded and scarred because that was the only way for her to show her love and care.
You fucking nailed the meaning right off the bat, that’s impressive. I struggle to think hard about the meaning and usually rely on the comments, so hearing your explanation and train of thought is real helpful. Good on ya mate keep up the good content
i feel like the parent was abused when they were a kid and just ended up thinking thats how parents behave, so when they became a parent themselves they continued that cycle of abuse. idk that was the first thing that came to mind when the "im a useless child" part came up
Hey! Here are some more songs you could try: - The Girl Locked Below - The Tailor Shop on Enbizaka - Solitary Hide-and-Seek Envy - Miss Wanna Die by voca vamp - Dont look at me in that way - Dark Woods Circus - True Love Restraint - The Tragedy of Chateau Cepage and - Two Faced Lovers
not this being uploaded right after my mom just yelled at me and threatened to hit me for crying cause it’s “disrespectful to cry when someone is talking” 🧍🏼♀️ but then again 🙄🤚 she did buy me pink lemonade so i guess she’s alright 😒
im finna square up 🧍🏽♀️ crying when a person is talking isn’t “disrespectful” it’s just showing your emotions your mom must be out of her goddamn mind
I've always held kikuo close my heart, he manages to take so many everyday yet fucked up problems into consideration and creates songs out of all sorts of situations and things, from all types of abuse to love and toxicity, I know it sounds weird but I've really come to appreciate his work and been able to overcome many obstacles in live and hard times because of his music, it's fucked up yet somewhat comforting to realize that no matter how hard ur struggling that there is always someone out there that can help or rather relates to your experience. I just love how his songs tackle and puts forth many issues we all face in today's society but no one dares talk about, that's why I think his songs can be really therapeutic for some of us struggling and going through similar things as they show in the songs. I don't know what this comment is just wanted to say love ur videos and ur reactions, finally someone on youtube that reacts to my favorite vocaloid songs! I love you, keep going strong and happy New Years to anyone reading this comment I love you too!!
Huge fan of Kikuo's music, so seeing you go back to what you started with this song was an enjoyable take to listen to. Kikuo's music always seems to be a banger but you are fully aware you shouldn't dance to it- it's almost like Kikuo wants you to take your trauma's hand and dance with it. You absolutely hit bang on to the meaning of the song, once again very enjoyable to listen to what you thought about the song. Even though past peers might have verbally abused you, you'll always be of help to someone. I hope you had a great New Years Shooshi, and best of luck to you in 2021. I'll be waiting on your next video once again :)
I feel like part of kikuo's reputation with his songs is being unable to sing it out in public lmao. This song especially. It's easier to sing and is really catchy but *oof.* We love toxic parenting.
WAIT I JUST REALIZED THAT THIS SONG IS THE LULLABY THAT THE MOTHER SANG TO HER KID- Edit: also just noticed that the mom refers to herself as a “child/kid” so I’m assuming that’s how she was treated to and internalized and realized this when he left and is like “I’m a useless child that no one will save” because the she never truly grew up she instead stayed a child (shown in how the shadow doesn’t change) and became her abuser.
ugh this song hits me hard every time i listen and yeah it hits different when you have had emotionally abusive/manipulative parents but my favourite part of the song has always been the bassline, it's just so JUICY and emotional.. excellent reaction as usual !
If you want lighter songs that still have a deep meaning I recommend the artist Pinocchio-P, any song is good to start with but I recommend “SLoWMoTIoN” since it’s his most viewed song
I always liked the touch of the parent learning/realiseing their mistake when it was already too late. Just hits me really deep and I find it a great vent song.
I really love and don't like that it's so cathy. It makes me want to sing it even though I think it's fucked up to do that. Anyways I'm really glad you reacted and analyzed another kikuo song my dude 😄
This was the song I listened to while cleaning when I was younger- and yes, I knew the meaning. :,) Forgot to say...maybe it's catchy because like you said it can be so easy to echo the same words. It can be so easy to repeat the cycle and affect others in such a negative way without realizing the consequences. Idk lol
In the Japanese lyrics in the beginning they used hiragana and it was colorful in like crayon written style when he was a child then it changed to kanji in just plain black/gray after he grew up. It does change color here and there still after he grew up which I take that hes still stuck in the past and his mother is like always there saying that hes a useless child. I think she kept saying she'll protect him and save him to only make him stay
I feel like the mother had this happen to her, because the lyrics changes to “I’m a useless child” ( this in NO WAY justifies what she did to her son )
Thanks for making this content man. I enjoy your breakdowns and find the videos themselves real interesting. Do what you do and keep adding to my playlist haha. The songs you react to are bangers.
