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"No one is coming to save you" Those words actually saved me in a very dark moment of my life. I was that little boy asking for love and waiting for someone to come. I talked to that "inner child" and toldhim "hey I'm here for you, I can take care of us and give us nuturing deep love" . Thank you for sharing, this was my "sunday moment" greetings from South America

took me more than 3 decades to realise how important it is for the little kid to see parents hold hands with each other or kiss each other's cheek in the morning. And show any kind of human interaction with each other. It will be the blueprint the kid will take into the world when they are ready

oh my.. "No one is coming to save you" Tears streaming down my face... you've triggered me... Both wounds..............

Wow making the connection between being emotionally abandoned as a child and abandoning myself by giving up on my dreams and goals is eye opening. This is so helpful. Thank you Jordan

Dysfunctional family can really mess you up . I’m on this healing journey for years and wish the healing is faster than this. The more healing work I do only leads me to more work. Sometimes my consciousness tell me the right action to do but my body feels paralyzed to take that step. Thank you Jordan for raise this topic. Another important thing to this healing journey I guess is patience and having faith on oneself ❤

I am 52 and still struggling. I know no one is coming nor my husband will love or protect as I expect. Wounds don’t heal but we reach a level of acceptance learning to navigate life not letting them control us

I have the same story, I didn't have emotional sercurity, feeling unseen, unheard and unwanted. Learning to heal my inner child wounds as a wounded healer. By changing my agenda about who I am.

“And there’s Charles Whitfield with his supportive face on the back”. That’s hilarious. Everyone goes through a childhood crucifixion of our connection to the feeling life of our bodies. The good news for us as adults is that the worst part is over…and we didn’t die. That’s behind us now and Healing to get our bodies back and our connection back online for a fulfilling life from a place of open hearted secure attachment within ourselves….never an easy or simple path but it is a worthwhile one.

I recently said to my (female) therapist (I'm a man) that I wanted to lay down with my back against her knees (she was sitting cross legged). We did that for the whole session. It was hard to let the experience 'land', but I felt courageous for asking for such a 'childish' need to be met. It feels good to learn into those needs (while remaining conscious that this is ultimately a need that i need have to be responsible for).

YES!!! You Heal, Lead, Save, You! Emotional abandonment is the legacy I was gifted via generations of self-abandonment. Learning about inter-generational and inherited trauma gave me the lens, language and awareness to witness the patterns and choose to disrupt them. I've also learned that I couldn't avoid, hate, or hold anger, towards the stories that shaped me and expect to heal in any meaningful way, because it was impeding the necessary shadow integration that actually stops the looping. Self Acceptance and self forgiveness has been instrumental in building the self trust needed to not self abandon and break the cycle. God willing I will have the awareness to witness and mother my future children, in ways that will fundamentally restructure my family DNA.

I applaude your ability to verbalise the inner parenting process! You chose a perfect example of how to lovingly speak to ourself when failing to lift a weight at The Gym of Life. Thank you for having done the work required to generate and share this example.

Recently it seems you're creating new videos in exact alignment with whatever theme is most in awareness for me at the time... sometimes the Universe is hilarious in its lack of subtlety 😅😊 Thank you for this wonderful reminder, and for giving words to these often ineffable experiences. (e.g. the healthy conditional respect of the masculine in flow with the unconditional love & compassion of the feminine... something I've deeply understood in so many ways, but struggle for words to express it this clearly... thank you!). This video in particular has given me a lot to sit with & reflect on 🙏☺ I am recently returned to my hometown, re-experiencing a number of old wounds & patterns relating to my mom, after 3 years living abroad & being essentially "adopted" by the most warm, loving mother figure I've ever known. It was so deeply special to have that conscious, unconditionally loving dynamic with my "mom" 💚 I'm finally able to grieve that my own mom & I never had this kind of relationship, and make peace with the truth that it is highly unlikely we ever will. It is sometimes very challenging & I miss my "mom" very much, yet I now hold such conscious awareness, self-compassion, and inner understanding, comparatively speaking, and have access to a plethora of inner tools & resources - that I did not have before - to support healing through these painful childhood experiences of emotional abandonment and apathy toward me. Piece by piece recognizing how little it has to do with me personally & how much it has to do with her own traumas, as well as how much I have internalized over the years. Piece by piece, reparenting that sad, scared little girl who was desperate for her mother's love & bewildered as to why she never got it. Piece by piece building the kinds of safe, connective, loving relationships in my life that I've always wanted. It is indescribably liberating, unlearning all the "unworthy" BS to "save" myself instead of always looking elsewhere 😌🙏And I feel far more capable of holding these powerful, loving energies for myself - the inner mother & father 😌 Point being... this absolutely hits home. I've rewatched a couple times already. Thank you again, Jordan, for "reading my mind" & just doing what you do 🙏 It is such a gift to receive what you are offering ☺ I've bought these books - I'm excited to begin reading today! Much love, warmth, & gratitude your way 😊

