How To Deconstruct The Illusion Of Self (w/Eshwar Segobind) 

It sounds like you are actually closer than you think, hence you will never get there. Keep up the seeking and maybe you’ll find something, proud that you haven’t given up on the old flesh suit.

@@Opus_Magnum_Duo that’s what I hear about being close. I’ve also seen the the me I think I am isn’t gonna get it. Saw it with a visceral experience once or twice but then back to mind / body / feelings attachment I went. The neural pathways of suicidality are very well grooved and therefore completely believable unfortunately. I’ve prayed and prayed and meditated and inventoried and reflected and watched them from and as awareness but they continue to assault my consciousness and produce hopelessness and futility etc. I do appreciate you taking the time to even just respond. Your kindness is noted. Thanks Funny side note. I was having a dream that I was in a conversation with a friend of mine, Paul Hedderman. We were talking about non-duality, and when I woke up, I had the song “you’re never gonna get it never gonna get it” playing in my mind. I laughed out loud at how appropriate that is. If only I could get that I’m not gonna get it. 😜 Ego wants to be there and be the one that gets enlightened. I’ve been told to drop that idea and just give up because it’s never gonna happen but I know that’s exactly what I’m doing. The ego is the one seeking enlightenment and I don’t know how to drop it. Meh. Blessings

Yes it was slightly rudely pointing to the madness of almost being there, or getting close, just as we find ourselves believing there is a destination. I feel that pain and we are here for you. Glad to hear it landed on someone. It may also be a case of being too close to the fire, random suggestion for depression would be cold therapy, vigorous exercise regime for 3 months, drug intervention LSD or something mind altering drug experience , some type of extreme activity like bungee jumping or skydiving. I am sure you have tried most of everything possible but forgetting the meat suit isn’t the way either. I wish I knew but here we are, much love and blessing to you, dear warrior.

@@Opus_Magnum_Duo well thank you so much for your kind words. Yeah, tried it all. I do exercise regularly and it definitely supports all aspects of trinity. YMCA got it: Mind/Body/Spirit I’ve used psychedelics therapeutically a few times. They’ve actually accessed parts of childhood trauma that I couldn’t get to by conventional method. They were also processed as i watched as witness consciousness. Idk. Anyway, thank you ❣️🙏

Scott kiloby could be something for you, trauma work. Much love, brother

John Astin is in Santa Cruz (check out a couple shows I did with him, he's VERY direct and clear)

Thank you!

Not true at all. Ask anyone whose sense of self has disappeared.

@@christopherwallis751 that means they aren’t being consistent, showing you can’t jettison self

@@geoffrobinson not true. Look deeper into it.

@@christopherwallis751 who, may I ask, is telling me to look deeper into it?

@@geoffrobinson No one of course :)

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