(UPDATE PINNED) I Recorded My Wife Cheating on Me and I can't Stop Watching IT. 

UPDATE : I've had so many messages asking how I am doing that I felt I should probably post an update. On the night when she was going out with her friend I still pretended I had work and left the house after the babysitter arrived. I went to a bar and had a few drinks. Then I drove over to the restaurant she said she was going to. I saw her car in the parking lot. I'm not going to lie, I was on edge and incredibly nervous despite the drinks earlier. I was so worried I would walk in and see her with that guy. I was hoping to sneak in and get a look without being seen but that failed miserably. She saw me as soon as I walked in the door. She was with her friend and not the guy. We had the “What are you doing here? Thought you were working” expected conversation. I told her work ended early so I wanted to stop by to say hi since we had a babysitter. I left after a couple drinks and went home to relieve the sitter. So many of you have commented on my last post that I need to confront her and I decided in that moment that I would. I couldn't hold it in any longer. I got the kids to bed and waited for her to come home. I watched the video again to remind myself of what happened. When she got home she was surprised I was still up and apparently could tell from the way I looked that something was wrong. I poured it all out on her. It probably wasn't fair of me, I didn't even let her sit down. I told her everything. I played part of the video to show her what I saw. I called her some harsh names, said she ruined our lives. In that moment i was incredibly angry. She was very upset, heavily crying and shaking. She told me how terrible she felt about everything that happened. I told her she had to tell me everything that happened with that guy and she laid it all out. She cheated on me twice with him. After the time I saw them she cut things off because she knew it was wrong and she loves me. I asked her for proof but she said she had already deleted and blocked him on her phone, Facebook, and Instagram. She did tell me that he is single and knew she was married. She asked me to delete the video but I refused. She asked me why and I really didn't have a reason other than I feel I need to hold onto it for now. She got a little angry at that and asked if I was keeping it to watch again. It was very late at this point so we decided to go to bed and talk more the next day when we had more time to think. She continued to apologize repeatedly for what she did. We slept separately that night. Over the next few days things between us seemed better. I felt some relief that it was all out in the open now. We have continued to talk and it feels like we are on a path of staying together and moving past this. I have made it clear that she is never to see or talk to that guy again. While things feel like they are improving I am still struggling to trust her. Worse yet is that I have a trip coming up for work and I'll be gone for a few days. I've told her that I am not comfortable with leaving right now but I can't skip this trip. My boss made it clear that I'm needed. She said I could put cameras up in the house to keep an eye on her if it would make me feel better. Sadly I may do that. I'll be gone for at least 3 days. Overall things are ok. Kids are oblivious that anything is going on and it seems that slowly my wife and I will eventually get back to normal. I hope so at least. I'm a little ashamed to admit that I have watched the video a few times since all of this. I'm thinking that I should probably delete it so it's gone from my life. I don't know what's wrong with me. ************** LIKE & SUBSCRIBE

Bro turning himself into Adam22 smfh

I think this is fake, but if it's real, stop torturing yourself and file for divorce.

I cant figure out if he's watching for enjoyment or is he just retraumatising himself because he's a sucker for punishment?

It is understandable to be in that much shock, but take action and divorce her. Burn the video onto a DVD, and play it at her parents home with no kids around. Then, to conclude everything, hand her the divorce papers and say "I cannot trust you with my son" before leaving.

Pathetic is right

I hope this is fake because nobody should be that lame.

This guy is sad and pathetic. No wonder she cheated. I hope this is fake.

Bru, just speak to someone, anyone. Then put your ducks in a row and divorce.

Sounds like OP found out he has an interest he didn't know about. If that's what makes them happy, then good for them I guess.

Bro STOP putting the notes at the bottom for a millisecond.. Wtf?.. At least leave it up long enough for me to pause the dmn vid and read it....