I caught COVID. So, I decided to believe in GOD 

Thanks. You've summarized my experience. It is a working hypothesis and nothing more. As long as it is reasonable for me and make me feel good, then it does the trick. I just added "deciding to believe" for a dramatic flair. But you got the idea.

Thank you :)

The entire Universe is built on the constants e and π: many of the fundamental laws of physics and other sciences rely over and over again on these two mathematical constants. π is encoded in Genesis 1:1, the first verse of the Bible/Torah and of the Old Testament written in Hebrew. In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth (Genesis 1:1) בְּרֵאשִׁ֖ית בָּרָ֣א אֱלֹהִ֑ים אֵ֥ת הַשָּׁמַ֖יִם וְאֵ֥ת הָאָֽרֶץ׃ (Genesis 1:1) From the Hebrew numerals system introduced in the 2nd century BCE, And formula (NUMLETT*PROLETT/NUMWORD*PROWORD) = (28 * 23887872 x 10^27) / (7 * 304153525784175760) = 3.1415...X10^17. it matches the actual value of π until the 3.1415. π is the number of the circle, of completion, of what is closed and self-contained; as such, it's a good mathematical reference to the concept of a God Creator of all things, and of a Creation that includes everything that was created by God; (John 1:3) This was encoded in the bible with a level of precision that was 2000 years ahead of Chinese mathematician Zu Chongzhi which first got π close to about seven digits around the 5th century AD, surpassing his compatriot who got it close to three digits earlier in the 2nd century AD. e is encoded in John 1:1, the first verse of the gospel (John) of the New Testament written in Greek. In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.(John 1:1) ἐν ἀρχηι ἦν ὁ λόγος, καὶ ὁ λόγος ἦν πρὸς τὸν θεόν, καὶ θεὸς ἦν ὁ λόγος (John 1:1) From the Greek numerals system introduced in the 5th century BCE, And formula (NUMLETT*PROLETT/NUMWORD*PROWORD) = (52 * 843625145625911083008 x 10^55)/ (17 * 94930224139983918429785786976 x 10^7) = 2.7183...X10^40. it matches the actual value of e until the 2.7183 e is the number of the relationship between the big and the small, of the bridge between the infinitesimal and the infinite; what number could be better associated with the Son, the One who was Sent by the Father, the One who is the only bridge for mankind to the infinite God who created the universe. (John 14:6) The Son who is the living word of God which was made flesh (John 1:14) The Euler's number was encoded some 1500 years before the human kind first discovered its existence and importance in 1683 by Jacob Bernoulli. The fine structure constant (α) value can be also derived from the above two key verses above by combining the verse gematria values of Genesis 1:1 with John 1:1 and calculating it's base value. The fine structure constant (α) value is considered the greatest mysteries of physics. Without it, it would be impossible to form even simple structures like atoms, molecules, planets, or stars. Verse gematria = Sum of all letter values. (Genesis 1:1 = 2701 & John 1:1 = 3627) you would get the fine structure constant (α) derived as 27013627^2 =0.00729736..e17. Given that the current α approx value recommended is currently 0.00729735. In fact, it is only in 1916 that this magic number was first introduced by Arnold Sommerfeld. Furthermore, there is a pattern in the verse Gematria of Genesis 1:1 to John 1:1 = 2701-3627 = |27|01-36|27|; There are exactly a total of 27 books in the New Testaments which are the Word of God (Jesus Christ the Son). John 1:14 states that Jesus Christ is the Word of God which was made flesh and the only begotten of the father. Revelation 1:8 states that Jesus Christ is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending. Revelation 13:18 states that the number of the antichrist who will deceive the world in the end days is 666. And, the sum of integers from the beginning of 1 to 36 is exactly 666. Hence, (27) (01-36) (27) = (Jesus-the Alpha) -> (From the beginning to the end of the anti-christ 666) -> (Jesus-the Omega). In addition, The Golden Ratio (φ) is encoded in Hebrew 8:5 where God spoke to Moses and reveal to him the pattern in which all things are made in accordance to. Who serve unto the example and shadow of heavenly things, as Moses was admonished of God when he was about to make the tabernacle: for, See, saith he, that thou make all things according to the pattern shewed to thee in the mount. (Hebrew 8:5) οἵτινες ὑποδείγματι καὶ σκιᾷ λατρεύουσιν τῶν ἐπουρανίων, καθὼς κεχρημάτισται μωϊσῆς μέλλων ἐπιτελεῖν τὴν σκηνήν, ὅρα γάρ, φησίν, ποιήσεις πάντα κατὰ τὸν τύπον τὸν δειχθέντα σοι ἐν τῶ ὄρει· (Hebrew 8:5) From the Greek numerals system introduced in the 5th century BCE, And formula above (NUMLETT*PROLETT/NUMWORD*PROWORD) = 1.6180...X10^161. it matches the actual value of φ until the 1.6180. The golden ratio (φ) is a pattern which is sometimes called the "divine proportion," because of its frequency in the natural world. For centuries, the golden ratio has fascinated all kinds of people, not just mathematicians. Physicists and biologists have studied it, architects and artists have used it, and worshippers have described it as a divine design. And through the centuries, the golden ratio has continued to amaze its diverse fans, frequently cropping up at unexpected places. Other religions follow books of teachings written by one person. The Bible consists of 66 books written by 40 or more authors over the course of more than 1500 years (from 1500 BC to approx. 90 AD) in three different languages (Hebrew, Aramaic and Greek). The Bible is the only book in the world ever written like this. In spite of this, the message throughout the Bible is the same. It is the message of salvation through Jesus Christ. Christianity is not about joining a church or a religious organization. It is not about following religious rules and ceremonies and man-made rituals. It is not about religion. Christianity is about having a personal relationship with God Himself, made possible because of Jesus Christ and what happened at the cross. How to Get Saved? ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-cP8Ds_Iup1A.html

