First Time Hearing The Drug In Me Is Reimagined by Falling In Reverse | Suicide Survivor Reacts 

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Ronnie is a amazing artist, extremely versatile. He is also a former addict, did prison time, struggles with mental health issues, is also a suicide survivor. I've followed him since 2004, he's been around for a while

Just loved your take on this incredible song. Now you have to do I'm Not A Vampire Revamped and Popular Monster. Would love to hear your opinion on those. Great insight

Amanda, you're an inspiration. after watching several of your vids, I know why every relationship I get inti implodes. It's because I've not forgiven myself for trying to take my own life. So thank you for the insight.

Thanks for being so open about yourself. I find your story inspiring, and I hope that you know a lot of people can relate to you. Keep up the great content and always take care of yourself. 🙂

As much as I love this version of the song your reaction made me want to reach through the screen and give you the biggest hug my body can generate!

I like how you are able to relate to the lyrics and share your story! However, the line is actually 'your secrets keep you sick' not safe. Also a relatable line. Keep up the good work!

Incredible artistry in this one. After watching this one the second time to make the connection that all of the darkness, anguish, guilt, anxiety, regret, addiction, insanity, and instability of the past is represented by the beautiful demon in a pale blue dress. The only hint of color in a gray world. Temptation. And then it all burns.. to be reinvented as a clean slate to rebuild on -- while bringing along the knowledge of knowing what didn't work in the past. So empowering. Insanely creative.

Loved the reaction, I could see you was struggling with this, I know you feel I’ve been there myself. You’re an amazing person, your strong and you should be proud of yourself.

Thank you for this reaction. "If we are born to die, and we all die to live Then what's the point of living life if it just contradicts?" The entire song is beautiful, but this is the lyric that sticks out to me the most. We all wonder "why?" I have found the answer by surrounding myself with people I love, who I know will love me back.

It's OK to feel your emotions and allow them to have space in your life, you're absolutely right Amanda. Please let me suggest another song for you that has exactly that message: Aurora - The River Just for the background of it, she wrote this song when she realized that over 70% of the worldwide suicides are commited by men ... who are predominantly told to be the 'strong' ones. I think you know how destructive this indoctrination in the upbringing of boys and young men actually is.

I love poetic moments, and saying about how the music was right before the heavy part had me laughing out loud. I was like, "Oh, you are sooo not ready for the musical slap in the face coming your way." Has a similar style in I'm not a vampire (revamped) though think that song it worked far better in with the lyrical content. Worth watching that video if you haven't, as for me it is up there as music video of the year for last year.

Don’t care what anyone says, you have the most absolutely amazing channel on RU-vid. There is no second to what you do. Thank you!

i love it. i cant tell you how many people have reacted to this song and say something so similar near the end, its such a nice song such a peaceful and calm song ect, then a few seconds later their reaction is very similar to yours. like woah that went from 0 to 100 quickly lol.

I know this is a very old video and I feel weird commenting on it. Your reaction and commentary was amazing. I just want to say that most men (in a particular generation) who are hurt or feel not a part of the world will struggle with their purpose of self. With that said we were expected to push past our internal feeling, and for a lack of better words "suck it up". And I hate it. Ronnie at the end when everything with him burns is how a lot of feels. It Leaves a destroyed piece of our soul behind so we can move on. But scares will never go away. I Love your content 😊

I struggled with depression and suicide from ages 12-18. For one year I was on top of the world and care free. Than my friends starting leaving and dying. I was in a lot of toxic relationships where I got burned really bad and I struggled with alcohol for awhile and became homeless for a bit. I pushed my feelings deep down around that time and it eventually turned into a lot of anxiety and stress. Every day people ask me how I’m doing and I always say “I’m not doing great but I’ll be okay” because I went through hell before and I don’t think this is too big to overcome. It still hurts though. I’m lonely.

