Fighting Depression as an INFJ 

Thank you so much for sharing your writing. To place these words on paper, to string together your essence in the midst of your struggle is truly a gift. And I can say, depression has been a real struggle for me esp these last few years. It’s takes immense courage to be vulnerable. And strength to get into the unknown to face yourself and see the broken pieces. This piece spoke profoundly to me. So, thank you. Here is a piece of my writing i too also wrote in 2017 in the middle of my pain. It’s just something I tucked away in my journal but surprisingly have come back to several times since to read because it helps in my dark times still. The Edges of a Breakthrough It's easy to find words when things are going fine The hard part comes when face down, crying To think, i'll just lay down and take what comes my way Is easier after such a long day. I hate this uncontrollable feeling. I hate I feel defeated. Tell the truth. I am only here because I fail to believe it's only a matter of climbing. Reaching. Being. Someone I'm not...quite Yet. But at the core, am most. To think, I'm doing this to myself seems crazy. I've come so far, beat and broken. I've worried over tedious details of pieces that just don't fit but have I even taken a look within? Have I ever reached toward myself and felt those empty pieces. My hands bleeding on those Sharp and jagged edges I've been running, reaching. I want it so bad. Trapped inside, Shouting. Frustration. Mind games. Tell myself lies. But it's not my mind stuck. It's my life. And the Right words never seem to come. Ive nurtured it. Gave it breath. But the duration of such a detrimental vacation seems to spin itself thin. The longing, the reach, too exhausted to climb. it leaves me dry. Leaves me empty. Id work myself in a hole. Digging deeper. Finding little treasures. Sacred gems of my world that surrounds me. But my careful bringing of this delicate life Leaves me searching for these measures for myself. To give and never receive is a painful grieve. And those pieces that pierce my stomach I can't help but feel Are The edges of a breakthrough, and I must break through. Or risk the loss of something real.

I am astonished, shocked, speechless ... I never though that someone could put all what I am going through, feel, who I am into words. I am an INFJ and not sorry ;)

Crying so hard, cause it could have been me who wrote all this.

You don’t need anyone to tell you the truth. You are able to figure out your own thoughts and feelings. However, what INFJs really seek is closeness with someone to share ourselves completely, but that is only a fantasy and not attainable in this life. Therefore, we will never be whole and always be somewhat empty and yearning on the inside. I think every INFj will appreciate how you have let us have a peak inside. You are brave, but be careful and protect yourself. INFJs don’t need anymore regrets. We are so good at tormenting ourselves with regrets. I still have horrible regrets and flashbacks going back to grade school. It’s ridiculous.

My mum told me this & it helped me understand my depression alot: "Depression is the brain's reaction, to the difference between, what you expected from life, and what you really got..." The moment i saw that, i remembered another thing she told me... "There are 2 ways to be happy in this world - either go out and get what makes you happy, or find a way to be happy with what you have right now, and that's just a matter of perception..." These 2 things helped me let go of a lot of things and focus on what i really needed to get out of my hole. But the biggest thing that helped me with depression was that when i was 3 i experienced a lot of violence & 1 night i thought "if i can just forget what i just saw i can be happy in the next moment" & in that second i made a decision for life at the deepest level to be happy no matter what... & THAT is your most powerful weapon against depression :)

One of the hardest things for me... having others look at me as a person I never think I will become. It's a huge burden and struggle of constantly trying to be better, thinking I can get a little closer to that idealized version of me.

Omg, “Seeking any and all outside stimulation so I don’t have to fight the fight inside.” I so identified with this statement.

That was painfully beautiful. You wrote and spoke straight from my mind and my heart. We always feel we are the only one who thinks these things. Thank you. Depression seems to be a bad best friend I cannot get rid of and it helps to know others struggle the same

David, one thing I discovered is I only remember the bad that I have done and I don’t remember the good, so my wife is trying to remind of the good things I’ve done over the years. This helps me fight off that thing we do where we destroy ourselves in our heads by telling ourselves we are worthless and horrible people. I realize how brave this video was for you to release. Thank you!

