Fentanyl and Crystal Meth Addict interview-Kenneth 

Love you, honey. Read Romans 8:1. You're not alone and I'm so proud of you!

Kenneth, I'm just watching this video. You posted this one month ago, I hope you're coming in at 110 days sober. I found you wonderfully articulate and interesting. Stay strong, get back to school and share that beautiful brain with the world ❤

I’ve just watched this. You’re such an amazing person. I pray you are still clean and doing well. All my love and hugs from Ireland . Love Leigh xxx

Keep going. I’m praying 🙏 for you.

Congratulations ❤ this is the best comment on the video

My heart breaks for him.

What trip looking for someone then seeing them here

@@ASHES206 it’s actually more common than you know. Mark works in the skid row area I’m sure he could uncover many missing persons cases with this platform

Praying for him

He needs a helping hand, a friend! Please someone who knows him reach out!!!!! He is not in such bad shape, he can still be saved!!!!!! Please. Save a life someone!!!!!!!!!!

That broke my heart

🙏

Los Angeles is so so so destructive. I hope he finds a way out

Nah, he is a waste of a vessel.

This is such a great comment! ❤

wow!! this comment inspires me so much. thank you for sharing. I am about to be 40, been losing decades to dope, pills, booze, depression, anxiety, addiction.....hearing that it aint over until its over truly puts fresh wind in my sails. I appreciate you.

​​@@michaelhoganmusicdo it for yourself, I mean get clean, do something for yourself, you deserve it! I believe you can achieve the better life.

@@michaelhoganmusic If this life long drug addict can do it, so can you! Don’t wait until you’re old like me! 🩷

Love to hear this!

Lol till 62 damn mustve done a lot of drugs.

Not for u to die

He seems amazing and with wonderful potential. Addiction is horrible and destructive

Now that you know where he is go help him

Fuck man I’m in University right now and you have me reflecting and wondering which of my friends I’m going to see on SWUB one day

@@jimmygalpin6660 ???????????? Nice sentence, did you write in school?

Prayer does work. Pray for him.

👍 4 weeks is a big deal. Good for you. Stick with it. And just remember…you ain’t missing nothing. I been using over 20 years now and ready to give it up. I’ve even weaned my own self down from 2 grams a day to k my using .03 for the last 10 days. I hate fentanyl. I love heroin, but the party’s over. There’s no more heroin and fentanyl doesn’t have that touch of euphoria like heroin does. You just get a lot sicker a lot faster and it doesn’t feel as nice. Ur just knocks you out.….and now with this tranq sh**!? F THAT! Yeah, you ain’t missing nothing. Keep on keeping on sister. 👍

Shit, one day is a fkn success, so 4 weeks is awesome! Keep it up 🙏

4 weeks is a miracle!🎉 I am so proud of you. It gets easier, sometimes harder again, and then easier again, u just have to push through it NO MATTER WHAT! I couldn't get 4 days nevermind 4 weeks.. it took me 7 years. I'm blessed to have 14 months ❤ Congratulations love 🎉

Congratulations love. Keep going, you're stronger than you know ♥️🙏🙏

Praise God ❤

Opiates have always been my thing. I've been on suboxone now for a few years. I can't get off of suboxone, but I keep trying

@@maggiebrooks2550 same here, I’m down to 2 mg a day so I hope soon I can be free.

Good on you! You’re an inspiration!

@@maggiebrooks2550i also get subs, it helps but sometimes i wonder if id have been better off just using them for a few weeks at a super low dose. I worry about the mental part of getting off, just the feeling of taking a piece of a sub everyday and going about my life is nice. Although im healthy and not getting high im still just as addicted as ever ya know.

​@@maggiebrooks2550 How much are you on? I'm on it too, but very slowly tapering without any issues or withdrawal. I only go down a fraction at a time and don't go down again for two months. I'm on such a small dose now and hear the end is the hardest. I'm glad I have a clear mind now and don't care if it takes me two more years to finally get off of it. You can do it.

What a world we live in where you can describe a drug addicted thief prostitute as "angelic" ...

@@mojojojo3141 One where critical thinking is becoming more and more common and prejudice more rare, except for your case ofc. Were people do their dilligence in order to understand addiction and once they have a full grasp of how that demon works, they show EMPATHY because It does not discriminate, it’s killed the poor, the rich, the middle class, the woman, the man, the kid. Today you could be here looking down on this kid and tomorrow you get in a car accident, you get opioids pescribed because you cant bare the pain and bam, just like that you’re on your way to his position.