thx for the reaction video. (please don't jugde my english - it is not my mother tongue) this one is a song that means very much to me at the moment and it is mainly because of (the kind of) powerfull ending. i wish i could cry out all the misery as he says that i am feeling right inside me, emotions i can not even tell most of the people around me. i know it's a kind of "displacement activity" that it can make people laugh because of the suprise ending, but it is a little stab in my heart when people do so (yes, not the first time, i got this reaction). but overall i am glad that i watched the video, mainly because of the part when you are talking about the fear of death and/or mortality. this is an issue for me since i was a child in the age of about 5-7 years and it became more and more intense over the years. it is not only the idea of my consciousness is going to end and there is no meaning to the things i do in life when in the end i am losing it all and i am wiped away. the dominating feeling is the loss of everyone concentrated in one single point which can happen at any time of my life, because there is no guaranty and every fucking day could be my last. and so far no one seemed to feel (kind of) the same way about it - so thank you very much for this. at the moment this fear often terrorizes me so much, i feel like it's "melting down my brain". at last i want to say, that even in times, when i feel so lost, so despaired and so helpless suicide is not an option for me, because my fear of death, of losing everything and everyone is my personal idea of hell. and in my reality, as long as i can breath i potentially can overcome bad things that happen, but there is no chance coming back from death. - i know that many people may feel completely different about this - so no offence! this feeling about death is kind of both for me: a blessing and a curse.

I've had same thoughts about why we are here. it wasn't until after my awakening that brought clarity along with it and some reading about spirituality that we are all just energy here in a physical realm to learn. to learn what still kind of puzzles me. but I believe this learning can be accomplished through anything we experience such as joy, love and sadness. you won't cease to exist at death. your energy is eternal and will continue on even after your physical death. and it's possible at some point you may reincarnate in the future to learn something different. it might sound like a bunch of nonsense, but with my clarity, I can assure you it makes sense. before my awakening I was similar to you, in that I was weighed down by depression and my demons. all that is mostly gone now. I still have one demon I can't shake. I don't know if you have reacted to other Falling In Reverse songs, if you haven't, I certainly hope you do. Ronnie is an amazing artist and Falling In Reverse is one of my favorite bands, right up there with Slipknot and Jinjer. hope life is treating you well, Amanda! 😊

The survival mode is i'm on at all times. Been born this way. Had to sleep with one eye open since childhood. But hey. You gotta chill or you're gonna lose your fucking mind.

I really hope you eventually do the Pain Remains Trilogy from Lorna Shore. I would love to get your take on suicide and loss that the songs deal with

Wow this song grabbed you bye the boo boo beautiful to watch

He said "your secrets keep you SICK*" Also, he is talking to himself when he says "the drug in me is you"

You are a wonderfull soul

Check out Royal Blu reaction to this song on RU-vid - she was one of the "cellists" and has some good behind the scenes info! RIP to the guitarist - passed away shortly after this was made after losing his fiance, RIP to her also.

Gonna second everyone saying to watch I'm Not A Vampire (Revamped) but also gonna add some others! Meg Myers' songs Heart Heart Head, Desire and Numb. She's a very raw songwriter and her songs perfectly capture a lot of the energy of mania, hypersexual self destructive fixation, depression and overwhelming pressures of relationships and society at large. Also gonna emphatically suggest Bring Me the Horizon's Doomed (live at the Royal Albert Hall) Oli Sykes writes a lot of very deep and relatable songs about his addiction issues, his recovery, and his support networks. Their style is a lot more aggressive but I relate so much to because of the sort of heavy emotion and just frustrated outlet. I hope you have a great week and keep on inspiring others to share their stories and seek support and healing!

This song broke me down to! After almost 20 years, she tells me i havent been in love w you for over 15 yrs!!! My oldest is 16, two more kids and a marriage later. So married in church, vows taken and spoken when you dont love someone, wth

im looking forward to the end hopefully its a good way but i hope i gave my famiely the push to carry on. and famiely is not necessarily blood all you let in close are your family black white green yellow family comes in many forms

I’m 133 day’s sober and loving every day

Try Suicidal Tendencies, "You Can't Bring Me Down"

I hope you're happy.

A think You would like popular monster but listen de lyrics áre soo deep the vídeo is a representation about all those things that happen. Sorry for My English i'm practice My English heré 😅

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Being afraid of not existing isnt weird, we dont know anything else then to exist. Its all we know that we exist. On the other hand, i didnt mind not being born yet so why would death be any different? I wont be aware of me not existing anymore. To me its not scarry at all.

The opposite of falling down would be falling in reverse, or better known as getting back up. 😊

I'm obsessed with death. Unfortunately.