This was a really good one for me, Jordan. I love my parents . . . but they were really crap in a lot of ways. Mostly emotionally absent, waaaaay over developed punishment mindset, contempt as a method of "encouragement," expectation of adult-level, sometimes life-risking, physical work done by children, belief that children could be deliberately wicked (not make mistakes). Needed some good recommendations for books. Did plenty of barefoot freedom (rural/farm background) and that's still where I "find" my inner child (when she's happy and not triggered).

I remember calling my parents Mummy and Daddy until the day they passed away. My childhood was not perfect but I felt their love. You’re amazing! I’m reading home coming just now to understand my nieces, they call their parents by their first name since they began to speak. I never heard the phrase “I love you” being said by either the patents or the girls.😢 I want to understand such family dynamic. Thank you!

I saw in myself recently that I've always had a 'parental rescue fantasy' (then discovered that this is a thing, and often underpins lots of things like romantic love and guru/disciple or therapist/client relationships often use each other - in both directions - to try and meet this fantasy).

I've only recently found you, Jordan. Finding every single video of yours intelligent and refreshing and so unbelievably helpful. This one... Stunned with the simplicity of how helpful this is. 🙏

My heart goes out to you, Jordan. Thank you.

This is a response to the role play you took on, Jordan - I am seeing now that good parents are a good couple - where there's a balance of masculine and feminine within themselves and between each other. Not just the stereotypical extremes, which is what many of us would have experienced. I see that my father is strongly conditional with his respect and unexpressive, and my mother is a bit too giving and compassionate with no boundaries, losing herself in the family - a common cultural story in so many families. A balance would be if the father figure willing to be more feeling, expressing compassion for themselves and the family, and the mother balancing her compassion with condition so she is taking care of herself and not sacrificing herself for the family. I see this only now...while I am asking questions on marriage, partnership, parenting, at a crossroads - setting intention for what I want in my future. This is to overlay a more balanced inner parent for ourselves, to imagine something beautiful for the images of our own parents as well maybe...

I’m a first born. I called my parents by their first name, until they got embarrassed when a guest I should have respectfully called ‘Auntie’ had a big reaction to me calling her by her first name. She is my mom’s oldest sister. I’m guessing she had a talk with my mom. Then my parents instructed me to call the Mother Mommy or Mom, and Father, Daddy, or Dad. This also points out our parents didn’t play with us and try to teach us our first word is Mom or Dad. Thank You for your mind and work, and some personal sharing, Jordan. It’s very helpful. Also makes me feel less alone. My abuse started in infancy. I have no ‘before and after the abuse’. It’s always been upsetting people assume everyone has a ‘before the abuse’ reference point.

As informative as ever Jordan. I look forward to your videos each week, even more so as I have completely come off Instagram and all social media (thanks for the encouragement!) which provides more time to read your book recommendations. 'No one is coming to save me', sits well with me now, and I guess this shows my growth and the trauma/inner child work is helping as for most of my life I still thought someone was, be that my parents changing, or a girlfriend or a friend. I particularly liked the inner Dad and Mum dynamics you described.. I've never heard that before.. and it makes sense how they are entwined.. I experience that too.. I commented on a video a couple weeks ago and you encouraged holding/hugging myself and swaying/moving. I want to report this is really helping my very early developmental 'needs'.. Keep up the great work Jordan

Absolutely love this video! I truly appreciate the time you took to make this! I look forward to more

I was cringing so badly when you described the woman acting as her inner little girl in a relationship as it brought back so many flashbacks. In past relationships, I couldn’t figure out why I felt absolutely powerless around my partner. Whenever we were home together, it would feel like we were in our own little world- literally. It was as if the outside world did not exist. At times we had a sweet/playful dynamic and would even spend entire weekends loving each other. But the only way I truly felt loved/secure was when I had every ounce of his attention for the entire day. This idea makes me physically ill now. The dynamic was extremely toxic and lead to a lot of self betrayal and reenacting of childhood traumas 😔🤕. It all makes a lot more sense after watching this video. I am extremely grateful for your content & looking forward to reading these books you’ve recommended! Thank you Jordan