​@milosjovic2803 ego kills ones self slowly- I notice that you are well on your way. LOVE IS THE KEY - WE ARE BUT ONE🙏💗🗝

​@milosjovic2803 What a world where showing compassion and sympathy is ridiculed by garbage attitudes. What. A. Fucking. World. 🗑

@@mojojojo3141I agree.

seriously. he's already way ahead of most of the world - knowing his purpose. He just needs to get past this and understand what it is in his makeup that causes him to self destruct. Because until he addresses why he doesn't think he's worthy of success and happiness, he will never be clean.

I've been in recovery for about 20 years and blaming you got to work at it everyday the disease really messes with you but once you get out of that Circle and work a program life can be tough but you could do it you could do it

It means a lot to hear someone say they aren't an addict but have compassion for those who are.

So heartbreaking hearing that line 🥺

The hold it has is crushing at times. I related so much to that line

Nobody’s heart is pure. There is no good thing that dwells in man, apart from God. Or we would not need a Savior.

@@painmt651 Shut the fuck up bro. Take your fairy tales somewhere else.

@@painmt651true, but I think what he meant was that Kenneth has such a sweet spirit, and wants so badly not to be where he is right now. He’s seeking, a great place to start, hope is not lost. I’m praying for you Kenneth, give it all to God, it’s time for a “full” surrender.

​@@painmt651or you know maybe it doesn't have anything to do with the thousands of gods people have created.

Kenneth for some reason I stumbled upon this video and I will be Praying for you 🙏 you hang in there and you have a purpose God is with you

You're never an ex-addict once an on addict always an addict once an alcoholic always an alcoholic and I've been clean and sober for 20 years

Not true at all

Thank you Mark for being you and all that you do

After watching these videos you really think that is the greatest country in the world?

I’m glad you see something I don’t !!! I see an annoying person that thinks it’s ok to snicker and laugh over stuff that’s NOT funny !! He’s a dumb kid that’s hit rock bottom but is to dumb to realize it yet. Sadly - he won’t last long

Kierra thank u for the support !! I had woke up the next day regretting the extent I had opened up and how vulnerable I was but that's selfish. I wanted to be as honest and transparent as possible

@@kennethflauding your frankness, honesty life and interview were meaningful. I wish you clarity and a better life. I hope you get trauma counselling for the rape.

​@@kennethflauding you're not alone dude, 27 myself and the benzos opiates and amphetamines have ruined my life. Should be a certified youth worker by now but drugs came first and I'm in a similar situation. The benzos are the worst.. if you ever need to talk bro I'm in Australia but would love to add you and be able to speak on some app, you're not alone brother 🤍🤍

@@kennethflauding your story reminds me of my son on so many levels. Hearing you say you had to put on a totally different persona bc of where you lived- this is something my son struggles with. He feels so different and isolated he self sabotages. He started smoking weed when he was 12 with his father! He smokes everyday and has done other drugs quite a bit 😢 it comes from a place of feeling so alone and that this is all that makes him feel better (drugs) I pray you find self worth in expressing yourself exactly how makes you feel the happiest, drugs won’t ever bring you the peace and acceptance you’re looking for. Please remember you’re worthy of true peace and happiness. I see so much of my son in your story and I truly wish the best for you ❤

I'm so sorry for your loss. 😢

😢🙏💔😰 I am so very sorry for your loss... Prayers and healing energies to you 🙏🙏❤️🙏🙏 love tara 🇨🇦

I’m so sorry Joe. My son is on the street now… he’s been struggling for 14 years. He’s just 28. 🙏🏼❤️

I am so sorry that you had to see your son leave this world, Joe

I am truly sorry that you are having to go through such a huge loss! Sending you love from Louisiana 💙

Hey Anthony. I can relate to your comment alot as well. I noticed one thing that wasn't mentioned in the list of things you've tried. Assuming that opiates are the drug of choice- if not, then this won't apply. But if so... *Please* consider MAT (Medication assisted treatment). There's still a persistent stigma surrounding MAT, despite the fact that it's the method with the highest success rate in treating opioid addiction. And it's what I used to free myself from fentanyl's hold on me. I know I couldn't have gotten sober without MAT, and not just sober, but also capable of functioning in everyday life while not feeling unalive. Feeling normal. MAT saves lives.

Same here. I've never been homeless, but I've finally really had it for the last time. I'm actually leaving the day after tmrw. Every other time I'd already be thinking of ways to get out of it, stipulations that I had, etc. But I've been so unhappy, I lost half of a molar finally (this has been an almost 9 year rd- luckily I have just 1 misdemeanor) and I can say that I know, w absolute certainty, that I'm done. BTW, congratulations 🥰

Intelligence doesn't mean drugs can't catch you.b

I should of been dead from overdoses several times and I made it. Addiction depression and emotional issues are very hard but you can not only live but have a decent life.

