Personally, I’ve followed you for years and will continue to do so purely for being interested in the journey. I’ve seen GNC Tom, competitor Tom, Ibiza Tom, in a relationship Tom, fashionista Tom, Hyrox Tom, Yoga Tom….I couldn’t care less if you do or don’t take gear (nor should I, it’s not my body). I follow for the transparency, the entertainment and the great content.
Nah I did gear for two years ten years ago I still train and I’ve had a child was good n fun at the time coming off is hard work and takes aslong as two years to feel the same but people can’t hack the recovery and get back on die not feeling the same lol you ent gona feel the same as being in gear but you’ll feel like ya did before you went in the gear in time and you’ll remember who you are again as a person
@@lukebuckingham9755 2 years 10 years ago? 2 years is nothing lad haha. I did exactly what you did but I did gear for probably best part of 7-8 years. Came off, met my mrs, had a kid and lived happily ever after. However it’s much harder the longer you’ve been doing it mate
Cycling or not, still my favourite RU-vidr, Content Creator, Influencer etc. Your personality combined with your eye for detail and editing skills leaves you unrivalled Tom. Truly elite and a pleasure to watch. Can’t wait for the going anabolic series, looking forward to some more day in the life and FDOE content, TMCooks 👏🏻
Think it’s important to note rather than you just fucking off your previous MO and silently hopping on you addressed it with your audience that as you say, for better or worse have followed you for years and developed some kind of relationship with. Trust is huge and I think the fact you’ve chosen to front it rather than giving your audience two fingers and cracking on regardless says a lot about you. Strapping back in for the pursuit of mass. Buzzing
Do you, Tom. Some of us have been here for a long time & will be no matter what, you on gear or off is why we subbed or started watching in the first place. Excited to see your training vids with the BBC trio again maybe?👀
Support you either way bro! Real fans or supporters will never judge what you're doing. You know what you're doing. You've done this before. Respect to you always bro 💯
Your a legend m8, going through the same feelings you describe in your video just feel like I have lost the spark ⚡️ But am on a mission to have a child and this is all that’s important atm ❤️
As a long-term fan, I'd absolutely echo the comments of "I'll be watching regardless" and "do what makes you happy" - but particularly the latter. I hope you're doing what does and will make you happy long term. I'm sure you've done your due diligence and thought about it for a while, discussed with friends/family etc
The reason I like your content is your transparency. I’m still taking your advice on coming off and you going back on doesn’t change anything. Love u man
Thanks for sharing mate - I've followed your journey since the early BB days, and then the break and here again to support you in this new chapter. Great content and an inspiration mate!
It’s not the transparency I appreciate it’s the teaching people about blood work and scans, ultimately being as safe as you can whilst looking to take anabolics. There isn’t a ton of people showing what they do before they consider hopping on.
Totally agree with the motivation when on cycle, I have seen in the past when I've been off or on really low levels that my business suffered. But then when I've been back on, the motivation and drive leads to better decisions that push the business to levels I would never have expected.
I used AAS from 19-24 (I'm 30 now) and honestly I feel really similar. I miss the drive and heightened sense of living it gives you. Training post AAS is pretty shit, probably harder than it is then those who've never used. It's not really just about how you physically look, but I do feel it drove me far harder in business and helped me achieve a lot in my 20's. I've struggled to have the passion for training, and sometimes business, since, which isn't great as it's relying on AAS to train. I haven't gone back on since, but do still think about it. You're doing everything as safe as possible, and you should do what's best for you. Training on AAS is pure euphoria.
Can relate, exactly 19-24 here too. Afterwards I've definitely experienced more anxiety (despite my hormone levels being in good range) But I've realised it's more because on AAS I experienced so little anxiety, I nearly forgot what it feels like.
@@NicolaiTschenow7530 I think one of the issues is receptor downregulation and maybe things that haven't ever been studied. I'm on private/NHS shared care TRT now and one of the things the consultant said to me is that ex-AAS users often don't respond like people with low test caused by other reasons, the NHS max dose (125mg/week) keeps my level in range but honestly I still sometimes get low test symptoms.
You have had plenty of time to do a lot intropective soul searching. You've figured out what you want to do and that, mate is AWESOME! Looking forward to following this new chapter in your life. I've followed your journey since the product reviews days at your mums house and loved watching you grow in and out of your life phases.