I just watched the film All Of Us Strangers and scrolled through your channel to find a video that could help me gather and expand my vocabulary to encapsulate my thoughts about the film. I think it touches a lot on deeply unresolved childhood trauma, trauma bonds, spiritual familial fantasies, & how the heart calcifies over time when the healing work isn’t achieved. I think you’d enjoy the film! Very raw performances and heavy demonstration but it really makes you think.

Thank you for the perspective of the inner child not being the "true self"... I think I've been stuck on this aspect, not truly understanding how to then "get back" to the true self even when putting in the work, when it makes so much MORE SENSE that a child version of ourselves couldn't possibly be our true self since we weren't even fully developed yet!

What a rich video this one is... I have to go back to these aspects. Bradshaw is king, it's speaking a language that both the child and adult understand, but I will definitely try mr. Whitfield as well. Thank you!

In my childhood, I felt so close to the little children of fairy tales that as play, at the ago of seven, I used to wash my mother's floors kneeling on the ground, with a rag. I wonder if my Inner Child is still there, cleaning the house to appease the witch.

Thanks! Painfully interesting! Wow i got issues, even the word "re-parent" grates on my ear. How about re-mentor, or just mentor. Re the benchpress analogy, how about "Do it again, right away, but with less weight" I'm going for The Soul Of Discipline

Watching your video and having a good cry. Thank you for sharing your knowledge.

I'm just on the beginning of the video, but I'm really surprised of your clarity and purpose of each video

That's so me.... I also used to call my mother by her name, and as a 2 yr old child i was often told, often beaten and scolded harshly to change my behavior... Which again another kind of trauma.. But god i remember all of that... Huhhh...

If you made a Playlist on healing the inner child, the ACoA community (Adult Children of Alcoholics) would appreciate it.

Thank you 🙏🏾

Thank you Jordan 💚🙏🏽

Jordan, thank you very much for the recommend books on parenting. Could you please add more recommendations on good parenting books? A grateful 🥹 mom in her early forties. Greetings from Germany

I wonder what percentage of women want to see (and are willing to love) their man's inner child.

This video made me so sad. I'm not sure how this plays out in relationships. Isn't a man still supposed to give a woman a sense of love and acceptance? Isn't that getting your needs met. I seem to attract men who are cool and aloof or not emotionally available. What conditions does the masculine set? Doesn't femenine energy also set conditions? Can you clarify if there is a book or video that talks about this.

Question: Do you find there are any correlations between a fear of success and inner child trauma?

This has no substance at all but I love the cheetah print maybe leopard print lmao you get it.. i feel like men should wear animal prints more. They can be masculine!

I thought the eggs crack was pretty good

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#appreciateit 🤘🏻🤍 thank you for all the amazing work you put here on YT. It is helping 💜#relating I love the way how you explain stuff, articulation, words... I just wanted to say that I am glad that I have found your channel. 🥰 #healing is a PROCESS. ✨

I can relate. I remember looking into the cabinet to see if there was some of the chemicals in our cleaners that i could get high og. Back then i didnt really care, deep down i didnt want to live. I remember downing 3 pints at 10 years old just because i wanted to feel something different. I was a being treated by every authority figure with a look of discernment and i was usually only allowed to my peers house once before people decided they didnt want me around. I Understand, i cant think of a worse behaving kid than i was. My mother treated me with sweets and crisps, tv and videogames. My dad came over once a week to make new rules for our house which i always managed to make my mother abandon within minutes after he walked out the door. My dad always saw me as his redemption, the one who was gonna be the doctor. He tried to teach me equations when i was still in kindergarten. Without all the love, but with all his driveness i naturally learned to hate him and there were times when he went to the hospital for certain things that i wish that he wouldnt make it, so that i could be free. I remember saying to myself every schoolyear that this would be the year i would pull my self together, never happened. I remember feeling my painbody being activated the first day of elementary school for a couple seconds before the clock on the wall became my best friend, for the next 10 years. Initially just wrote this as a way of allowing my grief to come up and out. Its crazy how everything changes once the load is out of the system, pun intended.