I read a book called ‘earthlings’ that had been translated over from Japanese (sorry for forgetting the author’s name), in which the protagonist was shit on by her mum and the people around didn’t really do anything about it. Like it was a normal occurrence for mothers to vent aggression on their kids. My parents never did that to me, but reading the book, I felt awful for the protagonist, and was shocked that the mother was shocked with the outcome at the end (it was a bit out there, I won’t spoil it, but the person who left the review of ‘weird and funny’ has a weird sense of humour).
Listen to Fantasy Pianist and Endless Wedge feat Kagamine Len by Hitoshizuku and Yama please. These two songs are amazing and lovely to listen to. Even if they don’t have music videos like the ones you listen to, their melody and music are so amazing to listen to. I hope you listen to them. Btw, these songs are one of my favorite. They make my day. I hope you enjoy them. Or you could try Mothy Akuno-P. All of them make good songs I really enjoy listening to.
Hey✌️ 2021's almost over, lesgoo. Also, i absolutely _LOVE_ this dude sm. He's what I've been needing. A person who reacts to stuff on internet, and actually does a commentary on it which isn't only questions or silence❗✨👏
An existential nightmare in song form is cotton candy by Kikuo. It feels like your world is crashing around you and you are to paralyzed to stop it. It also has a cute singing cloud.
This song was my gateway to Kikuo and the darker sides of vocaloid, first time I heard it I was amazed that a song this catchy and poignant could exist. It really cemented my descent into weebdom, and I couldn't be more grateful ♡
tbh, the way he makes the beat happy, makes me feel like how no one really knows till it's too late, and the happy beat is the mother or abuser putting on a happy face to conceal what's happening
during your analysis i actually started crying because i didn’t realize certain relationships i had with people had been that way so thank you so very much /gen
Hi, I never realized the lyrics were related to my life until I saw the English lyrics from this video, it made me cry hope your channel blows up, also you got a new subscriber. :)
This song kinda reminds me of weakness from milgram , but like, reverse perspective and a different outcome. The links there , but definitely vague lol, or maybe I'm just brainroting too hard
Yeah I hope he reacts to Milgram songs soon, they're all amazing!! I want him to react to Bring It On the most tho, since that song is kinda from the "villain's" perspective.
so happy i found this channel. i watched your okaasan reaction since it's been years when i last heard the song. now i'm checking out your videos, and i like your use of friday night funkin' music
This song is so catchy but literally makes me want to cry. I did first see this song with translations but it just made me relate to the song since you know whole family is... I just got to wait a few more years until I become a adult 😁 :D
Kikuo style is something no one could copy it is really happy chearfull instrumental and dark lyrics and the fact that it helps a lot of people including me is amazing love the reaction and the artist keep on growing with the chanel and there is more even darker vocaloids waiting for example breaking things into peaces by kikuo
Well, this song is really similiar to my situation. My parent doesn't realize the stuff she did and why her 4 kids left. (she seems to only target her daughters, cuz my brother decided to stay with her for some reason. But he's the same as her so idk) I generally can't do anything because I don't get the chance to work on skills such as cooking or cleaning because when I do, I do it all wrong and get yelled at or told off. It's an endless cycle and honestly, I just wish it wasn't like this anymore. This isn't the only person that's told me off due to my inability to do things, it was also one of my sisters or even my old classmates, it's not fun, really. It's not fun at all. I just wish it was all okay and normal :/
Just like kikuo was the reason you started reacting to songs, you're the reason i knew kikuo..and love their songs. My favourite now is "O Light" by them but honestly all of kikuo's song is very catchy depite its lyrics. Hope you can react to O Light coz i wanna see your thought about it😁😁😁
well shooshi gettin into the analysis made me tear up drgthjuymnbd bc ur right. the verbal abuse hurts jus as much as physical abuse(in my case i mean, idk for others) and sometimes even more. im glad that ive always been interested in the human mind bc it allows me to psycho-analyse my . . . situations. my mom is v insecure and often takes it out on my siblings and i(usually me, which is likely bc of a mix of my actin like my dad who she hates, my bein autistic and ADHD, my bein the oldest, etc.). im sick and tired of it and cant wait to move out so i can be in some semblance of peace(which is happenin soon so yippie!)
hello! i really love this song and have been listening to it since middle school, so it makes me very happy to see you react to it! also, in the future, if you want to react to more kikuo i suggest searching for your love or is it a six hexagon skew polyhedron!