FTM Transgender: Things They Don't Tell You About Testosterone 

My mum keeps calling me a boy cause I don't shave and shit like that. Little does she know that when I'm ready, I'm gonna come out as trans (ftm) to her.

I've been on T for over a year and I still freak out a little when I have cramps now and then cuz I'm so worried Shark Week is returning.

"My buttcrack is now home to a small forest" I laughed wayyyyyy harder than i should

Ah, good old T. I've been on it for 27 years. Second puberty: acne, and always horny. When I first started out in 1988, I was put in a room full of MtFs. I had to quit for family obligations and when I returned to the gender clinic in 93, I was in a room of FtMs. ~ Jon in BC, Canada

I already have a lot of body hair and im not on t yet and im kinda worried whats gonna happen when im on t

I am a cisman, and losing my hair is also a big source of insecurity for me, so you are not alone.

Dang, I'm already super sweaty and hairy, I'm not sure if I'm ready for what hormones are gonna do to me

i get super happy when i ride my bike and the wind makes my eyes tear up now because i miss being able to cry :(

The biggest thing I didn't know was the fact that my stomach hair would constantly get caught in my belt buckles and how much that bloody hurts! Haha.

I'm Intersex-t-M, and actually starting T today. Very excited about it! I have a maybe unusual perspective on this, since my intersex condition means that my body has naturally produced both high levels of androgens AND female hormones like estrogen and estradiol (in varying levels) throughout my life. So I got to go through a fun male-and-female puberty (EG: I already had the hair in weird places, low voice, beard, and also had breasts, but had to go onto estrogen supplementation to trigger menarche), and now in my late 30's I'm hitting (female) perimenopause and also going onto T at the same time (my natural T levels were dropping off, since it was being produced by my ovaries, which are winding down as I go into the perimenopause). So life could get fun here for a while!

Hey Jamie, I'm not sure if you already know this, but I'm just here to let you know that if you're having constant cramps (especially after years on T and without a hysto --that I really don't know if you've had or not but I'm guessing not) you should get that checked out. (I'm getting a bit medical here, be warned) When your body starts getting testosterone and reducing the production of estrogen to feed the uterus, the organ starts to malfunction and many times it could lead to illnesses in the area. So if anything feels weird or wrong or if it hurts without it having to, it's important to check that everything is fine. PS. I'm not a doctor, but I'm starting T soon and that's one of the things my endo has emphasized the most on.

(sits on my bed fidgeting wanting to start taking the testosterone but im too young and i know my mum will say its a phase even though i've been wanting to change my gender for four years like D A M N)

Glad you don't hide the TMI, it's sp important to know, and you're helping a lot of us guys prepare for what's up with our bodies, before having to go through the surprise and thinking we're just weird/gross when it's perfectly normal changes.

I wish I could just start already! Stupid insurance 😳

i just got my prescription for T today so im rewatching every transition video for the thousandth time. man i cant wait to start in the next few days :)

Who else checked their elbow to see if you also had hair there?

"When I started T I was borderline obsessive with learning" Me too why do you think I'm watching your video LOL

I thought it was cool that you talked about the smelling differences, because I experienced the SAME thing when I started Estro. I've always found girls sweat to have a very different scent, and was OVERJOYED to find myself producing that same smell. My body odor is dramatically more mild now as well, which is a huge blessing if I ever miss a shower.

my skin is already super oily, im already pretty hairy, like hair on my toes and shit, and i already can't cry easily. i wonder if its going to be worse when i get on T.

I’m on T 5 days! Happily watching vids of folks who were just a little ahead of where I’m at. Thanks for sharing!

My therapist is doing a referral to a gender therapist in Cardiff (I'm Welsh) so I can get testosterone aaaa

does that mean i won't cry anymore when i watch 'Harry potter and the halfblood prince' and dumbledore dies? i love T

Hey Jamie - thanks so much for this video! you perfectly articulated my inability to cry after being on T. I thought maybe I was losing my mind. You're the best, keep up the great work!