This is truly the purest infj content, sincere and raw

David, this INFJ is giving you a big hug right now. I think we INFJ types have varied stages of depression because we ARE aliens in many regards. Being a square peg in a world of round holes will lead us into these areas, given circumstances and time. I have a significant other who is an ISFJ, and in some parallel universe somewhere we are probably married, but not in this one. I’ve never met a more self sacrificing and loving person in my life. She is there for me when I need her in my depression states, and me with hers. However, I sometimes will sometimes hide my deepest fears and issues from her, and bleed alone. Not sure exactly why. Maybe I don’t want to negatively affect her. I, however, hope you find that person (a fellow alien) who connects with you and fights the demons of depression with you! Ever forward, David! Cheers, Jeff.

From one INFJ to all the others of us, thanks so much for putting words on it all. God Bless from Ireland

I recognize this. So much it hurts and cleanses with tears of being understood. I am not the only alien here. Thank You.

I have never felt so understood in such a short amount of time. Your writing is absolutely beautiful...And just knowing that other people like me exist and are searching for the same thing somehow makes me feel a little less alone.

Never in a million years would I think that someone could or does understand that empty pit of despair and darkness, the loud noise I call my mind. When everyone around is in the crowd, I'm to the side standing alone an idle me just needed and wanting so badly to have someone reach out and say hey. It's ok. Come sit. But most of the time people think I'm being cold or just rude but I'm just uncomfortable and need a nudge to come back. I don't think words can really ever describe how grateful I am for this. you have made me feel again something I was unsure I could even do sometimes. You are really helping some truly lost unique people and you're amazing for that.

Writing poetry helped a ton with depression. Eventually I pulled out. But yes, writing ANYTHING and EVERYTHING helps.

I’m in my early 50’s, a former pro football player whose battled depression and anxiety and loneliness for most of my life, and I’m a writer, as well. I only recently discovered I’m an INFJ (an Alien), and this video truly resonated. Well done. Thank you for sharing.

David, this is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read/listened to. As an INFJ, it makes me want to cry to experience someone putting all my most important thoughts and wishes into words. I wish I could broadcast this to everyone who knows me, to help with that feeling of me understanding them and what they are about but them not fully understanding me. This is a true gift and it makes me feel so grateful that there are people like you out there, such bravery and love. I speak for many of us when I say that this made us feel truly understood and supported ❤⭐

I go to therapy so i understand more about myself, I do not suffer from depression. I have had HUGE rough patches through my life, I seem to always pull out of it, through prayer, chanting, meditation. It works, best of luck to all INFJ's out there. Love you all

I'm getting misty-eyed here. Everything you described is how I've been feeling just about every day of my life. "Normal people don't get aliens like me." From one alien to another, let me reassure you that your unique qualities ARE a gift. Just knowing that there are others like me out there makes me feel a little less alone. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you . Thank you very much . Last year, I'd planned my death ... I'd lost EVERYTHING and had lost myself . Writing, keeping journals , etc ... helps . I'm SO GLAD that you've THE BALLS to do this video . My one person who understood my died in 2015 ... I still talk to him but ... he can no longer put his 2 hands upon my face and tell me that we /I'm okay . I go now alone . I love how you put yourself out into the world, as I did as being a public horseman ... My Lookout died ... you cause me to weep . My Paul always told me to " Shine " while doing my work / our work . Thank you , THANK YOU FOR YOUR HONESTY .

You brought me to tears. I wondered while listening, how many others started to get emotional. I understand you. I am you too and just knowing there are others, helps a bit. I ignored it for a long time. There's no ignoring yourself, not forever, especially when it's time to be physically still. Keep up the good work. :)

"Everyone can see me but nobody sees... ME." Now that is beautiful and I don't think I could relate more to any other quote

'I am hidden, and feel alone', and during these moments, is when a narcissist comes along and lovebombs you to a hell you've never known before. This is the one quality that makes us really, really, vulnerable to toxic people. They offer us that which we need, and we can fall for it all the time.

