Stay strong! When I had my first harm ocd episode some years ago, I stumbled on your video's and it was so comforting to see that I was not the only one with this condition and I was so amazed by how strong you are to openly talk about it. You are an inspiration for many people!
Thanks for sharing your panic attack in real time, something really similar happens to me when I go on trips with my partners and it was therapeutic to see you talk about it. It was also GREAT to see you and Mike talking together he is LOVELY and you should start a podcast together or something you both have a really great energy!!! 💜
ugh, i'm sorry you have had similar experiences. it makes doing things that should simply be fun and exciting really hard and scary. lol, i guarantee mike will read your comment and tell me allll about it😂 thank you though! we have fun!
have a look at content by ajahn brahm, and also alan watts if youre feeling extra smart. i think these channels could benefit you and help you understand the mind. the first is a strong recommend for you in particular. please go check it out. also you're very pretty, ... as is mike.
Im so sorry you had to go through this. I have gone through some similar panic attacks. I have been dealing with harm OCD for maybe 2 or 1 months now and have constantly had unwanted obsessions, visions and images of hurting others, mostly the people I care the most about such as my mom dad sister and dogs. Its horrible and brings me a huge amount of anxiety to the point where I cant live my life normally. Im 15 and I worry that I might turn out harming other people because of my unwanted thoughts and no I dont want to do these things I dont want to hurt anybody and I rather end my own life if i get close to harming somebody. This ocd is horrible and its worse when it manifests itself as urges. Now the urges have started also happening with harming myself. Last day I bit a piece of pineapple and bad a inflated lip and whenever i bit myself the swelling would get worse so my ocd told me to keep biting myself. Sometimes i take extreme risks when on balconies and I always have the thought that if I jump nobody will get hurt and everything will be Ok. Sometimes I also have horrible images that picture me hurting others in extreme ways and i worry that i might be a serial killers but i dont want any of this to happen. I love my family and friends and even people and I dont want to randomly hurt them for no reason. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I have watched most of your ocd videos and they bring me extreme calm. You have no idea how thankful I am. You are like a sister to me… I hope you me and everybody with this horrible desease can overcome it together and have a prosperous and great life. Ocd is a liar in your head that tells you you will do bad things but you wont. Thank you and to all my ocd brothers and sisters dont listen ocd is a powerless voice in your head that benefits from your suffering. You will never act on these thoughts or obsessions, however they manifest themselves because it can also appear as urges and images. They are all false. You will be ok. The obsessions are not real. Other things that Ive had: Depersonalization and derealization as result of my anxiety disorder where life feels and people feel fake and im worried that I may act on my thoughts since life feels that way but then I figured out that: no life is real you wont do those things you just have depersonalization and derealization and your ocd is messing with you
I highly suggest you find an ocd therapist who is specialized in OCD and knows about ERP & ACT, my ocd started when I was 15 too, I am 19 now. Don’t be ashamed of your ocd.
It's really rough when your subconscious is out of sync with what you really want to do and value. I can understand why travel might freak out and over stimulate our stone age brains!
I’ve recently started going through this, my mains thoughts have been what if i’m gay? and thinking of killing someone even though i don’t want to? and thinking of killing someone literally made me throw up and it makes me sick to still think about, but i can’t stop it!
When I have panic attacks, I always cry afterward and shake too, I think it's subconsciously out of relief of the panic ending too. It's horrible to feel like that on vacation and my heart goes out to you. You are so strong to document that journey and I believe you are helping so many people like me.
My harm ocd makes me feel afraid of even thinking. It can even make me feel anything is Real. After 2 months with this, today I accepted all this sht and felt so good for the first time in 2 months
Do your intrusive thoughts ever present themselves as commands ever? I feel that my unwanted thoughts have come up as commands in my own voice and am questioning if this is normal. Thank you.