I’m not trans but I was questioning about a year ago, and now I love to watch these videos to understand trans people

Thank you for going in detail about this information! It will help bring more awareness to others who are thinking about medically transitioning and the side effects.

This is fascinating and humorous. You always throw a positive spin even on the grossest things. I'm only 3.5 mos on T and I found this very good information to have.

I'm rewatching the T videos now that I have my T prescription, and will have my first T shot by the end of the week! Thanks so much for making videos about this stuff so I know how to prepare!

So I'm a trans guy who's just recently changed my name and started identifying as male. It's only the second day of school and it's honestly the most terrifying thing. Any advice?

You are incredible for giving such insightful and helpful info. that everyone, trans or not, can learn and should know. Wish you all the best and look forward to watching the rest of your videos.

Great video and so great hearing about those things not so talked about!

Thank you for your honesty. Best of luck for your journey through this crazy life. ❤️

Hi Jamie :) It's wonderful to see the help you so honestly and freely give through your videos about the FTM journey. My name is Cheryl and I have a transgender son named Jordan. I only wish I had discovered channels like yours before my son came out to my husband and I. Sadly, while we accepted our son's male gender expression from a young age we ignorantly reconized it as us having a tomboy not a transgender child. It wasn't until he came out to us following a period of depression, a failed suicide attempt and a desperate attempt to conform to society's binary idea of female that we began to understand there are tomboys and their are just boys. Today my son is a healthy, happy 18 year old with two SRSs behind him. We fully support him and today know he is the happiest he has ever been. Along our journey I've come to realize that many parents aren't as accepting and either don't understand or even want to understand. It is for these individuals that I decided to publish our families very deep and personal story to discovering the son we never knew we had. Sometimes a parent can benefit from hearing from another parent when a child's own voice fails to get through. I hope you don't mind my sharing a link here to my book in case some of your followers could benefit from our story: www.amazon.com/Promised-Not-Tell-Raising-transgender/dp/0995180717 you can learn more about it here and please feel free to out to me if you have any questions or I can be of help to you personally in anyway. Thank you for all that you do for the transgender community! Warmest regards, Cheryl B. Evans (Author of I Promised Not to Tell: Raising a transgender child).

God I always hated that I cry more often than other guys. I look forward to going on T and erasing that problem.

Thank you so much for this video. I was really considering T on account of my voice and how I can't remember ever not wanting a beard. But this has brought to my attention some maybe less than ideal side effects. It's a really important video to have made. x

i think im worried for the crying- it sounds kinda strange but crying really helps with my anxiety. like at the end of the week i just let everything out in one huge burst and its really soothing and all.

T has made me a little baby if anything, I cry a whole bunch and my levels are perfect cx

i'm 8 months on t and i cry just as much as i used to, which is to say a lot, because i am super sensitive lol i am kinda glad i don't have that side effect tho, i would miss crying. also my whole family look like children; that is to say they are super short, have almost no body hair and a huge baby face. i have the luck that at least my voice is relatively deep, deeper than my dad, but i still look like a 12 year old and i am 19. Facial hair would help so much...

Jammi, I watched this video a few years back. But now, I'm finally able to begin T. I got my first prescription a few days ago and I'm so thankful for these videos and people like you who keep me and others educated on things like this. I am so glad that I am able to transition now. And it's affordable for me, which is good.

Thank you, Jamie. You've answered a lot of questions for me. Thanks for sharing your video. 🙂🫠

Thanks so much for this video, I'm glad to get some more to the point info on this, the people I've been watching so far kinda talk around the details and I'm like TELL ME WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN TO ME!!!