@@maryshaffer5675 no shit

I am weeping! I can tell how smart you are. You’re referencing both 12-step model ideas and researched addiction theory. Sometimes ppl who are more intelligent struggle with the 12-steps being their only Avenue of recovery. Think of each technique, each support group, each book or audio you read/hear, every new lesson gets thrown into your recovery backpack. You don’t have to only be a 12-step success. If it’s not working after years of trying, try other avenues while maybe keeping 1 foot in that support group world. You know what you need to do. The hallucinogenic drugs are NOT FOR US!!! We don’t get to dabble in those. You know that’s what triggered your lapse so let that fascination go. You are destined for your purpose. But also, don’t get caught up in being so important. Make other ppl your focus and make them important. If May not happen the way you imagine your purpose. Make being useful to others in all areas your purpose, both in career and in every day life. Being a helpful sibling, child, friend. I know you can do this. And all that shame you feel and all that drama that is buzzing around you like a tornado ……it could be 3 months, a year, maybe less before you will barely even be affected by it. But you have to stop using. I believe in you. ❤❤

Agreed, Kenneth needs to get sick and tired, of being sick and tired.

Hey, my brothers main addiction is alcohol. You said you're alive because of your sister. How can I be the sister to my brother that she is to you, so maybe he'll stay alive for me?

parents divorced i was in grade 3, i was expelled from primary school in grade 6 and moved to my mother who stayed out of town, i started smoking cigarettes and weed, i went to see 4-5 different Psychologists for therapy afterwards and none of them could help me or should i say i just never opened up . i was expelled again in grade 10 and moved back to my home town to my father, i dropped out of high school shorty failing twice i just decided no more, im done with school, i didn't want to be that guy who was made fun of for being in grade 10 for 3 times inn a row. a few years go by an i was introduce to Crack "rocks" got addicted until my money ran out, went back to just using weed and cigarettes started saving for a motor bike to have my own transport atleast find a job, then i some how found my self addicted to Ketamine, i was at my friends house and his cousin sniffs Ketamine, he has offered if i want a line on many occasions where i declined out of my own will, one night i decided to join in and i now i was hitting Ketamine everyday to a point where tolerance was so high for the ketamine i decided to get a bag of meth from my same dealer i was buying the ketamine from. i was crushing the meth and snorting it, my money runs out again and im back square one which now has turned into smoking it with a glass pipe. im at my all time low and i mean lowest and i cant find myself putting it down and saying no and use every little bit of money that comes my way to get my fix of meth that i look forward to even though i know fully well I'm almost 30 and throwing my life away more and more with these same stupid patterns i keep repeating. i look back i can see everything that has taken place, each event that happened and its as crystal clear as this meth my puffing. I went threw alot of stuff as a very young child and it all makes sense to me as if im reading a book chapter by chapter, i know why i have all this hate inside, all this anger and sadness i was probably around 9-10 when it happened, i was treated as if MONSTER my stepmother even approaching me with a knife threatening to kill me or call the cops to fetch me i remember all of fighting between my stepmom and father about me, i knew what i did was bad but how could a 10 year old know any better? but in my head im automatically programming into my system im a Monster and what i did was horrible and i hope no one ever finds out my dark evil secret which has forced me to develop this self defense shell to shut myself off from everyone my whole life even. when my step mom moved in shortly befor all these events took place she had a 3 year old daughter, my step sister who i love dearly and we get along today even like good friends, i used to touch her sexually very inappropriately, no penetration just like foundling and touching only. but in my head pretty much grew thinking i was a rapist or child molester. i have forgiven myself and moved on for what i did i was legit 10 years old even younger, i often found myself wondering in my mind and wondering why i did those things, why did i touch my sister sexually inappropriate why did i even know what porn was for 9-10 old, then it hit me smack in the face more dark memories which i had blocked out for so long, they started to surface and it all makes sense so clearly, i remember my older brother used to touch us the same way me and my twin brother when we much younger befor mom left. i haven't told any one this befor iv kept it to myself all this time not opening up to cytologists etc. sometimes i wonder if i should speak to my parents and show them hey i find out why I'm soo messed in my head. but then i think to myself my older brother is going to look like the bad one who caused all of this? how will mom a dad react, my older brother might break down and cry and knowing he touched us inappropriately and i dont feel any anger or hate towards even though he has a part to play in this im not angry at anyone but myself for keeping this bottled up tthis, then i even get the sudden thought where did he learn it from, what if he was touch by someone when he was younger. damn this goes so far back and soo messed up sometimes i don't know if its worth talking about to them, i have become my own Psychologist and the drugs is how i self medicate and now i know i have no dark secrets to worry about I'm not a monster or sexual predator LOL.huge weight lifted off me mentally i do feel alot better being able to understand what happened .all these events that took place effected me soo badly and effect my mental health big time especially revolving around sex being a dark uncomfortable topic for me growing up, example i only lost my virginty when i was 20. i still think the damage is done im still the same person always have been cant change the past and the years iv thrown away wasted i feel better getting this off my chest but i doubt ill be happy i still have this self hate for my position im in. THANKS FOR LISTERNING TO MY STORY AND PLEASE DO GIVE SOME ADIVISE HOW CAN I MOVE FORWARD WITH THIS SISTUATION AND MY LIFE AND IMPROVE MY METAL HEALTH AND ADDICTION DISORDER.... YO KENNETH YOU GOT THIS HOMIE I BELIVE IN YOU AND U GAVE ME THE COURAGE TO TALK ABOUT MY METAL PROBLEMS AND ADDICTIONS THANK YOU FOR BEING SO BRAVE ! AND THERE NOT A THING WRONG BEING YOU EMBRACE IT MY BROTHER IS GAY AND I SUPPORT HIM FULLY AND MY WHOLE FAMILY DOES! WE ALL SUPPORT YOU

