I Didn't Want to Make This Video 

I enjoy your sit down talks. So soothing. Everyone is trying to find themselves at any age. Just wanted to say that your amazing and you should keep doing what you feel is best for you! xoxo =)

**hugs**

I just want to say that I love you, you're amazing, and you are not alone. I can definitely relate to what you're feeling. I try to use those feelings of being behind or not doing enough as motivation to do more. And I also have gone through (and am going through) long periods where I just can't put energy into my communities online, and it's hard, to see others move forward while you are standing still, but it's so important to remember that it's temporary and we have SO much time head of us to create and do whatever we want.

I definitely have social anxiety too. I was on one of your lives and mentioned I use and am a wellness advocate for doTERRA essential oils, and I do classes for people. When I do that or get in front of people at all I get super nervous....... I always remember.. Think bigger picture. "When your heart is on service, you're not nervous". When you go into something whether it's just a social setting or work something, don't focus on the pressure, don't focus on being perfect, go at it with just a heart of serving people. Not necessarily work.. But that will follow. You want to help people and think about serving.. Even if it's with a conversation with a new friend. You have something to offer, you are encouraging and have such a sweet spirit to give. YOU ARE ENOUGH.

Aww Whit! Funny, I was having alllll those thoughts lately!!! Not good enough, comparing myself to others, thinking they have perfect life, needing a SM break...And then you liked a pic on my IG yesterday (thehappyveggie) !!!! Little ol me...I've been following you since the beginning :). I was OVER the moon!!!! And I was telling all my friends....then I was thinking about you....looking at you pics & old vids..thinking how perfect you life was, how successful you are, how beautiful and slim you are, how INTELLIGENT, dynamic & awesome...hoping to one day meet you....then this vid...and you share your vulnerability with us. And I admire you, respect you & adore you even more :). You're just awesome the way you are. I love that you talk about these feelings of inadequacy we all have...when we just need to learn to love & accept ourselves. Thanks for helping me check my thinking. We luv ya girl. Big hugs to you during this hard time you're having. Namaste.

I always have this feeling. I am a very sensitive and private person which is why I don't participate much online because there is a big part of me that doubts my words or my contribution to the communities I want to belong to. I try not to compare myself to others so I stay off online, but it's lonely. I want to participate in conversations and discussions , I just wish I could have more confidence in myself and not fall into the comparing game. Thanks for this video. It makes me feel better to know I'm not alone.

Thank you for this video :) - Glory to God for you!!!! May he be our strength and hope always!!!!

I admire you so much, Whitney. I have felt many of the things you speak of and continue to struggle with many of them. I'm glad I'm not alone on the journey :)

I completely understand these feelings. I have such severe social anxiety that I can't talk to people I don't know in the phone because I'm afraid to say the wrong thing. I would love more self help videos on how to deal with these anxieties.

Thinking of you! I've gone through emotional struggles over the last few years. I hope you get everything worked out soon.

pray at home aswell I find it hard to attend places of worship too sometimes

You know, right, that there are no wrong feelings? Needs to be taught in skool!

I've had depression for several years and same problems as you. Being self conscious is exhausting and hard to live with. This year I went to a woman (I don't know how its called in english) that can see your energy and help you to heal your soul. It changed my life! It sometimes doesn't matter how hard you try to help yourself, sometimes you need someones help. Just to push you and point you in the right direction. I hope you find the way out of sadness and anxiety! I'm sending you biggest and warmest hug of all time

It takes too much energy to not be authentic, and it drains energy to be around people you feel you can't just be authentic with. It's especially daunting if those people are family members, the very people one should feel most free to be oneself.

I suffer from social anxiety also, no fun at all!

I feel much the way you do. I have a lot of anxiety issues and tend to live in my head way too much and have days where social media is hard for me (as well as normal day-to-day life outside of the online world). I do find that it's usually because I let myself over think and block out the good that is there. The community that I don't have in my own personal life, I have found in various communities online. It's a little different for me, considering it's mostly weigh loss related (I need to lose much more than most), but I have found such good support and sense of belonging that even though there are times when I think I'm a failure, and that RU-vid/Instagram etc is overwhelming I have to remember about those good pockets of support. It's hard, it really is. I think its so important to realize that even though it is hard, talking and learning from the struggles helps, and that it all takes time. I know you don't like doing these videos sometimes, but I want to thank you for posting them. I get more out of your content than most on here, you're voice does matter.

HUGSSS !!

You will get through this. It's hard to think positively when there's so much around you having a negative impact on you, and I know there's a lot of stress on you to make ends meet at times. But take the time you need to in order to make sure you are mentally in a good place. Once you're there, everything else will fall into place. And don't hesitate to ask for help! Ask a friend to sit down with you when they have time and maybe open up those emails with you and help you stay productive. I wish you the very best and I know you'll get through this! Don't stop believing in yourself 😘

Thank you for sharing! I love that you can put yourself out there to connect with us. I hope to be that brace one day. I've always wanted to clog or start a channel but it's hard for me to imagine why people would care what I have to say. But...I care what you and others have to say! And we aren't all that different! You are an inspiration.

Hi Whitney - just wanted to say that I hope you feel better soon!! You are a beautiful person inside and out. Not sure if this quote will help but it is an interesting one to ponder - "I think and think and think, I‘ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it.” - Jonathan Safran Foer Anyway - again - I hope you feel better - you are the best!!!