If there is no afterlife... Does it really matter if life has a point? I wouldn't call myself a nihilist tho I AM pretty close to it. But I've come to the conclusion that if there is no real meaning to life, then there is also no meaning to care about the meaning. It sounds stupid, I know butnit actually makes alot of sense. You ARE here, meaning or not, and if there is no grander purpose to all of this... Why waste it? Just live your life, do what makes you happy, and try your best to make others happy. In a thousand years it won't matter... But it matters *now.*

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It's really hard to watch your pain but never stuff it.

Falling in Reverse : Last Resort (Reimagined) i'm pretty sure you'll love it, it's got me hard btw

Lol

Falling in reverse is "standing up"

Ronnie speaks of mental health and addiction in many of his songs. The "triology" and Popular Monster are so very impactful.... and his daughter is in many of his videos... cause she's his anchor. Ronnie takes it from soft and peaceful, to screaming like few others... and it all works. *meant to add this. It's ok not to be ok. I had a bunch of losses in a short span of time. And it seemed everytime I was coming out of the dark, something else would drop me back. To give a cliff notes version.. only child with chronic disease that meant spending much of my life in hospitals. 2013... lost my dad (I was a daddy's girl), 2015.. my mom passed. Lost four of my extended family between 15 &18. 2019 had to have my therapy dog put dog because of cancer. 2020... my husband of 17 years died. There are days all I can do is cry. Then something will make me laugh. Joke that I can go from 0 to Bitch in 2.3 seconds. If you need to scream..scream, if you need to cry..cry. if you need to laugh.. do it. Hugs.

I've listened to this song so many times and it's not an easy song to listen but what affects me the most is that final scream. It always gets me because I always remember those times when I wanted to scream "can't you see?" when some people who were very important to me didn't see how bad I felt in that moment

One day you'll must let burn your adictions. Dats the message. Now, the Falling in Reverse community will ask you for "I'm not a vampire (revamped)", "Popular Monster" and the Trilogy (in dat order) Losing my Mind, Losing my Life & Drugs. Nice react 👋

Awesome reaction! Ronnie (the singer), wrote the lyrics 10 years ago, whole he was in prison, becoming clean from heroin and looking at himself in the mirror. He's clean ever since, but still suffers from PTSD, Depression and Anxiety. I don't know what kind of music you usually like, but regarding your mental health focus, I suggest I Don't Mind and Popular Monster from Falling in Reverse, Zzyxx Rd. by Stone Sour and I Can't Sleep by Tom MacDonald. I think you might also like Leave a Light by Madchild and Dear Nova by Nova Rockafeller. Personally I suffer from depression and anxiety for decades. After basically not living for years and month of being suicidal Tom MacDonald convinced me to search for help. Now I'm on meds and recently started therapy. I don't really see a light yet but at least I feel like maybe I started to fight more activly, if that makes any sense. Subbed! Greetings from Germany

I feel like Ronnie knew very well that the scream at the end was a perfect representation of the feeling on the inside while the rest of the song represents what's showing to the rest of the world.

Yeah, you're going to love "Popular Monster". So tough, so good.

I peek in from time to time, but wanted to update you: 1. Got a vehicle 2. Been spending time with and making my daughter's mental health journey a little easier by sharing mine 3. Started school Thank you for inspiring me, my RU-vid videos will be coming soon

I'm not scared of dying... I'm scared of living without meaning... Lets make a pole. Like if you feel the same.

Thank you for your honest and emotional reaction. Thank you for being so vulnerable. You might want to listen to the original The Drug in Me is You, which was written 10 years ago. The difference between that song and this reimagining of it are worlds apart, the original song was kind of emo/punk. The lyrics in both are exactly the same, but this reimagined version really lets the lyrics shine. The deep meaning was always there, but the original was such a fun song they weren’t noticed as much. I hope you continue on your Falling in Reverse journey. Popular Monster and I’m Not a Vampire Revamped (also a redone version of a 10 year old song) should definitely be your next stops. I have bipolar disorder and am also a suicide survivor, and I applaud you for working to break the stigma. You have a new sub here!

This version of the song is so freakin' beautiful, and hits hard for anyone who's ever been lost in depression, addiction, etc. Great heartfelt reaction!

The point of life is change. That is the only constant in life. How we change ourselves to better deal with a situation, or change the situation to being more favorable. Or both.