Something relevant Nietzsche wrote: 'For us, the falsity of a judgment is still no objection to that judgment - that’s where our new way of speaking sounds perhaps most strange. The question is the extent to which it makes demands on life, sustains life, maintains the species, perhaps even creates species. And as a matter of principle we are ready to assert that the falsest judgments (to which a priori synthetic judgments belong) are the most indispensable to us, that without our allowing logical fictions to count, without a way of measuring reality against the purely invented world of the unconditional and self-identical, without a constant falsification of the world through numbers, human beings could not live - that if we managed to give up false judgments, it would amount to a renunciation of life, a denial of life. To concede the fictional nature of the conditions of life means, of course, taking a dangerous stand against the customary feelings about value. A philosophy which dares to do that is for this reason alone already standing beyond good and evil.'

Yes. I fully agree with you. I think this video was misunderstood. My fault of course for not explaining this properly. This is a philosophical exercise and nothing more. In a way I want to conjure up my own God and give it qualities. This "belief" will never become a dogma, and that's where the problem lies with most belief.

The Camus of the philosophical suicide ;)

I guess it is a bit of a Pascal's Wager. It's not about making me a better person. When something is unknown, you can either jump into the unknown and accept that it's the unknown. In that case there are infinite possibilities of what that unknown is. You will not have that knowledge ever. So another option would be, to think about, what would you want the unknown to be? In a way consciously tricking your brain into believing in something, it doesn't need to be a traditional God, it can be anything, as long as that belief or that thought gives you comfort. Ultimately that's what matters right? How peaceful you are until your death. In this case, I feel it doesn't matter what the truth is, because it's unknowable. You might as well make yourself comfortable. At least that's the way I see it.

Well. I don't know. Because it's not a belief that came about through an experience. It's me deciding to believe to see if it provides me the comfort I need. If it doesnt, I'm open to change. It's not like I saw God in dreams or anything mysterious like that. It's just me coming to terms with my mortality and lack of control. I am willing to try anything that has the potential to give me peace.

@@NorthernDiaries I appreciate the authentic response. Been following you for some time now and hopefully you feel much much better after Covid.

Yes it is. Not weakness. But fear. So I want to experiment if this line of thought brings me comfort.

@@NorthernDiaries Fear is the ultimate weakness, isn't it? There is a ancient Telugu song called 'Nagumomu', it used to frighten me whenever I hear it. If correlate, I was going through lowest points of my life.

That logic is simplistic , religion is deeper than that .

he does, and has shown himself, get with it homie

I think this video was misunderstood or most probably, I didn't explain it properly. It's a philosophical exercise and nothing more. About self hate, yes I do have it. But not to the extent I used to have. Therapy is helping. In a way, this is the first time I feel not that confused and in touch with my inner self. I used to show myself on videos. Not anymore because it is simply too hot where I am. I need to turn the fan and the AC off to record good sound. But then it's a sweat party. So I decided to do just audio until summer.