Yes, I just thought before opening this video, how her videos have helped me in only 10 days. I think that she knows that peoplw who are awakening, might have financial crises, too, as a temporary symptom of the process, and she gives so much free support in her videos. She is indeed a genuine helper.
Aloha Christina! I love that you brought up listening to the communications from nature. Before I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2000, I had many angelic visitors from nature that pointed me in the direction of "getting a mammogram." One such incident stands out in my mind that I would love to share with your listeners. I was a massage therapist in Kona, Hawaii. While massaging poolside at a lovely hotel, a bee kept buzzing around my head. I smiled because I know he was trying to tell me something. I wasn't sure what...later when I was bringing my equipment back to the office, two bees buzzed me, with one actually diving down my shirt and stinging me. All of a sudden I heard the words, "Go get a mammogram!!" I did...and was diagnosed with an aggressive breast cancer. Those sweet little bees helped to save my life. There's never a time that I don't pay attention to nature with her constant messages of one thing or another. Thanks so much for this video and your sharing. Much appreciated!
Control is a result of a trauma response. I can predict the bad before it happens, perhaps no bad things will ever happen again. But the key is trusting that if something painful does happen, you will heal and move forward.
I told myself these positive affirmations about safety and security for a very long time. But whenever triggers came up, it was like my inner child forgot ALL about it. The mantras didn't work at all. It wasn't until I relived the painful memories **on an emotional level** that I finally rewired the instinctive reactions. My psychologist called it a major "corrective emotional experience". Turns out that one requires not only 1) recollection of a painful memory, 2) a logical re-write of the inner narrative, but also 3) emotional arousal to unlock access to that drive. Without the last component, the emotional part of our brains remains inaccessible, and you can't actually force yourself to believe a new logical narrative only by rationally repeating it to yourself. Embracing the discomfort and painful feelings is the KEY to rewriting the narrative. I used to avoid pain and discomfort like the plague, repressing it even further, controlling even more aggressively. Now I take long walks, dive into the emotions, and hide in an alley to cry my eyes out if I have to. The only way out is through. And there is so much joy awaiting on the other side.
Michelle - this was so insightful. I'd love to speak with you and learn more about how you worked through this - If you could provide any advice that would be amazing.
You had to open up your heart to heal, and then also the hurt came out. Either you open your heart or you dont, and then the pain also was felt. Right?
That is absolutely spot-on. I've been doing EFT for years, on and off, working on all sorts of personal; things, and usually I will succeed most when I manage to really feel triggered by the topic. Tears, real anger, real frustration, fear etc. I thought I was really "tough" and open to change, but I found out that I had been avoiding the very darkest recesses of my experience. The real challenge is addressing the parts you absolutely don't want to even get close to.
I love this!! Yes it does come from childhood, I lived in a very toxic and abusive home. I’m an only child so I had no one to lean on during those times. I’m very controlling in many ways and now realize why. Thank You for sharing this, it really opened my eyes and I’m willing to let go and trust no matter how long it takes to get there ❤
Wow, Christina this is me also. Literally bullied at school; elementary, middle, and early high, and I didn't feel safe at home either. I am 48 years old and have lived alone pretty much my entire adult life up until 3 years ago. My awakening started 2015. I moved in with my partner 2016 and left my job 2 and 1/2 years ago(thinking we were moving and then didn't) and stayed unemployed and wow did a bunch of stuff come up. I was completely controlling, feared intimacy, have never trusted anyone and had NO IDEA. I was very social, pediatric nurse by day, fronted a band by night, but always went home ALONE and felt very safe there, ALONE. I've been stuck not being able to go near my partner when he's on his technology (which is ALL DAY LONG) and have not been able to figure out why this was intimidating me so damn much. And today in meditation it came up. My inner child drowning in feeling unsafe basically in such close quarters to another person. I can't find an exact memory but I suspect it's because feeling safe became the normal everyday sensation. Thank you so much for this video! And for all your content you share. You've been helping me through my awakening immensely. Gratitude and blessings to you!