I love when he remakes his songs! Im gonna search, id like to see your reaction on the normal "the drug in me is you" reaction. Same with both im not a vampire. It just feels different with each! The way you deliver a message really matters. I feel these songs are proof. Take "last resort" for example. Listen to papa roach version then falling in reverse version. Same meaning but expressed differently. Papa roach felt angry. Falling in reverse felt sad. Same with "drug in me is you" except other version wasnt angry. Idk. Ronnie is incredible

You should check out I'm not a Vampire Revamped Also by Falling in Reverse. Great reaction and thank you for everything you do. Too many people are lost out here in the world. It's good to know they have somewhere free to go. Keep it up! 👍🙂

I really don't ever leave comments or anything because I just figure they'll get read over anyway. But if you do read this just know that I've listened to this song many times and have seen quite a few reactions to this song but I have never heard it being broke down in such fine and great detail before. I absolutely loved how you were able to explain almost every lyric and describe how it affects you at the same time. You really have a great understanding of lyrics and I absolutely love it. But yeah that's all I wanted to say. I know this reaction is like a year old so you probably won't see it lol. I'm definitely going to find some more of your stuff though. Thank you

Have you listened to Badflower - Ghost?

Falling In Reverse = Get Back Up!

Again Amanda thank you so much for your channel and this like I said previously I am struggling because I'm dying from stage 4 cancer I do have depression anxiety PTSD and you make my life a lot brighter just listening and hearing you speak about the struggles and what it's like is tremendously helping me and is most definitely helping me not to try something stupid yes I'm going to die maybe in 6 months maybe a year but thank you so much I love your channel love you girl keep going

I always interpreted Falling in Reverse to mean getting back up. Going through his personal life it seems like that is the message. Ronnie is pretty cool guy and he does watch reactions to his songs on his livestreams.

I strongly recommend you react to bring me the horizon - “don’t go”. Very emotional song and you can just feel the pain in the vocalist

I’ve watched a few of your videos, and I have to say with your journey its been a ride so far seeing it. And with that being said overall you generally seem like a sweetheart and forever grateful to come across your videos!

Hey, Respect dude.I totally get where you’re coming from in terms of not being able to accept help. People are different and friends mean well but we’re not always on the same wavelength and that ok, the thought still counts. It was fun to watch your reaction, I hope you’re doing well. ❤️

You are so sweet! I loved your reaction to this band, they are amazing. I really appreciate your input and overall reaction :) also your channel and what you’re doing on here is incredible. I hope you realize and are told how important it is, what you’re doing. Thank you! :)

You should Check out The Amity Affliction, They Talk a lot about Addiction and Mental Health. They had 4 no 1 records in Australia (where they are from) and two other top 10 records since 2010. I'd recommend the Songs "All Fucked Up", "I Bring The Weather With Me" and "This Could Be Heartbreak" since their videos belong together in that order. Other notable songs would be "Open Letter", "Drag The Lake" and "Don't Lean On Me"

Living is just more, then anyone else in the world could understand... Sry, but born and raised as a stupid must be such a wonderfull live!?! (not at you!!!) All of us knows, how "Gaja" is working funktional! All of us knows, what we want to live! All of us knows, what is going wrong!! We all are just in war with us selves, because our brain just have to consume everything!!! Nobody is able to escape that fact! Words, laws, aggressions, promotion, wars, experiances, horror-vids, upbringing, love... everyone is filling their brains with, no escape! ...and be shure: every one people in the world before YOU, did it too!!! Thats just my grap to keep going this living nightmare... I love what you do, pls aim it further Amanda! Was just a halve of my thoughts, but its your turn, thank you!

I translate Falling in Reverse to mean falling upwards. Normally you fall down and The reverse of that would be to fall towards the sky. To improve and do better in a metaphorical view..

You are beautiful and wonderful and sensibly sensitive ❤️❤️❤️ 🥰🥰🥰you get this so well 😊 subbed!!!!

The original instrumental music for this song is worth checking out. It's composed by Sean Rooney: The drug in me is reimagined (Original extended instrumental version) ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-vYzQIXCMd60.html

You are a beautiful soul. Your light is such that even your darkness could not defeat it. I've been there too, luckily I've tamed my demons. Oblivion is a myth.. Advaita Vedanta. That gave me the answer, and gave me my freedom. ❤️🙏

Amanda you are most certainly meant to be here. I am sure that what you are doing is not only therapy for you but most critical for many others. Keep it up!