Hello mate, sorry to hear about your colitis diagnosis. Have you made any dietary changes? My mrs has had it since a kid, before we got married she had it really bad. I was trying to convince her to cut out grains, tomato’s and milk. It was gone in 1 week. Whenever she needs to manage it she just cuts all that crap. Also bpc 157 has been studied for colitis for over 20 years I think and they’ve been preventing it from going through, it’s known to be great for the gut. All the best mate
Interesting. I’ve had a lot of the same thoughts as I close in on 46. Life is better optimized, and I congratulate you for doing it. Gear really is a bit of a Pandora’s box. It’s as you mentioned not all physical. And that mental enhancement is no joke. I would argue that’s the harder part to let go of. I will add that getting older isn’t for the weak. Everything will slide eventually. Pick the right battles and just give a bit of reverence to dosages.
I agree with this, from a physique standpoint (if it wasn't due to the stomach issues and feeling like I'm behind on progression) I was quite happy knocking away at it natty, but I know what this feeling is like when 'on' and how it effects, enhances almost all of life's optimisations
@@baldyo7Tri-Test at 230mg/week split between two doses, pregnyl at 10,000 usp with each test dose, CJC-1295 at 10 units nightly and I’m set. I keep an eye on the axis and implement an anti estrogen when the numbers dictate it as that balance for me tends to fluctuate with stress and diet.
Amazing video yet again my man! Love to see you being very transparent with your audience and this video is definitely needed to help people understand the whole process more so.
Most people start the gym/bodybuilding because we try to fill a hole. I think we would all be lying to ourselves if we said we started the gym for health reasons. Most of us started it because we didn’t like the way we looked and we felt ashamed, we saw bigger guys seems to get more respect and so we wanted to become massive because we thought it would solve all the insecurities we had in our head. Steroids then add to this and make us feel ‘better’ but really we’re just trying to fill this hole of insecurities we’ve had with external influences. There is definitely nothing wrong with working out, but dont think its going to work everything else out. Tom, I think your a great guy, but seriously think is this decision really helping you, or just covering up demons. Perhaps the reason you ‘miss the feeling’ of being on gear is because you feel uncomfortable with yourself when off it. Im sure many people could say the same about cocaine/alcohol, is the answer to then continue chasing the high, Or workout what you thought is was giving you?
Most people on here watch you for being you mate. Just because your going back on it again, doesn’t mean I’m going to copy you. Love your content and watch it because I enjoy it. End of. Keep it up bruv 👍
Just out of interest Tom, have you ever been tested for or put any thought into ADHD? Hope this doesn’t come across as rude, I have ADHD myself, and the stuff you said regarding motivation and purpose sounded familiar.
@@TMCycles Yeah totally get that. I think it just served as confirmation for me, and a way of better understanding how I function. Plus the medication can be helpful when it comes to focusing.
I’m definitely someone that watches and follows you because you are real. Are you worried at all about your test levels or is it all part of the experiment? keep it real pal
I am happy for you man. I think this could be a very beneficial thing for your body as you do things in a very detailed and controlled way. I look forward to seeing your transformations and hopefully this will get that gut issue healed or at least better. Have a good one Tom.
As a follower of your content from the early tm cycles days this is why always got respect for you bro always honest and always raw and shall look forward to the documentation , though I think you should keep the hair short no long locks
I followed channel for years and was a member of the site but when you transitioned away from BBing to the hybrid athlete/Flow period I tuned out 🙋🏻♂️ i have come across this vid and it couldn’t have come at a better time - I am (and have been for years) been conflicted between 2 oppositing and contradictory drives - love of BBing vs the obsessiveness and strict restrictions it puts on the rest of my life. I struggle with balance and am a recent late in life ADHD diagnosis and im trying to figure out how i can be more balanced and change my mindset to allow the bits of BBing that work for me without sacrificing other things in life i have for years. Like you i easily blame BB for unhappiness, but then previously have swung the other way and quit only to be as if not more unhappy and go back to it and regret the wasted time and steps backwards. Will follow your journey and hope to learn and grow along with you mate
It’s unfortunate that nowadays people, with any sort of following are pressured into explaining every facet of their life. I followed Tom for years, and even after a brief hiatus from his content, it’s mad dope to see that he’s still extremely transparent, and even starting to touch on mental health and other things outside of fitness. A true diamond in the rough that we called the RU-vid fitness industry.
Good to have the old,new Tom back 😁😎👌 Can you give a small talk next time in why and what is the purpose of blood donation and is it necessary on trt.. Also,will you be running Hcg alongside your testosterone. Cheers Tom.
Betaine hcl and pepsin is the best digestive enzyme I’ve ever used for myself and clients. It might help your tummy, bro. I Take it with meals/other supplements.