There are no words...just crying....God bless you ♥️

The Courage to be imperfect, Authenticity to be who you are, and Compassion to be kind to ourselves and others, are all bought at a high cost of Vulnerability. And that Vulnerability is the birthplace of creativity, innovation & change - Brene Brown. Thank you David for taking this risk and being vulnerable, thank you for this gift. Truly beautifully written....and I can relate with all of it. Greetings from fellow INFJ brother in South Africa. Love your work man!

"What I need is another alien" ❤️

You have a true gift to put into words what many are unable to explain. As an INFJ I have spent most of my life in and out of depression. I am in my 50’s so it has been a very long life of being misunderstood and feeling a complete disconnect with most people around me. Thank God I have a husband that understands and brings a sense of calm when life is spinning much too fast.

That was beautiful.. just so deep and so honestly raw. I related to many things.. It's a tall order for someone to fill an INFJ's hunger, and my own personal story is that I have only found it in the unconditional love of Jesus. Thank you for sharing, and I am so glad you are better now!

Thank you for sharing this, fellow INFJ here and I’d like to say that your writing is honestly beautiful. Such raw and truthful words that feel like deja vu to me. I love the bands playing in your mind analogy, that is exactly what it feels like to me as well. I never really knew I craved someone to physically place their hands on my face and tell me it was okay and what’s going on in my mind is understood. I’m bad at expressing my feelings because I don’t want to feel rejected or misunderstood by others so I prefer to figure out my problems on my own. Then I usually get stuck in the ni-ti loop and it all kind of spirals downwards from there. Next time I’m feeling overwhelmed by the bands in my mind I will allow someone to give me that kind of physical and emotional validation. I can’t thank you enough for being vulnerable and sharing your inner thoughts, you have helped me feel not so alone.

I am in tears listening to these words. You mirror almost word for word what I have felt, but had such a hard time admitting to and expressing. You have given me the encouragement to dare to be this vulnerable and real. The tip of the arrow of truth hitting bullseye. I bow to you and call you teacher, and I am 72. And all those who have commented here feels like the community I have always been looking for but didn't know existed. I feel very empowered.

I am so absolutely gobsmacked. I could not have written what I have been through as well as you have. I am a 67 yr old INFJ male who only today found this link. I am unstable, erratic, and in need of being fitted for a tin-foil hat in the eyes of many. I doubted myself for decades, then 2 yrs. ago found I was INFJ. Also went red-pilled upon recognizing the narcissists in my life. Shackles & chains falling away like sand through fingers.

Yes, yes, and yes. I don't know that I've ever related to something so well as this! Thank you!

can't describe what your words made me feel, so I'll just say: thank you for this gift!

Wow - over 500 comments. So far. Yes, I identify. You are a gift. I have been there. Yes. I amaze myself with my acting ability in public. You are not alone. Always remember, you are not alone. You are worthy. Beautifully said.

I had that person. That one connection where I didn’t have to be anyone else but me. Where my vulnerability and my deepest thoughts weren’t something I had to hide. He always said “you can do it”. There was no “can’t” in his book. Never have I had a bigger support in my life or someone who believed in my dreams like him. He made me dare to be more and do more and he got me out of my shell so to speak. And while I do believe we can learn to be these things for ourselves too, it’s been really hard getting on without him. I landed on this video because your video about your brother popped up as a suggestion. I’d like to extend my condolences to you. I wasn’t going to make another comment but, how could I not in this case.

It’s as if you reached into my brain and pulled all of this out in a single mind sweep. Thank you so much for sharing this. Your writing has truly moved me beyond words.