Love the amount of honesty in the video.

bro i love how you explain things “constipated tear ducts”

This is slowly but surely becoming my favourite channel Love your videos! 🖤

Im not sure if you check comments on old videos but thanks so much for this youtube channel. I dont know anyone else whose trans and well it helps having some one talk about issues. I thought since im in my 30 id be to old. Such a depressing thought but im starting t tomorrow so happy. Thnx for this video.

cracks me up you talking about hair and spots turning up wherever. you've just reminded me of my teenage years haha.

i admire your openness and honesty. amazingly helpful ❤

I’ve been referenced to the gender clinic and I’m planning on starting T and getting top surgery as soon possible and this was unbelievably helpful tysm

This is really helpful- thank you so much. I really, really want to start t as a trans-masc person (nonbinary... wondering if I'm actually a dude...) and tbh, the hairline thing really scares me. I already have... well, I have a huge forehead, and I'm already so self concious about it, and my hair is already suuuuper thin, so... oof. Probably gonna start anyways, but it's great that you included that- it's really good to know what can happen. Thank you so much, fam

You actually made me laugh with your observations, and your experiences mirror those expressed by many of my transgender peers. Once you change your hormonal balance, you definitely have to learn to emote in a new way. Even worse, one you did not touch on, was being inundated with certain, ahem, adult urges once you go on T (of course, results do vary from one user to the next). Welcome to the Dark Side!!

I'm going to be starting T next year and i'm super excited about it!

Idk if jammi or any of you know but if you're afraid to lose your hair, you can tell whoever is prescribing you testosterone and they can give you something to prevent it. Hope yall have a great day and take care. 🖤

Thank you for making these videos! :D

hopefully I'll be starting T this year and I'm so excited!! Love yaa

The odor changes scare me because I have hyperhidrosis and i dont want it to worsen 🧍‍♀️

Hey Jamie I just wanted to tell you that you're awesome and you give good advice and i'm starting to take testosteron tomarow :D I'm so Happy and excited!

You're so awesome Jaimmi!

Thanks, it really helps to understand and support someone i love

I'm absolutely terrified of my hair falling out 😟😟😟

Very interesting Jamie! 😊

I just found you today and I really like your videos! Also I love your eyes, they're amazing! :0 I also feel u on the hair thing, I was NOT expecting as much hair as I got, and I honestly am not totally sure what to do about it lol

1.5 years on T, watching these for the nostalgia. best transition wishes to all those wanting to start or already started T

This really helped, I'm planning on taking T in a year or so, so thanks for the info!^^

This is a great video with some great facial expressions, 10/10

I'm not trans (but I love these videos because I love to learn anything and everything) but I totally get the cramps!! I have an implant in my arm for birth control, and I don't bleed but the cramps are so bad and aren't regular. I'll be at the supermarket and get a really bad one and panic because I'm not sure if I'm going to bleed or not

Thanks for not leaving out the ewww parts, because they don't tell you this and I had no idea about 75 percent of this stuff.

I'm so glad the cramping thing is not just happening to me! I've been on T for almost 2 years now (I'm 17) and I've had a few days of cramping and soreness once a month and I thought it was just in my head but I would always thing "this feels familiar" lol. I didn't know this was a normal thing thanks Jamie : )

I'm starting T next week, so excited!!!

Really glad to know I’m not alone on the cramps. Been having a pretty bad tonight can’t even sleep. 😰

This comment section is so comforting.

I'm starting T in November, thank you for this video!

I don't know if it's just me or if it was just the situation I was in but after starting t the opposite thing happened to me where I would feel like I was going to cry all the time for weeks. I would struggle not to cry. the urge would just constantly be there and that had not happened to me like that before. it's back to how it was pre-t by now (I'm almost 10 months on t) but it was worrying because I've only ever heard of it making you cry less?

Your videos are helping me a lot.

I'm starting T in two days and I'm honestly kind of terrified (more so very very excited) but it's gonna be a new experience and I always get scared of new experiences. This video is like a nice comforting hug though, I feel more ready now.