How can people obsess that much over their health. I would give me a nervous breakdown, no wonder his stomach is fucked. Too much thinking about health gotta watch yourself.
Inconsistent, flip flopping. 6 weeks ago you're talking about don't do it kids, stay off, it's not worth it and how you've never felt better you're so happy and at peace and bodybuilding and steroids are so negative and ruined parts of your life in so many ways, and now... Back on because you miss it.
You also discussed a million reasons not to do it, and reasons you won't be going back on, and so on, in a years worth of videos before that. It would be fine if you weren't promoting yourself as a coach and offering health and fitness advice to viewers and customers, but you are, and these kinds of complete 180s and inconsistencies scream 'I don't really know what I'm talking about'.
He just can’t cope with trying to recover because he’s not fully motivated yet so I’m going back on the gear I can’t take it anymore I’ve done a year 😂
Ive watched your channel since GNC days and ill be honest the past year to 18months ive not really watched any, mainly due to having no interest in functional fitness and your content feeling slightly forced, but this video has got me interested again and ill be tuning back in regularly 😎
Don’t think anyone who genuinely enjoys your content and has watched for a while gives a fuck if you’re on/off/bodybuilding/Hyrox I’m just here for clean content & good vibes. Keep it up
Shows the state of social media that you feel you needed to have to do this video and explain yourself on a decision that only affects you😂 you do you mate and enjoy it
Good man!Get back on it and c how far you can take it!!! I'm in my 40's and desperately waiting to start my second ever cycle in January - over the next few years I also want to c how far I can go!! Look forward to following the journey. I notice u went to get blood work done instead of a home kit- is there anywhere u can recommend going as Iv struggled to get blood with the home kits.? Thanks in advance!
I’m running 300 Test E at the minute, put on 6 kilos in 5 weeks. I’m using UGL but the docs checked my levels and they were very low. Feeling amazing, working out 5 days a week for an hour.
Juice up my bruvva, I was also a juicy monster age 19 - 28, only reason I gave up was to travel Aussie, 5 years later in still travelling and juice free, no doubt when I'm settled down somewhere I'll be back on the test...
I've never taken anabolics, but I have great genetics in terms of proportions at least. I got into an injury at 22 in my torso which kept me out for years, as rehabilitation for the pelvic floor is on another level of "tough" and "slow". When you got off anabolics I knew you'd go back because it is what you love, the way of life ofc not the oil or needles. I never understood the stigma some want to push or the hate. Besides, as someone once said, there is no such thing as hate. We "hate" only the ones we are jealous of. For whatever reason. So if anabolics make you successful and happy, those who "hate" do so for those 2 factors, no one gives a sh*t about the muscles themselves. I hope this makes you feel even better in regards to that "angel voice" that wants to hold you in the present. I've had my fair share of them and my fair share of anxiety and stalling and "colitis" (or however it manifests) due to a breakup. But, time dissolves everything and slowly but surely we find our way back to balance and doing what we love. I've been watching this channel since before Josh (another youtuber) got into his first steroid cycle. I still remember you calling that bloke who was typing sh*t on comments about steroids 😅 But I watch because you're a character that I feel I can absorb elements from and improve myself. Ultimately, that's the essence. So I'm gonna be rooting for you Thomas whether you are on anabolics or not. If I saw someone reckless and dumb abusing substances or drugs and being weak-minded I'd leave. This isn't the case here. 👍
Love this buddy, appreciate it, feel in a totally different mindset and environment, once which is positive compared to previous cycles, thank you for the support
Awesome video tom. I think the fact you didn’t try spin some lame excuse to why you’re choosing to go back on like most influences would do speaks volumes.
Fucking love your videos Tom 😂 ‘i dont like it’ after the heart scan results had me in bits 🤣 Love the transparency mate, i’ll be following the new journey
There is no need to explain yourself but that being said I think you have explained yourself very well. To deal with the idea of going back “on” can be tough in itself, let alone to do it some what in the public eye. Also quite hard to deal with if you had a previous belief to that people should only take gear if they compete. I’m going through something similar and I can relate to a lot of what you have said benefits of eating, focus and for me also, relationships. A bigger thought, and something I’m sure you’ve thought about is coming completely of or doing TRT? But… that is a later question for future and not something to worry about now. Creat Video mr cycles! Ps would love to see more content on your business plans!
Yes mate, things can change, especially with regard to TRT, if I can implement a protocol to still have children then I'd stay on, that's the only single reason as to why I'd ever come off, for fertility reasons
you missed off the fourth reason: cause Joe did it. @that guy that commented on my post a whilst ago and said i couldn't hack not being on it like TMCycles