Thank you for this. I too am an INFJ, something I've only recently become aware of in my near mid forties and sadly far too late in life to be saved! I've always known I was unusual but never knew INFJ, or any other Briggs Mayer personality type was a thing until stumbling onto a video a few months ago that lead me down the usual route of discovery, must know more, must learn everything path. Now my affliction is oh so clear. Unfortunately in a life marred by tradegy, depression and poor choices I found myself very alone, my family all died, my friends all left and an extremely rocky road finally resulted in a mental breakdown from which I am still trying to recover but realise I probably never will. Recent events left me homeless, unemployed and very slightly disabled in one leg, a story in itself!! I could perhaps muster the drive to fight on but in a world devoid of meaning the motivation is sorely lacking. I will struggle on for as long as I can, hopefully find a low stress part time job just to regain my independence and then submit to a life of simplicity and solitude with all the pain of loneliness and none of the disappointment of being constantly misunderstood. Your words inspired me to write and as I have no other outlet your comments section bore the brunt. I thank you again for sharing and hope others find inspiration and knowledge in your words as I have.

"Everybody see me, but nobody sees..." that is exactly how i feel. thank you for sharing, I had tears in my eyes listening to you. the similarities are uncanny. living in constant confusion and noise is exhausting. People just dont get us. they dont like us. cause they dont feel us. Thank you again!

Holy #%@& Dude...this is just, crazy... Sorry, I mean that I an totally just blown away. Saying "you hit to close to home" is like asking if a bear shits in the woods... Wow just wow...🤯

This hit me really hard, I felt every bit of that. I am too an INFJ.

Thank you. I could see such courage welling up in your intro. This is beautifully expressed and so on the nose of how I feel. Glad to know I'm not the only one feeling these feelings and searching for the same things. Thank you, just thank you. ❤

Oh and I am speechless Dear David... I can understand your pain and resonate with them completely. I am happy to have read such an honest confessions of self reflection and good to know that eventually you've overcome it, or kind of rather. But whatsoever it maybe I am sure you have the potential in you to get back and rise again like a Phoenix. Your fans are here always to support you with all the beautiful and creative content that you come up with. I support you virtually.... Wishing you loads of luck and the best in life!!👍👍💖💖

I"m actually crying a little right now. The stress ninja!!! The guilt omg, and the anger, I get lost JUST like that.

Very vulnerable and relatable. This came across my path right when I was in need. Thank you for sharing ❤️

Thank you so much for sharing these words with us! I cried, when I listened to them. I find myself in them too and I think many INFJs do, so it doesn't sound as private to me as it actually is to you. I do a German channel about INFJs and my own path to self acceptance and I think a lot about how much private things I want to reveal about myself on RU-vid. But you are right...how can we help people if we don't dare to show ourselves as we are?

Hello fellow alien. Spent years thinking I was the only one. Nice to meet you. Nice to know someone else understands. Nice to be reminded that we are special and worth it. Thank You!

I am crying, "all I can do is feel." Thankyou for this. My heart hurts.

I remember when I was getting out of middle school and going to high school, all I thought was how worthless I thought I was. The reason why was because I wasn’t meeting everyone’s expectations, I wanted everyone to be happy with my work, and I couldn’t get others to be happy with my work. I was also hanging out with a group of kids at the time who weren’t the best, but I thought I could improve to be better, but they didn’t wanted to be helped, so they fought me until I couldn’t take it much longer. I felt lost and worthless, didn’t know what to do with myself. It only took me a year of self introspection that I learned why I was that, and I started to improve myself. I literally got tired of being the way I was and sought out to improve, and did that first by starting to run. Then I began to research things that I liked, I began to challenge myself more, and tried and currently trying to be a better version of myself. Right now I’m kind of in a rut in that process, things have been so hard for me now, I think I ran too far away. Looking at myself now and myself back then I can’t even recognize myself anymore, looking how much different I was. But in that I also saw that there is something inside me that hasn’t changed, which I guess is my own soul. Right now I guess I’m trying to understand what my own soul is, but it’s so warped and confusing that my brain can’t even comprehend really what it is. Maybe deep down inside of myself I do understand it, but any words that comes out of my mouth to describe is just meaningless mumbo jumbo. Though one thing I know is that the soul that is inside me will always be with me, no matter how I change physically, or in a sense, mentally, it will always stay the same. People always ask what is up above the clouds and says what is the meaning of what is up there, but I say that really meaning and purpose derived from what is inside you. Your purpose, my purpose, is to conquer all of our inner turmoils so we can come in peace with ourselves so that we can rejoice in what is around us. Sometimes that task is quiet simple, but most of the time it’s quiet daunting. We hate ourselves, eachother, and everything so we can love ouselves, eachother, and everything, and that’s what life is I guess. It’s kind of weird that I’m only 18, and I’m thinking about all this stuff, it’s really not normal for me to think about this. I guess I have to thank a certain television show for all this dumb but not dumb introspection (BoJack Horseman if you are wondering, recommend anybody to watch it, ESPECIALLY INFJ’s). I guess this is the gift I have to the world, which is to ponder and wonder until I loll over those who are curious enough to read my thoughts. Maybe my curiosity journey that made me go from a low self esteemed young teenager, to a older teenager that has the thoughts of what a older teenager shouldn’t have. Idk, honestly, but whoever really does know really, we live in a world full of I don’t know’s and I guess’s that we can’t sleep at night. Maybe that’s how the world proceeds to rotate all these years, is because we are too curious to actually drop dead of exhaustion. Sorry for the rambling, just a thought.