I was sitting in meditation this afternoon after I watched your Intuition video and I could feel myself doing the most and overthinking. My Spirit Guides told me to let go and relax. I came out of my meditation defeated cause I couldn’t let go. I even said to myself *sigh* “you tried”. Then a few hours later I opened RU-vid back up and THIS VIDEO popped up on my feed!! I am shocked because right before my meditation and watching the intuition video, I scrolled way down in your video list and didn’t see this video! After I saw this pop up I dropped my phone on the table and cried. I felt so seen by God and so guided by my Spirit Guides. Like they were helping me and rooting for me to succeed! ❤ thank you Christina, your videos have impacted me in such a positive way words can’t explain what you have done for me❤❤
You have no idea how much this means to me. I actually had to paus several times because I started crying. I will watch this again and again. Even though I only watched it one time I could feel a shift in my energy field and in my body. Thank you sooooo much for posting this! I am beyond grateful and blessed that I found you! 🙏🏻❤️
I’ve just watched “Black Swan” and realize how much I identify with the movie, specifically with the White Swan, and how this strive for Control and Perfection was rooted in Fear. Anyways, your video gave me the light that I needed, I’m definitely putting into practice. Tysm. ❤
Thank you so much for this. It’s really helpful cuz I been through a really rough childhood and and the drama when I was young this video makes me understand the situation I am in and how to get by it. Really helpful please keep doing what do are doing, I am so glad the universe or god or who ever sent you beautiful soul. Thanks 🙏🏼
💖😭😭😭😭😭 thank you so much🤗✨ and now i know why... Now i can work on it. Im trying so hard not to cry at work. Oh well im crying..Releasing control jus hit my spirit very heavy. Thank you thank you thank you. You were my answer to my question. Namaste to you. Very POWERFUL!✨🌠🌺💖
U are so right with the signs Ms Christina! When I asked for these also wayback in 2018 I already had a lot of signs and they'd showed up through my dreams and even on the objects around me like the walls, the cloud formations and the trees. Most of the guide I have been given really amazed me so much. Like we have here in front of our porch beside the road, a huge narra tree that I always look at but I never noticed anything on it, until one day came I was extremely emotional and I even cried about a certain life issue I was dealing with, then I asked for a sign so that I could understand it better. I was a bit uncertain at the moment and the scared feeling was there again. So I asked for this sign. And when it was noon, I went out and then I looked at the sky and to the narra tree. And to my surprise I saw this ostrich shape that was so vivid out of the tree bushy leaves. Then I had the strong feeling that maybe this was the sign I was asking for that morning. So I googled it, and to my surprise again, the meaning was indeed telling me the answer I was looking for in me with my issue and my uncertainty to make a move over that issue. And since then I had been paying attention already to signs and I consistently would ask for it when I don't exactly know what to do with my serious emotional concerns.
It's still hard I get afraid of being taken advantage of or taken for a fool, or having the wool pulled over my eyes. Or having someone trying to take over my life and control me in small increments before I realize it. I grew up in a very dysfunctional fearful environment. A deep understanding has helped create more awareness. But I also used to detach if I feared something and realized this wasn't a good coping mechanism. So even as a long time married man I fear losing my spouse and get fearful very easily. It's so annoying. I have overcome many fears but still do not trust anyone's motives whatsoever.
