I tend to overthink, too. It is exhausting at times, but it is my nature. I simply accept it. At least it rarely leaves me unprepared. Accepting the process is not too hard for me; no goal that being reached is worth it, is reached easily. But I tend to be perfectionistic at times, which can cause me to exhaust myself too much and go too much in the detail and spoil my time management. Dealing with that is just a mixture: Until a certain point it is a positive thing that entails motivation. I try to improve my ability not to loose myself in my own perfectionism with every year. No trick, just experience. And I share -until a certain point- that education experience of yours: Being German I have no tuition debt looming over myself, but I am not only the first in my family to have pursued higher education, but also the first to even have attained the neccessary kind of German high school diploma (Abitur) to do it. My family was not hit that much by the economic crisis you mentioned, instead it was hit by a serious illness of a family member diagnosed when I was still in primary school that impaired our economic situation. Had I been born into the US with its medical industry or a third world country by chance, the situation would have been much more desperate everything else being the same. But relative to what was around us (I grew up in a relatively wealthy region and most of the kids I went to school with had well earning academic parents.), it was far enough from nice, that I knew early that I had to make it myself. What I still struggle with is this weird feeling to be stuck between worlds: Most people here in Germany to get higher education are not the first generation in their respective family to do it; they take it more for granted and can count on contacts and helpful advice of relatives. The education gets you some way in the direction of having the feeling to belong to that world, but it is harder and it takes long until you feel like it. At the same time it changes you to some degree (Yes time passing in the years of learning is also a factor, but still, knowledge plays a major role.) and thereby estranges you from the world you came from (Even more so in a country that knows more than college + uni beyond highschool). I am glad to have understanding family members who listen when I try to bridge that gap, but still it some of it remains because explanations are not the same as if they had made the same experiences and learned things in depth that they did not learn. Regarding this there is no final way out, it is a price you pay for education.
It`s not working for everyone - but it worked for you. Impressive what you reached and it will be interesting what will be in future - hope the best for you (sorry for my englisch) I grew up in Germany - part of a strong and poor but religious family - needed a long time to find my way. Meanwhile i`m the mayor of my town. I guess you need a lot luck in life, loving people who believe in you and a good developed self-confidence - than - nobody can stop you :-) hugs and kisses from Germany...
You got this! I think it's healthy to face yourself with uncomfortable truths and aspects of certain situations, it helps us realise 'what is' regardless of how we 'feel'. Nonetheless in the end, it'll make us stronger and motivate us to keep going. Thanks for the video