Wow... 🤯 I have never really been able to grasp why I always have been struggling fit in, and why nobody seems to get me, and why I've always been looking to find meaning and happiness in my life. Looking at this video makes it all so clear to me. Every part of your text applies to me. It describes almost exactly my own thoughts and feelings. I have always been considered to be a logical person and that is something that I have embraced, but when you read that part about not being able to apply logic to your own feelings, I recognize that so much! Me: "Does this person really like me?" Also me: "No. Why would she? You are worthless!" Me: "But she smiled when she saw me and came over to give me a hug?" Also me: "So? She probably does that all the time!" Me: "But..?" Also me: "Nope!" Thank you for sharing your text. Keep up the good work!

Sobbing. You described....me. An INFJ. Needing so much right now.

Just WOW! This alien has found her planet!! And it feels like home 🌅

Beautifully done. I am in the midst but also in a different life period. No core responsibility but to myself and as I believe you know, the self is not most important, it is the whole, what we can do or give understanding in seeing the angst and discord among all. I in my head, feeling overwhelmed by the external stresses that know no boundaries. I am lost, trying to break out of my stagnation, get back into the game with all I the understanding I have garnered and find a way to employ it to help us all. But I am stuck. Waiting for ... But I know I am just losing time as I could be getting much done during this waiting. But I am stuck. Again, your story is valuable and writing beautiful. Thank you - infj

So good, David 👏🏻 You are a precious gift to all of us who’ve gone through something like this. Thank you so much for sharing. It’s beautiful even though it’s was you’re hard time that made it that way. Watching, I felt like the characters in your book came vividly to life here. Thank you again.

This is absolutely beautiful and I can totally relate as an INFJ that has gone through depression. I am now a successful healthy INFJ

This made me cry....like the only think an INFJ wants a single person who understands them just the way they are

Thank you for this...it helped me articulate how I have been feeling and how important connection is. Your focus and bravery is appreciated.

Thank you so much for having the courage to share your writing. I am crying right now because I resonated so much with this and desperately needed to hear that someone else understands. Even though I am mortified that someone else goes through everything I go through on a daily basis, I also feel peace and hope, as this was a reminder that there are others out there who can feel and think this deeply and then come back out of the depths to share their gifts with the other "aliens" in the world. Thank you. You don't know how much I needed this today. ♥️♥️♥️

Hit the nail on the head. This is exactly what is going on in my head. I have been burying it my whole life. It is like I have to be two people to cope with the situation. Extroverted but the need to go into quiet. Introverted with the dread of being extroverted. A walking controversy.

This is so relatable as an INFJ, I think we need ENFPs because they are most compatible with INFJs.

Thanks so much for this. Literally crying throughout the video. It’s good knowing there’s someone out there that can describe what is going inside your mind in the moments that you cannot escape the madness inside your head. Thanks for sharing it with us, I know it takes a lot of courage in today’s world to allow yourself to be vulnerable, but that’s who we are.

