Thank you.. I was very attracted to my job, it enhanced my life in so many ways. I was together involved with hobbies and activities.. it was the identity and purpose I loved. I thought I could retire early,.. and I would still be the same. . I WAS WRONG., I panicked, had extreme stress trying to return!!. I couldn't 😫.. I feel into severe deep depression. Crippling anxiety, filled with insecurities. I cannot live. I hate myself, and I hate life now. I just suffer. It's like I cannot live without what I had, and who I was... My mental and physical health are declining. .! And I can't stop it. I'm so afraid. Depression has stolen my soul. I nolonger can move. I wish I wasn't me. I'm weak minded, and always confused.