I was having the cramps like you talked about and I told my doctor and he suggested I get a hysterectomy, which I did last week, and that's supposed to stop that. It makes sense it would stop it, too, since it removes all those parts inside that cause the cramps. I'm mostly healed but not enough to say if that's true yet lol

You are awesome. You are hilarious. I am so glad that you are in the world.

I just recently started t and I definitely realized that my emotions changed. I used to cry a lot and I today noticed that same feeling. I also am growing so much hair and have a deeper voice. I am so relieved that finally I am on t and every day my dysphoria gets less and less.

I'm starting T super soon and I'm reallyyy worried about the hairloss and acne gain hhhhh but anyway thanks for talking about those changes, now I know for sure what to expect orz

thanks for mentioning the crying though cause I often have wondered if other guys experience that.. sometimes I feel like I need to cry and it just won't happen.. like a death in the family or break up.. still no tears!

Awesome video!

This was really helpful thank you

Oh my goodness this is so old! But helpful video thanks so much.

Everything you experienced, apart from the last symptom (I have no experience), I experience as a cis-gendered male. I guess I've never really considered how testosterone affects people on such a micro level.

I’m really young still and doing research on T. This really helps. Thanks :D

Never knew you were trans, nit been following your channel long haha nice work man

I didn't know about the receding hairline, but since my body naturally overproduced T during my teenage years maybe I'll get lucky and not have to worry about that for a while. Thanks for sharing!

Jamie! Cool beard trim. I never realized you have a mole or freckle beside your lip.. it always just irritates me that you don't trim your mustache over there, because it appears like there is hair growing in one side and not the other. Hahahaha how funny I thought that. Well done! Now I can tell the difference. Like the beard trim!

I’m FTM, and I was talking to my friend who has been on T and had surgery. Apparently the last period is the absolute worst, does anyone who has IBS know of anything to help? I’m doing research now even tho I don’t even have my first appointment tho

It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who was caught by surprise on all of that. Everything you said, I've experienced the same. Except my hairline... I think my hairline is ok for now. I've only been on T for a year.

"Even my butt crack is home to a small forest" Love it, I came here to genuinely here all sides I can about starting T but that made me crack up!

just wanted to say that you look awesome jamie, if it wasn't for the fact that this channel is about you being trans, i would have never guessed that you were born in a female body.

I’m still kind of questioning but I think I might be trans and luckily I already have a bunch of sort of masculine features (may have pcos) and these videos are super helpful!

Not being able to cry is definitely a thing! I was skeptical that "women cry easily" but I have certainly experienced the change myself and that saying might actually be somewhat true

I feel ya~! I've only been on T for a few months and been through all the same experience.

My doc went over changes that will and will likely occur when starting T. When we got to male pattern baldness I shared that I was already at peace with the fact that I was probably going to go bald. Doc was surprised and asked why I was so sure. Both of my brothers hardly have any hair and they aren't even 30 yet (both older than me). I'm only concerned about smell (always paranoid about smelling bad). Still waiting on the start of changes though. Also concerned about parent reactions, they haven't come to terms yet so I worry they will negatively react to having started hormones.

correct me if I'm wrong but I believe the "monthly pain" is the internal bits (uterus / whomb n so on) shrinking, which is why it's a necessity at some point to be spey "hysterectomy"

Honestly, none of these sound bad to me. Looking forward to seeing these effects 😊

Well done, great video- how are you going now years later? Ps. You won’t menstruate but the body still does other aspects of the ovulation cycle which add to the cramps etc. Most endocrinologists I know don’t want to research this area but some good ones do 👍🏼

Hopefully I will be starting T next week. We'll see if all these happen to me haha

the video was very helpful i have been think about going on it but thank u

my endocrinologist actually told me that most people experience hair loss to some extent in the beginning of starting T but that isn't necessarily the receding hair line and just has to do with hormonal imbalance and won't have any effects. obviously later the receding hairline can definitely be a thing, just thought i'd put this out there because i haven't really seen people talk about it