Very powerful writing, David. Thank you for sharing. Don’t stop writing - keep going. All the best to you.

An echo from the abyss... I hear you. I hear my reflection in your words. You are certainly not alone.

Thank you. If I could write, this is how i would describe myself + maybe "I am a Gordian knot. All that I crave and all that I need will forever be out of reach because I am to scared to go out and find it".

I never knew another human being felt the way I do. Thank you so much for putting your heart into words. I don't write for fear I will be misunderstood by my family when the words are found. Fear that I will lose them because of words that are so strong and intense. Some how I feel better hearing how you went through depression. All I crave is deep connection and understanding. As an INFJ I feel like an alien. I can see people but they can't see me. It's tough. Thanks again😊

I think every INFJ can identify with what you went through and everything you going to have happen to you. Because we can manifest our future which can be a total disaster.

Depression can be paralyzing. God bless you David. I deal with this myself all the time. Nuff said for now.

I’m that shy insecure infj who slips into blaming the world and bouncing from depressed to mad. I try to just distract myself from myself.

I came into my bedroom to seek a sanctuary from the overwhelm and deep despair I was feeling . I opened RU-vid ( mostly to distract myself from myself ) and your video began to play. With every word I shed another tear . I’m not alone , I’m not the only Alien struggling to prosper in a world I’m completely at odds with , yet constantly celebrated for the fraud I feel I am . Today I can feel all that I feel and sense all that I sense and it’s OK . From one INFJ to another , thank you . You made an impact in my life and when I’m inevitably feeling alone again , I’ll watch this video and be reminded that there’s someone else out there who gets it .

Wow!!!! That was so incredible and I can so relate!!!! Only thing I question, that person that your looking for is God! I have been single a long time, as an infj I lead that same lonely 😔 life. I’m nearing out of my depression hopefully. I at least feel a little better, as I to did write!!!!! I wrote a poem. It helped me a lot!!!! Your words are inspiring and I feel you!!! I may not be the alien your looking for, but please let it be known you are not alone my friend!!!!!

This is amazing!!! I am an Infj and a therapist. I work with some many people who are depressed. People get exhausted and they help and support and love.

You just read everything I write over and over again in my mixed up head, wondering when it will end and that special someone will come into my life and tell me, "darling, it's okay, I understand and together we can fix this, I love you and will always be here for you". I write this again and again in my head wondering when that special someone will come into my life and just quietly hold me close in her soft and gentle arms, while I cry tears of joy, now that someone truly loves me and cares for me and wants to be with me. I don't know who I am anymore!

Hello David! I love watching your vídeos, you are a very beautiful, talented person!

Interesting piece I enjoyed it. I've felt like this every day all of my life. I found that I got rid of the voices for a bit when I was smoking weed. Strange fact... I missed the voices so I stopped smoking. I felt alien in school but since I was always open about my mixed heritage I simply assumed it was because I was colored surrounded by whites that I didn't fit in. Either that or convinced myself to cope with it. I felt that I never fit in untill I saw those 4 letters that changed everything for me. Now if I feel a little weird because people say something like I don't fit in I can go back to what is written on a Web site and say "you are right, I don't fit in and this is why." Strange thing is I desire to still make the same connection with someone and that's why I watch your channel. It gives me the grounding to feel just a bit better and carry on with what I know I need to do.

There was so much emotion in this it made my head explode with passion and love. As you were speaking I was thinking you need the biggest hug on Earth and then I realized when I got saved as a follower of Jesus that's why God bestowed upon me an overwhelming sense of love. I fell on my face in the middle of it one afternoon and ask the Lord to forgive me and help me take the pain away. Loneliness, invisible, not feeling Worthy, excetera excetera excetera. That very day my life has changed and I have trusted him ever since because I know I know that he loves me. But I guess I never really understood who I am. Until I was watching your videos and I see you in me. You are my mirror. Thank you! Now my journey makes more sense to me. Lord has used me for helping people. And now I understand why. Thank you! May my Father in Heaven bless you and keep you safe, and spread his love over you.