I really want you to know that you're an incredible example of an honest and caring vulnerable blogger. Thank you for everything that you share and please don't feel guilty for some thoughtful non sharing. I hope you find all the peace you deserve and I love all your videos! It feels too small for me to say "don't listen to negative people" as if it were that easy. I recently have gone through a lot of s.l.u.t. shaming and find it really difficult to get back out into parties and social situations. I am constantly nervous of being judged. I am not walking in your shoes but I empathize and please stay steady in the storm. I have to believe we will find a balance again someday and come back to our center. You are my favorite RU-vidr! Only love and support coming your way!

Awe ... sending you some hugs Whitney. Your honesty is so inspiring. I think we all feel this way sometimes. I enjoy your videos. Always remember, you come first and something that's helped me, is remembering, this too shall pass. Believe in yourself, everything else will follow ... hugs!

Whitney, you are very bright woman. Please don't compare your steps to another person's steps. Everyone struggles. you will overcome this. and when you're ready, you will surrender it.

I don't have any answers, but I can at least say that I can relate.... The older that I get and the more that personal and family relationships get strained or end, I have pulled away, and prefer to be alone. I have very little motivation to do anything productive, or social. I feel like my depression has reached a stage of odd comfort. Again, I can't offer any advice, but I can relate.

I'm not sure how relevant my comment is going to be but the bit where you said that you think that there's no reason for you to be so disconnected from calling your grandpa and everything really got me. It's kind of similar to me, too. I've been having a lot of inner debate with myself about EVERYTHING. I've been having so many mixed feelings, mainly negative ones, which confuse me, and scare me, and make me anxious. I can't get rid of the feeling that I'm failing , in whatever I do and don't do, all the time. About a month ago, I went to a prayer retreat to one of Benedictine communities outside Worcester in England and I was blessed with a chance to have a chat with the abbot of the community. I told him how confused, and scared, and angry at myself I feel, and he referred me to John 8:58 in the Bible. The verse says: "Very truly I tell you," Jesus answered, "before Abraham was born, I am!" See the last few words? Jesus said "I am". I AM. He didn't say "I am [this]" or "I am [that]". He simply said "I am". We can't say who exactly Jesus is because He is so, SO great that we can't comprehend Him. He is too vast for our limited human mindset to perceive. You were made in His image. It means that in reality, you will never be able to know - to describe in words in particular - who you truly are. In reality, your greatness is beyond your capacity to be understood. In reality, you are nothing like who you think you are. We, as people, are scared of the unknown: we are afraid of thinks we can't explain and we are uncomfortable around things we can't "mechanize". That's why we simplify ourselves - frame ourselves in its own sense - by thinking and saying "I'm an introvert" or "I'm an extrovert", or whatever. We "brand" ourselves for us to think we know you we are - to believe that we are in a certain way. In reality, it can't be further from the truth. That's why it makes sense that we feel all sorts of things at the same time which leave us confused, and anxious because we feel confused and, let's be honest, like a mess sometimes. It makes sense that in your mind - consciously - you might understand that there's no reason for you to feel like not calling your grandpa, or whatever, but in reality - in your guts if you may - there's so, SO much going on which might be causing this whole disconnection, and resistance, and everything in between. This whole rant probably hardly makes any sense because it's kind of hard to explain but the point of it all was to say that's it's not surprising you sometimes feel the way you feel and you can't describe why exactly you feel this way because you yourself are beyond your capacity to be explained.

You're so wise. In the end it's not about the number of Instagram likes. You're living a beautiful, noble life that is an inspiration. Stay strong and know that you're loved and admired by so many.

hey Whitney I am really sorry to hear that your struggling right now. I do hope that you manage to get through all of this emotional stuff in your life right now. I totally get what you are saying about things like Instagram etc. I am not a big of fan of Instagram myself. If there is anything I have learnt over the years is we are all different but for me I just want to be happy. Life is to short for me to worry about what others think about me but I totally get why being a social media personality can be a hard thing. I really hope that you manage to get through this tough time and start to feel better soon. Look after yourself.

oh :-( you look like me a few months ago :-( exactly the same...I didn't know what was going on....you know what? It was depression :'( really? me? no I am so strong, so happy, I love life....but yeah depression it is. I take antidepressant. I feel so much better! I feel like someone has put the light on in my head lol and I finally can be myself, do things I want to do, make big choices (wich was impossible few months ago) etc... I wish you good luck!! hugs and kisses

Cool about your new church! :D

Thank you so much for this video and especially for doing it when you didn't feel like making one. It is really helpful to hear how someone else is dealing with their issues and questioning their success both personally and professionally. I always learn something from your videos and often feel like you somehow knew just what I needed to hear. I bet not everyone who has more subscribers or followers is any more satisfied than you are. They are probably looking at someone else who has more than they do and thinking similar thoughts. Subscribers, followers, likes are only numbers used to quantify something in that context only and that don't even necessarily mean what we ascribe them to mean because many people just automatically hit that button without even completely watching or reading what they are supposedly endorsing. They certainly don't indicate how good a person you are and how people who actually know you feel about you.

Everyone's feelings are valid. But comprise is anything in any relationship... especially if the parties involved want to continue. that goes for anything... work, romantic, friends or family.

Hi Whitney, in your new church do they have small groups? I'm wondering if that might be helpful. :) Also, I'm doing Bible journaling using Good Morning Girls journals and I've gotten so much out of just taking 15 minutes at the beginning of each day to read a chapter and soak it in. Feel free to message me if you want info.

awww HUGSSSS!!!!! #carbthefuckup #vegan #govegan peace!!

& did you go to that party today? :) I often want to hole up at home and just BE by myself. Sometimes it's what we need and sometimes we need to drag our butts out ;).

:)

pray at home aswell I find it hard to attend places of worship too sometimes