@@tanjakorevaar1354don’t EVER give up on him ❤

yeah me too

Same.

I hope so thanks

@@kennethflaudingHi, I recommend Graceland Ranch which is a sober living in a huge mansion in Agoura Hills, CA. It’s run by recovered addicts and they care more than most rehabs who are about the money. If you’re serious about getting sober they will hold you accountable and be there for you. After this interview I’m confident you could find a way to raise the money required to go. Do you feel ready to give up drugs is the thing. Housing alone won’t do it, you need to address the addiction or nothing will work.

He needs to be a model

@@DMRJ53 Fr he would be so good❤

when is Rebecca mentioned?

@@benWTL 9:00

​@@benWTL Mark and Kenneth spoke about her, you must fell asleep, because they sure talked about her, mark and Kenneth said she was a great person, but self destructive!!!!!!!

😮😮kk😢gb🎉rrrtf. 🎉re

Yeah he pads their ego and aides their victim mentality. Cause the longer he keeps em talking the more content/views

Magazine photos, many are touched up...are a cheap imitation of who we really are.

Being a model is the very last type of job or activity this young man needs . Being flaunted and used as a model on a magazine cover is so superficial . He doesn’t even believe in himself as a person let alone an example of beauty. He should be actively on a road of recovery and sobriety . He would be perfect as a toke model of a recovered drug addict . A spokesmodel for turning your life around . A gay man who has changed his life for the better and use his story as an inspiration to help others’ . The last thing he needs is being a model in an industry that drugs are around every corner and at your disposable . He has so much going for him , I hope he can become sober and be a great “ MODEL “ of sobriety and a drug free lifestyle . Than maybe he can pursue his career as a fashion model

He’s too white to be a modern model

That's exactly what I just said to my husband. Kenneth is very photogenic. He's also a kind soul. I hope he finds true happiness.

@@louismedina8136 I love how u worded this and appreciate u taking the time, thanks I've been approached by the industry but never had interest knowing how toxic it is and how fucked up I am. I didn't get to talk about it but if he invited me for an update is love to share my experience with eating disorder and body dysmorphia

they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here. and mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on this planet i wish people would all realize. they could solve a lot of problems, more than just mental treatments, environmental clean up; the possibilities are endless with fungus.

Hey! Yes very sure of Dr.alishrooms. a single dose of shrooms saved me from Alcohol addiction. 6 years clean. no cravings. this doesn't sound weird to me in any way shape or form.

Yes he's Dr.alishrooms.Lsd and psilocybin are amazing teachers along its dmt mah dudes have safe trips all. Shrooms are blessings from nature.

I've done microdosing for help and it works does cut depression out its been the best remedy I've ever had psilocybin been illegal is actually a crime against humanity

Does he ship? Can he deliver to me here in Norway 🇳🇴

Well..... if he continues without wanting treatment.. he will ending like every others.

$23T in debt isn't a rich country.......$ backed by nothing isn't a rich country......mass drug addiction, whoring, and crime isn't a rich country.