This was beyond words. Can us INFJs just be with each other, or is that like 2 versions of yourself meeting in the same timeline? This resonates with me so much!

Beautiful writing. It’s so amazing to hear your words from your mind and heart. Your intuition is beautifully written and from the depth of you. I wrote this in the middle of a panic attack in my head: I have come to this planet which has I have called home. Not knowing what I face or what my desire or its pleasures. This world is full of knowledge and even less understanding it's compendiums. Knowledge is easy, it's structured, orderly, and without the use of ones power to create what's truly their life's course. Humanity suffers its darkest hours when one lets time pass by its empty shell. Neither knowing the truth of being knowing but oblivious to is endurance. Men have tried to pen its wonders and its madness, even myself I have show its remarkable ability to survive in a world that far different from my own. I am not unique I am just the new soul that lives in a shell surround by my own air in which I inhale and exhale. Sleeping in the same bed, night after night and rising to be in the earthen body that is mortal and frail. My mind has other plans, my heart leads me to not know where i cannot find the answers. My friends are but pawns in my games, checkmate is my goal nor is it my aim to win, but to survive till I lose. I search for a dissent memory for what was and what is to come. Relying too much on either takes away from moments your could experience. I am not alone, nor am I an alien I am myself. I have found comfort in control and freedom is my burden, but somehow I don't fit those either. I am becoming the greats success and failure of my mind. Where I sit nor lay is not of consequence but it is the thought of where and how will it all end. I am stuck but running to my future only to know that the future has already won. A history isn't what makes it true its what helps us understand what can or has happened but the present is where the mystery begins. Where does it stop or end? No one knows that, it was not granted to us. Death has nor question nor its purpose unknown till one faces it. I shall not face it for many years but for some it is tomorrow, today, or even yesterday. What is running back? What is finding the meaning of who am I? I know who I am now, it's only a matter of who am I yesterday. Stand still around the world and no one notices till you move an inch to the right, or left, or forward, or backwards. Society has made us who we think we are on the inside but the shell of a mortal only things in absolutes. I think it is grander to thing of multiple personas. I have spent ages on the inside thinking outward in, but the truth is we all look inward to look out. I do not know what my mind possesses or why it thinks in ways that I can not know. Death has no freedom or enslavement it is nothing worthy of our attention. Finding a home, establish its routine, running from what could be is not the place I wish to go. Forgiven society is.

You should try Christ as a relationship with Him best describes what you so greatly desire! As an older INFJ, I understand YOU, and ca relate. Keep sharing your writing. As a writer myself, I appreciate your thoughts, and ideas.

Wow! Profoundly deep - and profoundly true! You have captured every 'feeling' we INFJ's feel when depression overcomes us.

I am left speechless by your words. Thank you for your openness and for being vulnerable. I am going to go write in my own darkness.

I love your videos, it's so amazing that u share so much about urself. I know it can be hard without making it sound selfcentered... :)

It’s so funny how we literally have the same thought process. Beautiful writing, congratulations on that, and thank you for sharing it with us. Watching your videos helps me imagine myself as a healthier INFJ and work towards it with the correct approach. I hope that this channel also helps you get in touch with your extroverted feeling!

I hear this alot. I'm an INFJ with super high Fe when tested, yet a super high Fi score too. I don't get depressed. I'm quite opposite and fatally optimistic instead, not in an unhealthy way thoug. I do get disappointed when something doesn't go the way I'd like; however, I usually think that it didn't work out so I try a different approach until one works or I move on to something else. I don't linger in the frame of mind I hear comes from those who do experience depression.

This piece of writing is darkly beautiful, and resonates with me as a fellow infj. Thank you for being brave enough to share it! The only person who will give me all of these things without fail is Jesus. Whether he comes to me to wipe the tears from my heart in a moment of silence, or through the smile of a friend who really "gets me," He is there saying "I love you, I value you, you can trust Me." And recently I've realized that's what I need: trust.