Jms, I 100% hear you and relate due to similar circumstances. Baby steps. The most powerful thing is to become our best ally by which we rise, heal, calm down. Namaste Brother 🎊🙏🦋
I’ve been dealing with the same fears . Afraid someone will get over on me because it happened so much in the past and now I just make things worse because I can’t relax. Thanks for sharing. It’s nice to know someone understands what this feels like
Sometimes control issues do not begin as a child , as an adult you meet a man or a woman who lies to you and does some shady things behind your back with and you find out , you never be the same any more , you don’t trust anybody anymore. The next relationship you get in you become low key controlling
We can still trust. Just develop discernment skills, and begin to feel what is better for you. Like Christina's video pearl, the Universe provides signes. See them, know them, and become wealthy with trust. The "go with the flow" is your own control. You got this, even as an adult. :-)
I have always been so controlling over my life and have had a hard time trusting and surrender. It drives me crazy. I know that it stems from needing a sense of security and certainty because I have lacked it so much starting in childhood. This, as well as the perfectionist I became as a little girl. I was eldest of 8, 6 brothers and 1 sister. I was made to be a secondary care taker, I was not babied and rarely recognized for honor roll and excellent artwork and weirdly, I noticed but it did not bother me. I liked my own world. I began grocery shopping for family at 7 years old. I'd go by cab and a few hundred dollars with the list. My mother was overbearing and both physically and verbally abusive. She was very intelligent but highly manic and bipolar. Dragged us all over the country and always moving. There's so much that was horrible that I couldn't wait to grow up. I first realized that I was spiritual at 5 years old and often asked my father a lot of questions about life and the universe and he would actually humor me with an answer. Not surprisingly, the only woman who was close to me and very similar to me was and still is my Grammy. I otherwise used personal growth, self discovery, and self development books that taught me about myself and life as my parents. Number one, my very close connection to the Creator of the universe. I have been through horrible adversity, terrible family experiences that were designed by my mother and until age 32, all my siblings, my mother and even my niece, all living off me and getting my best but I never received anything back. Reciprocity has been a major problem for me and life lesson. My life has got to be for a powerful reason because I have lived for 10 people and have gone through so much pain, suffering, adversity, loss, trauma, abuse etc etc. It's been like a movie. Couple it with my love for education, teaching, guiding others, learning, Inspirational things and inspiring others, etc. I have learned about my empathic nature and finally understand so much. It has made so much sense. I am learning to heal my emotions, allowing myself to be care free without heavy worry and overwhelming thinking
I know I'm a year late, but I just watched this video and when Christina said 'I am' a few times, it was brought to my attention how these words kind of sound like mispronounced sanskrit word 'aham' which means (drumrolls please) 'I am'. Coincidence? Hmm...
Wow!. I wasn’t even going to watch this video because I didn’t think it would be useful to me and then I found myself crying. Eye opening. Thank you 🙏🏽❤️
"I am" definitely takes practice. I've been shifting to "I am" and away from speaking to myself in a "you are" or "you should" narrative. I feel more empowered this way, rather than letting my shadow control me.
You can stop your controlling ways, it just takes a lot of meditating and prayer. You need to spend a lot of time alone . At some point you will realize you can not control anything or anybody.
Dysfunction in family means unsafe home environment. Feeling unsafe leads to controlling personalities as you've nowhere to go. The lower mental patterns are getting developed. Lack of trust is caused by lack of safety. As time goes by, ego develops more. One can be a very controlling adult if not taken care of.
We try to take control over situations and other people because they once took control over us or hurt us. If we, on our turn will control other people because of that, they will be prone to controlling others again because they felt controlled or hurt. Read that again. Let’s break the cycle together 🐛 🦋
Wow, this is the second video of yours that I'm watching! You hit the nail right on the head! You explain things so beautifully 😊😊😊 Just a request - if you could go a little slow so that what you say can be fully absorbed..that wd be wonderful! Thanks again 🤗🤗🤗
Dear Christina, you precisely named the reasons for this condition, I cried when remembering my childhood, thank you for your help! your videos are the best!
Beyond grateful for your work. I was just asking to understand why I can't let go of control & boom....your video came up. Wow...now I get it. Thanks for helping and explaining things so well. You are a blessing. ✌💖🌞
I came across your channel by mistake. But after listening to you it was no mistake!! That was so powerful!! Thank you so very much for this video. I took notes! But I’ll be listening to this video again to be taking more notes. I am so grateful. Thank you 💞🙏🏻💞
On and on you confirm what I innately know, thank you. As a very injured empath who has suffered great loss it is good to know there are others who get it, the spirit and what a journey it has been, I used to feel so alone seeing signs feeling energies around me and seeing them, no one to speak with about it who wouldn't think Me crazy but I also know I am never alone and when a soul comes onto your path who gets it, it is so refreshing to be able to share spiritual awareness...so thanks again Christina, isn't it all so amazing!!!!