@@waykiwayki facts.. people just people sounding dumb af lmao

​@@waykiwayki it's actually rich if You can get away with doing all that, plus owning most of the World's Media and being able to invade any Country seen as an Enemy

​​@@waykiwayki forgot all the mass killing n homicides pmsl the place as cancer my friend period. Iy will go lile the Rome's did n crumble wit a bit of luck. Couldn't pay me to live there .

@@akubuirocharles3390 I that stuff is from the joos....1950s america was such a great place....70s too......all gone.

@@Elektroslag Yeah most of these drug addicts are monsters and deserve all the suffering that comes upon them. Some get caught up in addiction and get genuinely good people but you can tell who is who

​@@DrpeprWhere did you get all your education and info about drug addiction from!??

@@Elektroslag same as any victim and these people do read these comments, what would you rather be said “please give up because no one would believe you and you’re a monster in our eyes” are you serious?

If those are your opinions on these people why click on them at all? A desire to push someone to suicide?

@@Elektroslag my point is why click and hear someone’s outlook on their life if you’re already going in with a closed mind and heart? What’s the point of listening?

Sometimes it feels like there's no end to the misery, but out of the clear blue what seems like an eternity,a fog gets lifted and little by little one can get a bit of peace that will literally unleash your gateway to the right track. Then you'll know. Hold on to that feeling like grim death

YAAAAAAAAAA!!!! so sensitive kind polite... what we need in world... so pure... please dont corrupt yourself with your thoughts in loop!

#Dagmar Ramgad 100%

And the trauma underlying it

Yup it’s the system

100%!!! Well said!

Not gonna happen, who you think creates these drug markets mane

What does god say about gay people?

Kenny is gonna definitely read this virtue signaling message from you. You forgot to say in your edit to kenny: "You got this!"

@@kmlumd44 oh Scotty G. You woke up and chose hate today! Godspeed to you too.

@@CallmeMaurice717 Oh Marie Lynn shut the fuck up. Scotty G is absolutely right.

@@kmlumd44 true

This is beautiful and full of love ❤

I ll pray for him too 🙏🙏🙏

No one is rooting for this dumb junkie

But Mark, didn't bleep out his privacy!!

Good Luck with it brother. I been using heroin well over 20 years, but recently have weaned myself down, I’ve never been to rehab or on methadone or anything. The party’s over though.There’s no more heroin. It’s all fetty and now this tranq sh** is finally hitting NYC, so I don’t want no parts of it. I don’t even like it. It doesn’t have that dash of euphoria like heroin, and it doesn’t last as long. I’m sure you know. Anyway, over the last 5 - 6 weeks I been doing pretty much like you. I’ve gone from a 2 gram a day average down to .03 a day for the past 10 days. I can’t take too much of the credit as wouldn’t have been able to do this if the heroin was still good, but as it started drying up it kept getting weaker and kept buying the weaker heroin and staying away from the fetty so that helped A LOT. but now that I’m down to .03 a day, idk, maybe it’s more about the whole ritual of using or fear of missing out or something, but I just keep clinging to that last .03. Maybe it’s just something to do. Well, anyway, Good Luck to you. I wish you the best.

He's higher then a damn kite in this interview. Wait until your see him as a fiend

​@@TingTingalingy he is able to think straight when he is using. You have no clue how addiction works

@@sgq_.h you're a junkie apologist. With no clue about me or what addictions i may or may not have.

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

Yes, dr.sporessss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.

Is he on instagram?

Yes he is. dr.sporessss

I know, right! And the fact that he knows it is his calling...so impressive. While a lot of us still do not know what we want to do with our lives (I'm in my forties)

You seem like you understand . Would you be interested in talking to me about recovery and how to go about this my mom died a couple months back it’s just me please let me know @denisewestern4139

"embrace the emotional and physical anguish" - such a good way to frame it. When I committed to getting clean, I uttered out loud: "I'm ready for the pain".

He knows what to do. He worked in a house with addicts. He's not ready or willing. All I heard was one excuse after another which is typical for those not wanting to get clean. If he's telling the truth about being clean before, he knows what's involved.

It's a disease! But with treatment available.

Well actually it IS a person's fault that they became addicted. I would like to hear more addicted people give advice to others not to even TRY drugs or alcohol, then there would be no addiction. I deal with persons on meth, and they will give up everything for a high, meanwhile destroying their bodies and minds. Bless this young man, I hope he finds his way. There are many who have so much to give to the world, ruined by drugs.

My good childhood friend just OD aNd died 😢

I’m sorry for your loss. It’s heartbreaking what they’re doing to our children. This epidemic has been intentionally set into motion, and until ppl accept it’s been by design, it will continue. 💔. Sending prayers 🙏

I’m so sorry for your loss 💜🥺