And by the way, the new intro is cool. Had to be released the same day 😉

Volume on intro is to high.

I am an INFJ and I love me it 💖 I laughed and cried and thought 💖💖💖👍😊 Thank you for sharing! 😊 Godbless! 💖

Hi Dave! God put you in this world for a reason. I’m 51 years old. Have my own construction business for 28 years now. 3 black belts. Two beautiful girls that are my life, beautiful house but going through a divorce. For 20 years I felt like she never understood me. When we used to get in fights I said to her I must be from another planet. Sad than after giving and giving for so many years I have to come to the point of telling myself that I have to take care of myself now. I did the personality test a few weeks ago and all I’ve been doing it’s looking at different people on RU-vid. Then I found you. You have a gift of understanding INFJ. This video it’s super powers for people like us. “SORRY” for my English. I’m originally from Venezuela. Thank you. Don’t ever stop my friend

bro fighting depression as an INFJ is easy just uncover the secrets of the universe like I did.

For me Jesus Christ fulfills all that you wrote about. It’s different when know He’s always there and totally gets you and helps you be better.

I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder in,believe it or not,2017.The thing that works for me in addition to my medication is delving into my artwork.Anything that works to help you through the down times.

Thank you for making this video. It has really helped to let me know that I'm not the only one that struggles with depression as an INFJ. Your words had me in tears because this is how I feel far to often.

Question: Any INFJs have what David is searching for?

Just fantastic. Likewise it is so fabulous that you’ve connected so very deeply with a great many people. ( not counting those whose only comments involve your audio levels 🙄 they MAY have missed the forrest for the trees on this one. ) Seriously, undeniably, great.

Maybe I'm too late to comment on this, I just want to thank you for sharing this heartwarming message with us. As a fellow INFJ I just know what it means to share this kind of writing with someone. I'm going through a depressing phase and this made me feel better.Thanks a bunch.

It gets tiring trying to make sense of what we’re feeling. And forget relationships. There are no aliens left within 1000 miles, but I would love to have one cross my path because I wouldn’t have to explain what’s “wrong” with me because they would understand it. ❤️ And thank you for these unbelievably helpful videos, David.

IM CRYING...ABSOLUTELY...ABSOLUTELY.....

I am 54 and in the last few years realized how different I am inside my head. I actually did not even think there was a we, and I was a mental mistake. You described so eloquently how I feel inside that I was disturbed a little at first. However, after some reflection it brought me a never felt inner peace. I mean, there is still an extraordinary amount of unrest, but I truly do not feel as singular as I did before listening to your writing. As much as being unique is totally awesome (and it is), it is so so lonely. I could never tell my family how I have never really ever felt totally connected or understood by anyone, ever, including them. It is truly like I speak a different language sometimes. I cannot help but try to project possible outcomes or reasons for things having happened and most do not care, period. I blows my mind actually, it seems like the most logical possible way to understand things, and correct mistakes. Anyhow, I will not endlessly talk about myself, like everyone else ever. Thank you for such a beautiful gift! It is so incredibly well written, any true INFJ should read your writing or watch your video. Thank you again.

My dear sweet friend David. I can relate with you more than words can say. Years back I fought with depression, it lasted three months. Through Gods help I was able to overcome it, and find happiness again. I pray that you will find that same connection with God because their is no earthling person in the world that will give you the things that God can give you, I could relate with your writing in every way as you expressed it eloquently. My intuition is right 98% of the time. I have to ask you a simple question, have you ever dreamt that you could fly? After my third dream, I had full control of my dream. I love how free I feel while fling.

Thank you for being willing to put yourself out there! Such a mix of comments come to mind. Everyone is searching for that perfect and unconditional love. It sounds like it was missing in your childhood??? And people that came from a dysfunctional family for the three major rules or don't talk, don't trust, don't feel... Then we are especially in need of that parental - all loving figure in our lives. It is left a hole in US. It sounds like you need to be your own best friend! Because if we don't love ourselves how can we really love anybody else? No one can fill a bucket with a hole in it!