Last resort reimagined by Falling in reverse. A papa roach song. You will not be disappointed.

Think about it.....falling in reverse...is literally standing back up... 😉

U really should check out Tool the song Sober. The live version 1993. It’s bad ass straight up.

NICE REACT SIST NEXT TRILOGY SONG, POPULAR MONSTER, AND DOUBLE REACT IN ONE VIDEO IM NOT A VAMPIRE (2011) & IM NOT A VAMPIRE REVAMPED (2021) AMAZING MASTERPIECE BY RONNIE RADKE!

you should check out Falling in reverse's I'm not a vampire revamped

How about reacting to something different,,,Alive by Edwin

Check out "popular monster" as well as his triliogy(losing my mind, losing my life, and drugs)

You should react to Twenty One Pilots! Start with Migraine and Car Radio. Mental health and faith and deep components of their music.

For me, an this is just my thoughts on the point of life. My point of life is whatever i make it, there is no one reason for my being. I use to live careless and strung out on meth for years an years not caring whether i was alive or dead the point of my life back then was to just do as much an whatever i wanted to do before i killed myself or died. An then i had a kid. Shes 7 an my point of life. I have full custody and im also 7 years clean. Its amazing how a life with no reason an no real point of being can suddenly be consumed by someone who wipes away everything. Dont get me wrong i struggle still an get in these ruts and numb an cant explain why or antthing but giving up doesnt cross my mind anymore because i have purpose.

Compare against the original version. Same band, same lyrics, but nowhere close to being the same song. Nowhere close

Falling in reverse. It's a thinker but genius name for a band. So if you're falling in reverse it can only mean you're coming up instead of actually falling.

i have terrible anxiety from ptsd of an experience in which my friend died and "i died".... i came back, he didnt... im just now realizing im meant to be here... however i assure everyone, there is nothing to fear, its beautiful, its peaceful. my anxiety stems from the fear of the life not lived yet with a respect and understanding for death that it is simply crossing to something else, at least in my experience. dont fear death, fear not living.

You should compare the revamped version to the original version...its wild how much Ronnie has grown over the years!

As a person with terrifying existential dread... thank you for putting some light on us. lol

Motionless in white..masterpiece...major Dorian Grey vibes

Blackbird by alterbridge live in Amsterdam plz plz plz

Popular Monster by them is my theme song. Its more intense but its really good. I will have more song's for you to check out that are "pick me up songs"

Also PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE check out Darkness by Eminem

I think the name falling in reverse means how vampires rise out of coffins with their arms over their chest, like a reverse fall upwards

I have had very similar thoughts, the biggest i can think of is, if you change even one person's life by even being there, making them laugh at just the right time that the went go through with something you have thought of, or even if they go on to do or think or help someone else by something you have said, and most times they won't tell you do you just have to make your conversations count, laugh as much as you can and have deep conversations with anyone who will listen. Even this channel can help.

Hello Amanda I hope you are all well and your life be blessed. For I believe in you and your great cause for I suffer from depression and God came to my life and I love the lord. Do not give up ever Amanda you have people who love you so be happy.

Have heard waaaay too many reactions to all of falling in reverses songs I get stuck in loops for days on end.. usually when I'm starting to feel like I'm not doing too good and it seems to pull me through but I'm yet to hear anyone else truly relate the way so many of us fans do most talk about it from the other side of the glass looking in pretending to understand. I loved your reaction probably my favourite

One of the most genuine reactions I have seen. Love to see the sincerity!

You are meant to be here, we all love you for being you. The song is about a toxic relationship, and she is the problem.

If you haven't done it you should listen to breaking down by iprevail

A very good song to react to about mental health and depression is Popular Monster by Falling in Reverse

It's been a year since you reacted to this song which makes it really hard to believe that you haven't reacted to I'm not a vampire yet but you have to do that I'm not a vampire revamped version cuz it's the same as this version

The genuine reaction is much appreciated. The truth will set you free.

Watching you watching this video was hard. So much .....

to me, falling in reverse means getting back up or rising, kind of like running a video of someone falling down backward