Christina, this is another great video you have posted. Thank you for your time and positive energy and insight. I feel such a deep connection with you, and I know you don’t even know me (at least in this life). I would love to learn more from you and I swear I will do my best to be able to travel to Portugal for one of your retreats in the future. I’m in the states. Something I have been noticing a lot lately (after noticing synchronicities left and right) is I have a thought of something and then it unfolds in front of my eyes. What do you think of it? Here’s a few examples. About a minute before you said you were filming in front of the ocean, I noticed the ocean in the reflection of the glass cabinet on the left. There have been many times I will think of a person, just to see the same car they drive (and color) pass me by. There have been many times at work I randomly start thinking about something and then someone speaks about it at work. Things that aren’t common conversation either. Yesterday I was sitting at a light for about 4 and 1/2 minutes. I thought in my head, “if I see exactly three Buick’s pass by, I’ll do xyz” exactly three passed by, when I did xyz it turned out very well and helped me grow more. Am I “crazy” for trying to play around with this idea or what? I would love to hear your thoughts on this. Much love ❤️ and peace ☮️ and light ✨
Thank you SO much Christina. Of all my years of getting counseling and seeking advice, this is the video that did the trick. I've been told for so many years to 'just let it go' or 'just get over it', but no-one ever showed me how. It's not like I wanted to hold onto it, I just didn't know how to move forward, I really worked so hard to let it go, but I continued to get triggered by someone doing something. Since watching this yesterday, I've had SO many epiphanies and even my dreams have been enlightening. It's like a thick fog has finally lifted. Thank you 💖🙏💖
HI I AM HONORED TO HAVE GOTTEN THIS AWESOME MOMENT OF LISTENING TO YOUR VIDEO AND RECEIVING ALL THE DIVINE KNOWLEDGE THAT I NEEDED IN THIS MOMENT. I TRULY WANT TO SAY THANK YOU. I TRULY BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE SOURCES DIVINE EXCELLENCE ON THE PLANET EARTH IN THE HERE AND NOW . KEEP ON WALKING WITH THE EARTH ANGELS. YOU ARE A DIVINE AWESOME AND AMAZING,BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT GUIDE. DIVINE BLESSING FOR YOU AND ALL YOUR LOVED ONES .
She is a beautiful soul! I just saved a whole lot of money on therapy sessions. And I got a whole bunch of ideas to fix this issue. And didn’t need meds Thank you 🙏🏽
I’m so grateful I came across this video today. Yes, I totally control myself. I hold myself tight and can’t relax. It wasn’t circumstances in my own life that caused this but actually my mother told me over and over to be like her and trust no one. I’m now in middle age and while I do trust some, though I can be wary and judgmental of others, the one person I can’t trust...is me.
I left unsafe getting beaten up by my parents but being bullied at school Jealous girls I never felt safe it was horrible childhood and I even met abusive bf so I have this missing from my life I have no where to go to feel safe
I really like your video and I sincerely hope that God guide you and me that we are creatures of God but we aren't Gods ourselves. We are not part of God as the Creator; the created can't be part of the creator . He is the Devine and we can have peace through submitting and surrendering to God alone. The one and only. Your call it source in your videos
Another fantabulous video! Thank you for answering the "whys". I am so grateful to have your support! I also had an extremely unsafe childhood with the perpetrators being the majority of family. No one to turn to but myself. At 5 years old my trust in God was destroyed when l was beaten so severly .l was in ICU for over a month with a police officer on duty round the clock. I am just now slowly gaining trust back in the Universe, God . lt has been 48 yrs... it helps me alot to exchange the word God for the word Life . Eg. "I am willing to trust in Life again. I hope this helps someone. Much love to everyone out there!
